That is an age when one can risk one's life for a small thing, and it is also an age with the most pain, separation and helplessness.
Was it because of the immaturity of youth at that time?
Or do you still have the unextinguished courage to fear nothing?

My mood didn't improve the whole day.
That guy Xiao Yusen...
My heart seemed to be covered by a thick fog. Thinking about the scene of him kissing Shan Yiyao yesterday, I had an indescribable feeling in my heart.
Ignore him...
Don't meet that nasty guy...
When I think of the tears I shed yesterday, the grievance in my heart becomes more magnified little by little.
When the bell rang, I ran out of the classroom as fast as I could, but as soon as I reached the stairs, my way was tightly covered by a dark shadow.
Still couldn't escape him...
I turned around and looked at Xiao Yusen with a frown on my face, who was raising his eyebrows and looked like he had succeeded in his conspiracy.
"Yin Qianxia, ​​why are you hiding from me?" Xiao Yusen stretched out his hand and trapped me firmly in the space created by his hands.
"I'm not avoiding you, I just don't want to pay attention to you and don't want to delay your relationship..." I replied coldly while avoiding his gaze.
"It was really a misunderstanding yesterday!" Xiao Yusen became anxious when he heard what I said.
While he was furious, I lowered my head and squeezed through the space created by his arms, striding towards home.
I don't want to hear any explanation...
Misunderstanding, how could it be a misunderstanding? I saw it with my own eyes! Could there be something wrong with my eyes?
"Yin Qianxia!" Xiao Yusen followed my footsteps and kept shouting around me like an annoying fly.
I covered my ears and jogged forward.
No, no, why should I listen...
He can kiss whoever he likes, it’s none of my business!
"Hey, why don't you listen to my explanation?" Xiao Yusen caught up with me in a few steps.
"Don't follow me. I have an appointment with Brother Yi Mo. He will celebrate my birthday with me today." I glanced at Xiao Yusen and said unhappily.
Now, I just want to see Brother Yi Mo. As for this guy Xiao Yusen, I get angry when I see his face.
"You... who were you talking about just now? Who did you say you had an appointment with?!" Xiao Yusen's voice suddenly became very loud.
"Brother Yi Mo! I have an appointment with Brother Yi Mo! So don't bother me anymore!" I also vented my dissatisfaction loudly.
"Come back here!" He rushed forward and grabbed my wrist, not allowing me to struggle. "I don't allow you to go find him! You can't go find him!"
"Why don't you allow me to go? I want to go! You can also go on a date with Shan Yiyao! Why do you care about me?"
"That's different! Besides, it's impossible for me to go on a date with Shan Yiyao... Don't go, Qianxia, ​​there are some things you don't understand... Anyway, don't go..." Xiao Yusen seemed to be a little incoherent due to his emotional excitement, but the strangest thing was that he didn't dare to look at me, as if he was hesitating and dodging something, but he didn't relax his hold on my hand at all.
My wrist was getting more and more painful, and finally—
"Let me go!" I shook off Xiao Yusen's grip on my wrist and yelled angrily with a frown.
Xiao Yusen finally let go of his hold on me, lowered his head, and his face was full of sadness. He advised me for the last time in a hoarse voice: "Qianxia, ​​don't go, really don't go."
But why?
I don’t understand. I don’t understand his struggle and sadness at this moment, nor do I understand the pain and tearing in my heart at this moment.
The breeze, mixed with a hot breath, gently brushed my cheek.
I turned around and ran forward. I didn't want to dwell on why Xiao Yusen kept asking me not to go. The time I agreed to meet with Brother Yi Mo was approaching, and if I didn't get rid of him, I would be late.
Thinking of this, I quickened my pace again.
But at this moment, a figure suddenly appeared in my sight.
I looked up and saw Shan Yiyao's face.
"You...is there something wrong?" Her appearance made me nervous again.
A bad premonition quietly came over me.
Shan Yiyao still had the same arrogant and disdainful look as when we first met. She looked at me with her head held high. Her height, which was a head taller than mine, gave her an absolute advantage. Her fair cheeks were slightly flushed, and a cunning and sharp light flashed in her bright eyes.
"Yin Qianxia, ​​it's really not easy to meet you alone." Shan Yiyao raised a sinister smile at the corner of his mouth and said to me in a cold voice.
I felt a little nervous. I don’t know why, but every time I saw Shan Yiyao appear, that bad premonition would become stronger and stronger.
Shan Yiyao seemed to lead me into an invisible abyss.
"Just say whatever you want to say."
When I thought about her intimate behavior with Xiao Yusen yesterday, I couldn't help but feel jealous and my tone was no longer so calm.
"Yin Qianxia, ​​you look like you're not in a good mood?" Shan Yiyao looked at me proudly.
Her words hit the nail on the head, and I couldn't help feeling a little depressed.
Chinatsu, don't fall for her trick!
"Thank you for your concern. I'm not in a bad mood. What happened between you and Xiao Yusen has nothing to do with me." I pretended to be calm, but when I thought of the scene on the rooftop yesterday, my heart seemed to be gripped by an invisible big hand.
Shan Yiyao, the more you try to irritate me, the more I will not let you succeed.
But why...my heart still hurts so much.
The pain was like someone scraping my fragile heart with a sharp knife.
Tears slowly gathered in my eyes.
No, no, I can't cry, especially not in front of Shan Yiyao...
Thinking of this, I turned around and prepared to leave.
"Haha, Yin Qianxia, ​​you still remember Shan Yimo, right? You haven't forgotten your brother Yimo, have you?"
When I was about to turn around, Shan Yiyao's words pierced into my ears like a vicious thorn.
I clenched my hands into fists and bit my lips tightly with my teeth.
Shan Yimo...
Brother Yimo...
This familiar name echoes in my ears again and again.
Shan Yiyao saw that I was stunned and continued, "Since you still remember Shan Yimo, then didn't you have any doubts about me? If so, then I should be able to answer you now. I am Shan Yimo's sister - Shan Yiyao."
Shan Yiyao's eyes were covered with a layer of mist, and her emotions suddenly became very excited.
This excitement soon spread to me.
Sister? Brother Yi Mo’s sister?
Memories of the past hit me hard.
"Does Chinatsu know that I have a sister?"
"She is about your age and should be as tall as you. Two years ago, my parents divorced and she went abroad with her mother. I haven't seen her since then. She is very dependent on me, just like Chinatsu. Every day after school, we are used to waiting for each other to go home together. One time, I went out to play with my classmates and forgot about this appointment. That silly girl actually waited in the school until midnight."
Last time, before going abroad, Brother Yi Mo told me that he had a sister in a foreign country. Could it be Shan Yi Yao?
I stared at Shan Yiyao with my eyes wide open. Her face slowly overlapped with Brother Yimo's. Similar gentle eyebrows, similar thin, cherry-like moist lips, and the fair skin and high nose bridge...
But, if...
Shan Yiyao is Brother Yimo's sister, why would she do those things to hurt me? How could Brother Yimo allow her to do that?
if……
Shan Yiyao is Brother Yi Mo’s sister. Why didn’t Brother Yi Mo ever tell me that his sister returned to China with him after he came back this time?
I was just about to ask the question in my heart, but Xiao Yusen, who was just left behind by me, appeared. He stepped forward and covered Shan Yiyao's mouth with his hands, frowning and saying nervously: "Let's go."
Shan Yiyao seemed to be trying hard to break free from Xiao Yusen, but Xiao Yusen covered her mouth tightly.
I was standing aside, watching this scene, and my heart grew colder by the second.
What are these two people doing? Are they going to perform an intimate scene in front of me again?
My eyes were unconsciously filled with tears again, and at the moment when the tears fell, I was ready to turn around and leave.
"Ouch!" At this moment, Xiao Yusen suddenly cried out in pain, squatted down, and covered his feet tightly.
What is the situation?
"Do you think the way I treated you before was because of Xiao Yusen? It was all because of my brother - Shan Yimo!" Shan Yiyao glanced coldly at Xiao Yusen who was covering his feet in pain, and approached me step by step, with raging anger in his eyes.
And... there is resentment that can never be erased.
Because of Shan Yimo?
My brain went blank for three seconds. Shan Yiyao's words only gave me more questions, but... but... I had a keen feeling that if I continued talking, I would get the answer.
An answer I probably don’t want to know…
"Yin Qianxia, ​​some time ago, on your 18th birthday, which was very special to you, do you remember? My brother died in a car accident on the way to celebrate your birthday! He could have stayed, but he believed your lies and was deceived by your innocent appearance, so this happened! You broke your leg? What a joke! Your birthday has become Shan Yimo's memorial day, are you satisfied now?"
"Give me back my brother! Give me back my brother!"
"I hate you! Give him back to me!"
Until later...
It was like there was an old black and white TV in front of me. After a burst of noise, there was no other sound.
I couldn't hear Shan Yiyao's words clearly anymore. I just felt her mouth opening and closing, and the words that came out of her mouth sounded like vicious curses.
Brother Yi Mo... is dead?
Haha, are you kidding me? I didn't expect Shan Yiyao to be so vicious and actually joke about Brother Yimo's life and death.
It's really too much...
A cold smile appeared on the corner of my mouth.
How is this possible?
Shan Yiyao, are you stupid? Just yesterday, Brother Yimo appeared in front of me and gave me a hug.
On my birthday, Brother Yi Mo saved me.
You actually said he was dead?
I'd have to be crazy to believe your lies.
"hehe--"
I smiled coldly and kept shaking my head.
Impossible, Shan Yiyao is a liar, she must be lying to me...
She has already snatched Xiao Yusen away, is she going to snatch Brother Yi Mo away now?
But, but...
If nothing happened to Brother Yi Mo, why didn't he tell everyone that he was back?
Why is it that when he comes to the classroom to find me, it seems like I am the only one who can see him?
Why are there always mists of sadness in his eyes...
“Pah—Pah—”
With confused thoughts and falling tears, I probably look like a madman now.
A madman who talks to himself and for no apparent reason.
Suddenly, a familiar figure seemed to appear in front of me, but my tears had blurred my vision and I could only vaguely distinguish it by the familiar mint scent.
It seems to be Xiao Yusen?
He seemed to be running towards me very quickly. Why was there only the sound of sad wind whistling past my ears? Why was there a thin white mist slowly rising in front of my eyes, blocking my sight...
Until Xiao Yusen ran in front of me, until he shook my shoulders frantically, with such force that it seemed as if he wanted to crush every bone in my body. It hurts so much... it hurts so much...
"Impossible! This is impossible! Brother Yi Mo is not dead. We even agreed to celebrate our birthday together! Today!"
The sudden pain instantly brought a glimmer of clarity to my chaotic brain. I used all my strength to shout loudly. I saw the look of shock and panic on Xiao Yusen's face.
I saw Shan Yiyao not far away watching all this with cold eyes.
I saw...
Dust particles danced in the sunlight, and the pale golden light seemed to reflect a face that was so familiar and gentle.
"Qianxia, ​​don't lie to yourself. Shan Yimo is dead. He is no longer in this world." Xiao Yusen's words were like an ice-cold knife, stabbing directly into my scarred chest.
"Impossible! How could Brother Yi Mo die? You liars!"
I screamed and struggled frantically to break free from Xiao Yusen. The world in front of me quickly collapsed in my sight, and I tried hard to run forward.
The wind whistled in my ears and the clouds moved quickly across the sky.
I want to prove to them that Brother Yi Mo is fine. We also agreed that you would help me celebrate my birthday today. I have already finished writing my love letter...
A total of 99 letters, not one more, not one less...
How could Brother Yimo not read those love letters that I wrote to him with so much love? How could he...
Brother Yi Mo will definitely appear by my side again, holding my favorite strawberry-flavored marshmallow, and gently brushing my hair on my forehead, and everything will return to the way it was before!
Yin Qianxia, ​​if you run a little faster, you will see Brother Yi Mo.
I ran like crazy, leaving all the scenery behind me. I only had one direction and one road in my eyes. If I kept running along this road, Brother Yimo would appear beside me.
Finally, my home appeared in front of me. I rushed into the house, ran into the room like crazy, and took out all the love letters in the cardboard boxes.
A piece of white snow, gathering my two whole years of longing.
“Pah—Pah—”
Tears fell on the snow-white letter paper, and the black handwriting was clearly visible through the thin paper.
"Qianxia..." Xiao Yusen's breathless voice came from behind.
I was in no mood to pay attention to him. At this moment, I just wanted to see Brother Yi Mo. We had already made an appointment, and he would definitely not break his promise. I believe him...
It's almost 7 o'clock, and the time we agreed on is about to arrive. Brother Yi Mo will be waiting for me there, he will definitely be.
Thinking of this, I picked up the box containing the love letters and walked towards the door of my house.
Let’s go to the old place. Brother Yi Mo and I agreed yesterday that we should watch the most brilliant galaxy together today…
My steps became slower and slower, and finally I stopped and arrived at the place where Brother Yi Mo and I had agreed to meet.
The air seemed to still linger with the scent of roses, and the thorny branches and leaves were spreading out in this small space, easily hurting my heart.
I covered my chest with one hand, as I was out of breath from running so fast.
I couldn't help but shout loudly: "Brother Yi Mo! Brother Yi Mo! Brother Yi Mo!"
However, no matter how loud I shouted, there was still no response.
Apart from the occasional falling leaves, the passing sparrows, and the blowing wind, there was no other movement. It seemed so quiet here.
I looked at my watch. It was already 7:15 and Brother Yi Mo still hadn't shown up...
Was he late because he was preparing a birthday present for me?
Or, was he delayed by something?
Thinking of this, I slowly sat down on the grass holding the love letter. The breeze mixed with the faint fragrance of flowers brushed my nose, and I raised my head and looked at the gradually darkening sky.
Brother Yi Mo will definitely come...
Brother Yi Mo will appear soon...
In this way, time passed by minute by minute in the agonizing wait.
I don’t know how long it took, but I felt my fingertips become cold, the night gradually enveloped the entire sky, and the neon lights in the distance kept flashing.
I looked at the time, it was already 9 o'clock...
Two hours have passed since the appointment with Brother Yi Mo...
How could Brother Yi Mo be so late? Could it be as Shan Yiyao and Xiao Yusen said?
As soon as this thought popped into my mind, I immediately shook my head vigorously.
Impossible, no, Brother Yi Mo will definitely come!
Thoughts kept churning in my mind, and the uneasiness in my heart was growing little by little.
"Yin Qianxia."
In my blurred vision, Xiao Yusen was slowly approaching me. His expression was so anxious, so flustered, and his sadness could not be concealed.
Why...why was Xiao Yusen like this? Did he also believe Shan Yiyao's lies?
"I'm fine. I know Shan Yiyao lied to me. I'm really fine. Xiao Yusen, listen to me. Brother Yimo didn't leave. He has been by my side these days. Yesterday, just yesterday, I saw him! He made an appointment with me that we would watch the most brilliant galaxy together here. And, on my birthday, do you remember? I fell into the lake, and it was Brother Yimo who saved me! How could he die?"
I forced out a faint smile, and my voice was so cold that even I couldn't feel the temperature.
"China! Where did the galaxy come from? It's been cloudy since yesterday... Also, the person who saved you that day wasn't Shan Yimo, but An Naxu, a passerby who shouted on the street when she saw you jump into the lake and was worried that something might happen to you. That wasn't your brother Yimo, that wasn't..." Xiao Yusen walked closer to me step by step and put a hand on my shoulder. Warm power came from his palm, but even so, I still couldn't feel the warmth.
"Enough! Xiao Yusen, are you and Shan Yiyao working together to deceive me? Aren't you my best friend?" Tears welled up in my eyes and my voice became a little hysterical.
Why did you lie to me?
The one who rescued me from the lake that day was obviously Brother Yi Mo!
Although I didn't see his appearance clearly, my intuition told me that it was him!
"Yin Qianxia! Look up at the sky, the clouds are so thick that you can't see the stars! Your brother Yi Mo never came back..." Xiao Yusen's voice was so calm and serious, but he said such cruel words.
Listening to Xiao Yusen's words, I slowly looked up. The black sky was covered with thick clouds, and not a single star could be seen.
My steps stumbled, my heart trembled uncontrollably, and a feeling of pain silently penetrated into my body.
"No, Brother Yi Mo told me yesterday that if there is a galaxy today, there must be a galaxy. He won't lie to me. The dark clouds will disperse soon..."
After saying that, I sat quietly on the grass holding the love letter.
There are so many pictures, bringing back so many memories and nostalgia for me.
Before Brother Yi Mo came back, I had planned many things to do with him, but until now, so many days have passed, and I have not been able to do those things with Brother Yi Mo.
I want to watch movies with him, look at the stars with him, go to the beach with him, and...
I didn't do anything, but I suddenly felt like I had reached the end.
These days, apart from complaining about Xiao Yusen to Brother Yi Mo, I keep complaining about Xiao Yusen... Why is this happening?
Tears blurred my vision, and scenes from the past appeared before my eyes.
The warmth of our first meeting, the scent of roses surrounding him and a clean, gentle smile on his face.
The first time he brought me delicious marshmallows, his eyes curved into crescent shapes, and that lingering sweet feeling wrapped my heart.
The first time I watched the stars with him, his face was hazy and charming under the moonlight.
With so many vivid memories, how could I let them go?
These memories have become a part of my body, and every time I think of them, I become addicted...
How can I believe that Brother Yi Mo has left me forever?
I will never be able to do this...
Even until the dark blue sky slowly turned dark, Brother Yi Mo did not show up...
The sky was like a dark curtain, but this curtain was not dotted with diamonds like usual, and dark clouds still covered the sky.
"Qianxia, ​​there really are no stars today, can you go back?" Xiao Yusen stood up and walked in front of me, then squatted down and said gently.
I hugged the cardboard box tightly and shook my head silently.
There will be... there will definitely be...
How could Brother Yi Mo lie?
I slowly leaned back and lay exhausted on the grass. Many yellow lights slowly rose up, and through the faint mist of the night, these small yellow lights looked like stars twinkling on the ground.
"The Milky Way... the most beautiful Milky Way... Brother Yimo, I saw it..."
I reached out and held one of the yellow lights in my palm.
The tiny fireflies were flying in the palm of my hand, and the faint and gentle light reminded me of Brother Yi Mo's eyes.
"Qianxia, ​​you..." Hearing my mumbling, Xiao Yusen frowned slightly and wanted to say something worriedly, but was stopped by my cautious eyes.
"Shh - Xiao Yusen, look, this is the most beautiful starry sky. The starry sky appears, and Brother Yi Mo will appear soon..." Looking at the little guy glowing in the palm of my hand, a gentle smile appeared on my face.
Xiao Yusen slowly approached me. He looked at the firefly in my hand in confusion, and the worry in his eyes was unconsciously mixed with a hint of trembling.
After a while, he slowly said: "Qianxia, ​​don't be like this. Let's...let's go home, okay? I will never pull your braids again..."
His voice seemed choked.
But I don’t understand, I’m very happy now, why does he look like he’s about to cry?
"Brother Yi Mo is coming, he will definitely come." Tears gradually blurred my vision, and the yellow light flickered as if responding to my words.
"She's crazy..." Shan Yiyao's cold voice sounded behind me, followed by a faint voice, "I'm leaving, Xiao Yusen, you go crazy with her..."
I ignored it and looked at the brilliant firefly starry sky. Tears blurred my vision and the little yellow lights became softer.
Xiao Yusen took off his coat and put it on me. His eyes were red and his voice was choked: "I will wait with you. No matter how long you want to wait, I will accompany you."
I always thought that if you were asleep you wouldn't feel pain.
I walked barefoot on the grass. It was quiet all around me. In the dark night, fireflies flashed yellow lights around me.
I walked step by step, breathing in the freshness of the grass in the night sky. Suddenly, a familiar fragrance rushed into my nose. I turned around and saw that familiar face in surprise.
"Brother Yi Mo?" I called his name softly, my heart feeling so peaceful and calm .
"Qianxia, ​​I'm here. We made an appointment, right?" Brother Yi Mo looked at me gently, his bright eyes like the brightest stars in the night sky.
"I knew you would come! I knew Xiao Yusen and Shan Yiyao lied to me!" He looked up and said as a matter of course.
After saying that, I stretched out my hand, and involuntarily wanted to touch Brother Yi Mo’s fair face and feel the warmth from his skin.
But... the moment my hand touched Brother Yi Mo's cheek, that small piece of skin instantly became transparent. I frantically wanted to grab something, but...
Brother Yi Mo's body in front of me gradually became blurred and transparent, like a mist that would dissipate with the wind.
"Brother Yi Mo?" I shouted fearfully.
"Qianxia, ​​the starry sky is beautiful, isn't it?" Brother Yi Mo's rose-petal-like lips gently opened, and his voice was so ethereal that it seemed like it would disappear at any time.
"Hmm..." I tried my best to hold back the tears and nodded gently.
"Will Chixia always remember me? Will you always remember me no matter how long it takes?" Brother Yi Mo's cold fingers slid across my cheek.
“Pah—”
I promised not to cry, but I couldn't help it.
Why did Brother Yi Mo say these words to me? Did he want to say goodbye to me?
Is he going to leave me?
"Brother Yi Mo, tell me, what Shan Yi Yao and Xiao Yu Sen said is not true, right? Tell me it's not true, okay?" As the tears flowed down her cheeks, they suddenly turned into crystal drops that slowly rose.
After a while, my brother Yimo and I were surrounded by water droplets, but I still couldn't stop crying...
I really want to hear Brother Yi Mo's answer, but I don't dare...
Slowly, I lowered my head, not daring to look at Brother Yi Mo's face again...
"Qianxia, ​​goodbye. Promise me that you will take good care of yourself. Even if I'm not by your side, you must take good care of yourself..." In the water vapor, Brother Yi Mo's body slowly became transparent.
"No! Brother Yi Mo! Don't leave! Tell me, they all lied to me, right? You didn't leave me, right?"
"Goodbye, my Chinatsu. The happiness that belongs to you is not something I can give you. I'm sorry, Chinatsu." A crystal tear slid across Brother Yi Mo's cheek. A white , and slowly, the whole person disappeared without a trace along with the mist.
"Ah!" I screamed and opened my eyes, and in front of me was a green world. I was wearing Xiao Yusen's clothes, and that guy was staring at me blankly with a pair of exaggerated dark circles under his eyes.
Didn't he sleep all night?
I rubbed my sleepy eyes. The yellow spots of light had disappeared. All that was left was the fresh grass and a white cardboard box on the grass.
Without Brother Yimo...
Is Brother Yi Mo really gone?
“Brother Yimo!” I shouted at the empty grass, tears streaming down my cheeks…
"Qianxia, ​​he hasn't come, and he won't come in the future. Can you please be more sober?" Xiao Yusen grabbed my arm, and the pain in his eyes was unbearable to look at.
The dream of separation just now was like a beast that would devour the brain, making my heart and my body tremble.
"Goodbye, Chinatsu..."
In my dream, brother Yi Mo’s words echoed in my ears over and over again.
No, no, Brother Yi Mo would not just say goodbye to me in a dream and then leave...
How could he bear to do that? How could he bear to make me so sad...
"Xiao Yusen, don't lie to me. Brother Yi Mo will not leave me..." I held Xiao Yusen's arm tightly, as if I would fall down at any time if I lost this support.
I struggled feebly, trying to grasp at the last straw.
"Qianxia, ​​I won't lie to you, Shan Yimo is really dead. Whether you accept it or not, this is the fact." Xiao Yusen's eyebrows were tightly furrowed.
I could feel that he was so heartbroken, heartbroken for me.
But……
How is this possible?
How can I believe this?
Is everything my fault?
If it weren't for me, Brother Yi Mo wouldn't have...
It was my willfulness and my nonsense that made Brother Yi Mo...
So, it’s all because of me, it’s all because of me…
In an instant, the wind stopped and the whole world became extremely quiet.
"Xiao Yusen, please tell me? Tell me this is all fake."
"Qianxia, ​​calm down..." Xiao Yusen supported me, and there seemed to be sparkling tears in his eyes.
My heart felt like it was being twisted by thousands of knives, and the pain went numb in an instant...
Those secrets and doubts that I once wanted to solve so much, the answers turned out to be like this?
"No, I don't want this!" I screamed madly, and the harsh sound drilled into my ears.
The next moment, Xiao Yusen carried me on his shoulders.
"You need to go home and rest." Xiao Yusen took my pile of love letters, carried me on his shoulders, and walked towards home.
Lying on Xiao Yusen's shoulder, the long-lost sense of security surrounded me tightly, and my tears bloomed like flowers on his shirt.
When I got home, the first thing I did was to call Brother Yi Mo.
I locked myself in the room and kept dialing, but the response I always got was:
"The number you dialed is not in service..."
A few days passed like this, and my father returned home after learning what had happened.
Looking at my father's worried eyes, I tried hard to convince myself to be good and not make him worry.
However, my longing for brother Yi Mo turned me into a naughty child.
"Chinatsu, how do you feel?" Dad walked towards me gently with some cut fruits in his hand.
The accumulated sadness in my heart made me throw myself into my father's arms. My tears flowed wildly, wetting my father's clothes.
"Chinatsu, don't cry. Dad doesn't want to see you like this." Dad's voice was a little choked.
"Dad, I can't find Brother Yi Mo. I can't find him. Why did Brother Yi Mo leave without saying goodbye to me? Why didn't he tell me?" I cried loudly.
Clearly, a few days ago, Brother Yimo was standing right in front of me, wiping my tears and listening to me talk about my boring thoughts...
How could it be possible? Why would he just leave without saying goodbye?
We were talking and laughing together a few days ago...
The lies told by Shan Yiyao and Xiao Yusen...
How could they deceive me with such vicious lies...
I don't believe it, I don't believe it...
"Chinatsu, don't be sad, okay?" Dad patted my back gently with his big hands.
"Dad, Brother Yi Mo just left without saying goodbye. Is he angry with me? Is it because I was too willful and lied to him that I broke my leg, and always talked about Xiao Yusen's affairs when I was with him, and I didn't have a good chat with him, so he was angry? Otherwise, why would he leave me without saying a word? Dad, my heart hurts so much..."
Big tears flowed from my closed eyes, and it seemed that this sadness would never stop.
Until my voice became hoarse from crying and I had no strength left in my body, I raised my tear-stained face and looked at my father.
"Qianxia, ​​cry if you want to. Daddy will lend you his shoulder to lean on." Dad reached out his hand with concern and gently stroked the hair on my forehead.
Such a familiar move...
Brother Yi Mo often strokes my head like this.
The memories replayed silently in my mind. I finally couldn't hide it anymore and decided to tell my father everything that happened in the past few days...
"Dad, do you know? I fell into the lake on my birthday, and it was brother Yi Mo who rescued me. Didn't I get sick later? After I recovered, brother Yi Mo came to see me. He told me that he didn't come to celebrate my birthday because he was too busy, and he said he would make up for it for me. Later, when I had a quarrel with Xiao Yusen, he comforted me... By the way, there was another time when I thought of him during class, and he came! That day I was angry with Xiao Yusen about which university to go to, and brother Yi Mo comforted me. We also agreed that he would accompany me on my birthday, and we agreed to watch the stars together. But why did I wait for the starry sky but not brother Yi Mo? Dad, brother Yi Mo really appeared by my side, how could he leave?" The tears fell into my mouth and it was bitter. It was the taste of longing.
Not long ago, Brother Yi Mo really appeared in front of me and gave me so much comfort and warmth.
Even though a person's memory can be deceiving, how can those clear tastes and feelings at the time be faked?
"Chinatsu, you... stop imagining nonsense."
"Dad! What I said is true. You have to believe me. Brother Yi Mo has really been by my side! Really!" I repeated it again and again, obsessively wanting to get some recognition.
Tears quietly slid down my cheeks, blurring the world in front of my eyes once again.
Why? Why did they all say that Brother Yi Mo had really left.
Why, in their eyes, the time I've been spending with Brother Yi Mo these days was just an illusion that I directed and acted out myself?
I cried loudly, tears streaming down my face, unable to control myself.
After a long while, I heard a heavy sigh, and then my father put his arm around my shoulders and told me, "Qianxia, ​​I believe in you."
The air seemed to be filled with the scent of roses. I tried hard to breathe in this familiar smell. I wished that Brother Yi Mo could appear in front of me and tell me that this was all just a joke...
My father asked for leave from school for me, and I locked myself in my room and refused to go out. These days, every minute and every second, I was looking forward to seeing Brother Yimo appear in front of me again.
But after every expectation, there is disappointment, again and again...
In the evening, Xiao Yusen came home to accompany me as usual after school, but today was a little different. With him appeared a pink cloud-like cotton candy.
Under normal circumstances, I would have sat up in bed and screamed with excitement...
But at this moment, I can only look at that guy with a bitter smile...
Xiao Yusen was always by my side these days. Most of the time, he just looked at me silently, without talking to me or asking me any questions.
"Eat." The sunlight sprinkled lightly into Xiao Yusen's eyes, but even with the brightness of the light, there was still lingering sadness in his eyes, and the smile on the corners of his mouth turned bitter.
I took the marshmallow and licked it gently with my tongue. When did the strawberry-flavored marshmallow start to become bitter? I still remember the first time I met Brother Yi Mo, he ate marshmallows with me... I also told him the secret of marshmallows...
Does he still remember the magic of marshmallows now?
As I was deep in thought, a white finger suddenly appeared in front of me. The fingertip had a faint minty scent and slowly approached my nose...
What is Xiao Yusen going to do?
There was the scent of sunshine in the air, my vision was crushed by the sunshine, and the fingertips with golden light stopped a few centimeters away from my nose.
I held my breath, wondering what would happen next...
But it stayed for a few seconds and then left suddenly, and then a familiar pain came from the roots of my hair. "Xiao Yusen!" I widened my eyes and roared at Xiao Yusen in front of me.
"Well, your voice is still so confident, it should be fine." Xiao Yusen showed a sly smile and then sat down next to me.
I continued to lick the marshmallow, but my eyes kept glancing at the guy.
"Why do you like pulling my hair so much? Is it fun?" The atmosphere suddenly became quiet, so I had to find a random topic.
"Haha, what do you think?" Xiao Yusen laughed.
"Because you enjoy making me mad?"
I originally thought that Xiao Yusen would refute me as usual.
But……
But he still smiled like that, and there was a hint of sadness in his smile that I couldn't understand.
"If I say that I like pulling your hair so much just because I want you to pay attention to me, would you believe me?"
"Let me pay attention to you?" I couldn't understand the meaning of Xiao Yusen's words, and asked while staring at his face. "Yes, I want to attract your attention, and want to have some small actions that belong to you, so..." Xiao Yusen raised a bitter smile, and even the brightest sunlight couldn't seem to melt the sadness in his eyes.
My own little trick?
"But I prefer scratching my nose to pulling my hair..." I lowered my head, and the image of Xiao Yusen scratching my nose appeared in my mind, and I murmured softly.
"Hey, stop calling him Brother Yi Mo all the time, okay? Tell me, what exactly is the charm of Brother Yi Mo?" Xiao Yusen asked disapprovingly, squinting his eyes.
I rolled my eyes, then grabbed my hair and said to Xiao Yusen, "For example, my hair! Brother Yi Mo would never pull my hair as hard as you do, never!"
"What will he do?"
I pointed to my nose and said, "Brother Yimo only scratches my nose very gently. That feeling is love. You won't understand."
"Tsk..." Hearing what I said, Xiao Yusen made a disdainful sound at the corner of his mouth.
Then, a slender, white finger enlarged in front of my eyes and stopped in front of my nose.
I held my breath and stared at the finger in front of me with wide eyes.
Then, along with the faint mint scent, the heat of her fingertips gently lingered on the tip of my nose, such a slight touch that made my heart skip a beat at that moment.
"thumping--"
After hearing what I said, Xiao Yusen didn't say anything. I felt the fog in his eyes became heavier. After a while, he walked out of my room, leaving me with a lonely back.