Chapter 9 Don’t Live in My Dreams Anymore Xiang Qianlan04
"Xiao Lan, congratulations."
When I walked into the office, Lin Wanqiu passed by me with a cup of coffee. Hongdou leaned close to my ear and asked mysteriously how far Sun Nuofan and I had progressed and whether we were getting married because of pregnancy. I smiled and pushed her away.
After returning to China, Hongdou and I were hired by the same company. Lin Wanqiu was our superior. Although she was a superior, she was only a few years older than me, and we gradually became friends.
Hongdou knew what happened between me, Sun Nuofan, and Qi Beichen, and Lin Wanqiu also learned my story from Hongdou.
I took the leave application form, walked to Lin Wanqiu's office, and said to her: "Manager Lin, I need to take half a month's leave."
"OK, I'll deduct your salary." Lin Wanqiu agreed readily, then she tapped my nose and said, "But there's a dinner party tonight that you have to go to."
"Can't you push it off?" I asked.
She nodded, "Of course, this is an opportunity I specifically fought for, and I took the initiative to get this project. You and Hongdou have to help me protect it tonight."
"Okay, Manager Lin, you are my boss after all." I smiled and she blew me a kiss.
I no longer use my old phone number, and now only a few people know my number. However, the world is often so small, and I never expected to meet Qi Beichen at the dinner party.
Lin Wanqiu drove and took Hongdou and me to the appointment.
"Someone very important?" I teased her.
"It's a big order. The one who came today was her son, who came to check on us. Wait a minute, use all your skills on me." Lin Wanqiu said.
"Sister Lin, you sound like we are going to the battlefield." Hongdou said.
"Okay, stop talking nonsense. Take a look at the materials on the table and familiarize yourself with them. We are going to have a meal today, but also to the battlefield. If you can get this project, I will give you half a month off."
"Really?" Hongdou immediately picked up the document and looked at it.
"When have I ever lied to you?" Lin Wanqiu said with a smile.
I took the materials, looked down at them for a while, and had a rough idea in my mind. When we arrived at the agreed place, Hongdou and I sat upright with smiles on our faces under the coercion of Lin Wanqiu.
Fifteen minutes later, I saw Qi Beichen appear at the door in a neat suit. I looked at Lin Wanqiu, but she ignored me and politely smiled and shook hands with Qi Beichen. Both of them talked about irrelevant things.
Hongdou spread her hands and whispered that this matter had nothing to do with her.
"Sister Lin, I'm feeling a little unwell today, so I'll take my leave first." I was ready to back out.
Qi Beichen took over the conversation, "Miss, was she brought here by Manager Lin?" Anger flashed across his brows. I noticed that his tone was a little strange and I didn't know what he was angry about.
"Yes, Mr. Qi is very busy with official duties and is high up in the hierarchy. Of course, he has never heard of nobody like us." I said coldly.
"You two please talk first. I'm sorry, but I'll take my leave now." After saying that, I picked up my coat and was about to open the door to go out. As for the consequences, I didn't care so much.
"If Miss Xiang leaves, this business will end here."
I heard a voice behind me, and my hand on the door handle stopped. I don't know why Qi Beichen came. Maybe he took over his mother's business. Then Lin Wanqiu knew that it was Qi Beichen who came to discuss cooperation? Did she do it on purpose?
"That's it," I smiled.
Qi Beichen grasped my weakness very accurately, but I was not as good as he wanted. Without waiting for his answer, I hurried out the door and walked outside.
I thought I could face him calmly, I thought I was already prepared, but when this person appeared, I still lost my composure and didn't know what to do.
"Xiang Qianlan, listen to me!" Qi Beichen chased out and grabbed my hand tightly. I was shocked and didn't know what he was going to do . I struggled desperately. The scene of him dragging me into the house in the past appeared in front of my eyes.
"The show can't go on? Qi Beichen, let go! Let go!" I shouted angrily.
Lin Wanqiu and Hongdou also came out.
Lin Wanqiu looked at Qi Beichen and me in embarrassment and said to me, "Xiao Lan, I'm sorry I didn't tell you it was him. I think you two should talk it out. You can't avoid him forever."
"We're leaving first."
My body suddenly felt lighter, and I screamed. My mind was in a mess, and I was already picked up by him. I kept hitting and kicking him: "Qi Beichen, I will hate you!"
Qi Beichen carried me out of the hotel, and regardless of other people's eyes, he stuffed me into the car. He got into the car from the other side, and when I tried to open the door, I found it was locked.
He stepped on the accelerator and drove out of the parking lot quickly.
He slowly slowed down the car, I fastened my seat belt, and a layer of cold sweat broke out on my back.
I forced myself to calm down. It has been more than a year. Qi Beichen will not do anything again. He will definitely not dare to do it. He cannot ignore Sun Nuofan. I comforted myself in my heart.
The car was driving slowly, the air became quiet, the atmosphere inside the car was a little weird, and a song was playing repeatedly in the car -
The sea of suffering stirs up waves of love,
It is difficult to escape fate in this world,
Blind date is unapproachable.
Or I should believe it's fate.
The music made us even more silent. I turned on the next song, and it was still the same melody.
“There’s only this one song,” he said.
I looked at him in confusion. Qi Beichen didn't even turn his head and his face was expressionless. It was a hazy night outside and his profile was reflected on the car window.
"I only listen to this song." Qi Beichen repeated.
I didn't know what to say in response.
Outside the car window, the lights were bright and people were passing by. It seemed that something was falling from the sky. I stretched out my hand and a snowflake fell into my palm.
Snowing.
I took my hand back, looked at the street ahead, and asked him, "Where are you taking me?"
"Have a meal."
After a brief conversation, there was no more words. Qi Beichen didn't seem to want to say much, and neither did I. He took me to a hot pot restaurant, and I felt deeply moved: everything that was supposed to come would come.
He ordered the dishes quickly, and while waiting for the dishes to be served , he looked at me and I looked at the table. Time passed in our silence, and the snow outside was falling even harder, with heavy snow falling outside like goose feathers.
"I miss you so much." His voice seemed to come from far away, I raised my head and looked at him.
He spoke so gently and carefully, affectionately and desperately, as if everything in the past was an illusion, as if nothing had ever happened between us. My mind was blank, my eyes were warm, and I turned my head away from him.
"I know you're getting married."
His tone was sad and desperate.
I looked up at him and answered, "Yes, I'm getting married."
Xiang Qianlan, do you want to cry? I asked myself. My heart ached slightly. I felt all his emotions. This feeling was too familiar to me over the past year.
"If I beg you, please don't marry him, will you?" he said.
I said, "I won't. I said I will do my best to make you miserable. I will hurt you to the point of being completely broken. I will take revenge on you."
"What if I keep begging you? What if I kept begging you before this? Over the past year, I have been suffering all the time. Xiang Qianlan, give me a chance to atone for my sins. I am willing to atone for my mistakes..." He looked at me.
A waiter brought the food. I picked up the chopsticks beside me, lowered my eyes, and whispered, "Let's eat. Don't we need to eat?"
He insisted: "I have one last question. Please answer me honestly. I want to hear the truth."
"You ask."
"Have you ever loved me? Even just a little bit?"
"I loved you, but later I stopped loving you."
Qi Beichen looked at me blankly. I had a calm expression and ate quietly. No matter what Qi Beichen said, I answered him incoherently.
Half an hour later, we finished the dinner and parted unhappily. Then, I asked him to take me home. Before leaving, Qi Beichen said, "I will keep begging you until I lose you."
His eyes frightened me, but what else could he take away from me now? In love, the loser is always the one who cares more about the other person. Since I can be so ruthless to him, what else should I be afraid of?
Lin Wanqiu took the initiative to confess her "big crime". She accidentally saw Qi Beichen's name in a project of the company and wanted us to have a good talk, so she got the project and took Hongdou and me to the dinner.
Qi Beichen's mother Yin Ping married a foreign businessman. She handed over many things to Qi Beichen to manage, and Qi Beichen is now half the boss.
It turned out that Qi Beichen was really crazy.
He found out my address, and before I could figure out how to face him, he came to me again and again. I suddenly felt very tired of this.
Maybe he really likes me, from liking to loving, from loving to hating, from paranoia to madness.
But I no longer have the courage to start over.
He stabbed a long gash in my chest and no one could heal me, not even Qi Beichen.
Sun Nuofan is the last harbor I can find, the man who pays attention to me and protects me all the time. I want to be with him and I can't let him down.
I will try my best to love him and I will cherish everything he gives me.
I finally understood one thing: love cannot withstand repeated disappointments. It will go, it will disappear, and will never come back.
I'll hold on to it until it's gone.
