Like a long and sad movie, we stumble on our own path.
You missed my loneliness, and I missed your prosperity.
I missed you, this is the meaning of reunion after a long separation.

On the day when the military training ended, it rained heavily, as if someone was standing in the sky, pouring water down with a bucket. I packed my suitcase and put other things into my small backpack, planning to go home.
"It's raining heavily outside, Yun Que, you shouldn't go back today." Yue Lin said, "Otherwise you'll get wet."
"It's okay, I brought an umbrella. I'll take a shower when I get home anyway." I said, dragging my suitcase out, returning the key to the dormitory manager, opening my umbrella and walking out.
The rain was really heavy, and even with an umbrella, my clothes got wet quickly.
Tang Ruize has classes today, so I decided not to wait for him and go back first.
The suitcase is rainproof, so I put my phone and computer in it, and it doesn't matter if I get wet. But it's early autumn now, and it's still a bit cold on such rainy days.
I dragged my suitcase all the way to the school gate. The campus was empty. That's right, no one would be stupid enough to go out on such a rainy day.
I'm the only fool.
In fact, there was another reason why I left in such a heavy rain, that is, I didn't want to meet Shu Haining, I didn't know how to be alone with him. After that day, I never said a word to him again. Even if I met him, I would turn around and walk away. In fact, there were several times when I felt that he seemed to want to say something to me, but I didn't want to listen to him at all.
Shu Haining and I were the same, except that he lived on campus during military training. After the training, he would go home every day.
It's raining so hard, he won't leave! This is good, I can enjoy the journey home quietly by myself. I can say it's enjoyment, but in fact I just sleep all the way home.
However, when I walked to the school gate and saw that familiar figure just arrived there, I felt terrible .
For a moment, I wanted to turn back, but something in my heart stopped me from doing so. I gritted my teeth and dragged my suitcase over, deciding to treat him as invisible.
But Shu Haining was obviously not the kind of guy who was willing to be invisible. When I passed by him, he called me, "Skylark."
I pretended not to hear and quickened my pace. At this moment, I hated myself for not having a pair of long legs. Because of my short legs, no matter how fast I walked, Shu Haining could easily catch up with me.
"Skylark." He called me again.
I still pretended not to hear it, but anger welled up in my heart. I don't know why, but recently when I see Shu Haining, anger starts to brew in my heart.
"Why are you ignoring me?" His voice continued.
I finally couldn't help but turned around and glared at him fiercely, saying angrily: "Just act like a stranger!"
"Strangers can't talk?" When he saw that I finally spoke, his handsome eyebrows curved, "There are also strangers who will say hello when they walk on the street."
"That kind of person is not a stranger!" I turned around angrily and continued walking forward. No matter what he said, I no longer paid attention to him.
"Nonsense, there are obviously strangers who will say hello. Yunque, you have been abroad for too long and don't know the domestic situation well." He didn't care at all about being treated as an invisible person, but was trying to make his presence felt in front of me.
I listened to his voice as background music all the way to the subway station, then bought a ticket and dragged my suitcase to the waiting gate.
It's wet everywhere. Rainy days are really annoying.
I suddenly remembered that Tang Ruize told me that when he was a child, he was locked in a room with only one window. Whenever it rained , he could see the gray sky. What kind of mood was Tang Ruize in at that time? Did he like or hate those rainy days?
But it was also because of him that I understood something.
That is, no matter how powerful a person is, there is always a weak spot in his heart, which is hidden behind a hard shell so that others can touch it.
Tang Ruize has it, I have it, but what about Shu Haining? Does he have this weakness?
I suddenly remembered that on the day of the summer fireworks festival, Tian Su told me that something happened to Shu Haining three years ago, but he didn't have time to tell me at that time because Tian Su left for something. After that, I forgot about it.
Shu Haining told me that day that he and Hua Yuemian were not dating. Although I was furious at the time, I actually listened to what he said.
He said he just couldn't leave her alone, and if even he didn't care about her, then she wouldn't be able to live a good life.
I was stunned. Why would he say such a thing?
I was so angry at the time that I didn't think deeply about what he said. Did something happen between him and Hua Yuemian ?
Is it related to what Tian Su wanted to say but couldn’t say that day?
I couldn't figure it out, and my head was a little swollen. I really wasn't suited to thinking about this kind of thing. Humans are not robots, and there is no fixed data for their actions and thoughts. With my emotional intelligence, I can't come up with an answer.
The subway entered the station, the door opened, and I walked in. Because it was the starting station, there was no one in the car, so I walked in and sat down, took out a tissue and wiped my face, my clothes were already half wet.
Shu Haining sat down in the seat opposite me, and I turned my head away so that I wouldn't have to see his face.
"Do I disgust you so much?" he asked in a low voice, "that even a glance at me is unnecessary."
"You keep asking me this, it's really..." I was very upset. I had a lot to say, but I couldn't. Where did I go when I could speak frankly whether I was happy or angry?
I really hate myself now. Those words hidden in my heart make it impossible for me to calm down.
"Shu Haining, can you answer me a question?" I looked into his eyes. "Can you tell me what kind of existence I am in your eyes? Or, what am I to you? I don't want to be like this anymore. I've told you before that I always feel that the distance between you and me is very strange. When we are closest, we are only one millimeter apart, but that doesn't make any sense, because as long as you deny it, we will be strangers who pass by each other without even looking back. Why can you do this? You clearly agreed but you don't keep your promise?"
I said we should be strangers, but he had no such awareness at all today.
"I don't remember agreeing to such an agreement." He said seriously, "Please don't make such restrictions unilaterally."
I took a deep breath and told myself to stay calm. If I got angry first, I would lose.
"Skylark, let's be friends." He sat opposite me and said these words to himself again.
Why are we so incompatible?
When there was a distance of more than ten meters between him and me, I wanted to be friends with him, but he just wanted us to be strangers.
When there was only one millimeter left between him and me, I wanted to be a stranger to him, but he wanted to be friends with me.
Suddenly I remembered a question Tang Ruize once asked me: "Whether it's you or Shu Haining, what do you regard the relationship between friends as?"
From that time on, I probably realized my own feelings, so I no longer insisted on being friends with him, because what I wanted was not friends, but to be with him.
So now, Shu Haining, what kind of mood are you in when you say something like we can become friends?
"Okay." I suddenly felt a little tired and didn't want to go on like this. I was the one who provoked him first, and I wanted to be friends with him. So now, Shu Haining, let's be friends!
Shu Haining was a little surprised to hear my affirmative answer.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
He pursed his lips and smiled: "I thought you would definitely not agree. I was a little surprised that you said 'yes' so straightforwardly and decisively."
"I am such a direct person." That's good, back to the way I used to be, angry or happy, I would say it in the most direct way. Hiding a lot of things in my heart will make me more and more irritable, and make me less and less like myself.
I always like direct people because I am such a direct person.
"In short, we are no longer strangers, we are friends," I concluded.
"As friends, let's exchange phone numbers." He said, took out his cell phone, and waited quietly for me to tell him the number.
I held out my hand and said, "Give me the phone, I'll call."
He handed the phone to me, I took it, pressed the dial button, and brought up the dial pad. I dialed my own number with his phone, and when I heard the phone in the box ringing, I hung up and pressed the return button.
After returning, the phone interface showed call records, a whole row of which were all from one person - Hua Yuemian.
At that moment, I didn’t know what I was thinking. I deleted the top number, which was my cell phone number, and returned the phone to him.
"Forget it." I said, "We're in the same class anyway, so we can keep in touch anytime."
The subway arrived at the station at that moment. I walked out of the subway with my suitcase, and Shu Haining followed me out.
He quickened his pace and walked in front of me, stretching out his arms to block me.
"Why delete it?" he asked.
"Didn't I tell you? There's no need. We live close to each other and are in the same class." I looked into his eyes frankly, "Let's just leave it at that. Otherwise, I can't consider you my friend."
I pressed down his hand that was in front of me, and I had conveyed to him directly what I was thinking.
I will do the same in the future and no longer keep those words in my heart . I don’t like self-torture, I really don’t like it.
Shu Haining didn't insist, probably because he understood what I said. I walked out of the subway station, holding up my umbrella, and walked into the heavy rain.
"See you tomorrow then." I said to Shu Haining at the fork in the road.
"Okay, see you tomorrow." He nodded at me.
I turned and walked forward, wanting really to look back to see if he was still standing there, but in the end I didn't do it.
Since I have decided that we are just friends, I won't do anything unnecessary.
This is good for both me and Shu Haining!
After returning home, I took a hot bath and felt completely alive.
Tang Ruize came home when it was almost dark. Like me, his clothes were wet. When Tang Ruize came out of the shower, grandma was already preparing dinner.
"The formal classes will start tomorrow. Are you okay?" Tang Ruize asked me while we were having dinner. "I'm not worried about whether you can understand the lessons. I'm worried about you having to keep looking for a classroom."
"Hey, how unreliable am I in your eyes?" I said with a frown. Although I usually have trouble remembering the way, I have been here for half a month. If I still don't recognize the way, then how stupid I am.
"That's not necessarily true. After all, the classrooms for each class are not fixed. It's useless for you to know your classroom. You may not be in your class." Tang Ruize said with a smile, "Are you still confident now?"
"Uh..." Okay, I admit that I have no confidence anymore.
Although school has started for half a month, the class usually gathers in the classroom. I am very familiar with the classroom, but other classrooms are a bit difficult.
"I'll just look at the house number when the time comes." I waved my hand. "This little thing won't bother me."
Seeing how confident I was, Tang Ruize stopped saying anything to undermine my confidence.
After dinner, I went into the study to read, and Tang Ruize came in with a cup of tea.
"I'll wake you up tomorrow morning." He sat down on a pile of books. "Why didn't you wait for me to come back today? I wanted to help you with your luggage."
"Because you still have a lot of classes, so you came back first, and your luggage is not heavy anyway." I said disapprovingly, "But the most important thing is that I originally planned to avoid Shu Haining."
When Tang Ruize found out that Shu Haining and I were in the same class, he was really surprised, because based on Shu Haining's grades, it was entirely possible for him to go to a better school.
"Why are you hiding from him?" Tang Ruize looked at me in confusion. "Don't you really want to be friends with him?"
"Because I changed my mind. I feel like I can't continue to get along with him like that." I closed the book and sighed. "I like him, so I can't be friends with him."
Tang Ruize's hand paused slightly, and then I remembered that I had not told Tang Ruize about this.
"He clearly said before that there was no place for me around him, but when I was sure that we should be strangers, he changed his mind . I have finally stopped myself from thinking about him, but if this continues, I won't be able to control myself." That's why I want to maintain a stranger relationship. Only in this way, I won't get hurt.
"In order to prevent such things from happening, Shu Haining and I became friends. For both of us, it is safest to be friends who keep a distance." I feel that I did the right thing.
Tang Ruize frowned and said, "Skylark, I told you that you have low emotional intelligence, but you really can surprise me."
"What's wrong? Am I doing something wrong?"
I feel like this is the first time I’ve made the right decision in my life. Could it be that this decision is also wrong?
"You can't hide your love for someone." Tang Ruize said slowly, "If you continue like this, you will become even more unhappy. Before it becomes like that, stop this relationship. The friend game is not fun."
"What are you talking about?" I felt that Tang Ruize was a little too worried. "I understand. I understand that I can't like him because Hua Yuemian is here! I know this clearly and I won't let myself do anything wrong."
"It is because you know this that you are in even greater pain." Tang Ruize's expression suddenly became serious, "Skylark, stop deceiving yourself!"
My hands holding the book were shaking slightly. I tried desperately to stop the shaking, but found that it was shaking even more violently.
"No, Ruize." I know I'm being stubborn, but if I don't do this, and Shu Haining gets close to me again, I'm not sure if I can keep my heart.
If what he wants is to be friends with me, then I will agree to it, and he won't force me anymore!
"Skylark, go confess your love!" Tang Ruize said this in a shocking way.
I didn't hold the book firmly in my hand and it fell to the ground with a thud.
"Are you kidding? I can't do that!" I quickly replied, "Don't scare me."
"I'm not kidding, I'm serious." Tang Ruize's expression was also very serious, "Why can't we do that? Is Shu Haining dating someone?"
I was stunned for a moment. Were Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian dating? But Shu Haining told me personally that they were not in that kind of relationship.
"Probably... no, he said he doesn't have a girlfriend." I hesitated, "But he said he couldn't ignore Hua Yuemian."
All along, what has been bothering me is Hua Yuemian’s existence, isn’t it?
"That's not important." Tang Ruize said.
"That's very important, okay!"
Why can Tang Ruize say it's not important so easily? That's very important to me. As long as Shu Haining has someone he cares about, I can't tell him how I feel.
"Idiot." Tang Ruize couldn't help but scold me, "Are you a blockhead? Or are you a robot? Who doesn't have one or two people they care about? Take you for example, don't you care about me?"
"Of course I care, but you're family, that's different." How can Tang Ruize be compared with Hua Yuemian? The meaning of these two people's existence is completely different.
"What's the difference? We are not related by blood." Tang Ruize shrugged and took a sip of tea. "Do you understand now? There are many kinds of people you care about. You care about me, but that doesn't conflict with your love for Shu Haining. And whether Shu Haining has a girlfriend or not doesn't conflict with whether he cares about someone or not."
I always felt that there was something wrong with what Tang Ruize said, but I couldn't put my finger on why. My brain was about to freeze after he kept talking about it.
"Besides, if you don't tell him how you feel and don't get a clear answer, you will definitely still have some expectations in your heart. The longer it takes, the deeper you will fall into it, and the more hurt you will be." Tang Ruize said earnestly, "So in this case, it's better to end it with the other party."
"That's easy for you to say." I said sullenly, "Although I was almost tricked by you, I really care about the matter between Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian. They had a ten-year relationship that I was not involved in. I have no idea what their relationship was like."
Tang Ruize couldn't help it and tapped my head with his hand: "Then go and understand. If you don't do anything, there is no way to move forward. No matter what happens, I will be by your side as long as you need me."
"Brother, you are so nice." I couldn't help but hug him, burying my face in his belly, hugging him like I was hugging my grandma, "It's really a blessing to have a brother."
"You!" Tang Ruize was somewhat helpless. "Don't avoid the question just now. If you really care about Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian, don't run away because you are afraid to face it. Qinglu is only this old, there will always be a way for him to know what happened between them."
"Yes, I will." I nodded and said, "You are simply my spiritual mentor!"
"Should I be happy about your compliment?" Tang Ruize said with a low laugh, "Well, go to bed early. You have to go to school tomorrow."
"Okay, I'll go right away!" Every time after chatting with Tang Ruize, I have a feeling of sudden enlightenment. He is indeed a handsome boy with high emotional intelligence and IQ!
I closed the door, climbed onto the bed, and looked at the phone I had left on the bed. I picked it up and saw that there was a missed call. I thought about it for a while before I remembered that it was a call I made using Shu Haining's phone while on the subway.
When I clicked on the missed call, there was a string of numbers, and the person on the other end of the string was Shu Haining.
When I think of the name "Shu Haining", my chest aches out of habit. I think what Tang Ruize said is right. If you keep saying nothing and pretend to be friends, you will only get deeper and deeper. The greater the expectations, the greater the disappointment.
At that time, I saw so many call records between him and Hua Yuemian, and I must have felt very sad. Even though I pretended to be indifferent, I still couldn't pretend to be indifferent. Because I didn't want to be associated with Hua Yuemian's name, and because I couldn't delete Hua Yuemian's existence, I could only delete my existence from Shu Haining's phone, right?
Maybe it was not just deleted from the phone, but also completely deleted from his life.
I gently pressed my chest, and it started to hurt again. I lay on the quilt, and my mood started to become strange again.
I fell asleep without realizing it, and was woken up by Tang Ruize the next day. It was the first time that I went to the same school with Tang Ruize.
I compared the course schedule, put the books I would use today into my backpack, closed the door of the room, and went downstairs.
Tang Ruize was already prepared and was sitting on the sofa in the living room waiting for me. When he saw me coming down, he picked up his backpack and carried it on one shoulder.
"Let's go." Tang Ruize said.
It rained yesterday and the sun came out early this morning. The weather is really like a child's face, with an unpredictable temper.
After a heavy rain, the colors of the world became brighter and the air became fresher. When I walked to the subway station, I unexpectedly saw Shu Haining.
I guess he just got here, I think.
"Good morning, Haining." When I walked up to him, I greeted him openly.
"Morning." He smiled at me.
Tang Ruize walked up to Shu Haining and said, "What a coincidence, you and Yun Que are classmates."
"Yeah, I think it's a coincidence too." Shu Haining said, "Senior is a senior in the Finance Department, right?"
"Yes, because I studied finance, that's why Yun Que studied this major." Tang Ruize smiled , "I never thought that you would also study finance."
"Yes, I have always been interested in currency circulation." Shu Haining looked very calm and composed, and it was unclear whether what he said was true or false. Does Shu Haining like finance?
The subway arrived and the three of us got on together. There were still a lot of people in the subway today because it has been open for a few days and many people know that there is a subway on this line. Also, it is the morning rush hour.
When there were a lot of people in the subway, I suddenly didn't know where to stand. Because I was short, I couldn't reach the pull ring on the subway, and there were a lot of people gathered near the vertical grab bar near the door.
I stood in the car and couldn't find a place to stand, and when the car started moving, I almost fell down.
At this moment, both of my arms were grabbed by someone at the same time, and my staggering body was stabilized at once. Shu Haining and Tang Ruize supported me at the same time.
"Thank you, I can stand now." I broke free from the hands of both people at the same time.
"Come and catch me." Tang Ruize pulled me and brought me to his side.
I grabbed Tang Ruize's arm and used him as a grab bar in the subway.
When the subway arrived at the next station, many more people got on the train, and the carriage became even more crowded. At this time, Tang Ruize and I were separated. I stood on tiptoe and tried to find Tang Ruize in the dark crowd.
"Come here." Shu Haining's voice reached my ears, and then he pulled me to his side. He stood next to the handrail, where there was a guardrail. He pushed me directly in front of the guardrail, holding the pull ring with one hand and resting the other hand on the side of my head. He trapped me in a small space, and the originally crowded carriage suddenly became less crowded.
"Thank you." I don't know why, but my heart started beating faster and faster.
He was very close to me, so close that I could smell the faint scent of soap and shampoo on him. A layer of sweat broke out on the palms of my hands and I actually started to get nervous.
This tension lasted for a long time, until there were fewer people in the car and he let go of his hand on my head, and I let out a long breath. I didn't dare to breathe for such a long time just now.
"Come and sit here, Skylark." At this time, Tang Ruize called me, and I hurried over and sat down in the empty seat next to him.
After arriving at school, Tang Ruize and I separated in front of a teaching building. Tang Ruize's classroom was different from mine. I unzipped my backpack and took out a class schedule. Before I could see where the classroom was, Shu Haining grabbed my backpack strap and pulled me away.
"Hey, I haven't checked the classroom yet!" I struggled to protest.
Shu Haining said calmly: "Just follow me, we are in the same class anyway ."
"Oh, that's right!" I actually forgot.
I followed Shu Haining and trotted into the classroom. At this time, some people came into the classroom. I looked for Yue Lin in the crowd, wanting to find her and sit with her.
"You sit here." However, before I could find Yue Lin, Shu Haining pushed me directly to a seat by the window.
"Why should I sit at the same table with you?" I was extremely upset. Is this person such a domineering person? He is so self-willed and willful.
Shu Haining glanced at me and said, "Because we are friends. What's wrong with friends sitting together?"
I opened my mouth and wanted to refute him, but the reason he gave left me speechless and unable to refute.
"Well, it doesn't matter where I sit." I was looking for the book I needed for today in my schoolbag. After searching for a long time, I suddenly realized that I seemed to have taken the wrong book. Today is Wednesday, but I took Monday's textbook. Because today is the first day of class, the first day is not equal to Monday. I completely forgot about this.
"What's wrong?" Shu Haining asked me, with a hint of concern in his tone.
"I think I... took the wrong book." I put my backpack aside. "I took Monday's book."
"Let's read together." He pushed the book towards me. "It won't matter if you don't have the textbook anyway."
So, I spent the whole day's classes today reading half of Shu Haining's book.
This feeling is really wonderful. I vaguely remember that when I was in elementary school, I forgot to bring my textbook once. Shu Haining was also my deskmate at that time, and we shared a book and finished that class.
It was as if time had gone back to ten years ago at this moment. At that time, there was blue sea and blue sky outside the window, the sound of reading was heard in the classroom, and the boy I liked was just a young man as cool as mint.
Tang Ruize was right. I should tell him that I like him. Whether he responds to me or rejects me, at least I can put an end to it.
In fact, I think he will definitely reject me. I don’t know why I have such an intuition, but I just feel that way. After being rejected, I completely let go of this love. Only after letting go can we truly be friends!
Now, I am the only one enduring it, it’s so unfair.
There were only two classes in the afternoon, and Tang Ruize's class was not over yet, so Shu Haining and I went back first.
On the way back, the subway was not crowded because it was not rush hour. There was an empty seat in the carriage we were on, so I walked over and sat down, and Shu Haining stood in front of me.
I don’t know if it’s because I’ve made up my mind, but now when I see Shu Haining, I don’t feel like I’m suppressing some emotion, and even my breathing becomes smoother.
After getting off the subway, I said goodbye to Shu Haining at the old place. Instead of going home directly, I went to a place.
Although I had made up my mind, I still had to know what was going on between Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian. Because I was not familiar with the children of my age at the beach, and those people were once Hua Yuemian's "accomplices", and I didn't like them very much. So the only place where I could know about Shu Haining was there.
I finally found Tian Su's shop, and Tian Su happened to be in the shop. Because school has started, business in the scenic area has been a little slow recently.
"Skylark is here." Tian Su greeted me warmly when he saw me coming. "I didn't treat you well last time. You will definitely not leave halfway today."
"No, the ice cream last time was delicious." I said with a smile, "Actually, I came here today to know something."
"What's the matter? I will tell you everything I know." Tian Su poured a cup of tea in front of me, sat down opposite me, and took out a cigarette, "Can I smoke?"
"Sure, go ahead." I said, "The other day you said something happened to Shu Haining three years ago. Can you tell me what it was?"
"Oh, that's it!" Tian Su smiled. "It's not a big deal, actually. Let me think about it. It should have happened four years ago. Yes, that's right, four years ago. At that time, the renovation of the last area of ​​the community was nearing completion. I don't know what he was doing there that day, and he fell off the unstable scaffolding."
"Are you not hurt?" I asked hurriedly.
"No, but the person in charge of the project was fined. Everyone here knows about it, but it's probably because the boys were just playing around, so it's nothing." Tian Su said.
Is that all? I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.
"What about Hua Yuemian? Is Hua Yuemian okay?" I asked.
Hearing the name "Hua Yuemian", Tian Su frowned. He thought for a while and said, "If you hadn't mentioned it, I would have almost forgotten that the day Shu Haining fell off the scaffolding, Hua Yuemian seemed to be there too. Shu Haining was not injured, but Hua Yuemian seemed to have been hit by the fallen scaffolding, but nothing happened."
My heart skipped a beat. Sure enough, something must have happened between Hua Yuenian and Shu Haining, so Shu Haining would tolerate Hua Yuenian's various intimate actions towards him even though they were not dating each other.
"Then do you know where Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian had the accident?" I must know what happened between them, and what made everything become like this in the ten years when I was away.
"You should remember that place. It was Qinglu's lookout tower. It was later demolished and now a three-story villa has been built there." Tian Su said, "By the way, why so curious about Shu Haining?"
"You know, I found him on the beach, and later we became good friends. When I was away, of course I wanted to know what my good friends had experienced." I found that I had become bad. Although the meaning was the same, I changed the way I phrased it.
"Yes, you picked him up. And it's true that changes in good friends do make people concerned. And I remember that the child was quite unsociable at first. It seemed that he didn't communicate with others except for studying. Probably since junior high school, he has been ranked first in every exam. It seems that he has only been playing with the children on the beach for three or four years." Tian Su sighed, "Who would have thought that a child brought by the waves would settle down here?"
"Yeah." I nodded. "Thank you for telling me so many things."
"It would be too formal to say thank you. Your grandmother took care of me a lot when I was a child." Tian Su's family was often not at home, so he often came to my house for meals and always treated me like his younger sister.
"I'm sorry to bother you for a long time. I have to go back now." I stood up and walked out. Tian Su wanted to keep me for dinner, but I told him that my grandma was waiting for me at home, so he didn't insist and let me go back.
I couldn't calm down for a long time.
According to Tian Su, Shu Haining was still single until four years ago, and his special relationship with Hua Yuemian only started four years ago. Calculated, Shu Haining should have been in the third grade at that time.
What was Shu Haining doing in that place?
Why did Hua Yuemian happen to be there?
Did they agree to go there?
I went home and left my schoolbag at home, and decided to go and take a look at that place.
Large patches of fiery clouds looked like balls of flame, burning the entire sky red from the west.
The small building with white walls and red tiles looked particularly fresh among the green leaves. I stepped onto the lawn and walked towards it. A gust of wind blew towards me, bringing with it the scent of green grass and a few yellow fallen leaves.
The autumn of Qinglu has arrived.
The former watchtower has become a three-story building, and time has suddenly stopped here. I vaguely remember that I came here when I was a child. I climbed up the high watchtower and looked up at the starry sky. At that time, I thought I was in the place closest to the sky.
Shu Haining, why did you come here four years ago?
Why would you climb onto a flimsy scaffolding?
I can't think of the answer because I won't be here by then.
After returning home, I lay on the bed in a sullen mood. I thought Tian Su knew everything I wanted to know, but it wasn't the case. After knowing all that, there were even more things I didn't understand.
Should I ask Shu Haining directly?
Just when I was struggling with this problem, a person I really didn't want to see appeared in front of me. Yes, that person was Hua Yuemian.
Calculated, the school should not be on holiday at this time, why did Hua Yuemian come back? However, her coming back at this time seems to have nothing to do with me.
She came back three days after I talked with Tian Su. She stopped me at the door of my house and her face didn't look good . When she saw me, she smiled at me reluctantly.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, frowning. "I remember saying I didn't like seeing you. I thought I made that clear last time."
"You said you wouldn't get close to Shu Haining. You said you wouldn't do anything. You clearly said that." Her voice was timid and she looked pitiful. If I were a boy, I might find her appearance very pitiful, but unfortunately I am not.
"Yes, I did say that. What's wrong?" I asked coldly, "You showed up here on a non-holiday day, you didn't come here just to ask me this kind of thing, did you? And, you lied to me, didn't you? You and Shu Haining are not dating."
Her face turned pale immediately, probably because she didn't expect me to ask Shu Haining directly whether they were dating. But seeing her reaction, I knew that Shu Haining was not lying, and Hua Yuemian was indeed not Shu Haining's girlfriend.
"You and him are not in that kind of relationship, but you came here without permission to tell me to stay away from him. It's your business that you like Shu Haining, and there's no reason to ask the whole world to make concessions for you." I said, "Even so, I still keep my distance from Shu Haining. Don't think that all girls in the world are like you. I used to think that all girls in the world are as disgusting as you. Until now, when I met other girls, I realized that it's not all girls who are disgusting, but you are the only one."
For those who have hurt me, for those who are still hurting me, I can no longer run away like a coward, but must learn to truly face them, let them see my strength, and let them know that I am not someone who can be hurt easily.
Back then, I was only seven or eight years old, so I didn’t know how to protect myself. Now that I have grown up, I know how to protect myself from harm.
Now she is using lies to restrain me, which is really unforgivable.
If I hadn't asked Shu Haining, if I didn't know that they were not dating, maybe I would never tell Shu Haining that I liked him.
But it’s different now. No matter what kind of entanglement there is between her and Shu Haining, I will definitely tell him that I like him.
"Whatever you say!" Hua Yuemian suddenly raised her head and looked at me. At that moment, I saw a trace of hatred flashing in her eyes. "But Yun Que, Hai Ning is mine, you can't take him away. You can't take him away because he can't abandon me."
"It doesn't matter. I don't know what you did while I was away, but I will definitely find out." I looked at her coldly.
"Do you want to know what happened between us?" Hua Yuemian suddenly laughed, with a hint of madness in her eyes. I don't know if it was because of my words that angered her, but the pitiful expression on her face disappeared. "If you want to know, I'll tell you, okay? Then you'll give up."
"What happened to you?" I asked impatiently.
Hua Yuemian stared into my eyes and said, "Because I lost an eye. Because of Haining, one of my eyes will never see again ."
"Eyes?" I looked into her eyes and didn't see anything special.
She raised her finger and pointed at her left eye: "Four years ago, Shu Haining went to a construction site. I followed him out of curiosity, but found that he climbed up a scaffold. The scaffold was not tied tightly. Just when Haining almost fell, I rushed over and hugged the vertical steel pipe."
But later, Shu Haining still fell off the scaffolding, but because the most important steel pipe did not collapse, the other steel pipes did not fall apart, and Shu Haining was not buried in the steel pipes, so he only had minor scratches. But Hua Yuemian was not so lucky. She hugged the vertical steel pipe, but the other horizontal steel pipe fell directly.
Hua Yuemian was knocked unconscious at that time. Shu Haining carried Hua Yuemian to the hospital. After Hua Yuemian woke up, she could not see with her left eye.
Hua Yuemian cried for a long time. She was terribly scared: "I can't see anymore. I can't see anymore."
“Don’t cry.” Shu Haining was still a very quiet boy at that time. Although he was shaking slightly because of fear, he comforted Hua Yuemian, “You became like this because you saved me. I will be responsible for you. It doesn’t matter if you can’t see anymore. I will always take care of you until you meet someone who can take better care of you.”
"What if I never meet that person? Will you take care of me all my life?" Hua Yuemian asked Shu Haining while crying.
Shu Haining was silent for a long time, and then said, "Can you let me go back and think about it for a night?"
After one night, Shu Haining said to Hua Yuemian: "If you can never meet that person in your life, then I will take care of you for the rest of your life."
From then on, Shu Haining, who had always been silent and only interested in reading, seemed to have become a different person. He began to do many things that he would not have done before, and he and Hua Yuemian formed the most special relationship.
"Maybe he really doesn't like me, but I don't care. I just want him to be with me forever." Hua Yuemian smiled at me with a hint of victory in her smile. "Did you hear that? He told me that he would take care of me forever. As long as he still feels guilty about me, he will never abandon me."
"So give up on him, Skylark. From the moment that steel pipe hit my head four years ago, Haining has been mine." After she said that, she walked into the darkness with a laugh.
I stood there for a long time, unable to move, leaning weakly against the iron gate. I thought that no matter what had happened, it would not shake me in the slightest.
I thought that was the case.
But now, can I still be so resolute?