Sun Nuofan's Extra: I Dreamed of a Dream I Can't Wake Up From
Is love cruel?
I often think about this question in my dreams many midnights.
If we got married that day, would we be very happy? But this "if" is not true. When I think that her life might become miserable because of marrying me, I can't go on. I feel sorry for her after all.
In fact, there were many times when I could have gotten her, but I held back. I remembered a very hypocritical saying in my mind: Love is timidity in men and courage in women.
Maybe she is my nemesis sent by God.
I seldom meddle in the affairs of the entertainment industry, and I also warn the people below me to do less things that go against their conscience. I can understand why Zhong Yuer hates her. For the sake of profit, I have sacrificed countless stars, including Zhong Yuer. Of course, they also do whatever it takes to achieve their goals. Everyone gets what they need, it just depends on whether you are willing to pay the price.
After leaving her, I realized that I loved Qianlan, and the emptiness in my heart could not be filled by anyone else.
Sun Nuofan will not be defeated by a woman. Sun Nuofan pursues freedom and "escapes from marriage". Sun Nuofan is still the amorous and heartless "playboy" as before.
Yes, this is me, this is Sun Nuofan.
After the wedding farce, I have been living a carefree life abroad. I joined a "travelers' team" and traveled everywhere. The exhaustion from the journey made me forget the deep longing.
My parents would often call me, hoping that I would go back to inherit the company and make more money for them. I got extremely upset because the money in our family was enough for me to use for the rest of my life, and even if I made a mountain of gold, I couldn’t take it with me when I died.
Of course, if I meet beautiful women during my travels, I would be happy to get to know them. If they are willing, we will go to the hotel to have fun. The physical pleasure makes me forget many things for a while.
Sun Nuofan will not keep himself chaste for a woman. He lives in the present and enjoys the present moment.
No one will wait for me, and I am not worth waiting for.
I lived in a daze. Since returning from my trip to Greece, I have stayed in London, which was actually a very bad decision. London is a melancholy city, the weather is always gloomy and it likes to rain.
Xiang Qianlan likes rain.
I don't know why, but I suddenly decided to stay here for a while.
I bought a villa and stayed at home all day drinking, daydreaming and listening to the rain.
I have become a good family man.
One night, I got very drunk, and half asleep and half awake, I dialed the number that made me sad. I imagined what we would talk about, remembered her cold look with her pursed lips, remembered her faint smile, and then my heart didn't feel so cold.
However, I thought of countless scenes, but I didn’t expect the message from the other end of the phone, “ The number you dialed is out of service,” which made me fall into the abyss.
Xiang Qianlan will not contact me again. Yes, she will not have any contact with me anymore.
She must have gone to find the boy she couldn't forget. How could I forget this? I smiled and threw the phone on the sofa.
I dreamed of many things, from meeting her to parting with her, I dreamed that I couldn't wake up, and I dreamed that a line of cold tears slid down the corners of my eyes.
If it weren't for what happened later, I probably wouldn't know how I would have continued living. Maybe my fate was already planned by God.
When I get too upset thinking about Qianlan, I will do something to distract myself. Recently, I have become interested in fishing.
In the afternoon, I took my fishing rod and planned to go out fishing for dinner, but an uninvited guest disrupted my plan.
"Honey, are you going fishing?" Zhong Ling appeared in front of my villa wearing a black gauze dress and carrying a suitcase. I looked around her to make sure she was alone.
"Why are you here?" I asked unkindly.
I have always known what Zhong Ling feels towards me. Ever since I had a scandal with her sister Zhong Yuer, she has targeted me. Alas, Sun Nuofan is indeed a "girl killer". Even I admire myself.
However, there are some people I won't mess with. Not to mention that if I mess with Zhong Ling, Zhong Yuer won't let me go, and my parents will be the first to come and catch me.
My parents don't like Zhong Yuer, but Zhong Ling is their chosen daughter-in-law. Zhong Ling is well-behaved and likable, and she always makes the two old people stunned.
After graduating from college, this girl grew up and became more charming. She knew everything about Xiang Qianlan and I, and because of this, she always knew how to make me angry.
"I came to find you. Your uncle and aunt are looking forward to your return, so they sent me to catch you." Zhong Ling dragged her orange suitcase into my villa, glanced at the second floor, and walked upstairs.
"Get out, this is my home." I ordered her to leave, but Zhong Ling pretended not to hear me. She walked upstairs step by step, her high heels clattering on the stairs, giving me a headache.
"Brother Nuofan, are you hiding here to heal your emotional wounds? The Brother Nuofan I know is not this kind of person." Zhong Ling turned around and smiled innocently, and I saw a flash of hatred in her eyes.
“That’s my business,” I said.
I can deal with others with ease, but as for Zhong Ling, I just want to get rid of her.
"Your business is my business, Brother Nuofan, do you know that? After you left the wedding, that woman also left. She didn't come to see you, so she must have gone to see someone else." Zhong Ling said in a relaxed tone. I felt a tightness in my chest. I knew she said that on purpose to piss me off, and my good mood was wiped out without a trace.
"I'm going to take a shower first. I'm so tired after the long flight." Zhong Ling said with a grin.
Watching her disappear on the second floor, I was so angry that I went to the sofa to get my cell phone and immediately called home. No one was at home and they had all gone out.
I called the housekeeper and asked him, and only then did I find out why Zhong Ling flew here. The old man has a real estate company in London. The day I went to buy the villa, they knew my identity and told the old man immediately.
The old man was no pushover either. He had always been concerned about my life. Knowing I was in London, he told my parents my address. As for the sound of the bell, I knew it was their "conspiracy".
I don't like Zhong Ling and I can't help but lose my temper with her every time, but she is a little girl here with me and I have to ensure her safety.
That day, Zhong Ling and I were arguing and we talked about Xiang Qianlan again. She lost control of her emotions but pretended to be calm and said, "Do you dare to say that you don't love that vixen anymore?"
"Zhong Ling, from the beginning to the end, the only girlfriend and fiancée I acknowledge is Xiang Qianlan. My feelings are my business from the beginning to the end. You have no right to ask, let alone intervene. Do you think your sister is so clean? She used me to get to her current position."
Zhong Ling always thought that her sister was infatuated with me and that I had done something wrong to her sister. But Zhong Yuer never loved me at all. What she loved was fame, status and money.
"But my sister said that you and her..." Zhong Ling looked at me, biting her lip.
"In bed?" I laughed. "It was your sister who drugged my wine back then, and then she used me to hype herself up and climbed to where she is today. Believe it or not, that's the truth."
"I don't believe it, I don't believe it. My sister said you two are in love. She said you are so good, so I...I have a crush on you and like you. How could it be fake? How could it be..." Zhong Ling covered her ears, apparently not believing this fact.
"I didn't tell you because we were friends back then. I let her go even though she sent someone to hurt Xiang Qianlan. You know how important a woman's face is. That boy pushed Xiang Qianlan into the lake and she was almost disfigured!" My voice was hoarse as I smiled at Zhong Ling. "As for later, you saw me being so cruel to Zhong Yuer because I was disgusted by her methods. She was wrong to challenge my bottom line again and again."
"I can tell you for sure that I have never loved Zhong Yuer. The one I love is Xiang Qianlan. You have always called her a vixen. So now you come to interfere in the relationship between me and her. Who are you?" I finally couldn't hold back these vicious words and looked at her steadily.
"I don't want to listen! I don't want to listen!" Zhong Ling screamed and backed away.
So I shut up. I looked at Zhong Ling, who was looking at me with despair in her eyes. I pushed open the door in panic and ran out.
Alas, I finally said it. Even though it’s a bit hurtful, I hope Zhong Ling will come to her senses and go back.
Thinking of this, I felt a lot more relieved. She would run out like this during the previous quarrels, and she would come back in less than an hour, so I didn’t think much about it today.
Zhong Ling didn't come back until the evening. It was getting dark outside. I looked at my watch and felt increasingly uneasy.
An hour passed.
Three hours passed.
A bad premonition arose in my heart. I called Zhong Ling, but no one answered. I panicked. No matter how hateful I was, Zhong Ling was innocent after all.
I picked up my phone and drove outside to look for the bell, checking from time to time to see if there were any new text messages or calls.
There were a few lonely stars hanging in the sky. The phone finally rang. I answered it without even looking at it and asked, "Zhong Ling, where are you?"
When I heard the obscene laughter of the men from the other side, I was completely stunned.
"Are you Brother Novan? Her dear?" A man inside said to me drunkenly in broken Chinese.
I stood there holding the phone, my stunned face reflected on the car window. Without time to think, I turned the car around and headed west, where drunkards gathered. That idiot Zhong Ling might have gone there.
I was lucky, because when I rushed out of the car, I saw Zhong Ling, like a boneless snake, being pulled into a black car by two men.
"Let her go!" I rushed over and pushed them away. A flash of light came and another car stopped. The door opened and four men with tattoos on their arms got out.
Someone whispered something in the ear of the leading man. The man turned his head and stared at me and Zhong Ling, his blue eyes gleaming with a fierce light.
He said something in English and I knew I was in trouble.
An iron rod hit my arm and I felt like my bones were about to break. I had to let go of the hand that was holding Zhong Ling's clothes. When they saw me let go, someone immediately dragged Zhong Ling towards the car.
I tried to pull the bell again, but several iron bars fell down mercilessly. The three men behind the man rushed up and continued to attack me. I grabbed the iron bar from one of them and started fighting with them. At this time, the man shouted in English: " Take this woman to the car!"
I almost jumped over. I don't know what tricks the leading man used, but he rushed over, grabbed my shoulders tightly, and kicked me to the side of the road.
Zhong Ling was about to be pulled into the car, and I rushed over like crazy. It was just a moment, and a car came speeding over without time to brake. A muffled "bang" sounded in the air, and my body fell to the ground. My mind was silent, and the world in front of my eyes kept spinning. It took a long time before I heard the voices around me.
I heard a drunken scream from the bell.
Then, countless voices filled my ears. I saw those men bowing and nodding to Zhong Ling. Zhong Ling shouted loudly, "I just want to know if he cares about me," "I didn't ask you to hit him," "You killed him."
It turns out that I was fooled...
I don't remember what happened next. I vaguely heard the sound of an ambulance, crying, cursing, and the noisy sound of cold instruments ringing in my ears.
——I never regret it.
Among the many voices, I only heard a distant voice ringing in my ears.
I fell into that dream again. The fog was so thick that I couldn't see her clearly. Even in the dream, she refused to see me.
I heard the doctors screaming "we tried our best" and "there's no hope". They were all speaking English, but I could hear it so clearly. I didn't want to hear anything. I just wanted to take another deep, deep look at the woman I missed.
I really want to know if she would think of me sometimes? I really want to know if she would wait for the day when we would meet like I do?
She should be living well.
What a pity, I can't see it.
Goodbye, my love...
