DIARY Five I Want to Be Your Fool 2
Time seems to have flown to a long time ago...
I stood alone in the garden, with little Gu Haochen behind me.
"They don't play with me, why would you play with me?"
"Hehe...I think you're cute."
"But sometimes my ears don't work and I can't hear you. Doesn't that bother you? Won't you laugh at me like they do?"
"Why should you mind? When you can't hear, I can be your ears and tell you what's going on."
"But if you stay with me, they will laugh at you, too."
"Haha... I'm not afraid. Those who laugh at others' shortcomings really look like clowns when they laugh."
I was a little confused, but deeply moved. I admired the wise words of little Chen Ru.
"Why are you so nice to me?"
"Silly... Hehe, because I will be Ye Xiya's protector from now on, I will protect Ye Xiya forever and ever."
When Gu Haochen finished speaking those words word by word, the wind around him seemed to stop, and the air was filled with a gentle fragrance. At that time, the gorgeous sunlight enveloped his face in a dazzling light, and I looked at him in the quiet air and smiled faintly...
Until now, and even long after, I believe that Chen's firm and gentle expression at that time will always be engraved in my heart and will never fade away.
Chen didn't leave until the class bell rang.
I returned to my seat, only to find that Yuan Cheye's seat was empty again, and the person who should have been sitting there was nowhere to be seen.
"Weiwei, do you know where Yuan Cheye went?" I asked Weiwei beside me in a low voice.
"He just left from the back door of the classroom. Maybe he doesn't want to be bothered by you anymore." Weiwei mocked me bluntly.
"oh."
Did Yuan Cheye skip class again? Maybe it was really my fault this time... I couldn't hide my disappointment in my eyes.
In the next few classes, Yuan Cheye did not appear in the classroom again.
It was soon noon and I sat blankly in my seat holding my lunch box, watching my classmates rush out of the classroom and run towards the cafeteria, cheering.
If I can't give this lunch box to Yuan Cheye, I don't think I'll even have the appetite to eat my own...
Just as I was thinking about it, I suddenly felt a vibration at my feet.
I quickly took out my cell phone from my desk.
No incoming call.
But the vibrating feeling still persisted.
I looked around and finally found an unfamiliar mobile phone under the desk.
Who is this for?
I bent down and picked up the phone. It was a flip phone, black, thin but very textured.
The phone is still vibrating. Do you want me to answer it? But I don't seem to know who it belongs to.
As I hesitated, my hand unconsciously opened the cover of my phone.
"Hello? Hello?" An impatient male voice came from the other end of the phone.
Wow! I actually set it to flip over to answer the call!
I quickly put my ear close to the receiver.
"Hello, who are you?"
"Ah... hello, I'm Yeshiya."
Wow! How did I say my own name without knowing it? No! That's not the point, right? The point is... why does this voice and tone sound so familiar?
"Stupid, it turned out that you found my phone."
Uh...Yuan Cheye!
Why does this guy sound like I stole his phone? What an ungrateful guy!
"Yes, where are you?"
"I am home."
"Why aren't you in class?"
"Because I skipped class, idiot. Well, stop talking nonsense. Now help me look through the phone book on my phone. There's a takeaway delivery number there. Read it to me when you find it."
"okay."
Although I had never used this phone, I quickly found the directory button with my intelligence and flipped to the phone book. When I found the word "takeout", I happily pressed a button on the left, and the result was -
The takeaway number that existed a second ago disappeared!
I made a bitter face and spoke into the phone again:
"Yuan Cheye, the left button is used to check on my phone."
“I didn’t ask about your phone.”
"The left button on your phone is delete."
"Well……"
"so……"
"Wait, you're not trying to say you deleted the takeaway restaurant's number?"
"...Yeah, I accidentally deleted the takeaway restaurant's number."
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a few seconds. I moved the phone away from my ear in fear, and sure enough, I heard a loud voice:
"Fool!"
I was about to explain, but the other party hung up the phone with a "click".
Ahhh, what should I do? I did something wrong again! !
I was holding the phone, nervously considering whether or not to call again, but my eyes suddenly caught sight of the lunch box on the table.
Ah! That's right! Can't we just send this lunch box to his house? Anyway, with Yuan Cheye's personality, he would rather starve than go out to buy food. If there is a lunch box delivered to his door, he should be happy to accept it, right?
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile happily.
Half an hour later, I knocked on Yuan Cheye's door with my lunch box and cell phone.
"Why are you here?" Yuan Cheye's surprised expression was exactly what I expected.
"Ding, ding, ding! Ye Xiya's specially made love lunch box is absolutely delicious and tasty." I swaggered past him and walked into the living room with the lunch box in my hand. He didn't stop me like he did last time.
"Didn't you eat with your Chen?" He closed the door behind me, and there seemed to be a hint of dissatisfaction in his tone.
"Chen?"
I was puzzled. This was originally made for him, and I delivered it to his door specially. Why did he have a sour face and looked extremely unhappy?
Seeing that I didn’t say anything, Yuan Cheye pouted and walked over to me, pushing the lunch box I had just placed on the coffee table away: “Because he didn’t want it, so you gave it to me, right? I…”
Before he could finish his words, the lunch box slid to the ground with a "bang".
"oops!"
I hurried to pick it up and found that the lid of the lunch box was open, and the rice and food inside were scattered all over the place, with some even spilled on the ground.
The aroma of the dishes evaporated lonely in the air. Inexplicably, a sour and astringent feeling blocked my chest.
"Hey...I didn't mean it."
“…”
"Okay, okay, I'll eat it. I'm really hungry..."
"No."
"Hello……"
I stood up, walked to the refrigerator, opened it, and found it was empty.
"What are you doing?" He followed me and stared at me cautiously.
"It's okay. Don't eat that lunch box. I'll be out for a while."
I said, disappearing quickly out the door.
I heard him muttering in dissatisfaction from behind: "Why are you so angry? It's just a bento..."
When I appeared in front of Yuan Cheye's house again with a big bag of flour for making dumplings, his surprise was even more exaggerated than before, and seemed to be mixed with a hint of embarrassment.
"How did you..."
"Ding, ding, ding! Ye Xiya's loving dumplings, we must not waste them this time!" I smiled and shook the bag in my hand, and said to him as I walked towards the kitchen, "Since the lunch box is broken, don't eat it. I wanted to make something else, but I found that your refrigerator was empty. The vegetable market is far from here, so I bought flour for making dumplings. You are not allergic to dumplings, right? Haha."
"Idiot." He followed me into the kitchen, his voice much softer.
"And you know what? Eating something warm will make you feel very happy." I opened the bag of flour and turned back to him with a smile.
"Really?" He also smiled, and suddenly reached out and touched my hair.
The tenderness flowing in such a brilliant smile made my heart beat faster, as if just a little bit of sweetness could make me forget all the previous sorrows.
Yuan Cheye and I started making dumplings in this warm atmosphere.
I added a lot of strawberry juice when kneading the flour. When Yuan Cheye saw it, his expression suddenly froze:
"Strawberry juice?"
"Yes, the glutinous rice balls made in this way have a sweet fragrance. This is what Chen told me."
But he didn't seem to hear what I said. He was lost in some memories, and his brown eyes became extremely warm.
After a brief moment of distraction, he smiled, blinked his eyes and said to me: "Then I will reluctantly look forward to the dumplings you make today."
"Tsk! You're obviously looking forward to it, okay? If you don't tell the truth, you'll burn your mouth later!"
Although I was full of confidence, I was still a little disappointed when the dumplings came out of the pot.
"Ouch, the red bean filling in some of the dumplings has leaked out."
"Haha, it's okay, just give me the ones without fillings. But you know what? There's something missing from the dumplings you made."
"What?" I asked in confusion. Obviously all the ingredients were there.
"I won't tell you." He made a face and walked back to the living room triumphantly with the dumplings in his hand.
I also brought the prepared dumplings to the living room and was about to start eating with Yuan Cheye, but suddenly I saw Yuan Cheye's father coming down from the second floor.
I kicked Yuan Cheye and said angrily:
"Is your father home?"
“Always.”
"You didn't even tell me."
"You didn't ask."
Well……
I was speechless, but Yuan Cheye didn't care about anything and just ate his glutinous rice balls leisurely. I watched his father approach us slowly, anxiously. Strangely, his father was silent and didn't say a word. When he was about to pass by us, I stood up.
"Uncle, hello." I bowed.
I can't let his father misunderstand me again. I have to explain everything clearly, including what happened last time and this time.
Yuan Cheye's father stopped and looked indifferent, as if he saw me for the first time.
I was so nervous that sweat started to pour down my forehead. Finally, I gritted my teeth and said, "Do you want to eat some glutinous rice balls?"
Alas, looking into Yuan Cheye’s father’s eyes, I still didn’t have the courage to explain.
Hearing what I said, Yuan Cheye's father was stunned for a moment, while Yuan Cheye next to him said lazily:
"Don't bother me, he won't..."
Before Yuan Cheye could finish his words, his father actually sat down.
I didn't expect his father to actually stay and eat with us. I was stunned for a moment, but immediately brought the bowl of dumplings I had just prepared to him.
The most surprised person was Yuan Cheye. When he saw his father eating the glutinous rice balls, his eyes flashed with disbelief, bitterness, resentment... and finally mockery.
He laughed, not looking at his father again, and said while eating, "It's really funny."
Yuan Cheye's father remained silent.
"In my memory, my mother and I used to have to wait for countless nights for you to have a meal with us, but now no one is expecting you to do so, yet you sit down and eat this simple bowl of glutinous rice balls. Isn't that ridiculous?"
Yuan Cheye's father finally put down the spoon, silently wiped his mouth with a napkin, and had a serious expression. It was obvious that he didn't want Yuan Cheye to continue this topic.
"I will be away on business for a week. Please take good care of yourself during this time."
Yuan Cheye lowered his head, still not looking at his father. It was not until his father was about to reach the door that he suddenly stood up, his expression complicated, but mostly angry.
"I've always been alone anyway, what's there to take care of? Even if I died, you wouldn't care, right?"
Yuan Cheye's father paused for a moment, then opened the door and walked out.
The sunlight outside squeezed in at that moment, giving people an illusion of sadness, as if there was a very long road between Yuan Cheye and his father that could never be crossed.
The door closed silently, and the light in Yuan Che's wild brown eyes disappeared along with it.
I scratched my hair awkwardly, my head filled with countless question marks.
Yuan Cheye’s father and mother seem to have a bad relationship... I came here twice and didn’t see his mother. Could it be that... his father and mother are divorced?
"Yuan Cheye..."
I was about to say something when he interrupted me:
"Stupid, why don't I feel happy after eating something warm?"
He smiled and looked at me, and his smile became very light.
For some reason, there was something sour and bitter blocking my chest, and tears gradually welled up in my eyes.
The scene of Yuan Cheye and I watching the lights on the mountainside that day kept flashing in my mind...
"Can you find your home? Your home is not far from mine. Which direction is it? Oh, right, behind my house, and then..."
"You won't find it, idiot."
"Hey, if you call me an idiot again, I'll kick you out."
"You can't find it."
"Hey! Don't underestimate my eyesight!"
"Although I have two homes, the lights are off in both."
…
As if my guess was confirmed, I suddenly understood the pain and loneliness he felt when said that, and the tears in my eyes finally couldn't help but roll down.
Yuan Cheye tilted his head to look at me, his fingers gently touching the tears on my cheeks, and the originally vague smile suddenly became real.
I raised my head, and my nostrils were filled with the scent of May roses, so strong and fragrant that it was sad.
"Silly, why are you crying?" he asked me with a smile.
"Who... who is crying?" I retorted weakly.
"It's the piglets who are crying."
"I'm not!"
…
At this unexpected noon, I seemed to be one step closer to Yuan Cheye.
I began to understand his smile.
I also began to understand the unknown sadness behind his smile.
"Yuan Cheye, go to class in the afternoon. If you skip classes again, your class teacher will really be mad." It was almost time for afternoon classes, and I began to persuade Yuan Cheye to go to school.
"Oh... okay." He nodded reluctantly in agreement.
"What about my lunch box?" Before leaving, I thought of the lunch box that said "I died before I could accomplish my mission".
"Here you go." Yuan Cheye handed over the empty lunch box.
"Where's the food inside?"
"fall down."
"Fallen?" Although it's a pity, since it's broken, there's nothing that can be done about it.
"Of course it fell over. Otherwise, do you think I would eat such a messy lunch box?" He seemed very dissatisfied and even raised his voice unconsciously.
"What? A messy lunch box? Didn't you break it like that?" I couldn't help but complain about my lunch box, "The dishes I cooked are delicious!"
“It’s obviously very salty!”
"Salty? How do you know the food I cooked is salty? You didn't eat it."
"That...that thing looks very salty!" Yuan Cheye turned his head away with an extremely unnatural expression.
"See?! How is that possible..." I was too lazy to argue with him anymore, so I changed to a humble attitude, "Okay, then I'll go back and learn from Chen. So what dishes do you like? I'll cook for you next time."
"Idiot!" Unexpectedly, his face suddenly turned gloomy.
Next, he said nothing more, turned around and went back to his room, locked the door, and refused to open the door no matter how much I called out from outside.
It's really inexplicable!
What the hell did I say to make him angry?
I spent the whole afternoon thinking about this question when I returned to school, and I didn't listen to a word of the teacher's lecture. There was no difference between me and Yuan Cheye who left his seat empty!
I finally made it to the end of the day's classes. Other students had already rushed to leave the classroom, but I was still sitting in my seat, staring blankly at the seat in front of me.
It seems like a lot of things happened today...
I also seemed to understand another unknown side of Yuan Cheye.
But why do I still feel it’s not enough…
Maybe... maybe I was too eager to understand him.
The desire to know him completely, all of him.
Longing to know more and deeper.
Completely, purely...
I once again took out the diary that I had carefully selected, and stroked the open sky on the cover and the falling white feathers.
In those beautiful backgrounds, a girl extends her hand to the silent boy.
Her white, slender hands were full of anticipation and persistence.
There was a faint smile on the boy's clean and bright face.
I confirmed my intention one last time and firmly stuffed the diary into the empty desk in front of me.
Yuan Cheye, please believe me, I want to get closer to you again.
