I feel like I can't just wait here, I have to find him.
Since he said he had arrived, could he be nearby?
As I was thinking this in my mind, I started looking everywhere like a madman. I searched street after street, but after walking for a long time, I still couldn't find Ning Yuan.
Where on earth could he go? My heart was beating fast. He was not familiar with this place at all. Was he lost? Then why didn't he even answer the phone?
I kept running, looking for Ning Yuan. As time passed, sweat broke out on my forehead. I kept looking for Ning Yuan, but after a long time, I still found nothing.
I stood there in a daze, looking at the tall buildings around me. Where would Ning Yuan go at this moment? Why did he disappear just like that?
As I thought about it, I felt my eyes getting moist, and the grievances in my heart surged up like a tidal wave, and I almost couldn't help crying.
When I was overwhelmed with emotions, suddenly I seemed to hear someone calling my name.
That voice was so familiar. I listened carefully and it was clearly Lu Qingyu's voice.
How could it be him? How could he know I lived here?
No, no, it couldn't be him! It must be because I missed him so much that I was hallucinating.
I really thought I was hallucinating, but I still seemed to hold on to a glimmer of hope in my heart, so I couldn't help but look towards the source of the sound.
When I turned my head, I saw the figure that I had been thinking about day and night and was haunted in my dreams. He really appeared in front of me.
I rubbed my eyes and found that he was still standing there obediently.
It turns out that he really came, Lu Qingyu really came to see me.
I stood there, staring at him blankly, unable to utter a word. I had no strength left in my body and could not move at all.
So I just looked at him, without blinking, as if I wanted to silently tell him all the thoughts I had during these days.
I moved my eyes and saw Ning Yuan standing next to Lu Qingyu. He smiled at me with an apologetic look on his face.
"Sister!" Ning Yuan called me loudly and ran to me in a few steps.
Lu Qingyu also followed.
Ning Yuan smiled at me apologetically, scratched the back of his head with his hand, and said very tactfully: "Sister, I'm leaving first, you guys can chat slowly."
After saying this, he walked away consciously.
The streets were quiet.
Ning Yuan left, leaving Lu Qingyu and I standing there, looking at each other in silence.
I have to admit that I was surprised and happy when I saw him. I really didn't expect that he would appear in front of me again. I haven't seen that familiar smile for a long time.
I remained silent, with my head down and tears streaming down my face. I didn't know what to say to him. It seemed like I had a thousand words to say, but I didn't know which one to say first.
Suddenly, Lu Qingyu reached out and hugged me tightly.
"Lu Qingyu, let me go!"
I struggled to break free, but he was so strong that I couldn't push him away. I kept hitting his back and shouting, "Lu Qingyu, let me go, let me go! We've broken up!"
Yes, we have broken up and have nothing to do with each other anymore.
"Break up? It doesn't count as breaking up if I don't agree!" He still held me tightly and refused to let go, "Ningjing, I didn't agree, I didn't agree!"
His voice was tearful and I felt tears dripping on my shoulders.
Was he crying? Was he crying for me?
But I can't be soft-hearted. I have let go for so long, and I can't joke about Ning Yuan's future.
I tried hard to push him away, but he held me tighter and tighter and refused to let go.
"Lu Qingyu, let go! We have broken up, let me go!" I shouted loudly, regardless of whether this was a public place or not.
"I don't admit it, Ningjing, I tell you, I don't admit it! You are my girlfriend, for life!" He hugged me tightly and shouted loudly.
"Lu Qingyu, don't be like this..."
After all, we are from two different worlds, he and Jiang Qianmo are a couple.
His embrace was still so warm, so warm that it seemed to be able to melt all the ice.
I seem to have softened my heart.
"Ningjing, can you please say something? Tell me that you haven't given up on me, and you haven't left me. I admit that I shouldn't have distrusted you in the beginning, and I shouldn't have misunderstood that there was something going on between you and Zhuo Yian. It's all my fault, Ningjing, I beg you not to leave me..."
He hugged me and repeated these words over and over again, saying that he was wrong.
But where did he go wrong ?
The biggest mistake he made in his life was probably falling in love with me, right?
"Ningjing, how could you be so cruel to leave me without saying a word? Can't you miss me as much as I miss you ? Not even a little bit?"
I didn't say anything. In fact, I couldn't say anything. How could I tell him that whenever I closed my eyes, his figure would appear in my mind?
How should I say it?
So I can only remain silent.
"But I can't give up on you, and I can't give up on looking for you. Sometimes I even feel that you have never been apart from me, and you have never left my side, because your appearance is so clear in my mind. Whenever I close my eyes, I can't help but see you. Ningjing, I can't let you go, I can't let you go!"
He hugged me tighter, as if he wanted to crush me.
I can feel his heartbeat, beat by beat.
I listened to him quietly, listened to him shouting, my eyes began to become moist, and before I knew it, tears flowed down my face.
Although I knew that Lu Qingyu liked me and had always been very nice to me, when I heard him say these words, I suddenly realized that his feelings for me were even deeper and stronger than I had imagined.
I suddenly felt that I was very bad and cruel. No matter what, I shouldn't treat him like this, right?
How could I bear to hurt a boy like this again?
"Lu Qingyu, I... I'm sorry." I said this with a sob, as if I had used up all my strength.
"It doesn't matter, as long as you are here, as long as you are here." He suddenly let go of me and smiled at me like a fool.
I found it a little funny and asked him with a sob: "Then how did you find me? Was it because of Ning Yuan?"
I looked at him, my eyes full of confusion.
"Today, Ning Yuan secretly went to see Mo Yan and I met him. I asked him for a long time and threatened him that I would not let him leave if he didn't tell me where you live. He told me reluctantly. Ning Jing, I really miss you. This has nothing to do with him. Please don't blame him, okay?" Lu Qingyu looked at me nervously.
I sighed softly and said, "Don't worry, how could I blame Ning Yuan? He is my biological brother, how could I blame him? I am only worried about him and what happened between him and Mo Yan."
I looked at him with worry on my face.
I was suddenly in a trance, and the door of memories seemed to be opened instantly. I remembered the scene in the hospital at that time and Lu Qingyu's eyes full of distrust.
That look broke my heart, and I don’t know how many times I shed tears during the sleepless nights.
Because of that look, and because I wanted to protect Ning Yuan, I decisively agreed to Jiang Qianmo's request, stayed away from Lu Qingyu, and broke up with him.
But I couldn't ignore my true feelings.
During the time I was away, I missed him so much that I even had a moment of trance, thinking that he had never left me, because I would think of him all the time, and his appearance was always so real.
His sudden appearance this time surprised me so much that I even wanted to be with him regardless of anything.
As long as he and I can be together, everything in the past will be just a passing cloud.
I was still thinking about my own things when Lu Qingyu suddenly said to me, "Ningjing, I'm sorry for making you feel wronged. I also know the reason why you left. I didn't expect Qianmo to look for you, nor did I expect something like that to happen. Don't worry, I have resolved the matter, and no one will be hurt anymore."
His voice was full of apology, and his eyes were full of guilt. He continued, "Ningjing, this is all my fault. It's all my fault. I was too negligent and failed to take good care of you. Ningjing, that day in the ward, I saw you taking good care of Zhuo Yian, and I was really jealous. I know that no matter what, I should have believed you, but I didn't do that."
As Lu Qingyu was talking, he suddenly held my hand tightly and kept apologizing to me: "Ningjing, can you forgive me? Can you give me another chance to take good care of you?"
His tone was so sincere that I couldn't bear to refuse.
I suddenly remembered the first time he confessed his love to me, with that pious look in his eyes, and he said, Ningjing, let me take care of you.
The Lu Qingyu at that time became clearer and clearer in my memory, overlapping with him now, and then slowly separated.
I was a little dazed, as if we were back to the day when he confessed his love to me. I was choking with sobs and couldn't speak.
He suddenly became very anxious and held my hand tightly, as if he was afraid that he would lose me if he let go, which even hurt me a little.
He said excitedly: "Ningjing, do you know? During the days when you were gone, I looked for you everywhere like crazy. I asked everyone who knew you and went to all the places you often went to look for you, but there was no news about you. It was as if you suddenly evaporated from the face of the earth. Ningjing, do you know how anxious I was? I was so scared in my heart. I was afraid of losing news of you and I was afraid of never seeing you again, but I would not give up. Ningjing, I will never give up on you in this life. If I can't find you, I will keep looking for you. Whether it takes a year or two, there will always be a day when I find you, right?"
At the end of his speech, he suddenly laughed.
I didn't expect that my leaving would make him so sad. I felt a little guilty and almost cried again.
Suddenly, I remembered the text message I sent him to ask him to meet. I frowned and asked, "But, I clearly sent you a text message before. It was after Zhuo Yian was discharged from the hospital. I wanted to explain everything to you clearly, so I sent you a text message to ask you to meet, but you didn't come."
"Text message?" He frowned and said, "When did you send it to me? I didn't see your text message."
After a pause, he said very disappointedly: "Ningjing, you don't know, after seeing you and Zhuo Yian being intimate in the ward, I was in a daze for a few days. I didn't even know where I threw my phone, but I didn't see that text message later."
It turned out that he was not angry with me and deliberately didn't go, but he didn't see the text message.
It turned out that someone had deleted my text message and he didn't see it, which made my misunderstanding of him even deeper.
"Ningjing, I really can't lose you again. This time when you disappeared, I realized that I love you more than I thought. You are really, really important to me. You are an indispensable and irreplaceable part of my life. I can't lose you, I really can't! Ningjing, can you forgive me? Give me another chance, okay? Ningjing, I know that you actually like me, don't you?"
I remained silent and didn't answer. I was confused. Between my feelings for Lu Qingyu and my deal with Jiang Qianmo, which one should I choose?
Seeing that I didn't react, his eyes dimmed and he said with a wry smile: "Ningjing, even if you don't like me, my love for you will not decrease in the slightest. I will treat you better than before and try my best to make you like me. To you, Lu Qingyu may be just a passerby, but to me, Ningjing is the only treasure in this world and is irreplaceable."
He actually said such words. I couldn't hold back my tears any longer. I looked up at him and his eyes were full of seriousness.
I choked up and said, "Lu Qingyu, you idiot."
"Idiot?" He didn't understand, frowned and looked at me nervously.
I sniffed, suppressed the sound of sobbing, and then said: "You can't even see that I have liked you for a long time, and you can't even see that I was so happy when I saw you. Aren't you an idiot?"
In an instant, I saw Lu Qingyu's eyes were extremely bright. He was a little ecstatic, hugged me tightly, and was a little incoherent: "Yes, yes, I am an idiot, I am the biggest idiot in the world, but can you please not leave this idiot from now on, because this idiot really loves you."
After saying that, he hugged me tightly in his arms, and my tears fell on his clothes, so warm.
But I felt very happy in my heart, and I said, "Lu Qingyu, I promise you, I will never leave you again, let's never separate again, okay?"
"For the rest of my life, I will hold your hand tightly and will never give you a chance to escape." He looked at me steadily and said.
In his gentle arms, we reached an agreement and vowed to never leave each other.
I think I was soft-hearted after all. Just like Lu Qingyu said, if the relationship between him and I is not love, then what is love?
The two of us sat on the side of the road, quietly, occasionally chatting a word or two. I leaned gently on his shoulder and felt that happiness was so close to me.
It was not until the sun went down that I urged Lu Qingyu to go home. This place is far away from the city, and it would take a long time even if he drove. If it was too late, I would be even more worried about him.
I stood at the entrance of the alley to see him off. He was reluctant to leave and looked back every few steps, just like a little child.
In my heart, I actually don’t want to let him go, but I always comfort myself that there is still a long way to go, right?
We still have a lifetime to move forward hand in hand, don't we?
Since he knew where I lived, our contact became more frequent.
He would often call me, and more often, he would travel across half the city to where I worked to accompany me.
Sometimes I was so busy with work in the shop that I had no time to pay attention to him, or even to say a word to him. He would just sit quietly by the window, reading a book by himself, occasionally looking up at me and smiling at me.
Everyone envies me for having such a considerate and attentive boyfriend. They all say that I am lucky to have found a boy who loves me so much.
When I heard this, I would be very happy and a little shy, so I would smile shyly. At this time, Lu Qingyu would also smile. I asked him why, and he said cunningly: "Now that everyone knows that you have such a handsome and considerate boyfriend, those boys who want to hit on you must have fled in panic."
I couldn't help laughing as I listened to his description.
All of this was so familiar, as if nothing had changed. He was still the same, a little bit naughty, yet reassuring.
He would still reveal a bit of ruffian nature occasionally, even when he was eating. He would secretly kiss me on the cheek when no one was paying attention, and then pretend nothing had happened, looking at me with an innocent face, which made me laugh and cry.
Every time I would glare at him, but I was very happy in my heart.
This was the happiest and most carefree time we have ever had together. Even if we look back on it long, long time later, the sweet feeling will not diminish in the slightest, because that is the taste of love.
I never knew that Lu Qingyu was such a romantic person before. I always thought he was a boy spoiled by girls and it was impossible for him to be considerate and caring towards others.
However, he proved me wrong with his actions.
I was on duty that morning and there were few people in the coffee shop, so I was a little bored and sat quietly at the cash register thinking about my own things.
For some reason, Lu Qingyu hasn't shown up in the past few days, and there's not even any news. When I called him, the call was transferred to voicemail.
I was a little puzzled and worried the whole morning, but after noon, there was still no news from him.
In the afternoon, I called him, but there was still a voice message. I felt a little anxious because he usually came to the store to read when he didn't have classes in the afternoon. But why didn't he even call me today?
The more I think about it, the more worried I become. Will anything happen to Lu Qingyu?
When I'm worried, time seems to pass by so slowly. I spent the whole afternoon looking at my watch, calculating the time to get off work, so I could go find him as soon as I got off work. But I had no idea where to find him.
Just like that, I finally waited until the end of get off work time. I was packing up and preparing to leave the store, but I found Lu Qingyu running in from outside.
"Ningjing, you haven't left yet?" I don't know where he went. At this time, he was sweating and panting.
I was relieved to see that he was safe and sound. I had been worried about him for the whole day, and when I saw him again, I really couldn't give him a good face.
I glared at him fiercely, ignored him and walked straight out of the store.
"Hey, Ningjing, wait for me!" He shouted my name loudly from behind.
The more I thought about it, the angrier I got. I had been worried about him for a whole day, but he acted as if nothing had happened. I admit that I was being unreasonable, but I really didn't want to pay attention to him, and my steps became faster and faster.
"Ningjing!" He blocked my way and his tall figure appeared in front of me.
I rolled my eyes at him and still ignored him.
But he showed his true shameless nature again. When I went east, he also went east. When I went west, he also went west.
Finally, I was helpless and had to stand firm and said to him, "Master Lu, aren't you very busy today? You didn't even answer the phone, so why are you free to come and see me now?"
"So you're angry about this?" He suddenly realized something, but he looked wronged. He took my hand and said, "Ningjing, come with me. I promise you won't be angry anymore in a while."
He winked at me mysteriously.
I wanted to break free, but I couldn't get his hands free. I had no choice but to follow him into the car.
He remained silent all the way, looking mysterious, and then he drove to the beach not far from the coffee shop.
The car gradually stopped and he said to me, "Get out."
I looked at him suspiciously, thought about it, opened the car door and walked out.
As soon as my feet stepped on the beach, I saw a beautiful castle made of sand not far away, and I ran over excitedly.
Oh my god! This castle is so lifelike and beautiful!
I even forgot to be angry, and hurriedly turned around and shouted to Lu Qingyu: "Come here quickly, there is a beautiful castle here, I don't know who built it, it's really beautiful!"
He walked up to me, looked at me with a grin and said, "But I know who built it."
Then he stretched out his hand from behind his back, and a large bouquet of flowers appeared in front of me.
I was stunned, not knowing why he suddenly gave me flowers, until he took out a box of cake like a magic trick, and then I remembered that today was my birthday.
"Today is my birthday. Oh my God, I even forgot about it because I was so busy with work." I smiled at myself.
He looked at me lovingly and said, "It's okay, as long as I remember it."
He handed me the bouquet and said earnestly, "Ningjing, happy birthday. I hope I can celebrate your birthday with you every year in the future."
I had never thought that his mysterious disappearance today was actually to prepare for my birthday. I was so touched that I turned around and asked him, "Is this castle also your masterpiece?"
He said proudly, "Of course, I turned off my phone for the castle and to surprise you."
"How dare you say that!" I hit him lightly with my fist. "Do you know that I have been worried about you all day, afraid that something might happen to you?"
He held my hand and looked at me with a smile: "Are you still angry now?"
Before I could say anything, his kiss suddenly fell on me without any warning. I looked at his face gradually approaching me in astonishment. He was so close to me that I could even count the number of his thick eyelashes.
My heart felt like it was about to jump out and my face became hot.
His kiss was as gentle as a dragonfly touching the water, yet it had the power to destroy everything.
My heart was pounding and he looked at me with a smirk on his face.
"You rascal." I scolded him with a smile.
He said with a look of grievance: "I have never heard that kissing your girlfriend is considered hooliganism."
"Any relationship that is not aimed at marriage is hooliganism." I looked at him and said seriously.
He frowned and said, "Who said we're not aiming to get married? If you're willing, it's only 9 dollars. I'll ask you to get married today."
I didn't expect him to say that. I was speechless for a moment and had to lower my head to hide my excitement.
He suddenly held my hand tightly, looked at me lovingly and said, "Ningjing, you have to know that I am very serious about what I said to you. I hope that we can hold hands for a lifetime."
After saying that, he took my hand and interlocked our fingers.
How can one not be moved by such deep affection?
I nodded gently and wanted to say something, but I was so moved that I couldn't speak.
He hugged me gently, and then we quickly separated. Then he squatted down, pointed at the beautiful castle and said, "That castle will be our home from now on. Soon, I will come to pick you up in my pumpkin carriage."
I looked at his serious expression but his movements were like those of a child and I couldn't help laughing out loud.
I watched him carefully open the cake box, gently insert the candles, and then light the candles. In the candlelight, he looked at me and smiled. His smile was so beautiful. He said, "Ningjing, make a wish."
I nodded, closed my eyes, made a silent wish, and then blew out all the candles in one breath.
He sat opposite me with a thoughtful look on his face.
"What's wrong, Lu Qingyu?" I asked him puzzledly.
He scratched the back of his head with his hand, looking very conflicted, and then said: "Actually, I wanted to ask you what your birthday wish is, but..."
I interrupted him and said, "My birthday wish is that you can spend my birthday with me every year in the future."
He panicked and covered my mouth quickly.
His action made my heart sink. I lowered my head and asked him, "So you don't want to..."
My voice was filled with desolation.
"Who said I don't want to!" Lu Qingyu interrupted me hastily and explained, "I'm just worried that if I say it out loud, it won't work, so I'm anxious..."
“It works, it works!” So ​​that’s how it is. I breathed a sigh of relief and looked at him firmly. “If I say it works, it will work. You…”
I pointed at him and said, "Do you want to celebrate my birthday with me every year, Lu Qingyu?"
He laughed and said nothing, just hugged me tightly in his arms. His arms were so warm that even though the sea breeze was blowing, I still didn't feel cold at all.
I leaned on his shoulder, feeling very safe, smelling the scent of the sea water, and thought: This is the smell of happiness.
Then, I heard Lu Qingyu's deep and magnetic voice in my ears. I heard him say, "Ningjing, we will walk together for the rest of our lives. We agreed to hold hands for a lifetime, and neither of us is allowed to let go of the other's hand first..."
I closed my eyes and swore silently in my heart, Lu Qingyu, I will never let go of your hand, and you must never let go of mine.
No matter when, no matter what the situation, don't let go of my hand.
However, happy times are always short-lived, and such days did not last long.
That day was the first day of autumn and the weather had turned cooler. When I got off work in the afternoon, Lu Qingyu came to pick me up.
Originally he was clamoring to go out for dinner, but I insisted on going home to cook him a new dish I had learned. Seeing my confident look, he agreed.
We were walking towards home, chatting and laughing. When we got to the entrance of the alley, I saw a luxury car.
The car was really luxurious and seemed out of place with everything dilapidated here. Maybe it was because the alley was too narrow and the car couldn't drive in, so it was parked here.
I was thinking absentmindedly, and just about to turn around and talk to Lu Qingyu, I found that his face turned extremely pale in an instant.
I was a little puzzled and was about to ask him what was wrong when he suddenly grabbed my hand and said to me, "Ningjing, let's go out to eat today. I really want to go to the Cantonese restaurant next to your coffee shop."
After saying that, he took my hand and hurried away. To me, his expression looked more like he was running away.
Seeing him like this, I suddenly became very anxious. I broke free from his hand and asked him loudly, "Lu Qingyu, what's wrong with you? What happened to you? Did something happen?"
He turned his head and was silent for a long time before saying, "Ningjing, you saw that car, right? It's my mother's car. She's here."
My head suddenly started buzzing. In fact, the first time I met his parents at his house, I knew that he and I were from different worlds, and I also knew that his parents would not like me.
I still had some hope in my heart, but I didn't expect this day to come so soon and I would have to face his parents face to face.
I was silent. Suddenly I didn't know what to say. I felt a little scared and became at a loss.
Should I just run away with Lu Qingyu? But where can we go? His mother can even find my home address, what's the point of me running away?
I was just daydreaming when I suddenly heard someone calling my name. The voice was so familiar. I turned around curiously and saw my mother standing at the entrance of the alley with a serious expression. Lu Qingyu's mother was standing next to my mother. I could clearly feel the heavy low pressure. Their expressions were as if they had seen an enemy.
"Mom..." No matter how uneasy I was, I still walked over to them, and Lu Qingyu followed closely behind me.
When Mrs. Lu saw Lu Qingyu, she took Lu Qingyu's hand without saying a word and prepared to leave. She didn't even bother to look at me.
"Mom!" Lu Qingyu shouted loudly, but Mother Lu remained indifferent. With a cold face, she forced Lu Qingyu to leave with her.
She didn't say anything unpleasant to me, she just ignored me. That kind of neglect made me feel even worse.
Lu Qingyu was held tightly by his mother. He looked back at me helplessly and shouted at me: "Ningjing, don't think too much. I will solve it. I will come back to you as soon as I solve it. Don't worry, I will definitely solve it!"
His voice gradually faded into the distance, and the car turned a corner and was no longer visible.
I felt a little uncomfortable and shook my head helplessly. Just when I turned around and wanted to say something to my mother, I was greeted by a slap in the face. It hit me hard in the face with a "pa" sound.
My mother slapped me hard without saying a word. My face felt burning with pain. I looked at her in disbelief. I didn't expect her to hit me without asking any questions.
I looked at her aggrievedly, and she yelled at me: "Ningjing, you must break up with this boy, immediately! From now on, you are not allowed to meet him again, and you are not allowed to have any connection with him at all!"
Her voice was filled with a determination she had never heard before.
I was stunned and stood there. I knew my mother didn't want me to have a boyfriend, but why did she act like she had seen her enemy?
My tears suddenly flowed down and I bit my lips tightly because I felt dizzy because of the heavy slap just now.
"Mom...I can't leave..."
But I didn't expect her to raise her hand again and slap me hard in the face. This slap was heavier and more brutal than the previous one.
I stared at my mother blankly and uttered one word with difficulty: "Mom..."
I couldn't help crying. I didn't know why she was so angry and why she wanted me to leave Lu Qingyu. But Lu Qingyu and I agreed that neither of us could leave the other and neither of us could give up, right?
Although I was feeling uneasy and worried, and even though the corners of my mouth were still bleeding, for Lu Qingyu, I gritted my teeth and said firmly, "Mom, I won't leave him. Mom, please help us!"
My mother didn't expect that I would resist her, because from childhood to adulthood, I have always been obedient and never resisted in order not to make her sad. This was the first time I said "no" in front of her.
Her face became even gloomier. She looked at me in disbelief and asked me word by word, "Ningjing, what did you just say?"
I mustered up the courage to say, "Mom, I will not leave Lu Qingyu, I will not break up with him, please help us."
"Can you say that again."
Although I was sad to see my mother like this, and the burning sensation on my face reminded me that she was very angry, I still said firmly: "Mom, I will not break up with Lu Qingyu."
"We must break up! Otherwise you are not my daughter and you will never be able to enter our house again!" she said resolutely.
With tears in my eyes, I cried and shouted, "Mom, I don't understand, I really don't understand, why are you like this? Why do you have to break up with us? I really like Lu Qingyu, and he likes me too. We want to be together forever, why can't you fulfill our wishes? Mom, don't you want to see your daughter happy? I know you are afraid that I will affect my studies, I can promise you that I will definitely not let my feelings affect my studies, Mom, can you believe me?"
I begged her, but she was shaking with anger and couldn't even speak.
She stood there looking at me fiercely, her eyes full of sorrow.
I felt so distressed that my tone softened: "Mom, you are not in good health. Don't be angry anymore. Let's not talk about these things for now, okay? I will help you go in and rest."
After saying that, I went over to help her, but she slapped my hand away. She glared at me fiercely, then turned and left.
I looked at her staggering back and felt a pang of pain in my heart.
I wanted to chase after her and beg her not to be sad anymore, but I was afraid that saying these things would make her even angrier.
I had no choice but to stand there silently, saying nothing, doing nothing, just staring blankly at her back as it slowly disappeared from my sight.
That night I was afraid that my mother would be even angrier when she saw me, so I just went to sleep in the store where I worked. I tossed and turned all night and couldn't sleep.
The next morning, I got up early, asked the store manager for a day off, and went home.
After traveling across most of the city, I finally arrived home.
I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that maybe my mother wouldn't be so angry today. I kept comforting myself in my heart, and then I mustered up the courage to knock on the door.
I knocked on the door gently. It was my first time returning to my own home, but I felt so uneasy.
After a long while, the door finally opened and my mother appeared at the door.
I looked at her. Her eye sockets were sunken, her face was pale and bloodless, and she looked extremely haggard.
I felt very distressed. I knew she must not have slept well last night because of my talent...
Thinking of this, I felt very guilty. Just as I was about to say something to her, she glanced at me coldly, then slammed the door decisively.
It seemed like she was still mad at me and hadn't even forgiven me at all.
I stood at the door in a daze, suddenly at a loss as to what to do. At this moment, my heart was uneasy. I didn't know what I should do, what I should do to make her less angry.
I thought about it for a long time, and when I came to my senses, I continued knocking on the door.
I knocked on the door and shouted loudly: "Mom, can you open the door for me? Mom!"
My voice sounded almost pleading, but no one answered, and no one came to open the door.
I just stood outside the door helplessly, feeling isolated and helpless.
The surroundings suddenly became quiet, and I could hear voices in the room, sometimes loud and sometimes soft.
I held my breath and concentrated, then I could hear clearly that Ning Yuan was at home. He was speaking for me, begging my mother to forgive me and let me go home.
But the mother was still so determined. She shouted at Ning Yuan at the top of her lungs: "You and your sister have grown up and become independent. You both want to piss me off to death, right? Ning Yuan, if you say one more word for Ning Jing, beg for mercy, or mention this name once again, we will completely sever our mother-son relationship!"
"Mom!" Ning Yuan's voice was full of pleading.
But my mother's voice was still so cold, so cold that it chilled my heart. She said, "Ningyuan, go back to your room right now and don't say a word. Otherwise, get out too!"
A suffocating silence followed.
After a long time, I heard the door of the room being slammed shut, and I knew that Ning Yuan had returned to his room.
The last glimmer of hope was gone, I lowered my arms dejectedly and gave up knocking on the door, because I knew that no matter how hard I knocked or how long I knocked, my mother would not soften her heart and would not forgive me.
Thinking of this, my heart was filled with despair.
I squatted down weakly, feeling very sad.
Tears welled up in my eyes and then rolled down.
I looked at the cold iron gate in front of me and felt that it ruthlessly blocked all family affection.
Thinking of this, I became more and more desperate, fearing that my mother would not forgive me.
And now I am a homeless child.
I squatted outside the door for a long time until my legs became numb and I could no longer support the weight of my body. Finally, I fell to my knees weakly on the ground.
The ground was icy cold.
I gradually came back to my senses from the trance I had just had, and my consciousness gradually became clear.
I struggled to stand up, and had no choice but to go downstairs.
Because I knelt for too long, my legs were a little out of control. I staggered and finally got down the stairs.
I was like a puppet that had lost its soul. I didn't know where I should go, nor where I could go.
I walked over to the bench downstairs and sat down. Just when I was at a loss as to what to do, I saw the policeman again.
At this moment, he was smiling at me.