The bald guy said he would teach me how to drive a racing car.
I just asked him if he could make money, he said yes, and then I followed him and learned from him honestly.
I always thought that Baldy was just hanging around, and never knew that he had won a prize in the F1 race. But later he retired.
I asked him why he wanted to retire.
The bald man said it was for his ex-girlfriend.
I have never heard of this story, he never told it, and I never asked. I never thought that Baldy had a girlfriend. He still has a photo of him kissing his ex-girlfriend in his phone. They looked , but everything is just in the past.
That story must be very sad.
The bald man is a good teacher. He is usually very nonchalant, but as long as he holds the steering wheel with his hands, his face is expressionless, his eyes are always staring straight ahead, and every cell in his body is mobilized.
The bald head is the most charming at this time.
Together with the bald man is a group of people of similar age who joined this profession for various reasons.
Most of those people were dressed in strange clothes and spoke in vulgar language, but they had good intentions. If Baldy had any problems, they would teach me how to drive.
Being able to drive a car and being able to drive a racing car are two completely different things.
One is for transportation, the other is for life.
That’s right, just fight with all your strength.
When opening an underground gambling game, it is often accompanied by high stakes. The car can be provided by the person behind the scenes, or the guest can provide it by themselves. The guest can choose to drive by themselves, or choose to let the racing driver drive. If the racing driver wins the race for the guest, he can take a commission from his winnings. The higher the stakes, the more commissions he takes, and the faster the money comes.
The gambling car is carried out late at night.
At first, Baldy never took me to watch the game. He said that kind of occasion was not suitable for girls. I asked him why he taught me to drive in the first place.
He replied, "I'm letting you experience life, but racing is a dangerous thing, so you don't have to go."
I asked him bluntly, "Why did you go there when it's so dangerous?"
"Flying is the meaning of my life," he said meaningfully.
But the bald man couldn't persuade me, so he took me to see the world.
When we arrived at the destination, there were already more than 40 cars, many of which were unidentifiable. Baldy said that those cars were actually modified.
There was also a large crowd of people gathered in the open space.
There are people of all ages, but very few women.
A yellow-haired man saw the bald man taking me there and said with a playful smile: "Bald man, you actually like a child?"
The bald man whispered in my ear: "This man is very disgusting, stay away from him in the future."
I nodded obediently. In fact, I didn't need to be reminded, I could feel that the yellow-haired man looked at me in a lewd way.
The bald man raised his head and yelled at the yellow-haired man, "You don't need to judge my taste!"
Later I learned that the bald man and the yellow-haired man had a feud because of his ex-girlfriend. The two of them were chasing each other on the court, fighting to the death.
Baldy was chosen to compete, and I stayed behind to wait for the result. The race starts from this open space, then runs around the outer city, and then runs back. Whoever returns first wins.
He walked up to me and whispered in my ear, "Be careful when you are alone." Then he stuffed a knife into my hand.
When the cars lined up in a row, the engines roared, making a deafening sound. As the referee waved his hand, the cars rushed out like an arrow from a bow, and soon disappeared into the night.
I quietly stepped aside and waited for the bald man to drive back.
The yellow-haired guy just now walked through the crowd and stood in front of me, smiling with ill intent.
"Hey, pretty girl, what's your name?"
"grandmother."
"Grandma? Why is the name so weird?"
"Dear grandson, what do you want grandma to do?" I giggled.
The yellow-haired man's expression suddenly changed, and he said angrily: "You actually took advantage of me, be careful or I'll kill you!"
My face suddenly turned cold, I looked at him indifferently, and said, "Get lost!"
"Haha. Why are you pretending to be so noble? Didn't the bald guy's girlfriend in front of him throw herself into his arms? Unfortunately, I don't care about her. I'll throw her away when I get tired of her. While I'm still interested in you, you should be more sensible."
"You have such a yellow spot on your head that makes people so disgusted, but there are still women throwing themselves at you? I guess those women's heads are full of tofu dregs, or they are completely blind." I said sarcastically, holding the knife tightly in my hand, afraid that he would rush over.
Huang Mao glared at me angrily. I glared back at him.
He spoke rudely, "Just wait for me! One day, you will fall into my hands, and then... hehe..." He didn't say the rest, but a disgusting smile appeared on his face.
After saying that, he made a middle-finger gesture and returned to the crowd.
After an unknown amount of time, we finally heard the roar of an engine. Everyone on the scene turned their attention to the front, staring at which car would come back first. The roar became louder and more complex, and more and more cars appeared.
The one running in the front is the bald man.
He crossed the finish line first, to cheers from the crowd.
I also screamed and ran towards him, my heart finally settled down, fearing that something might happen to him.
The bald man won and received a dividend of 20,000 yuan, but he looked very unhappy.
I frowned and asked, "What's wrong with you?"
He replied: "There was a car accident during the game and Xiaojiu died..."
Xiaojiu is also a racing driver. He is like a boy next door and takes good care of me.
"This is the cruelty of the game. Do you want to continue?"
Almost without hesitation, I nodded and answered with certainty: "I will continue."
The next day I saw a report about the car accident in the newspaper. It was a horrible scene, with the cars all crumpled and squeezed together.
Later, Baldy left the money to Xiaojiu's elderly parents.
The bald man said: "Speeding is life, but it comes at a heavy price."
Some people cannot afford this price even once.
I worked harder to learn how to be a racing driver. During the race, even though I couldn't drive, I would sit next to the bald guy and participate in the race.
I have also witnessed car accidents and felt death pass by.
Those people were either dead or disabled, and the luckiest ones were those who were intact but could no longer drive. Every race was like the last bloom of life.
Suddenly I realized that I haven’t thought about Su Jingnian for a long time.
During a competition, Baldy and Yellow Hair met again. They had a quarrel that day and almost got into a fight. After the competition, Baldy invited everyone to drink. There were many empty bottles on the ground, and I don't know how many bottles of wine he asked the boss bring over.
The bald man kept drinking, and after getting drunk he started to cry.
I heard the full story from other people.
Baldhead and Yellow-haired used to be in the same racing team. Baldhead was born in poverty, while Yellow-haired was a rich second-generation, so Baldhead's girlfriend fell in love with someone else and followed Yellow-haired. Yellow-haired got tired of playing with this woman and dumped her. Then this woman pretended to commit suicide to win back Yellow-haired, but she really died. Baldhead almost killed Yellow-haired, and this incident caused a big stir, so the two of them quit the racing team.
No wonder the bald guy was so sad and hated the yellow-haired guy so much.
That is his story, and I can only sigh and lament outside the story.
I drank quite a bit of wine that day, and it was already three in the morning when I got home. My grandma was standing at the door, waiting anxiously.
When I saw her figure, my nose felt sore and tears almost fell.
I hurried over to support my grandma, her hands were cold.
"Grandma, why are you standing outside? You are not in good health. "
Grandma asked with tears in her eyes, "Where have you been so late at night?"
I lied calmly, "My friend had something urgent to do and asked me to help. I didn't tell you because I saw you were sleeping so soundly."
My grandmother knew I was working, but she didn't know I was an underground racer. Every time I raced late at night, I would sneak out when she was asleep and sneak back before she got up.
"It's not safe for a girl to go out alone at night."
I said with a smile: "If there is a bad guy, I can beat him away."
Grandma didn't say anything. She sighed softly and spoke after a long while: "It's all my fault that I'm useless and can't let you live a good life."
I helped her walk into the room and said softly, "Then I will work hard to give you a good life."
In the past, I was obsessed with finding my parents, because every time I saw those children holding their parents’ hands to play, I was very envious.
Later I realized that some things cannot be forced. My parents didn't want me because they thought I was a girl. It was God's gift, I couldn't change it, I could only accept it.
Fortunately, I still have my grandma, I met Baldy, and...Su Jingnian.
After graduating from junior high school, I was less than 16 years old. I got full marks in English and was specially recruited by Yacheng High School. In fact, I was terrible at other subjects, but English was the only one that was particularly good.
This is because of Su Jingnian.
To be honest, I hated English very much because my English teacher never liked me and I never listened in English class. So in the final exam of the first year of junior high school, my English score was only a pitiful 70 points, and my answers on the machine-readable card were all scribbled.
Although Su Jingnian often tutored me, my grades were still not improving. I felt sleepy when he was talking to me . But one day, he suddenly recited a foreign poem to me.
The weather was very good that day. He and I set up a table and chairs under the shade of a tree in the yard, and he helped me with my homework. He was wearing a white shirt that day, and his hair was dyed golden by the sun, which made him look particularly good.
Su Jingnian recited many lines of poetry with great emotion, but I could only understand one line:
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
Actually, I can’t say I understand it, because I can’t translate this sentence well.
Looking at Su Jingnian's smile, I suddenly felt that English could be so beautiful, so I put all my energy into English, and I also like to read a book of foreign poetry.
Later I learned that the poem Su Jingnian recited that day was from Blake's collection of poems "Songs of Innocence".
When I went to Yacheng High School, I didn’t know whether I should thank Su Jingnian or what else.
Here, I met Ding Lanyin.
If I have to describe her in one word, it should be lonely and cold. Ding Lanyin is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She can wear the school uniform in a different way, which makes many people jealous, including me.
But she is not a likable girl.
To be honest, I actually disliked Ding Lanyin a little at first because she was so self-righteous. She was different from many girls. Besides being pretty, she was also special. She always sat next to the trash can in the last row. When she was bullied, she just stared coldly, without struggling or resisting, and silently endured. She was like a patient hedgehog, but her thorns were soft.
If I had known what would happen later, I would never have been friends with her, even though she was my only good friend in this life.
What is the definition of a good friend ?
It's not that you become good friends just by sharing a cup of ice cream, nor that you can get closer by complimenting someone on their beautiful clothes. It's that you understand what the other person wants even though you don't say anything.
Ding Lanyin wanted to be stable and an ordinary person, so she didn't make good use of her body. When I saw her at the age of sixteen, I seemed to see myself at the age of five. At that time, my grandmother taught me to be patient, but the more I tolerated, the more people bullied me.
So when she was surrounded and beaten by several girls , I couldn't help but take action.
In fact, I was also scared to death. I was not particularly good at fighting against five people. If it was anyone else, they would definitely cry and ask me to save her, but Ding Lanyin asked me to leave. She was clearly in a difficult situation, but she still pushed away the life-saving straw.
At that moment, I looked at her with admiration.
It turns out that Ding Lanyin is actually a kind and good girl.
Speaking of fighting, actually that was my first time fighting with someone else, even though I had been in the business for so long, it was always Baldy who came forward.
After spending a long time with Ding Lanyin, I found that she is actually a warm and considerate girl. Since I became her deskmate, there is breakfast on my desk every morning, and she always cleans the table and chairs before I come. She always closes the window when she leaves, especially in summer.
I asked her why she closed the window, and she replied, "If it rains at night, the rain will come in and wet the books."
It was this girl who became my good friend. I shared many things with her, except Su Jingnian.
Love cannot be shared.
The piece of paper with the phone number left by Su Jingnian has been kept under my pillow, as if it would help me have a good dream.
I never called him because of what Baldy said: if he was thinking about me, he would definitely come back to find me or try every possible means to find me .
But after waiting for so long, Su Jingnian still didn't come back once. I was afraid of missing something, so I would ask grandma every day if she had seen Su Jingnian.
Grandma always smiled and shook her head, saying: "If the fate that has passed cannot be brought back, that fate is in the past and is not worth remembering."
But I can't forget that summer when Su Jingnian greeted me with a smile, nor can I forget him carrying me across the city.
Then, everything became different.
On my sixteenth birthday, I gave myself a birthday present: a phone call to Su Jingnian.
That piece of writing was a fuse. Every time I was so busy that I almost forgot about Su Jingnian, I would always think of him and recall those memories.
That day, grandma cooked a lot of delicious food for me. In the evening, Guangtou rode his newly bought motorcycle to pick me up to drink, and also bought a lot of supplements for grandma.
Grandma smiled and asked in my ear, "Is this your new destiny?"
I, who have always been thick-skinned, blushed and sat on the back of the motorcycle in a twisted manner.
The bald man laughed and blew a long whistle, saying loudly: "Girl, brother will take you to pick out a gift."
The wind blew my long hair away, and my bald head carried me through the streets of the city. The neon lights flickered, flashing dazzling light.
The bald guy was taking me to buy a mobile phone. He pointed at the rows of mobile phones and said, "Pick whichever one you like."
I turned my head and asked, "Are you really going to give me a cell phone?"
"You are a grown-up girl. You should buy a cell phone so you can text and call little boys."
The moment I got the phone and selected the number, I decided to call Su Jingnian.
Baldy ordered a cake, and then a group of people drank at a food stall and sang birthday songs for me. Baldy's broken voice was really bad, and his yellow teeth were visible when he opened his mouth.
I was laughing so hard beside him.
Baldy is indeed vulgar, but vulgar in a cute way, so when I made birthday wishes, I gave one of my wishes to him, hoping that he can meet a better person. The first wish was given to grandma, hoping that she would live a long life. The remaining wish was given to Su Jingnian, hoping that he would look back one day and see my admiring eyes.
When I got home, I took out the phone number, typed it in word by word, and pressed the dial button. Soon the call was connected.
"Hello, hello, who are you?"
A familiar voice sounded on the other end of the phone. I was so happy that I almost fainted and so excited that I couldn't even speak clearly.
"I am... I am... Sun Qing..."
"It's you... What's the matter with you calling so late?"
His tone was indifferent, without any surprise. It was like a basin of cold water that extinguished the fire in my heart and cooled all my enthusiasm.
Actually, I really wanted to say that I missed him, but when the words came to my lips, they turned out to be “I just bought a mobile phone, let me see if I can make the call.”
"Oh. It's too late. You should go to bed early. I need to rest too."
"I'm sorry to bother you."
"goodbye."
"Good night."
The call lasted only twenty-eight seconds. I finally mustered up the courage and found all kinds of excuses to make the call, but it was just humiliating myself.
My tears fell, and my heart felt like a big hole was dug out, and then the hole was filled with pain bit by bit.
That night, I had a wonderful dream. I dreamed that Su Jingnian, who had been walking in front of me, suddenly turned around and smiled.
The whole dream is full of brilliance.
It's just a dream, and you'll have to wake up eventually.
At the age of 16, I finally had my first match. The client was introduced by Baldhead, a bald middle-aged man. The first time he saw me, he said bluntly: "She is so skinny and a woman, how can she win the match?"
The bald man explained: "She is a good seedling, but she lacks the opportunity to practice. Please give her this opportunity, and the strength of the contestants this time is not top-notch."
After his repeated persuasion, the middle-aged man decided to hire me.
His bets were small, so even if he lost he wouldn't suffer much loss.
Maybe it was luck, or maybe I didn’t want to disappoint Baldy, but I really won my first first place that day. After that day, my reputation rose rapidly and employers began to hire me.
Of course, I finally got my first pot of gold in life. Although it was only two thousand yuan, I was very happy. It showed that I was not a useless person, and it also showed that I would become the pillar and let grandma live a good life.
I was able to achieve this, and it is inseparable from the guidance of Baldy. So that day I invited Baldy and the group of people to dinner, and the whole process was extremely happy.
During the process, I couldn't help but send a text message to Su Jingnian.
“I am very happy today.”
But Su Jingnian didn't reply. While eating, I kept looking at the screen of my phone, but it never lit up again. The dark screen was just like my sinking heart.
The bald man sat next to me, handed me a glass of water, and said, "You don't have to force some things."
I was already in a bad mood, and I became even more irritated after hearing this, so I said, "You didn't force it at the beginning, so your ex-girlfriend was played with and then dumped."
The bald man's face changed again and again as his painful spot was poked.
I regretted it the minute I said it.
The bald guy is innocent, but I took it out on him.
The atmosphere was a little tense, and I whispered, "You guys take your time."
After I paid the bill, I walked home slowly.
When I was almost home, my cell phone rang with a text message alert. I got excited and took out my cell phone to check. It turned out to be a message from Baldy, asking me if I had returned home.
My heart continued to sink, and I replied with a depressed “hmm ”.
To have a crush on someone is to tie your heart to his hand, and your mood will go up and down with him. Whether you are happy or sad, it is a voluntary choice. There are obviously better choices, but you don't tie yourself to a person, and that person's heart is not with you.
If you are really determined to find someone, you will find someone.
I don't know why, I wanted to meet Su Jingnian so much, but I couldn't let go of my pride and call him to ask what school he went to. So on , I skipped classes and ran around the city's high schools alone to find out if there was such a person as Su Jingnian.
Su Jingnian is so outstanding, it’s hard not to know where he is.
After finding out what class Su Jingnian was in, I went to look for him.
When I found him, he was working on a problem on the blackboard. I hadn't seen Su Jingnian for so long. He had grown taller and more handsome. The way he held the chalk was so elegant and eye-catching. The girls below all had admiration in their eyes.
After finishing the problem, he smiled, bowed, and returned to his seat amid the exclamations of his classmates.
It turned out that Su Jingnian had become so outstanding that he was no longer mine alone. I looked up at that bright figure infatuatedly, and suddenly burst into tears. Later, I squatted outside the classroom with my arms folded, sobbing softly so sadly, for fear of disturbing the person I wanted to disturb.
Su Jingnian is the obstacle that I cannot break through in this life.