You came towards me ten years later, bringing me the starlight of eighteen years old.
My chest aches a little. The first time I saw you, my world fell in love.

I lay on the bed and looked up at the white ceiling. I wanted to confess my love, but I was afraid.
Before I knew this, I never thought that knowing these things would make me want to back off.
Do you want to give up?
Just like when I was eight years old, I was severely hurt by a girl named Hua Yuemian, and then fled abroad in disgrace. Now, ten years have passed, am I still going to lose to the same girl like when I was eight years old?
I sat up from the bed, grabbed my phone and ran out, dialing Shu Haining's number as I ran.
"Where are you?" I asked loudly the moment the phone was connected.
Shu Haining seemed a little surprised: "Skylark?"
"Where are you?" I asked again.
"I'm at home. What's wrong? It's so late..."
"Wait for me at the door, I'll come to see you right away." I hung up the phone and ran towards him as fast as I could.
Shu Haining, I want to see you.
I don't know what you think about Hua Yuemian. Maybe you will take care of her for the rest of your life out of a sense of responsibility.
But I like you, and this is the only thing I want you to know!
Let you reject me!
In this way, you and I don't have to worry about it anymore. In fact, I understand that you have been lying all the time. Although it is only vaguely known, I can sense that in your heart, my existence must be different.
I ran to Shu Haining's door in one breath. Shu Haining was standing there wearing a gray windbreaker.
"Haining!"
I called out to him, then ran over and stopped in front of him.
I ran so hard that I was sweating and panting, and I couldn't say many words.
"What happened?" There was some worry in his eyes. "Why did you run out without even wearing a coat? You'll sweat a lot and get caught in the wind."
"It's okay." I grabbed his arm and said breathlessly, "Because I have something important to say to you right now."
Shu Haining's cell phone rang at this time. He took it out and took a look. The caller ID showed that it was Hua Yuemian.
He wanted to press the reject button, but I snatched it away.
"lark?"
He looked at me in confusion.
I didn't say anything, I just turned his phone to silent mode.
I said, "Hua Yuemian came to see me."
Shu Haining was stunned, and there was a look in his eyes that I couldn't understand.
"She told me a lot of things, including her left eye that was blind, and her promise that you would take care of her for the rest of her life." I whispered, "Before I tell you something important, can I ask you a question?"
"What?" he asked, looking at me.
"Haining, you are so distant from me and so close to me. Is it because of Hua Yuemian? You can't let her go, right?" I looked at his face. At this moment, I wanted to take a good look at his face.
He was silent for a long moment, then nodded slightly .
It felt like a huge rock had fallen on my heart, and with a loud bang, my brain went blank, but I tried my best to stop myself from losing control.
Don't cry, Skylark, this is your own choice, so don't cry no matter what.
At least don't cry in front of him.
"Okay, I got it." The phone in my hand was still vibrating, and Hua Yuemian was still calling Shu Haining.
She's back, she's at the beach, I know it.
"Haining, I like you." I said with a smile, "Reject me, then you and I don't have to play the friend game anymore. Reject me and let me give up on you completely."
He looked at me quietly, and then smiled at me: "Well, I'm sorry, I can't accept your love."
"Okay." I nodded. "Well, goodbye, Shu Haining."
The moment the word "I'm sorry" came out of his mouth , my heart suddenly ached. It turns out that reality is always more cruel than expected.
I thought I could give up calmly. I thought that as long as he said no, I would completely end my love for him.
But now, I feel so sad that I feel like I will never be able to smile again.
"I'll give you my phone back."
I took his hand and placed his cell phone in his palm. He held my hand and lowered his head. His fine bangs blocked his eyes. I couldn't see what kind of expression was revealed in his eyes at this moment.
"Skylark." He called me, "I..."
“Buzz buzz buzz—”
The phone vibrated again, and I pulled my hand out of his grasp and said, "You'd better answer the call."
"Okay, wait for me, don't go away." He picked up the phone, and then I heard him say, "Stand there and don't move, I'll be back soon !"
I didn't listen any more. I turned around and walked slowly forward. I knew he wouldn't chase me, but my steps were still very slow.
I covered my mouth with my hand, afraid that sobs would escape from the corners of my mouth.
I tried hard to suppress the shaking of my shoulders so that no one would see that I was crying.
The night wind was so cold that it made my heart tremble. I stopped under the big tung tree and looked back. There was nothing behind me.
He must have run to Hua Yuemian!
I know that he can't abandon Hua Yuemian.
I squatted on the ground, hugged my knees with my hands, and buried my face in my arms.
I was so sad! So sad that I couldn't move on.
Haining, if Hua Yuemian didn't exist, would you appear in front of me now? Would you grab my hand and call me an idiot in my ear? Would you kiss me without your fingertips? Would you stay by my side and not go anywhere?
I don’t want this to happen, Shu Haining, I don’t want it to be like this!
I stood up from the ground, turned around and ran forward.
I wanted to find him and tell him that this was not right, but someone grabbed my arm tightly from behind, and then I fell into a warm embrace.
I raised my head quickly. I wished the person in front of me was you, but it wasn't you.
At this moment, the person who appeared in front of me and hugged me tightly in his arms was Tang Ruize.
"Where are you going, little skylark?" He lowered his voice, "You'll catch a cold. Come back with me."
"I don't want to go back!" I cried loudly in Tang Ruize's arms. "I don't want to go anywhere, brother, I'm so sad! It feels like someone is stabbing my heart with a knife. It's all your fault, it's all your fault!"
If you hadn't asked me to confess, if I hadn't been convinced by him, Shu Haining and I wouldn't have ended like this.
"Yeah, it's all my fault." Tang Ruize hugged me tightly, as if he was holding a child who was hurt after falling. "Have you confessed to him?"
"He was rejected and went to Hua Yuemian. Brother, my Haining doesn't want me anymore." I murmured, "We can no longer play that fake friendship game."
"Isn't this good? Maybe you feel very painful now, but believe me, after some time, you will forget this pain. Only by letting go of impossible people can you get to know other better people, right?" Tang Ruize's voice was very warm, flowing through his heart like a warm current, "Skylark, you are a very smart girl. You just didn't figure it out for a while. When you figure it out, you won't be sad anymore."
"Is that really the case?" I looked up at Tang Ruize's eyes, "I don't want to feel this way again."
" Well, let's go home." Tang Ruize picked me up and walked back home with steady steps.
On December 25th, Christmas, I was lying on the table in my thick pajamas, with dark circles under my eyes as big as a panda's because I hadn't slept for two consecutive nights.
At this moment, I am abroad, in my mother's research institute.
"I'm so sleepy." I couldn't bear it any longer. "Mom, I'm so sleepy."
"No sleep! " Mom hit me on the head with a paper tube. "This is your punishment for being a coward again."
"Hey, is there a mother like you?" I couldn't help but protest, "Your daughter is heartbroken! Not only did you not comfort me, but you also forced me to do hard labor for you. I'm going to sue you for exploiting the working people!"
"Go away, go away. You still have the energy to talk nonsense to me here, which means you are not very sleepy." My mother glanced at me and I immediately behaved myself.
"Just finish these." Mom threw me a stack of star charts and said, "Hurry up and get to work."
I pouted, grabbed my pencil and ruler, and continued to work.
Despite the overwhelming sleepiness, I persisted for a long time and finally finished the last picture. I dropped my pencil, lay down on the table, and fell into a deep sleep.
After that day, I couldn’t sleep well. I was afraid to go to school, afraid to see Shu Haining, and afraid that I would burst into tears.
So, just like when I was in elementary school, I refused to go to school, didn’t answer the phone, didn’t see anyone, and locked myself at home for several days. Finally, my mother dragged me onto a plane and brought me here again, just like when I was a child.
Then I was forced to work non-stop, not allowing me to stop even when I was tired.
I don't think I will go back there, because there is nothing there that interests me anymore.
I don’t know how long I slept. When I woke up, I was covered with a blanket. My mother was sitting next to me, looking at the sky through a telescope.
Only then did I notice that it was night. Had I slept for a whole day and night?
"You're awake!" Mom looked back at me and said, "Look, it's Jupiter."
I leaned over, and in the dark night sky, huge stars appeared before my eyes.
"Today is the best time to observe Jupiter. You woke up at this time. You are really timely." Mom teased me with a smile, "How is it? Isn't it spectacular? The largest planet in the solar system."
"Mm, so beautiful."
Since I was a child, I have always had a very strange feeling towards Jupiter. The closest planet to it is Mars, but it has always been protecting the Earth on the other side of Mars.
Outer space is so vast, and all the comets and flying rocks that fall in are blocked by Jupiter. That is why the Earth can remain so beautiful and life on Earth can continue to exist.
Maybe it is because it always protects the Earth that we like Jupiter the most. In fact, the sky above our heads is the most romantic, isn't it?
The stars will never lie. Billions of years of protection and companionship are the most lasting confession of love.
Not like a human at all!
In just a few years, you will forget the people you once cared about the most. Amorous people are the most cruel, because the people who are hurt will never be able to blame them.
"Are you feeling better?" Mom smoothed my hair. "No one else can comfort you when you're heartbroken. If you can't let it go, no matter who it is or what they say, it's meaningless."
My heart suddenly felt very warm. My mother was comforting me in her own way. Whether it was pulling me out of home and bringing me here, or letting me work non-stop until I was tired enough to fall asleep, my mother was still worried about me.
I raised my head and reached out to hold my mother's hand, which was still holding my long hair.
"Come with me to cut my hair, Mom." It was at this moment that I was able to smile for the first time since then.
Lost love, pain, sadness, suffering, all of these have been experienced, is it also a kind of growth? All along, my world has always been boring, the only thing I am interested in is the starry sky above my head.
But because of Shu Haining, I can no longer look up at the starry sky, but now, I feel I can do it.
The moment I saw Jupiter, I found my heart was filled with joy, it was the feeling of reuniting with the one I loved.
I really still love !
Why did I retreat for such a boring reason at that time? Why didn't I work harder to overcome the things that made me feel painful?
It turns out that from the age of eight to now, I haven't grown up at all?
I am still that child who puts myself in a cage when I am hurt and feel sad. I have not been able to take even a small step forward because I have not yet faced myself at the age of eight.
That little girl, hurt like that, is still hiding in the dark corner. If I don't find her, I won't be able to take a step forward.
I also want to become as strong as Tang Ruize.
People get hurt because they still have expectations of others. Sometimes it is better to believe in yourself than in others, but I have never been able to do so.
I didn’t believe in myself, whether I was eight or eighteen, I didn’t believe I could do it.
Because of disbelief, we always have expectations of others.
After spending a week at the research institute, I returned to Qinglu again.
I don't want to be a deserter anymore. Even now, when I walk on this familiar road, my chest still aches. Even when I think about seeing Shu Haining again, I feel like running away.
But this time, I won't do that again.
If I had been stronger ten years ago, I would not have been gone for ten years. Little skylark from ten years ago, I am back, I am back to take you out of that dark corner.
Wait for me.
I pushed the door open and walked in. Grandma was sitting outside in the sun. It was getting a little cold. Although the winter here is not too cold, it is still a little colder than the summer.
"Grandma, I'm back."
I walked over and said something to my grandma.
Grandma opened her eyes and looked at me. She always greeted me with a smile: "Our Skylark got a haircut!"
"Um."
That long hair was cut off, and now I have short hair that reaches my ears. The moment my hair fell down, I seemed to have infinite courage. It was also at that time that I let go of my obsession with Shu Haining.
It's not mine, no matter how hard I try, I can't hold it in my hands.
I pushed the door open and walked in, then lay down on the bed to take a short rest, but I didn't expect that I would rest until the evening.
I washed my face and went downstairs. Tang Ruize had already returned. He was not surprised to see me. When he saw my new hairstyle, he just smiled and said, "It suits you very well."
"Yeah." I smiled proudly, "By the way, the gift."
I took a box out of my backpack on the sofa and handed it to Tang Ruize: "My mother gave it to me. She said it's a Christmas gift."
Tang Ruize opened the box and found a brand new mobile phone. This mobile phone, like the laptop my mother gave me, was purchased in bulk by the research institute. My mother really saved me a lot of trouble.
After dinner, I took a shower as usual and then went to the study to read.
Tang Ruize came in with a cup of tea. He leaned against the door and looked at me with a half-smile: "Are you going to school tomorrow?"
"Of course I have to go. I've been absent for almost a month." I suddenly felt a headache. "I don't know what reason to give to the school."
"You have one night to think about this." Tang Ruize didn't sympathize with me at all. "Is it really okay? Going to school means you will meet that guy."
"I know." Although I knew and was prepared, my heart still trembled uncontrollably. "It should be okay."
Tang Ruize walked towards me holding a cup of tea, bent down and looked at me: "Little Skylark, do you want to try dating?"
"What?" I was so scared that I dropped the book in my hand. "Brother, do you have a fever? What nonsense are you talking about?"
"How sad! I still want to comfort you." Tang Ruize laughed, "But, little Skylark, don't you want to know what a normal relationship is like? As your brother, I can let you experience it."
"Thank you and your whole family!" I was really scared. This guy would occasionally say such terrifying things.
"But seriously, Xiao Yunque, think about it." Tang Ruize suddenly became very serious, looking into my eyes and said, "It's hard to face Shu Haining alone now, right? It would be difficult to face him as a lovelorn person. But if you date me, everything will be different. At least I will be able to face Shu Haining."
"Of course, the dating I'm talking about is pretend dating." After saying a bunch of shocking words, Tang Ruize finally said something decent, "By the way, you can feel what dating is all about, and it can also help you face Shu Haining."
When he said that, I suddenly felt that what he said made sense. Now I still have some obstacles to seeing Shu Haining again. But if Tang Ruize is with me, everything may become very easy.
"How is it? Have you made up your mind?" Tang Ruize asked me with a smile, "These days, there are not many actors as reliable as me!"
"What do you want? I don't believe you would spend your time playing this game with me." I asked.
"Well, what I want will be kept secret for now." He extended a hand towards me, "Little Skylark, the game of virtual lover begins now. Tomorrow I will go to school with you, send you to the classroom, pick you up for lunch at noon, and you have to wait for me to go home after school in the evening."
"Wait, aren't these no different from normal life?" He said he would let me experience what it's like to interact with normal people. This is absolutely no different from normal life, and there's one more thing I have to do - I still have to wait for him to come home!
"Of course it's different." He stretched out his index finger and waved it in front of me. "Usually, it's a brother and sister going to school together, but starting tomorrow, it's going to be a couple going to school together."
"Would it make any difference?"
I totally don't understand.
"Of course there is a difference, but you won't understand it if I say this. You'll know it tomorrow." Tang Ruize winked at me, then walked away with the teacup.
I was so frightened that it took me a while to come back to my senses.
But since he said that, I'll still look forward to tomorrow.
So I thought about what might happen tomorrow, climbed into bed, covered myself with the quilt, closed my eyes and went to sleep.
The next day I was still woken up by Tang Ruize. As long as I had classes in the morning, Tang Ruize would act as my alarm clock.
After breakfast, when I was about to take my schoolbag, Tang Ruize had already taken it for me.
"Let's go, little skylark."
He hung his bag and my bag on his shoulders, and grabbed my hand with his free hand. Although this picture looked a bit beautiful, but...
“It’s like the left hand holding the right hand.”
I couldn't help but sing it out loud.
"Shut up!" Tang Ruize said angrily.
When we arrived at the subway station, unexpectedly but also as expected, we met Shu Haining.
Shu Haining was very shocked when he saw me. He probably didn't expect that I would come back here and even appear in front of him so soon.
"Good morning, Shu."
I smiled and waved at him.
"morning."
His eyes shifted from my face to Tang Ruize's face.
Tang Ruize put his arm around my shoulders and said, "Good morning, classmate Shu! I have good news to tell you. Xiao Yunque and I are together. Do you know what that means? It means we are in love."
At that moment, I saw Shu Haining's pupils shrink rapidly. He looked back at me, and I quickly leaned my head on Tang Ruize's shoulder.
"You are lucky to be the first to know. You will bless us, right? Although I told you before that I liked you, just forget it."
He thought for a long time, but in the end he said nothing.
After I said those words, I got goose bumps all over my body. Those words were taught to me by Tang Ruize. He said that the momentum must be grasped from the root, and the other party should be made to feel that they will be very happy even if they are rejected.
When we got on the subway, Tang Ruize held my hand the whole time, and Shu Haining stood two people away from me. I always felt his eyes on me. But when I turned around, he wasn't looking at me.
After arriving at school, Tang Ruize escorted me to the classroom just as he said last night. It was the first time he escorted me to the classroom. Usually, I went to the classroom with Shu Haining.
When I arrived at the classroom, there were already many people sitting inside. When they saw Shu Haining, Tang Ruize and I appear together, the surroundings suddenly fell into a brief silence.
Everyone's eyes were on Tang Ruize. Tang Ruize was very well-known in the school. He had good looks, elegant temperament, and his smile was enough to charm all the girls. More importantly, he was also knowledgeable and talented.
Such a person actually appeared here, no wonder so many people were staring at him.
"Okay, little skylark, come into the classroom." He said, ruffling my hair in front of everyone, "Don't leave after school, I'll pick you up."
“Wow——”
The classroom suddenly became lively, and I slowly walked into the classroom under everyone's gaze.
Because all the other seats were occupied, and Shu Haining and I usually sat in the fixed window seat, so I couldn't find anywhere else to sit except that seat.
Forget it, it doesn’t matter where I sit, I won’t escape anymore.
I sat down in my seat and Shu Haining sat down next to me without saying a word.
Not long after, the teacher walked in. It happened to be the head teacher who was teaching the class today. When he saw me, he was stunned.
"Teacher, I'm here for class." I said before the head teacher asked me a question. "I'm sorry for being absent without asking for leave."
"Can you tell me where you have been this month?" The head teacher walked towards me and stood in the aisle next to Shu Haining.
"Teacher, I went out to relax because I was heartbroken." I found that I was really not good at lying, and it was better to tell the truth.
There was an uproar in the classroom. I answered so directly. I was probably the first student to use this reason to explain skipping classes.
"Sit down." The head teacher didn't make it difficult for me. "Actually, your mother asked for leave for you. She said that you can cooperate with an important scientific research project."
"Yes, my way of relaxing is to help with scientific research."
I changed my tune immediately.
The head teacher was silent for a while, probably not knowing what to say.
"Okay, let's start the class. Yun Que-san can borrow your deskmate's notes for the class he missed."
Hearing this, I looked towards Shu Haining, and Shu Haining happened to turn his head to look at me at this moment. Our eyes met in mid-air, and then we turned our heads away at the same time, pretending that nothing had happened just now.
During the break , Yue Lin came to me to gossip: "Yu Que, what is your relationship with Tang Ruize? Why did he send you to the classroom?"
"He's my boyfriend." I said very calmly, "How about it, my boyfriend is pretty good, right?"
"Yuelin, you are so good. Didn't you break up with your lover? After the breakup, you actually dated Senior Tang. You are simply the happiest girl in the world." Yue Lin touched my hair and said, "How come you cut your hair so long all of a sudden?"
"I can't help it. I just broke up with my boyfriend. Isn't it said that you should cut your hair after a breakup ? I just wanted to change my hairstyle, so I cut it directly." I said with a smile, "I haven't seen you for a month, Yuelin, how are you?"
"Of course I'm still the same." Yue Lin pulled me and chattered a lot.
Until the bell rang, she reluctantly returned to her seat. I like girls like Yue Lin, she always reminds me of warm sunshine.
When I was talking to Yue Lin, Shu Haining had been sitting in his seat and had not moved anywhere. I did not shy away from letting him hear those words, because those were the facts and there was nothing to hide.
After the morning class, I sat in the classroom waiting for Tang Ruize to come to me.
For some reason Shu Haining also sat there and didn't leave.
I asked, "Haining, why don't you go to eat?"
"I'll sit for a while." He said softly.
"Oh, I'm leaving then." I saw Tang Ruize coming through the window.
I jumped out of the window, turned around and waved to Shu Haining, then ran towards Tang Ruize.
"You're trampling on the school lawn." Tang Ruize glanced at me, "You're so anxious to come see me, are you really in love with me? Tsk tsk."
"Hey!" I couldn't help but punch him. "You have a very good self-image. Do you know what time it is? I'm starving!"
"You're so unlovable." Tang Ruize put one arm around my shoulders and used the other to ruffle my short hair.
"Don't mess up my hair." I said angrily.
"Do you have such a thing as a hairstyle?" Tang Ruize said, trying not to laugh. "Let's go and have lunch. What do you want to eat for lunch? Brother will treat you."
"I will definitely eat you into a house of poverty," I said.
"Don't worry. What's mine is yours and what's yours is mine. When I get poor, I'll eat yours." Tang Ruize said.
We joked and played all the way to the cafeteria. I ordered a lot of dishes at once, and in the end I didn’t even finish one third of them.
Tang Ruize covered his chest with his hands, his face full of grief: " You prodigal son, if anyone marries you in the future, you will really make them broke."
"I don't want to marry someone who's afraid of being eaten out of money by me." I rolled my eyes at him, grabbed a chicken leg and started chewing it.
I have to say that Tang Ruize's suggestion was indeed correct. It is precisely because he is here now that I can laugh and make noise so wantonly and vent all the frustration I felt when facing Shu Haining.
"Brother, what should I do?" I whispered, "I'm almost falling in love with you."
Tang Ruize was so scared that his face turned pale. I raised the corner of my mouth and said, "I was kidding. You are not cute at all."
The first and second classes in the afternoon are physical education classes. I have never been good at sports and I don’t like sports very much because I don’t like the feeling of sweating profusely.
Fortunately, physical education classes in college do not force students to participate in sports. Instead, the sports committee brings out sports equipment and everyone can choose any sport they want. So most girls play tennis or badminton, while boys play basketball or football.
I sat at the edge of the playground, and my eyes would always inadvertently glance at the shelf.
When school started, Shu Haining pulled me here. It was also at that time that he kissed me through his fingers, and Hua Yuemian came up in our topic for the first time.
It's so annoying. Why do I think about that time? I have already decided to let it all go and start over.
I raised my hands to cover my eyes so I wouldn't have to keep looking over there secretly.
Then again, this isn’t the first time I’ve done this kind of self-deception.
When I just came back from abroad, on that fiery evening, when I recognized Shu Haining at once in the corridor of the office building, there was actually no way I could let go of that person.
So , actually, at that moment - when the orange sunset enveloped his entire body and was captured by my eyes from a distance of more than ten meters, something in my heart was touched.
Because I was touched, I always ran to the school to see him. Because I didn't want to run out on my own initiative, I always appeared by his side, wanting him to see my presence.
I am such an idiot. I have been an idiot since the beginning.
"Are you feeling unwell?" Shu Haining's voice came into my ears.
I took back my hands that were covering my eyes, and in the glaring sunlight, Shu Haining, wearing sportswear, stood in front of me.
"I'm not feeling uncomfortable." I said with a smile, "I'm fine, go and have fun."
He didn't say anything, nor did he walk away, but sat down next to me. I tried to find something to say, but before I could open my mouth, Shu Haining spoke first.
" Don't force yourself." He said, "Skylark, you don't have to force yourself. It doesn't matter if you don't say anything."
Did he see that? Did he see that I was trying my best to come up with the least hurtful words when I spoke to him?
"Are you really dating that person?" he asked.
I pursed my lips and smiled and said, "Of course, we are dating."
"Does Yunque like that person?" I thought it would be enough to just say that, but I didn't expect Shu Haining to ask further.
"Yeah, I like it." The liking between family members should also be a kind of liking.
"My hair was cut short," he said.
I reached out and touched my bangs, and said, "Yeah, cutting it short is like cutting off the past. I will look forward. Haining, you should also look forward! Rui Ze and I will be fine, and you and... you and Hua Yuemian should also be fine."
"Skylark, are you lying?" He lowered his head, his long bangs covering his eyes, leaving a shadow under his eyes, "Skylark doesn't like that person, right? At least not to the extent that you can date him, right?"
"It doesn't matter even if that's the case. You don't like Hua Yuemian, but you've decided to be with her, right?" I smiled brightly, "So it's okay. Haining, you don't have to worry about me. Don't feel sorry. I didn't give up on myself and be with Rui Ze just because you rejected me."
"Okay, I'm leaving now. I'm going to play with Yue Lin."
I can't stay here any longer, because if I continue, I'll end up talking about something unpleasant.
I don't want that. I have finally managed to face it bravely and not let Haining's matter mess me up again.
I wasn’t like myself at all back then!
"Don't go." He grabbed my hand.
"Let go," I whispered.
I didn't dare look back, I didn't want to see his expression.
Don't let me waver again. Don't let me take a small step forward only to take a step back again.
"Don't let go." He used a little more force in his grip, causing my wrist to hurt a little.
"Let go!" I finally couldn't help but turned around and slapped his hand away. "Do you know what you are doing? I am the one you rejected. Don't hesitate like this. Every time I decided to walk away, you held on to me, but when I got closer to you, you immediately ran away from me. It was obviously you who rejected me. Do you know how hard I tried to smile again? You just don't want the person who originally liked you to move away from you and start dating someone else, right? You obviously don't like me, you obviously have made a choice, but you still hope that I will continue to like you, is this what you mean?"
I was very angry. I knew a lot of people were watching me, but I didn't care anymore. From childhood to adulthood, I had never cared about how others saw me.
"How far are you going to tease me? Do you think I won't get hurt? Do you think I won't be sad? Do you think it doesn't matter if I get hurt? Don't be ridiculous!" I took a step back. "I'm not an eight-year-old girl anymore. I won't run away anymore. I will look forward and won't be confused anymore. If you think I'm still the fool who could only stay with you when I was a child, then you are wrong! I don't need you anymore, that's it!"
After I said that, I turned around and walked away.
It's all over, why are you still unwilling to let go? You've already made your choice, right?
I'm the one who wasn't chosen!
If he still grabs my wrist, I won't be able to move forward!