DIARY Fourteen Now After Losing You 2
"I don't want your leftovers!" I quickly turned my head away.
"Does Xia dislike me? It doesn't matter, as long as Xia is willing to stay with me."
These words caught me off guard, so I had to pretend to be confused or pretend I didn't hear them and turned to walk to the next stall.
Almost a week had passed, and we were very familiar with the roadside stalls near the school. We knew which one had the most authentic barbecue, which one had the most delicious soup, and which one had the most tasty bubble milk tea...even when we appeared on that street, every vendor would smile at us.
And I calculated my debt and it’s almost paid off.
After school that afternoon, it was still very hot outside. As soon as I walked to the school gate, I saw Xu Yi running towards me from a distance.
He ran as fast as an arrow, with beads of sweat on his smiling face. He stopped in front of me, bent over and gasped for air.
"Why... don't you take the bus?" I looked at his excited face in confusion.
"I don't want to wait for the bus... I want to run to Xiaya. And you see, I'm faster than it." After he said that, he pointed at the bus that just passed by on the road next to him with a proud look on his face.
A dreamy sunset and a speeding car.
The handsome Xu Yi had bright black eyes and spoke intermittently.
There is an ambiguous fragrant juice flowing in the air.
My fingers could not help but curl up, and a strange feeling of emotion surged in my heart. I tried to look away from Xu Yi and walked forward alone.
"Hey..." He quickly followed me and pointed at my schoolbag, "Give it to me."
"Haha, you want to carry it? Then go ahead. I should have put more books in it earlier to crush you to death." I glanced at him and laughed dryly.
"Who said I was going to carry it? I was going to hit it." After saying that, he really slapped my schoolbag hard a few times with his hands.
"What are you doing?" I frowned at him. "When did my schoolbag offend you?"
"Because I'm jealous of it! It can lean on you every day and be inseparable from you."
"Well……"
For such words, I can only describe them in two simple words - childish!
But why did the smile on my face grow wider unconsciously? Such a joke would still bring some warmth...
We walked into a milk tea shop amid the owner's enthusiastic smile.
"Xia, we seem to be very popular."
"I think you are very much like a kind of creature." I glared at Xu Yi who was smiling very innocently.
"Are there any creatures as handsome as me?"
"Uh...yes."
"What?"
"cockroach."
"hehe."
"You're still laughing at my insult?"
"No, I just think you're cute when you insult others."
"Well……"
Sweat! I stared at him speechlessly.
"I like you, Xia."
"Puff..." The milk tea in my mouth almost spurted out.
"Don't be like this, I'm serious."
Although we are now very familiar with each other, I am still not used to his jokes like this. He always says the most helpless things when I am least prepared.
But, today is the last day, will we ever meet again? I don't know why, but I don't feel relieved.
"Hey, why do you insist that I pay off my debt in this way?" I asked the doubt that had always been in my mind.
"Because..." Xu Yi paused and looked at me deeply, "Because I like Xiaya and want to seize any chance to be with Xiaya, so I will not hesitate to use any means..." He spoke very clearly and forcefully, with an emotion in his eyes that made me suddenly extremely flustered.
For a moment, I was stunned.
Asking me questions and helping me out at the classroom door.
The hand that reached out to me when I was sad and crying.
We have been having a pleasant time together these days.
And those sweet words that can't be avoided...
The details flashed through my mind one by one.
I was feeling a little panicked inside. Before he could finish, I interrupted him with mixed feelings: "That's enough. Don't say you like me so easily. If you say it so easily, it's not love anymore."
"Really?" Xu Yi's expression was immediately covered with a sadness lighter than the moonlight.
I had seen this kind of sad expression on another person's face before. The traces that person had left on my heart, as well as the words he had said, flooded into my mind like a flood in this familiar scene.
I shook my head, trying to look as cold and indifferent as possible, and then asked him, "Besides, do you know what love is? It's not the occasional impulse! Even if you think you like someone now, you can ruthlessly abandon them in the future. If that's the case, then don't say you like someone so easily!"
In my memory, I also confessed to others with great expectation, and the answer I got was like this...
"Do you know what love is? It's not a momentary impulse! Even if you think you like it now, you can ruthlessly abandon it in the future. In this case, it's better not to start, don't you think?"
Breathing stops briefly.
It feels like my heart is tightening.
It turns out that saying such cruel words is not difficult at all.
"Xia, why do you say that? Why can't you try to accept me?"
Xu Yi's bright face dimmed in an instant, and his eyes flashed with a complex emotion of hurt and pity.
I felt an inexplicable pain in my heart and couldn't bear to look at him any longer. I stood up hastily and prepared to leave.
But a hand grabbed me!
Xu Yi's voice revealed an extremely firm message -
"Xia, I will prove to you that my love for you is not just a momentary impulse. I can love you for a long, long time. I will prove it..."
Such a certain tone disturbed my thinking, and I almost couldn't bear it for a moment.
Once upon a time, I also wanted to prove something to another person. That person's mood at that time was probably the same as my current mood, right?
I hardened my heart, took out the money for this meal from my bag, and said in a cold and decisive tone:
"Don't come to me again in the future!"
After saying that, I stopped looking at Xu Yi’s expression and quickly walked towards home.
I got home and closed the door, but my heart was still pounding.
But it didn't seem to be because of the brisk walking, but rather a kind of panic in my heart. I looked at the black butterfly tail in the glass tank on the desk swimming comfortably in the water, but I still couldn't calm down.
That feeling...
It was as if at some point he was about to betray Yuan Cheye.
Because of the loneliness of missing someone, because of the same brilliant smile, because of the touch of being missed by others...
no, I can not.
I quickly rejected it in my mind.
Thinking back to that time - when Cheye confessed to me, did I feel the same way? I liked the first person, but was moved by the second person? If so, did I ever move Yuan Cheye? Is it because the person who was moved is lonely that he is more likely to be taken advantage of?
My hand tightly grasped the phone in my pocket. I finally took it out and wrote the text message stroke by stroke until the edges of the phone hurt.
Cheye, my debt has been paid off. I don't have to go out to eat with that guy Xu Yi anymore.
Yes, no more noodles, various kinds of freshwater balls, and fried noodles with ham...
But even so—
"Don't come to see me again in the future."
When I said these words at that time, my expression must have been very cruel, right?
Soon, Yuan Cheye replied to the text message.
It's rare to find a boy who can tolerate you, so you should consider him and try to date him if you have a chance.
Eyelashes fluttering.
My heart also trembled slightly.
The moment I saw this text message, my thoughts went blank.
Perhaps, there is no such thing as a person who is moved. Otherwise, how can it be so easy to make the person who moved me interact with others...
Yuan Cheye, your words always have a strong destructive power to me and can easily cut deep wounds in my heart.
Unable to heal...
