When we like someone, perhaps the question of choice does not even exist.
Because the human heart is actually very small, so small that it can only hold one person.
So liking something has nothing to do with choice.
It's just a pure attraction of the heart.

Early in the morning of a new day, I opened my eyes drowsily, picked up the alarm clock from the bedside, and screamed as soon as I took a look at it.
No way? It's almost 8 o'clock?
Hate it! Damn it!
I cursed over and over in my heart, washed and changed my clothes as quickly as possible, then rushed out of the house and rushed to school.
Fortunately, I arrived at the classroom 10 minutes before the bell rang. Phew! It seems that I was lucky today and I was not late!
I walked towards my seat, only to find that Xiao Yusen hadn't arrived yet. Could it be that... he wanted to skip class again?
I muttered to myself, and slowly moved my gaze from Xiao Yusen's seat back to my own seat, only to see that my desk had become unrecognizable, with vicious words written on it with markers of various colors, and a pile of garbage scattered on the seat.
My mind went blank for three seconds and I had no idea what was going on.
"Oh my God! Chinatsu, what happened?" I didn't react until Ai Anan stood beside me with her schoolbag on her back and exclaimed.
Yeah, what happened? Can anyone tell me?
"I don't know... Is this my seat?" This scene, which I had never seen before, instantly lowered my IQ by several levels.
"Of course, Qianxia, ​​did you offend anyone?" Ai Anan asked kindly.
Who did I offend? I thought carefully, if there was anyone who had a conflict with me, it was probably An Nai Xu, right? But since Xiao Yusen warned her, she never bothered me again!
Then...who could it be?
Could it be someone like Annao who is obsessed with Xiao Yusen?
"According to my analysis, Qianxia, ​​you are usually friendly and low-key. There are not many people who hate you, except..." Ai Anan supported his chin with his right hand, thinking.
"Except what?"
When Ai Anan heard my question, she cast a sly look at me, then pulled me and whispered, "Except for those crazy girls who like Xiao Yusen! Qianxia, ​​let me tell you, the only way to solve this problem is to help me chase Xiao Yusen! After Xiao Yusen and I are together, I will help you bear all the harm and bullying." After saying that, Ai Anan showed a righteous expression.
Listening to what the girl said, I shook my head and ignored her, squatting down to clean up the desk.
Of course I can guess that the pranksters can only be those crazy girls who like Xiao Yusen, but I still don't agree with Ai Anan's suggestion...
Who Xiao Yusen likes and who he wants to be with should be decided by himself. What does it have to do with me?
And even if I intervene, he might not listen...
"Hey, let me help you!" Although I did not agree to Ai Anan's request, she still helped me clean up because she couldn't bear to see it.
In this way, with the help of Ai Anan, I finally cleaned up the garbage on my seat until the bell rang, but there was no way to wipe off the vicious words on the desk.
I originally thought that my good luck would continue since Brother Yi Mo came back, but today I encountered such bad luck. The worst thing is that a whole morning has passed and I haven’t found the culprit.
Xiao Yusen hasn't come to school, so my only person to complain to is not here. I can only swallow this bitter fruit by myself.
Humph! Xiao Yusen, you must be flirting with some girl now, right? Do you know that your sister Qianxia is in trouble at school?
When I thought that Xiao Yusen might be walking on the tree-lined path with some beautiful woman right now, saying those flattering words, my heart was unconsciously surrounded by unhappy feelings, sour and bitter.
It was not until the end of get out of class that I walked alone on the stairs to the bathroom, my mind still in a mess.
Who on earth has such a deep hatred towards me that he made my desk like that?
And what is that guy Xiao Yusen doing now?
I was lost in thought when I suddenly felt a powerful force coming from behind me...
I didn't have time to react, and I lost my balance and fell down...
"ah--"
I screamed and waved my hands to try to grab hold of something, but I still couldn't avoid falling heavily to the ground.
A strong pain came over me the moment I landed on the ground. Faintly, I saw a girl whom I had never seen before leaving from behind me.
Then, I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head, and then my eyes went dark and I fell into a coma.
In a daze, I felt myself being embraced in a warm embrace, and I could hear his heartbeat due to nervousness.
“Boom—boom—”
Who is it?
Xiao Yusen?
Brother Yi Mo?
I felt the pain in my head slowly ease up. I opened my eyes blearily and saw Xiao Yusen standing in front of me with an anxious look on his face.
After I blinked my eyes, the surrounding scenery gradually became clear in my sight, as if... I was lying on a hospital bed in the infirmary.
"Are you stupid? You'll get hurt even if you go downstairs." Xiao Yusen's face was full of worry, his eyebrows were tightly furrowed, and he complained to me angrily.
There seems to be some concern hidden in such complaints.
Xiao Yusen like this makes me feel warm in my heart, and the fear and anxiety are slowly dissipating.
"I..." I was speechless for a moment.
How should I tell Xiao Yusen? Should I tell him that I was pushed down the stairs by a girl I don't know? Maybe that girl is a crazy fan of him?
I raised my arm to support myself and sit up, but found that my arm was wrapped in gauze, and a slight pain came from the wrapped area.
"Does it hurt, idiot?" Xiao Yusen asked with a pout.
Was that warm and safe embrace from Xiao Yusen just now? I couldn't believe it. I thought that only Brother Yi Mo could give me such a warm feeling.
Is he worried about me? He must be!
"I'm fine. Were you the one who brought me here just now?" I asked softly.
"Of course I carried you here, who else would it be?" Xiao Yusen glanced at me with dissatisfaction and continued, "Yin Qianxia, ​​if you are so confused again next time, I will definitely teach you a lesson." After saying that, his tightly furrowed brows finally relaxed a little.
"Xiao Yusen, you are getting more and more arrogant! If it weren't for you, how could I have been pushed down the stairs?" I pouted and complained.
"What does it have to do with me?" Xiao Yusen, who was a little confused by my words, raised his voice and asked.
"It must be your business! Who else would bully and play tricks on me like this except for those crazy girls who like you! You should find a girlfriend as soon as possible! Otherwise, I will definitely be killed by you!" I glanced at him and said unhappily.
"I won't look for it, I won't look for it! How about that!"
"Whatever you want! Just don't hurt me next time!"
…
"Qianxia, ​​let's go. You have to be careful. Although your arm is not seriously injured, it must not get wet." After school, Ai Anan helped me carry my schoolbag and walked out of the classroom with me.
"Yeah! Thank you!" While I thanked Ai An'an, my eyes couldn't help but look at Xiao Yusen's receding back. Was he going on a date with another girl?
I feel sad...
Forget it, Yin Qianxia, ​​why do you care so much about what Xiao Yusen does? He is a real playboy, even if he goes on a date with a girl, it's not surprising at all!
"Qianxia, ​​what kind of girl do you think Xiao Yusen likes?" Ai Anan suddenly asked.
The girl Xiao Yusen likes?
I stared at Ai Anan blankly and began to think about this problem very seriously.
In my memory, all of Xiao Yusen’s girlfriends were girls with pretty faces and good figures without exception.
But I remember that he once said that the girl he liked was stupid...
It seems that he just said that randomly...
"Pretty, with a good figure, gentle... a girl like that." I told Ai Anan the truth. Although this might undermine her confidence, it would be wise to let go of a playboy like Xiao Yusen as soon as possible!
"Ah? But I'm not pretty enough, I don't have a good figure, and I'm not very gentle... I can't say I'm very gentle. Xiao Yusen will definitely not like me, right?"
"That's not necessarily true." I said perfunctorily.
Although Xiao Yusen and I have been friends since childhood, I don’t understand what he is thinking at all.
Just like that, Ai Anan and I chatted while walking slowly on the tree-lined path that we must pass every day. The afterglow of the setting sun quietly sprinkled on the ground through the gaps between the leaves.
Suddenly, I heard a fierce quarrel. A girl was shouting, and the other voice sounded like Xiao Yusen's!
“Shh—”
Ai Anan and I looked at each other, and before Ai Anan screamed, I quickly gestured to her to keep quiet.
The two of us walked cautiously towards the source of the sound like detectives.
I heard it right!
In the woods beside the boulevard, Xiao Yusen was arguing fiercely with a girl.
I tried hard to hear their conversation clearly, but in order to prevent Xiao Yusen from noticing, Ai Anan and I could only watch from afar.
It seems that this guy has broken another girl's heart...
Oh, no, no, that girl looks so familiar...
I unconsciously slowly approached the two of them.
As the figures of Xiao Yusen and that girl became clearer and clearer in my sight, I was surprised to find that the girl who was arguing with Xiao Yusen was actually... the last girl I saw after I fell in the morning!
Why her?
Who is she?
With full of doubts, I continued to move forward carefully.
"ah!"
But who knew, my feet suddenly slipped.
"Be careful! Chinatsu."
Fortunately, Ai Anan was quick to act and supported me in the first place.
Our loud shouting attracted the attention of Xiao Yusen and the girl not far away.
"Qianxia?" Xiao Yusen's expression was extremely shocked, as if he was trying hard to hide something, and there was even a hint of panic in his eyes.
I stood up straight, a little embarrassed.
After all, eavesdropping on other people's conversations is a very dishonest thing to do.
The girl standing next to Xiao Yusen was also looking straight at me. To be exact, she was staring at me with her eyes wide open.
The corners of her mouth drooped slightly, and her arms were folded, as if in a provocative or resentful expression.
I looked at the girl's pretty face, and in a trance I felt that I had seen such a clean face, such bright eyes, and such long black hair somewhere before.
"What are you doing here?" Xiao Yusen walked up to me and asked with an angry look on his face.
"I...I heard your voice and came over here."
"What did you hear?" he asked suddenly nervously.
"No, I didn't hear it."
"Yeah, we didn't hear anything." Ai Anan was most afraid that Xiao Yusen would be angry, so she immediately agreed.
Xiao Yusen frowned slightly, turned his head vigilantly to look at the strange girl, then grabbed my hand with the fastest speed and greatest force, and led me towards home without looking back.
"Xiao Yusen! What are you doing?"
what the hell?
I instinctively wanted to break free, but I was no match for Xiao Yusen's strength, so I had to let him drag me away.
Ai Anan followed us, carrying her schoolbag, panting.
Oh my god! Since when did it start, whether it was Xiao Yusen or Brother Yi Mo, everyone seemed to have so many secrets!
I followed Xiao Yusen in annoyance, with more and more doubts in my heart.
I turned around and saw the girl behind me still standing in the woods. Her eyes seemed to be burning with raging fire and a trace of indelible resentment, and this gaze seemed to always stay on me.
Why does a girl I have never met seem to have so much resentment and anger towards me?
What happened this morning...was it really done by her?
Is there a secret between her and Xiao Yusen that I don't know about?
But what have I done to make a stranger hate me so much?
"Xiao Yusen, who is that girl?" I finally couldn't help but ask.
"You don't need to know." Xiao Yusen frowned, still stubbornly pulling me towards home.
"Is it a girl who likes you?" Ai Anan's tone sounded sour.
The girl probably did this because she misunderstood our relationship.
"Is this really the case, Xiao Yusen?" I continued to ask, and I would not give up until I got the answer!
"Whatever you think!" Xiao Yusen was actually a little angry. When we arrived at the door of his house, he let go of my hand and walked in the opposite direction angrily.
The more he acts like this, the more I feel like he is trying to escape from something, trying to cover up something!
"Hey! Xiao Yusen!" I shouted unwillingly behind him.
"Qianxia..." Ai Anan blocked my way, "He must have some reason why he doesn't want you to know. Qianxia, ​​just let him go!"
Ai Anan fully exercised her rights as Xiao Yusen's number one fan. She asked me for help in a nice voice, but she blocked my way without allowing any objection.
The power of a nymphomaniac...is indeed very strong.
I reluctantly said goodbye to Ai Anan, but I couldn't help but stare at Xiao Yusen's receding back. Finally, I had to return to my empty home in disappointment.
The wound on my arm still hurt a little, and I leaned against the desk in a daze.
Who is that girl?
What is your relationship with Xiao Yusen?
Why did Xiao Yusen become so weird in front of that girl?
Do they have some unspeakable secret?
The more I thought about it, the more upset I felt. I rubbed my hair and prepared to open the drawer and take out my diary, but I saw a pile of love letters lying inside.
Yes, I actually forgot about writing love letters these days...
There is only one letter left, I will try my best to finish it...
In two days, I will let Brother Yi Mo celebrate my birthday with me, and then I will give these love letters to Brother Yi Mo...
Thinking of this, I picked up the pen and started writing quickly.

Brother Yimo:
This is the last love letter I wrote to you. In the past two years, I have written a total of 99 love letters to you. These 99 love letters not only represent my longing for you, but also represent my courage, the courage to firmly like you, and the courage to be with you forever...

After writing this paragraph, I don’t know what to write next…
It seems that I have written almost everything that can be written...
The important thing is that I can’t seem to find the mood I used to have when writing love letters.
To me, it seems like something is changing little by little. Without my knowledge, some emotions seem to be a little different from before...
"Ah!" I sighed, crumpled up the letter I had just written and threw it into the trash can next to me.
The tip of the pen was drawing random lines on the blank paper, and I was thinking about how to start writing. If I had to face a long separation from Brother Yi Mo again this time, what would I want to say to him?
Thinking of this, a faint sadness slipped through my heart. This sadness was not because I had to face the separation from Brother Yi Mo again, but because it seemed that I could slowly accept the separation from Brother Yi Mo, and I was not as reluctant as before.
Maybe it's just like what Brother Yi Mo said, it's impossible for someone to always be with someone...

Brother Yimo:
These love letters you see now have been hidden on my desk for two years. Whenever I miss you, these words will record my thoughts. In the past two years, many things seem to have changed, but you are the only thing that has not changed. You are still as gentle as before...

When I was finally writing smoothly, that familiar little spot of light suddenly flashed on the windowsill.
Xiao Yusen?
Didn't that guy just leave in a huff? Why is he looking for me again?
Thinking of this, I picked up the mirror on the desk and shook it a few times in the sunset.
"Yin Qianxia, ​​what are you doing?" Xiao Yusen's voice came.
"Get down to business!" I responded briefly, then lowered my head to continue writing the unfinished love letter.
The rustling sound of writing was amplified in the quiet room, and the clock was ticking. I must give these love letters to Brother Yi Mo before he leaves, so that he can understand the meaning of these love letters...
Thinking back on every little detail I had with Brother Yi Mo and his company over the past few days, my writing seems to flow much more smoothly than before.
“Are you still writing?”
A familiar voice suddenly came from behind.
I turned around and saw that Xiao Yusen had come to my house at some point. He looked at the love letter I wrote with a shocked and confused expression.
I stuffed the love letter into the drawer and said, "Please, come in without knocking."
"I have been coming and going freely in your house. When have I ever knocked on the door?" Xiao Yusen stared at the drawer where I kept my love letters. His eyes seemed a little sad and a little shocked.
"Stop staring at the drawer! I won't show you my love letters." I blocked the drawer behind me, turned around and looked at Xiao Yusen with a serious expression.
"Yin Qianxia, ​​stop writing your love letters. It won't be of any use." Xiao Yusen didn't look me in the eyes, but lowered his head so that I couldn't see his expression.
Although I don't understand what reason this guy had for asking me not to write love letters and even questioned the effectiveness of my love letters, I was really angry about his attitude.
He knew very well that I spent two years writing these love letters. How could he look down upon my feelings like that?
"No, I will keep writing and give it to Brother Yi Mo." I pouted and deliberately turned my head away from Xiao Yusen.
"Don't write anymore, he won't be able to read it, and he won't come back!" Xiao Yusen's tone was so firm that it made people a little angry.
"Who told you that Brother Yi Mo won't come back!" I pouted and continued unhappily, "I'm telling you, Brother Yi Mo is back! He came to see me the day after my birthday! So, I will definitely give him the love letter, and he will definitely see it!"
"You..." After listening to my words, Xiao Yusen seemed to want to say something to refute me, but seeing my unusually firm look, he swallowed the words back.
"What do you mean by 'me'? What? You can't beat me, right?" I raised my proud look.
I don't know if it was because my tone was too firm or because my reaction was too intense, but when Xiao Yusen heard what I said, he immediately looked at me with eyes as if he saw a monster. From his eyes, I saw shock, and more of panic. Humph! This guy must have been scared by me. I will call Brother Yi Mo out to meet everyone tomorrow!
"Yin Qianxia, ​​don't be silly, wake up, Shan Yimo will not come back!" The shocked look on Xiao Yusen's face slowly faded away, replaced by an inexplicable anger. There was a layer of cold mist in his eyes. After his gaze swept across my cheek in a trance, he rushed out.
I stood there in a daze, wondering what was wrong with this guy?
Ignoring Xiao Yusen's weirdness, I took out the unfinished love letter and continued writing. An hour later, it was finally finished.
After finishing writing, I lay in bed until my eyelids started to twitch restlessly and I couldn’t help but fall into a dream.
There is the most dazzling starry sky in the dream, and at the end of the starry sky, stands that familiar figure.
Thinking of the nightmare before, I didn’t shout Brother Yi Mo’s name loudly again. Instead, I walked closer to him step by step and sat down beside him.
The familiar scent of roses surrounded me. Brother Yi Mo's face was looming in the mist, but the tenderness between his eyebrows was still clear.
"These are not ordinary stars." That familiar, gentle and magnetic voice sounded in my ears.
I tilted my head and asked in a questioning tone, "Huh?"
"These stars are made of condensed tears, that's why they shine so brightly."
Stars formed from condensed tears?
Hearing this answer, I couldn't help but raise my head and reach out my hand...
My fingers feel wet and moist...
It really is the feeling of tears...
"Whose tears are these?" I turned around and asked, but found that there was no one around.
"Brother Yimo!" I shouted loudly, but the only response I got was the empty sound of the wind.
Until the bell rang for the end of the first class, just as I expected, Xiao Yusen did not come to class again.
snort!
If you keep skipping classes like this, you will be happy when the school doesn't give you a diploma.
Although I thought this in my heart, I knew very clearly that even if Xiao Yusen didn't come to class, his grades would still be good, and the teacher would never cause trouble for him.
"Qianxia, ​​just before class...that girl from yesterday came to see you." I don't know when Ai Anan stood beside me, looking at me sympathetically.
That girl?
Is she the girl who had an argument with Xiao Yusen in the grove yesterday?
Just as I was thinking about it, the girl mentioned by Ai Anan suddenly appeared at the door of our classroom. She walked straight towards me with aggressive steps.
The girl's long, soft black hair fell down her cheeks and onto her shoulders. Her big eyes were bright and clear, and her fair skin sparkled charmingly in the sun.
However, her expression did not match her gentle appearance at all. There was a sharp light in her eyes and the corners of her slightly pursed mouth showed undisguised anger.
I felt a little nervous, my nails were rubbing hard on the table, and my heart was beating fast.
"Yin Qianxia." The strange girl stood in front of me, looking at me with her head held high, with a condescending attitude.
It seemed like disaster was about to strike.
The classmates all put down what they were doing, and all eyes were focused on me and this strange girl.
At such a close distance, I felt that there seemed to be some familiar traces on the girl’s bright and beautiful face.
"Yin Qianxia! I warn you, don't use your despicable means to seduce other boys! What's so good about you? Do you know that you can kill people by doing this!" Without any prelude, this strange girl suddenly put her hands on her hips and yelled at me in a tense posture.
"What? When have I ever seduced other boys?" I opened my eyes wide in confusion. Listening to these insulting words, I couldn't help but feel a surge of anger in my heart.
"Haha, forget it. Maybe you are like this in your bones, which is why you do such despicable things. Do you feel a sense of accomplishment when you see boys surrounding you?" She continued to ask relentlessly.
The originally silent classroom was filled with bursts of discussion, and every sound became so harsh in my ears.
"Wow! So Yin Qianxia is this kind of girl!"
“I really can’t tell!”
"It may be related to Xiao Yusen again! The two of them pretended to be good friends, but in fact..."
My mind went blank for 3 seconds.
Xiao Yusen!
It’s Xiao Yusen again!
I was so angry that I gritted my teeth, and the feeling of grievance filled my little heart bit by bit.
Why does this guy always cause trouble for me!
It got me hurt!
It makes me embarrassed!
"Are you done?" I tried hard to calm down and control my tears from falling.
"Hmph, Yin Qianxia, ​​we won't just let this go!" The strange girl glared at me fiercely again, with resentment flashing in her eyes, as if she wanted to tear me into pieces.
Just because you like Xiao Yusen, why do you hate me so much?
But, in short, it was that guy Xiao Yusen who caused me trouble!
But he always acted as if he didn't care. He said he would leave me and go away alone. I thought he was so cool!
I kept complaining in my heart for the whole morning. Until noon, when all the classmates went to have lunch, I was still sulking in the classroom alone, and the door of the classroom was suddenly pushed open.
I frowned and looked towards the door, but saw that familiar figure, a figure that made me hate it so much!
Xiao Yusen!
"Idiot, why are you sitting here alone? Are you unhappy about something?" He raised his eyebrows slightly, his eyes red.
Is there something unhappy?
Isn’t my unhappiness all because of him?
Thinking of this, the unhappiness in my heart dissipated little by little.
"Actually, many things are not what you think..."
"Stop talking!" Seeing that Xiao Yusen didn't understand and seemed to want to explain something, I interrupted him angrily.
"What's wrong with you? How have I offended you?" Seeing my angry look, Xiao Yusen raised a helpless arc at the corner of his mouth.
Thinking of what just happened, his anger suddenly surged to the top of his head. All the anger and grievances turned into an angry roar at this moment: "Xiao Yusen! The girl who quarreled with you in the grove yesterday came to me this morning and warned me inexplicably! I tell you, don't always bring trouble to me with your romantic debts in the future!"
Hearing what I said, the smile on Xiao Yusen's lips quickly disappeared, and the flickering light in his eyes slowly faded away. That look of disbelief appeared on his face again, and he stared at me in a daze.
"Xiao Yusen, please say something." Not getting a response from him, the feeling of uneasiness gradually grew, and I couldn't help but continue asking.
Xiao Yusen still didn't answer me, and the expression on his face gradually became indifferent. He looked at me indifferently, gave up arguing any further, and left without looking back again.
"Okay! Go away! Don't bother me anymore!" Looking at Xiao Yusen's back, I shouted loudly, picked up a book and threw it at him hard.
"Bang--"
The book fell to the ground, and the pages were blown by the wind, making a sad sound.
A bitter taste arises in my heart.
“Ding Ling Ling——”
When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, neither Xiao Yusen nor I went to look for the other first. Instead, we each treated the other as air.
Humph, you weird guy, I don’t want to take the initiative to make peace.
I glanced at Xiao Yusen's back as he walked out of the classroom with dissatisfaction, and sat alone in the classroom in a daze.
The setting sun gently shone into the classroom. The air was filled with the faint fragrance of leaves. Ai Anan was shaking my arm and begging me to go home with her.
"An An, I want to sit for a while. I don't want to go home so early." I pursed my lips and lay weakly on the table, as if my soul had been sucked out of me.
"Then I'll sit with you..." Seeing that there was no way to convince me, Ai Anan sat with me.
"Yin Qianxia! I have something to tell you!"
Suddenly, a cold voice came from the classroom door.
I looked up and saw the girl who had just come to see me in the morning standing at the door of the classroom with one hand on her hip.
Is it her? Why is she here again?
Actually, I also have a lot to say to her.
"Let's talk." I plucked up my courage and walked towards the girl.
I don’t know when it started, but I don’t want to dodge or escape anymore.
"Hmph, very good, I also have a lot to tell you, Yin Qianxia!" The girl's tone was full of hostility.
But the strange thing is that I actually followed her footsteps and didn't feel like running away at all.
"Chinatown! Chinatown! You..." Ai Anan's anxious voice came from behind.
I didn't look back and followed the girl all the way until we arrived at the quiet rooftop.
The wind blew quietly, the air was filled with the fragrance of leaves, the setting sun dyed the sky a fiery red, and in the red sky, birds flew across the sky from time to time.
My hair swayed gently in the wind. The girl in front of me paced slowly, walked around me several times, and looked me up and down.
"Yin, Qian, Xia." She called my name word by word and stopped in front of me.
A vicious look flashed across her face .
Would Xiao Yusen like a girl like this?
My heart was beating faster because of nervousness. I raised my head and pretended to be calm and said, "Let me say it first. If you like Xiao Yusen, go and fight for him yourself. There is no need to deliberately embarrass me. I am just Xiao Yusen's good friend."
Well, I'm just Xiao Yusen's good friend, his childhood sweetheart...
I affirmed it over and over again in my heart and told myself this over and over again.
The girl showed a look of shock on her face because of what I said. Her bright eyes gradually widened and she looked at me in disbelief.
She doesn't believe it?
"I'm serious. You don't need to be like this. Don't bother me because of him." I repeated again.
If I don't make it clear today, it will not only cause trouble for myself, but also for Xiao Yusen.
If...if they are really together, then...I don't want them to have conflicts because of me.
Suddenly, an inexplicable sour feeling arose in my heart, and I blinked my eyes, trying to suppress the sore feeling in my eyes.
The shock on the girl's face became more obvious, and her sparkling eyes suddenly dimmed. There was an inexplicable anger and indifference in her eyes, which made me shudder.
She...why did she react like this?
"Yin Qianxia! What nonsense are you talking about!" She took a step in front of me, stretched out a hand, grabbed my shoulder and shook it hard.
"Are you crazy?" I was scared and tried to break free from her crazy behavior.
"My name is Shan Yiyao, not some crazy girl who likes Xiao Yusen, Yin Qianxia! Get it clear to me! Also, don't you remember Shan Yimo? Have you forgotten him?" The girl's expression suddenly became angry, and she roared at me, each word bursting out with undisguised anger.
Shan Yimo...
Brother Yi Mo?
My heart suddenly skipped a beat and I looked at Shan Yiyao in front of me in disbelief, but the doubts in my heart seemed to become clearer and clearer.
Could it be that... Shan Yiyao and Shan Yimo are relatives?
Otherwise... how could she know Shan Yimo? Their names are so similar...
The doubts slowly expanded like a balloon, making my heartbeat heavy.
"Do you know him?" I held my breath and tried hard to speak a complete sentence.
"Of course I know him, and..."
"etc!"
A voice interrupted Shan Yiyao's words.
Shan Yiyao and I were both slightly stunned. We looked towards the source of the sound and saw Xiao Yusen standing at the door of the rooftop, panting. He had one hand on his chest, and he seemed to have difficulty breathing due to the rapid running.
"Xiao Yusen?" Shan Yiyao and I said in unison.
How did he know we were here?
"Shan Yiyao! Shut up!" Xiao Yusen rushed to us in two steps, grabbed Shan Yiyao's arm roughly, and pulled her away.
Oh my god!
What is the situation?
"Xiao Yusen! What are you doing?"
Just as I was standing there in a daze, Shan Yiyao couldn't help but scream loudly, and used all her strength to shake off Xiao Yusen's hand, and tried to rush to me quickly again.
"Yin Qianxia! Let me tell you, Shan Yimo is because of you..."
A huge sound echoed in my ears...
There seemed to be a scent of sadness floating in the air, the pale golden sunlight swayed my sight, and I felt the breath of wind coming from behind my ears, which seemed to blow me away in an instant.
Without any warning, Xiao Yusen tightly grasped Shan Yiyao's shoulders with both hands, suddenly lowered his head, and pressed his lips domineeringly on Shan Yiyao's lips.
An unexpected kiss made Shan Yiyao try hard to struggle free, but facing the tall Xiao Yusen, such a struggle seemed so powerless.
My hands, which wanted to stop Xiao Yusen's crazy behavior, froze in mid-air, trembling. Our two youthful faces were pressed together without any distance, emitting a dazzling light.
I didn't dare to get close to them, and I didn't dare to make any noise, for fear of disturbing these two guys who were immersed in it. An uncontrollable feeling of fear tightly grasped my heart, making me want to escape.
Why did Xiao Yusen kiss another girl in front of me? Did he want to piss me off? Or did he want to tell me that he liked the girl in front of him?
Is she really Xiao Yusen’s girlfriend?
Could it be that the girl Xiao Yusen likes... is Shan Yiyao?
When did they start, and why did Xiao Yusen never mention it to me...
It turns out that Shan Yiyao was targeting me because of Xiao Yusen...
She thinks I'm a hindrance to them, so she hates me and bullies me...
Why, why, seeing them so intimate, I feel a very, very sour feeling in my heart? That sour feeling is like eating a huge lemon; that bitter feeling is like if I stay with them for just one second, I will collapse...
Could it be that...
A certain corner of my heart was suddenly covered by a heavy sadness, with a faint sour feeling in the air. I quickly shifted my gaze away from them and ran away quickly.
Don’t want to watch it anymore!
Don't look anymore!
How could...
How could...
Although I have always known that Xiao Yusen is a playboy...but seeing him directly like this still makes me feel uncomfortable...
Does he really like this Shan Yiyao so much? Does he like her so much that he can show her off to me?
I tried hard to purse my lips. The moment my teeth and lips touched, there was a clear pain. The salty feeling spread in my mouth. I turned around and ran hard.
The whole world became unclear before my eyes, and the hot feeling in my eyes finally turned into falling tears.
The surrounding scenery gradually became unfamiliar. I finally left school and ran to a place where I didn’t even know where it was.
The tense nerves in my body slowly relaxed, and the tears that had been slowly flowing down just now now surged out of my eyes, and my heart was surrounded by an inexplicable sadness.
I squatted down helplessly, hugged my legs with my arms, smelled the fragrance of the leaves, listened to the sound of the wind blowing, and let the tears wet my cheeks.
Why! Why! Why does my heart feel so sad when I see Xiao Yusen kissing another girl?
Why, why did he have to do this? And why, that person had to be Shan Yiyao who pushed me down the stairs!
I asked myself this question over and over again in my heart, and prayed again and again to know the answers.
But in the end, there will only be more and more problems!
It was the first time I had such a feeling. I felt as if my heart was torn apart. The scene just now replayed in my mind over and over again. This inexplicable pain only made me feel sad and scared.
Because I am not sure, because I don't have answers, because no one is with me, because...
Since when did my heart slowly change? Not only me, but also Brother Yi Mo and Xiao Yusen. All the people have changed beyond recognition in these two short years...
“Pah—”
Tears fell on the concrete floor and formed a small circle.
I didn’t even know how long I cried like this, I just felt my throat was slightly dry and my eyes were so swollen that I could hardly open them…
“Pah—”
More tears fell, and it seemed as if there was a roaring beast living in my heart, constantly tearing and hurting itself.
Suddenly, a familiar tenderness pressed against my cheek. Through my tearful eyes, I gradually saw Brother Yimo's face. The faint scent of roses filled the air, mixed with the sweetness of strawberry marshmallows.
"Qianxia won't look good if she cries." Brother Yi Mo wiped my tears gently and spoke softly with a distressed voice.
"But my heart hurts so much, Brother Yi Mo, my heart hurts so much..." When I close my eyes gently, the scene of Xiao Yusen and Shan Yi Yao kissing will appear in front of my eyes. Every time the scene appears, it brings me heartache.
I've never felt such pain before...
Even when I sent Brother Yi Mo away two years ago, I didn’t feel this sad…
“Qianxia, ​​don’t cry. I’ll celebrate your birthday with you tomorrow…” Brother Yi Mo’s hand gently slid across my cheek, and the gentle touch took away the tears from the corners of my eyes.
I opened my hazy eyes and stared blankly at Brother Yi Mo with a sour smile on his face.
This kind of brother Yi Mo seems like a dream from when I was very young...
During my childhood when my father and Xiao Yusen were by my side, I also wished I could have an older brother like Yi Mo. He was not like Xiao Yusen, who always teased me and made me angry. Instead, he would quietly accompany me, listen to my thoughts, and silently protect me...
It seems that the appearance of Brother Yi Mo filled this gap.
I have finished writing the love letter. I can give it to Brother Yi Mo tomorrow to let him know my feelings...
But……
But why do I feel weird?
"Qianxia, ​​why are you so sad?" Brother Yi Mo looked at me gently, and the slight smile on the corner of his mouth seemed to be able to dissolve all the sadness in my heart.
Would Brother Yi Mo also recognize Shan Yiyao who suddenly appeared?
And Xiao Yusen...
well……
Why is it that now, whenever I mention this name, my chest feels like something is blocking it, heavy and stuffy, and my throat also feels uncomfortable, like a bad cold...
Why does it feel like having a bad cold?
“Ahem—”
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but cough slightly.
"Are you catching a cold?" Brother Yi Mo patted my back gently, his brows slightly furrowed, and the worry in his eyes was heartbreaking.
"No." I cleared my throat, lowered my head, counted on my fingers, and stammered, "Today... today Xiao Yusen kissed a girl in front of me. I, in fact, I have always known that Xiao Yusen is a playboy, but, but seeing him kissing another girl in front of me, I still feel a little uncomfortable... It feels like I have a bad cold... My throat is itchy, my eyes are dry, and I feel dizzy. Maybe it's because I have been with that guy Xiao Yusen for too long, and I am not used to seeing him being so intimate with other girls..."
Having said that, I lowered my head somewhat sadly.
"Then..." After hearing what I said, Brother Yi Mo's eyes, which were shining brightly, dimmed instantly, and his thin lips also revealed a hint of bitterness, "Then if I kiss another girl in front of Qianxia, ​​will Qianxia do the same?"
"Huh?" I was slightly stunned when I heard Brother Yi Mo's question.
Then, the scene that Brother Yi Mo described emerged in my mind...
In the light pink picture, under the cherry blossom tree, Brother Yi Mo is hugging a girl tightly. The pink petals are like elves representing happiness, surrounding the two of them.
This picture must be beautiful...
I will also be happy for Brother Yi Mo...
Thinking of this, my heartbeat suddenly accelerated and a feeling of nervousness spread throughout my body.
Why do I have completely different feelings when the same thing happens to Brother Yi Mo and Xiao Yusen?
Such doubts, like tiny ants, are constantly gnawing at my heart, and an inexplicable premonition begins to spread in my heart...
No...
Definitely not...
Suddenly, I remembered something Xiao Yusen said before.
"No, I don't like you and I will never like you."
"Since being friends is for life, then let's be Yin Qianxia's lifelong good friend..."
“Pah—”
For no reason, the words in my memory once again brought tears to my eyes.
This doesn't make people happy at all...
"Qianxia, ​​when will you understand your own heart..." Brother Yi Mo wiped my tears with a bitter smile.
Yes, I am stupid, so stupid that I can't even figure out my own heart...
"Brother Yi Mo..." I called his name softly.
"Qianxia, ​​don't be sad." Brother Yi Mo's slightly cold fingers stayed on my face for a long time.
"Brother Yimo, why do I feel so uncomfortable and sad when I see him interacting with other girls? What's wrong with me? I'm too stupid, so stupid that I can't see my own heart clearly. I hate myself so much, I feel like I have done something wrong all this time. Brother Yimo, am I really disgusting?"
Hearing what I said, Brother Yi Mo wrapped me tightly in his arms. Through the blue plaid shirt, Brother Yi Mo's arms felt cold and empty.
Such a long hug seemed to make time stand still. The faint rose fragrance on Brother Yi Mo seemed to bring me to an unknown country, a country full of warmth and happiness...
"Qianxia, ​​do you know? There will be a very bright and dazzling galaxy tomorrow. Let's go to the old place to watch it together! Just think of it as making up for your birthday, okay?" Brother Yi Mo's voice came from my ears.
"Yeah." I nodded gently, and the complicated emotions in my heart dissipated little by little.
"It's settled then. See you tomorrow at 7 o'clock..."
I nodded, but a thick white fog could not help rising in my heart...
Is Brother Yi Mo going back?
I raised my head, and Brother Yi Mo's face enlarged in front of me. There seemed to be an lingering sadness between his gentle eyebrows and mouth. He seemed a little different from before...
"Qianxia, ​​see you tomorrow, bye." After sitting with me quietly for a while, Brother Yi Mo waved goodbye to me.
On the quiet path, Brother Yi Mo's figure gradually disappeared in the thick white fog.