When he was a child, Su Jingnian was a fat boy who couldn't control his mouth.
I am Su Jingnian.
The uncles and aunts who have seen me as a child would all marvel at me, saying that it was clearly a potato, so how could it grow into a green bamboo?
Because I met a girl, her name is Ding Lanyin.
When I was in kindergarten, I loved snacks, especially high-calorie, high-fat foods. At that time, I was growing up, and my family always asked me to eat more. Later, I became a little fat boy, and it was not an exaggeration to describe me as a "ball".
Other kids didn’t like to play with me. At that time, we lived in a large compound with many kids of the same age. I remember there was a banyan tree in the middle of the compound. Every summer, I would sit under the tree to enjoy the cool and count the stars in the sky.
Originally, the children were catching fireflies under the tree, but as soon as they saw me coming, they dispersed and the originally noisy atmosphere instantly cooled down.
I stood in the middle, at a loss, not knowing what went wrong.
It wasn't until I heard them call me "potato" that I realized that fat people are not liked.
Ding Lanyin doesn’t even know that my nickname is “Potato”. It’s embarrassing to tell others about it.
In my eyes, Ding Lanyin is a special girl, even though she looks so unpleasant.
I started to notice her on the first day of kindergarten because she was the cutest girl in the class. Although she had a sour and cold face, people couldn't take their eyes off her.
At that time, I foolishly thought that if I were thinner, I might be able to talk to her or play games with her.
Every day during class, I would secretly look at her like a thief. If my family bought something delicious, I would always think of bringing her a portion, but in the end I didn't have the courage to give it to her, and I would just leave it in my schoolbag until it rotted.
Maybe there was no love at that time, but I naively thought that it would be great if she and I could be together every day like my father and mother.
I asked my father why he was with my mother every day, and he said it was because of love.
When I was little, I didn’t know what love was, but I wanted to have love with Ding Lanyin.
There were many children in the yard who cried and made all kinds of excuses not to go to school every morning, but I would eat a few mouthfuls of food and urge my father to send me to school, because I knew there were people there who I couldn't wait to see.
It seems that just one look at her can make my mood so good that it soars to the sky.
How wonderful it is to have innocence when you are young.
I didn’t expect that the first conversation between Ding Lanyin and I would be about counting.
I loudly counted the number of times she skipped rope and watched her jump like a little deer. Although I knew she might not like me, I was very happy that she was willing to team up with me.
I am fat, so I have never been good at sports. I was laughed at for looking like a ball when I skipped rope. I never expected that the person who stood up to speak for me was the usually taciturn Ding Lanyin.
At that time, Ding Lanyin stood in front of me so bravely, looking coldly at the group of people who laughed at me. At that moment, I decided to marry her and start losing weight.
All the snacks my parents bought were thrown into the trash by me. I had to rinse the greasy dishes with water before eating them, and I would run around the yard every night.
My dad asked me why I wanted to lose weight, and I answered that it was because I wanted to be liked by others.
The meaning of liking something is different. Liking kittens and puppies is also liking someone.
When I understood the meaning of love, my father said he was moving, and I just graduated from kindergarten. I had become a thin person.
On the last day of kindergarten, I secretly followed Ding Lanyin back to her home, thinking that I could still find her after moving.
It was only after I moved and went to look for Ding Lanyin again that I learned that something had happened in her family, and I lost all contact with her since then.
Because of my father's work, the whole family moved to a shantytown, where the living conditions were even worse. I often miss the big banyan tree in the yard and the starry sky at that time.
I just moved and didn’t know anyone, so I spent every day staring out the window in a lonely daze.
At night, I climbed onto the roof and wanted to look at the stars, but I didn’t expect that there was a little girl sitting there on the roof.
The little girl was very thin, and the moonlight shining on her face gave her a kind of cold beauty.
I reminded her not to fall, and she turned back in surprise, with a little .
She said her name was Sun Qing, and later we became playmates.
If Ding Lanyin had not appeared and taken root in my heart first, perhaps I might have liked this direct, sincere and hardworking girl.
I've heard about her family's affairs from my neighbors. Sometimes I feel sorry for this girl, so I can't help but want to be nicer to her.
Later, as I grew up, I realized that it was my kind nature and nothing else.
In all these years, I have never forgotten Ding Lanyin. I want to become better and better, so that we can have a good start when we meet again.
I have been looking forward to the day we meet.
This day didn't come until my senior year of high school. Sun Qing came to me to borrow money, and I recognized Ding Lanyin at first sight, but unfortunately she didn't remember me.
Although her face was red and swollen, she was still so beautiful. I felt a little distressed, but I couldn't show my concern, and I couldn't talk to her about the past.
Countless thoughts have flashed through my mind. Maybe my concern will make her think I am frivolous, or maybe I will make her hate me.
I could only use Sun Qing to slowly get closer to her.
When filling out the college entrance examination application form, I secretly asked Sun Qing what school Ding Lanyin had selected, and I followed suit and selected the same school.
When school started, I stood at the school gate early, waiting for her to come, as if waiting for a precious fate.
I have never concealed my feelings from Ding Lanyin.
She told me about Zhuang Li, her first boyfriend.
I regret so much that I didn’t change for the better earlier and become Ding Lanyin’s first boyfriend.
But it doesn’t matter, Ding Lanyin is still within my reach.
Maybe Ding Lanyin didn’t like me very much at the beginning, but I thought that as long as I continued to be nice to her, she would definitely fall in love with me.
What I didn't expect was that Sun Qing's obsession would be so deep that she would resort to all means to separate Ding Lanyin and me.
That night I had a wonderful dream. I dreamed that Ding Lanyin said she loved me, but when I woke up, the person next to me was Sun Qing.
I was clearly furious when I saw that ambiguous photo, but I still pretended nothing had happened and held Ding Lanyin's hand.
I'm afraid of losing her.
Although I could no longer touch her heart, at least she was still by my side.
It’s a pity that I lost to Sun Qing.
As a man, I have to be responsible for my woman, but Ding Lanyin is my woman. I only feel guilty about Sun Qing, but I never thought about taking responsibility, even if this behavior is despicable.
I can't abandon Ding Lanyin just because I have to be responsible for others.
Seeing Sun Qing in pain, I could only say sorry.
Ding Lanyin is the person I want to protect for my whole life.
When I fell down the stairs, I was thinking in my mind: What will she do if I can’t be with her in this life?
Ding Lanyin is the strongest girl I have ever met, but her strength is a disguise. I am the only one who can really see through her fragility, so I want to be better to her.
Since I can't be with her in this life, then I'll do it in the next life.
Ding Lanyin, in the next life I want to be your first man, your last man, and the only one in your life.
Would you like to?