I was tired after a whole day, and when I lay down, I was soon surrounded by a huge dream. I slept very deeply, and when I woke up, it was already noon.
As soon as I opened my eyes, my cell phone vibrated. When I saw the words "Lu Qingyu" written on the screen, I hurriedly picked up the call.
"Hey, Jingjing, come down quickly, Ning Yuan and I are downstairs." Lu Qingyu urged on the other end of the phone.
I rubbed my sleepy eyes and didn't react for a while. After I came to my senses, I quickly got dressed and went downstairs.
When I ran downstairs, they were already waiting there. Since there was some distance between us, I waved at them and ran over quickly.
"Why are you here so early?" I shielded my eyes from the glaring sunlight with my hands and muttered.
"It's obviously because you, the lazy little pig, got up too late, okay?" Lu Qingyu teased me.
My face turned red and I looked at my watch. It was almost noon.
I felt a little embarrassed. I was always good at changing the subject. I looked at Ning Yuan and asked, "Ning Yuan, is the bed at Young Master Lu's house comfortable?"
I was joking with him, but he didn't answer me. Instead, he looked at me nervously, as if he wanted to say something to me but stopped.
I frowned and said to Lu Qingyu, "Then Ning Yuan and I will go home first. My mother is still waiting at home. I will call you later."
"Yeah." Lu Qingyu nodded.
I held Ning Yuan's hand and went upstairs. When we got home, he suddenly pulled me into his room and said in a trembling voice, "Sister, I'm so scared, sister!"
I didn't know what happened to him. Seeing his frightened face, my heart began to beat fast. I forced myself to calm down and asked, "Tell me slowly, what happened?"
I could tell Ning Yuan was trying his best to hold it in, but his voice was still trembling. He stammered to me, "Sister, I'm in trouble, something terrible has happened. I... I injured someone, and now I don't know if that person is dead or alive. Sister, what do you think I should do? If something really happens to Jiang Chen, will I go to jail? I didn't dare to tell you last night at Brother Qingyu's place. Sister, you have to help me, you must help me."
As Ning Yuan spoke, his voice was trembling uncontrollably.
"Wha...what! Why didn't you tell me these things last night?"
I didn't expect this to happen. I was really scared. My heart started beating wildly. I told myself over and over again to stay calm. If I panicked now, what would happen to Ning Yuan?
I pretended to be calm and asked Ning Yuan in a low voice: "What is going on? Calm down and talk slowly."
I thought it was just a breakup, but now when I heard him say that someone almost died, I started to panic.
Ning Yuan said in a trembling voice: "Then... after I received the call that night, I went to look for Mo Yan. As a result, when I got there, I found that Mo Yan was with a gangster-like guy, and they were very close. I asked him and found out that his name was Jiang Chen. Mo Yan said that she fell in love with Jiang Chen and wanted to break up with me, and told me to get out. I got angry and started fighting with Jiang Chen. During the fight, I picked up a bottle and hit him on the head, and then ran away while they were stunned. Sister, I thought it was nothing at first, but someone called me this morning and told me that Jiang Chen was in the hospital. Sister, what do you think we should do?"
I listened to Ning Yuan's narration quietly, and I felt a buzzing in my head. I looked at Ning Yuan, not knowing what to say for a moment.
"Sister..." Ning Yuan became even more panicked when he saw that I was silent. He kept shaking my arm and asked me, "Sister, do you think that little gangster will really get into trouble? Sister, I don't want to go to jail. Sister, what should I do..." He became a little incoherent.
I came to my senses and saw his terrified look, so I quickly comforted him, "It's okay, he will be fine. He may have been sent to the hospital a long time ago, and nothing will happen to him."
Ning Yuan was still very worried. He looked at me with a frown, and his hand holding my arm was still trembling slightly.
I patted his hand gently and said, "Ningyuan, don't worry, I'll find a way. I will never let anything happen to you."
But before we could come up with a solution, we heard knocks on the door.
I looked at my watch and thought my mother was back, so I turned around and lowered my voice to Ning Yuan and said, "Don't talk nonsense. Stay calm. Mom is back. Don't let her know about this, otherwise she will be worried to death."
Ning Yuan nodded, his eyes full of worry.
I took a deep breath, calmed myself, and walked out of the room to open the door. But as soon as I opened the door, several people suddenly rushed in.
I was terrified and shouted loudly, "Who are you? What are you going to do?"
"Who are we? First ask your beloved brother what he did. Since you dare to hit our friends, you should know that you will pay the price." The leader said viciously.
"Are you Jiang Chen's people?" I asked.
"I'm glad to know." After saying this, the man rushed up and pushed me to the ground.
Then two people rushed into the room quickly, pulled Ning Yuan out rudely, and slammed the door.
I was stunned, everything happened so fast that I didn't have time to react.
"Ning Yuan!"
I shouted Ning Yuan's name loudly, quickly got up from the ground and chased after them. I was afraid that they would hurt Ning Yuan, and I was extremely frightened at this moment.
I stumbled out and followed them. I saw them dragging Ning Yuan to a remote alley near his home, and when I staggered over, they were ready to beat him up without saying a word.
With a "slap", Ning Yuan was slapped on the left cheek. The slap was really hard, and the fingerprint was clear. Bright red blood was already flowing from the corner of Ning Yuan's mouth.
Ning Yuan was already very weak, and I couldn't bear to see anyone hurting him since I was a child. I felt so distressed and my heart ached. Without thinking, I rushed forward to stand in front of Ning Yuan.
Although I was extremely scared, I still pretended to be calm and shouted at them, "Who are you? How dare you hit someone? Do you believe me, I will call the police right now?"
As I spoke, I took out my cell phone in a bluffing manner.
I originally thought that they would be more considerate because I am a girl, but I didn’t expect that they didn’t care at all that I am a girl.
The tall boy with a crew cut who was in the lead smiled disdainfully, then he walked towards me step by step, and before I could react, his fist came down.
I closed my eyes in fear, knowing that the blow would be severe, but strangely, I didn't feel any pain for a long time.
what happened?
I was extremely puzzled, and when I opened my eyes again, I was surprised and happy, because the person standing in front of me looked so familiar.
I was so excited that I almost cried.
It turned out to be Zhuo Yian!
How come he suddenly appeared here?
I suppressed my excitement and called out his name with a trembling voice: "Zhuo Yian, is it really you?"
He turned around and smiled at me, still so gentle and handsome, and said, "Jingjing, don't be afraid, I'm here."
I don’t know why, but tears suddenly flowed out when I heard his words. I nodded hard at him, choking with sobs and unable to say anything.
Suddenly, Ning Yuan came out from behind me, stood in front of me, turned around and said to me: "Sister, don't be afraid, I will protect you."
I looked at Ning Yuan in amazement, and suddenly found that the little boy who used to hide behind me and cry whenever something happened has grown up. Although I felt a little uncomfortable, I felt moved and relieved.
Just when I was stunned, Ning Yuan shouted: "Are you guys going to fight together or alone?"
After saying that, he rushed forward, his back looking fierce and decisive.
My heart was pounding as if it was suspended in mid-air. I stared at Zhuo Yian and Ning Yuan's backs without blinking, and broke out in a cold sweat for them.
Zhuo Yian and Ning Yuan worked together, and that group of people couldn't gain much advantage. But after all, they were outnumbered and powerful, and those fists fell on them like raindrops. I saw that Ning Yuan's forehead was bleeding, and there was a trace of blood at the corner of Zhuo Yian's mouth.
My heart was broken as if by a knife. When I saw how badly they were injured, tears fell like beads from a broken string.
I stared at Ning Yuan, who had a bad health and had never fought since childhood. I was extremely worried, afraid that something might happen to him, but I was relieved to see that Ning Yuan was no longer as timid as before and could stand in front of me to block my punches.
Suddenly, the shrill sound of a police car sounded in the distance. I saw the gang leader yelled, "The police are coming, retreat!"
As soon as he finished speaking, the thugs stopped and quickly disappeared.
"Ningyuan, Zhuo Yian!" I shouted and ran to their side.
Ning Yuan seemed to have used up all his strength and was squatting on the ground gasping for breath.
Zhuo Yian took out a handkerchief and gently wiped the bleeding corner of his mouth, his demeanor still so elegant and calm.
The sound of the police car just now gradually disappeared. It turned out to be a patrol police car passing by. I was secretly glad that if this police car had not passed by by chance, that group of people would never have stopped and let it go.
I breathed a sigh of relief, and my heart, which had been hanging in the air, gradually settled down. I looked at the two of them in such a state of disgrace, and felt sad and worried. I held Zhuo Yian with one hand and Ning Yuan with the other, and walked forward.
Ning Yuan broke free from my hand and asked, "Sister, what are you going to do?"
I turned around and said, "You two come with me to the hospital, right now."
"Sister, I'm fine."
Ning Yuan had bruises all over his face but he told me he was fine. I felt so sad. His face was so badly bruised, so his body must be covered with bruises as well.
The more I thought about it, the sadder I became. So I held Ning Yuan's hand tightly without saying anything and said in a tough tone, "No, you must go to the hospital with me today, otherwise I will not let go."
Zhuo Yian looked at me, smiled softly, and then said to Ning Yuan: "Xiao Yuan, just listen to Jing Jing, otherwise she will be worried to death."
Ning Yuan had no choice but to shake his head helplessly and follow me towards the hospital.
I forcibly dragged Zhuo Yian and Ning Yuan to the hospital. Fortunately, when the fight just started, Ning Yuan had Zhuo Yian to help stop it, so he didn't get hit by many punches. This made me finally breathe a sigh of relief.
But what made people worry was that Zhuo Yian's injuries were quite serious. When he was fighting with that group of people just now, he helped Ning Yuan to get hit by many punches, and his body was now covered with bruises.
I looked at him. He must have been in so much pain, but he still smiled at me so gently, waved his hand and said it was okay.
The doctor said that Zhuo Yian's injuries were somewhat serious and accompanied by a mild concussion, and he needed to stay in the hospital for observation for a period of time.
I helped Zhuo Yian into the ward and let him lie down on the bed to rest. After settling him down, I walked out holding Ning Yuan's hand.
The hospital corridor was quiet, with a faint smell of disinfectant in the air.
I looked at my watch, turned around and said to Ning Yuan, "Ning Yuan, you should go home first. It's getting late."
"Sister, what about you?" Ning Yuan asked me with a frown.
"I'll take care of Zhuo Yian here." I said firmly, and then reminded him, "Remember to avoid your mother when you go home, otherwise she will worry again."
"I understand, sis."
Ning Yuan agreed, and just as he turned to leave, I called him back: "If mom asks me, just say I'm staying at a classmate's house and I'm not going back tonight."
"Well, is there anything else?" Ning Yuan asked me.
I looked up at him, thinking about his heroic appearance just now, and a surge of gratitude welled up in my heart. I smiled and said to him, "Ningyuan, you are a man now, and you can protect your sister."
Ning Yuan blushed when he heard this, scratched his hair embarrassedly, and said shyly: "Sister, I'm leaving."
"Well, go ahead." I looked at him with a smile, and only turned around and went back to the ward when I saw his back disappear at the end of the corridor.
When I walked in, Zhuo Yian was not asleep. He just lay quietly on the hospital bed, looking at the ceiling thoughtfully.
He came back to his senses after I walked in, and said to me with a smile: "Don't worry about me, Jingjing, I'm fine ."
I sat beside his bed. I had so much to say but for a moment I didn't know how to start. I felt helpless.
To be honest, I am really grateful to him for risking his life to protect my sister and me in such a dangerous situation.
Thinking of his sudden appearance like a god, and his back that made me feel at ease instantly, I felt grateful again.
I think no matter when I think of that figure in this life, the feeling of being touched will not diminish in the slightest.
I raised my head, looked at Zhuo Yian seriously, and said, "Zhuo Yian, thank you so much."
He shook his head and smiled disapprovingly, "Jingjing, we have known each other for so many years. Can I just stand by and watch you in danger? Wouldn't it be too awkward to say thank you?"
"Well," I said, "I understand what you said, but I am still grateful to you."
He waved his hand and said, "If you really want to thank me, go buy me a bottle of water. There is a vending machine at the foot of the stairs."
"Well, no problem." I stood up and as I walked out of the ward, I saw a scene that stunned me.
Jiang Qianmo and Lu Qingyu were standing in front of the ward. She held his arm intimately with a sweet smile on her face.
Why are they here together?
My mind was full of questions. I stood there without moving, and didn't even say hello to Lu Qingyu. My mind was blank at this moment.
Before I could say anything, Jiang Qianmo spoke. Her voice was still as sweet as ever, but it revealed a malicious tone.
"Sister Jingjing, Brother Qingyu couldn't get through to you on the phone, so he called Ningyuan. He told us what happened and said you were here, so we rushed over. You should not be hurt, right? Brother Zhuo Yian is really a hero who saves the beauty, so you are taking care of him now without taking off your clothes, right? If it were me, I would be so moved that I would like to marry him. Sister Jingjing, there is nothing going on between you and Brother Yian, right? Otherwise, why would he be so selfless and desperate for you?" Jiang Qianmo said half-jokingly. It was a normal thing, but she exaggerated it, which made people feel uncomfortable.
I looked at Lu Qingyu, his face became even gloomier. When I looked at him, he was also looking at me. Our eyes met, and there was a questioning look in his eyes. I knew he wanted to hear my explanation. I wanted to explain, but when I saw the look in his eyes at that moment, I swallowed back what I wanted to say.
Seeing the look in his eyes that showed so much distrust of me, I really didn't want to explain anymore.
Isn't trust the most important thing between a couple? If there is no trust at all, what is the point of being together?
Thinking of this, my heart suddenly became very cold.
I looked into his eyes and said word by word: "Lu Qingyu, if I said no, would you believe me?"
I put a lot of effort into saying this, but my voice still inevitably trembled.
After I finished speaking, I looked at him, looking at him very seriously, afraid to miss every subtle expression of his.
A minute passed.
Two minutes passed.
What awaited me was silence.
Great disappointment filled my heart.
He never spoke. My hands dropped weakly and my eyes grew dim.
I felt very disappointed. It turned out that Jiang Qianmo's words really had an impact on him. I thought we trusted each other, but it turned out that it was all wishful thinking on my part.
The more I thought about it, the sadder I became, and my heart ached.
I turned my head away and stopped looking at him or talking. I just took care of Zhuo Yian silently, as if he had never been there.
I didn't even know when he and Jiang Qianmo left. It was only when Zhuo Yian told me that I knew they were gone.
From beginning to end, Lu Qingyu didn't say a word to me.
I lowered my head and remained silent. Zhuo Yian looked at me and suddenly asked me, "Jingjing, you clearly had the opportunity to explain just now, why didn't you explain it to him clearly?"
I just shook my head and said nothing.
Zhuo Yian sighed softly and said, "Jingjing, you know what? You are just too stubborn."
I couldn't understand what he meant. All I could think about was the distrustful look in Lu Qingyu's eyes when he looked at me just now. It hurt my heart.
I just shook my head gently and said lightly: "Maybe so."
I didn't want to continue this topic, so I looked up and asked Zhuo Yian: "Why did you suddenly appear downstairs of our house?"
I looked at him in confusion. This was a question I just couldn't figure out.
But he lowered his head, clearly trying to avoid my question.
He avoided the topic and just said calmly: "Oh, I was just about to visit you at your house and encountered all this."
"Oh, I see." I said in disbelief, "Then what do you want to talk to me about?"
I don't mean to pursue it relentlessly, I just have genuine doubts in my mind.
He waved his hands, looked calm and composed, smiled, and said, "It's okay now."
After a pause, he said, "Jingjing, I'm a little tired. I want to rest first."
"OK, all right."
I nodded, and seeing that he didn't want to answer me, I didn't ask any further questions.
The doctor said Zhuo Yian had a mild concussion and needed to stay in the hospital for two days. He was injured because of me and my sister, so how could I just stand by and watch?
Even if Lu Qingyu doesn't understand, I don't think I can just leave Zhuo Yian alone. I have always been a grateful person, let alone the grace of saving my life.
Even if Lu Qingyu doesn't understand, I can't just leave Zhuo Yian alone in the hospital.
If Zhuo Yian hadn't appeared that day, Ning Yuan wouldn't have been protected so well. Because of Zhuo Yian's protection, Ning Yuan only suffered a minor injury, and I might not have been able to stand in front of him intact.
In his spare time, he didn't talk to me much. He just concentrated on the book I brought him and read it very seriously.
Every time at this time, I would sit quietly by the window, looking at the scenery outside. As I looked, Lu Qingyu's figure appeared in my mind.
Since we parted hastily that day, he left with Jiang Qianmo without saying anything to me. His distrustful eyes have been flickering in front of my eyes these days. That look is like a sharp knife, cutting my heart and hurting it.
I just can't figure it out. I just can't understand why he doesn't even trust his girlfriend and chooses to trust others?
He really disappointed and saddened me, but why was I so useless that I couldn't help but miss him several times a day?
I feel like I'm really hopeless. My heart is tied to him and I can't control it.
Is this love?
Zhuo Yian only had a mild concussion. After two days of hospitalization, the doctor said he could be discharged the next day. When I received the discharge notice, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
The day when Zhuo Yian was discharged from the hospital happened to be a weekend.
I rushed to the ward early in the morning, and to my surprise, I saw Jiang Qianmo. I stared at her in amazement, not understanding why I kept meeting her here.
When I was in a daze, she suddenly said, "Ningjing, I want to talk to you alone about your brother Ning Yuan."
Seeing that I didn't say anything, she continued, "I think you'll be interested in Jiang Chen."
Jiang Chen?
This name sounds so familiar, I seem to have heard it somewhere before.
I thought about it for a long time, and then I remembered that Ning Yuan told me that day that he beat up a gangster who was with Mo Yan, and I think his name was Jiang Chen.
It suddenly dawned on me, is there any relationship between Jiang Chen and Jiang Qianmo?
I was a little confused, but looking at Jiang Qianmo in front of me, I nodded and said, "Let's not go far. I have to pick up Zhuo Yian from the hospital later."
She was quite reasonable, nodded and said, "Then let's go to the coffee shop downstairs. If it weren't for Jiang Chen's matter, do you think I would be willing to come to you?"
She looked at me with contempt, sneered, then turned and walked downstairs.
We went to the coffee shop downstairs in the hospital. It was still early, so there were not many people in the coffee shop.
As soon as she sat down, she went straight to the point and said coldly: "Ningjing, your brother Ning Yuan injured my brother Jiang Chen. You already know about this, right?"
It turned out that Jiang Chen was her brother. I was shocked and felt that this matter was becoming more and more complicated. I nodded and said, "Ning Yuan told me everything."
She snorted coldly: "Actually there is nothing much to say. My idea is very simple, that is, I want Ning Yuan to pay with blood."
"eye for eye?"
Her four words really scared me. I looked at her with a frown, and my heart became uneasy.
Jiang Qianmo said viciously: "Ningjing, the one who was injured is my own brother. He is still lying in a coma in the hospital. Do you know how worried my family is? Do you know how much pain I feel? How do you think this account should be settled? I think the fairest solution is to let Ning Yuan have a taste of this, don't you think?"
"Then you should call the police and let them handle it."
"Police? I still think it's better for me to handle it myself. If Zhuo Yian hadn't suddenly appeared, maybe your brother would be lying in the hospital unconscious like my brother. I might feel better then."
"Did you find that group of people?" I was very shocked. I didn't expect Jiang Qianmo to do such a thing.
She sneered, "So what? Ning Jing, the person who hurt my brother is your brother. Do you think I will let him go so easily?"
"You can't hurt Ning Yuan!" Hearing her say that, I couldn't hold back my excitement any longer and said, "Ning Yuan was indeed wrong in this matter. Your brother was injured. I feel really bad. I am sorry and sad. I sincerely apologize to you. We will bear all the medical expenses. However, Qianmo, I will not agree to solve the problem by hurting Ning Yuan."
"But I will only let him go if you also experience this pain." She looked at me provocatively, her voice very sharp.
I looked at her defiant expression, which clearly showed that she didn't want to solve the problem. I said firmly, "No matter what, Ning Yuan is my brother, and I won't let anyone hurt him."
"This is not up to you, Ning Jing. Who do you think you are? Don't overestimate yourself. If you make me angry, believe it or not, I will deal with you too."
Jiang Qianmo narrowed her eyes slightly and looked at me with contempt.
"I can get hurt for my brother, but you must never touch a finger on him!" I would not give in and would never let Ning Yuan get hurt.
"Hmph! I didn't realize you were so domineering, Ning Jing. You're such a selfish person." Jiang Qianmo looked at me coldly and said.
"What do you mean?" I didn't quite understand what she meant.
"What do you mean? Ning Yuan hasn't been hurt yet, but you're already thinking about taking the blame for him. What about Brother Qingyu? He likes you so much, would you want to take the blame for him when he gets hurt?"
Lu Qingyu was injured?
I couldn't believe what Jiang Qianmo said, so I asked cautiously, "Are you saying that Lu Qingyu was injured?"
"Hahaha..." Jiang Qianmo laughed as if she had heard the funniest joke. "Ningjing, I really want to strangle you to death. You actually dared to ask me if he was injured. Have you forgotten? You are the one who hurt him!"
Did I hurt Lu Qingyu?
I thought about what happened in the hospital that day. I was still secretly grieving over the fact that I was not trusted. In fact, the person who was hurt the most was Lu Qingyu.
"I..." I opened my mouth, but didn't know what to say.
"Ningjing, let's make a deal." Jiang Qianmo said.
Deal, deal again.
Her eyes and tone were really unbearable. I tried hard to calm myself down so that I didn't lose control of my emotions.
I said coldly: "Jiang Qianmo, what do you want?"
Jiang Qianmo sneered: "It seems that you still want to solve the problem. Okay! Ning Jing, I might as well be frank. As long as you leave Lu Qingyu, everything will be written off. Otherwise, I will never let Ning Yuan go."
Leaving Lu Qingyu, it turns out that this is her ultimate goal.
As I repeated the name in my mind, that handsome and rebellious face appeared in my mind at the right time.
Leave him and never have anything to do with him again, right?
A few days ago, I was still angry because he didn't trust me and was in the cold war with him, but why do I feel so reluctant and sad when I think about leaving him?
I didn’t know what was happening to me. Even my fingers were trembling slightly. I was silent and didn’t say a word for a long time.
Jiang Qianmo had obviously lost her last bit of patience: "Are you going to agree or not? I don't have that much time to waste here with you."
I said nothing, just looked at her with empty eyes.
She looked at me coldly and said, "Ningyuan's fate is in your hands, Ningjing. It's up to you whether you want a brother or love. Besides, Qingyu and I are much more suitable than the two of you. Aunt Lu asked me to convince him to break up with you, and she said that the two of us are a match made in heaven. As for you, a poor girl, why should you compete with me? You should be very clear about the meaning of 'equally matched'."
I still didn't say anything. Lu Qingyu's face appeared in front of me. He was so arrogant, caring about me, and he said he would take care of me for the rest of my life...
As I was thinking about it, tears actually started to flow. I felt my vision was a little blurry, so his appearance became blurry as well.
Jiang Qianmo stood up and said fiercely: "It seems that you want Ning Yuan to go to jail. In this case, I will grant your wish."
She turned around and started to leave.
"Wait." I stood up and called her, gritting my teeth. I knew that for Ning Yuan, I had to agree to her no matter how reluctant I was.
I hardened my heart and said, "I promise you, I will leave Lu Qingyu."
As soon as I finished speaking, I saw a fleeting flash of joy in Jiang Qianmo's eyes. She smiled and said word by word: "Ningjing, you agreed to this voluntarily. If you regret it, Ning Yuan will have to pay a heavy price. Don't blame me for not reminding you, and don't blame me for turning my back on you when the time comes."
I looked at her and said calmly, "I understand all this. Don't worry, since I promised you, I will do what I said."
After I said this, I turned and left. The moment I turned around, I could no longer hold back my tears.
Lu Qingyu, from this moment on, I have lost you.
Lu Qingyu, I'm so stupid. I just realized now that I don't know when I started to like you.
At the moment I lost you, my heart felt as if it was being cut by a knife. It was such a real pain that I had never experienced before.
Goodbye, Lu Qingyu.
Lu Qingyu, goodbye.
After leaving the coffee shop that day, I pretended nothing had happened and returned to the ward. After sending Zhuo Yian out of the hospital, I was like a puppet that had lost its soul, and I didn't know how I walked back home.
I stayed alone in the room, sitting by the window watching the sunset, watching the sky gradually darken until the sky in the east turned pale again.
I thought about it for a long time, and I thought: I must leave Lu Qingyu. For Ning Yuan, I must leave him, although I am reluctant, I must do so.
I can't watch my brother get into trouble just for the sake of being with the person I love, and I can't watch him go to jail. If something really happened to Ning Yuan, it would be a huge blow to his mother.
I couldn't let her suffer the pain of losing her son after losing her husband.
I think what I am doing is the best solution and the best outcome. It is the best outcome for everyone.
When the sun was high in the sky, I finally figured it out, so I took out my cell phone and sent a text message to Lu Qingyu.
In fact, I had texted him once before to ask him out, but maybe because he was still angry with me or maybe he had other things to do, he didn't reply to me and didn't show up.
I think that only when I leave this sad place, my mood will really improve and I will be able to really let go of all this.
Therefore, I applied for a temporary suspension of study. Ning Yuan's tuition for the next semester has not been settled yet, so in order for him to study well, it is the best choice for me to temporarily suspend my studies.
When her mother heard the news, she flew into a rage: "Ningjing, you have grown up to be so capable that you dared to apply for a leave of absence without informing a mother like me!"
I could not remember my mother being so angry. I stood in front of her with my head down and said, "Mom, I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry? Have you forgotten what I said to you? Ningjing, you disappoint me so much!"
Tears welled up in my mother's eyes. I raised my hand to wipe them away, but she slapped my hand away.
"Mom, in our family's situation, it's really impossible for both of us to study at the same time. I'll take a leave of absence first, and then I'll continue my studies after Ningyuan graduates from University, okay?"
"You... if you don't have money, mom will find a way, but she will never allow you to do this. How can you be worthy of your dead father? Do you know what price your father paid so that you and your sister can go to school? You..."
After saying that, she raised her hand and hit me hard.
I cried silently and forgot to cry out in pain.
"Mom, stop hitting my sister. If you want to hit someone, hit me instead!"
When the broom in my mother's hand fell again, Ning Yuan rushed in front of me and begged my mother.
"You two enemies!" Mom scolded us loudly, but she didn't have the heart to drop the broom, so I was not beaten to a pulp.
I stood there crying quietly. My mother sighed, sat down weakly, and started to cry.
I had made up my mind and would not waver no matter what my mother said. For a long time after that, my mother ignored me and treated me like a stranger.
I think I really hurt her heart this time, but there are some things I can't help.
I started working at a branch of my old coffee shop, so I could only come back once a month.
On the day I left home, I saw the policeman downstairs. My mother, who was walking me downstairs, also saw me. For some reason, her expression became very nervous and she kept urging me to get in the car. I looked at her in confusion, wanting to ask but not knowing how to start, so I had to bury my doubts deep in my heart and remained silent.
The policeman stood under the tree and watched my mother and me. He didn't come forward to talk to us. He just watched us silently until I got in the car and left.
During the time I was away from home, I didn't expect to receive a call from Zhuo Yian.
The day he called me, I was getting off work and going home to eat. Because I was afraid that Lu Qingyu would find me, I only told Ning Yuan my new number and told him not to tell anyone else.
So I was surprised when I received the call from Zhuo Yian.
On the other end of the phone, Zhuo Yian's familiar voice was still so gentle. He asked me, "Ningjing, why did you drop out of school just like that? You left without even notifying me, and why did you leave without even looking back?"
I was silent.
He sighed deeply, and then mentioned the name that I missed day and night.
He said, "Do you know? Ning Jing, since you left, Lu Qingyu has been looking for you like crazy. He has been looking for you in all the places you usually go. He was like a possessed man, constantly asking me where you were and asking people who knew you where you went. I said I didn't know, and he left sadly. Once, he almost rushed into your house to find your mother and ask where you were. I heard that he has even stopped going to class and is looking for you everywhere."
My hands began to tremble slightly. The moment I heard that name, tears welled up in my eyes. I asked Zhuo Yian in a trembling voice, "Is he okay? Is Lu Qingyu okay?"
Zhuo Yian sighed and said, "How can it be good if he thinks about you every day? Ning Jing, what happened between you? Can't it be solved? As a bystander, I can feel that he really likes you. And that day in the hospital, from the way you looked at him, I knew that you were not indifferent to him."
Zhuo Yian is always so meticulous and insightful. Even though I didn't say anything, he could still understand everything clearly.
I shed tears quietly and listened silently to Zhuo Yian talking about Lu Qingyu.
Suddenly, he changed the subject and said, "Ningjing, do you know? In fact, during the time you were away, I missed you as much as Lu Qingyu."
He hesitated for a long time, then continued: "Ningjing, if I tell you now that I like you, is it too late?"
I didn't expect Zhuo Yian to say such words to me. I just felt a buzzing in my head and my mind went blank.
Did I hear it wrong? Zhuo Yian actually said he liked me.
I frowned and remained silent for a long time, but I couldn't help but ask the doubts in my heart: "Zhuo Yian, if you like me, then what about that girl? Isn't she your girlfriend?"
Zhuo Yian sighed and replied, "I'm sorry, I'm too stupid and I don't know how to deal with emotional issues. When I saw the photo of you falling to the ground and knew that you liked me, I didn't know how to deal with our relationship, so I thought of such a stupid way. However, I didn't expect that I would lose the opportunity to like you because of this. Do you know how much I regret it? I really regret it and hate myself for choosing that approach..."
I didn't hear clearly what he said next. There was only one thought that kept repeating in my mind: it turned out that what I saw before was a misunderstanding, and he deliberately performed it for me.
I couldn't help but burst out laughing: "Zhuo Yian, why are you so childish?"
I never thought that one day I would be relieved like this, and the sadness I felt at that time only turned out to be a misunderstanding now.
It was not until this moment that I realized that there was only Lu Qingyu in my heart, only the person called Lu Qingyu.
Zhuo Yian sighed heavily, full of regret, and continued: "Actually, when I saved you that day, I wanted to go to your house to confess my love to you. But I didn't expect that after I went there, I saw you and Ning Yuan being dragged away. Later, I was injured while trying to save you. In the ward, you accompanied me and took care of me. At that time, I also thought about taking this opportunity to express my feelings for you, but I didn't expect Lu Qingyu to appear at that time."
After a pause, he continued, "When I saw the look in your eyes when you looked at Lu Qingyu, I understood how deep your feelings for him were. When I saw how distraught you were after he left, I knew I would never have another chance. In this life, I can only stand by your side as a good friend. This really fits the lyrics of a song: some people are gone once you miss them."
He sighed heavily, his voice full of bitterness. My hands were shaking as I held the phone, not knowing how to comfort him.
The atmosphere suddenly became a little awkward. Zhuo Yian on the other end of the phone was silent, and I didn't say anything either.
In the end, he broke the deadlock.
He pretended to be nonchalant and said to me on the other end of the phone with a smile: "It's actually good to be friends, isn't it? At least we don't have to worry about breaking up one day. This is the safest and most suitable distance."
Having said this, he suddenly stopped. I knew that the considerate man must have thought of Lu Qingyu, so he didn't say anything else.
Zhuo Yian changed the subject and said, "I'm going back to England soon. Actually, I'm going back to China to accompany my grandma and to bring her to England."
"So soon..." I frowned and said, it was hard to accept for a moment. After thinking about it, I said, "Then I won't send you off. The store has been very busy recently."
He was silent for a while, and then his somewhat lost voice came from the other end of the phone: "Well, I understand."
I didn’t say anything else, and I didn’t tell him either. In fact, I was afraid that I would cry and that I wouldn’t be able to let go.
He paused, and then said, "Actually, you don't have to come and see me off, because... because I'm afraid that if you come to see me off, I won't be able to bear to leave."
He spoke very seriously, and his words were full of affection and moving.
I felt my nose a little sour and tears flowed silently.
I don’t want to act so cowardly in front of Zhuo Yian. At least I want him to remember that I am always happy and smiling.
"I have something else to do, so I don't want to chat with you for now. I'll call you next time I have time." I made the excuse that I had something to do and quickly hung up the phone.
If I continue, I’m not sure if I will cry out loud.
I really didn't go to see Zhuo Yian off on the day he left. I just stood on the rooftop of the building where I lived, looking up at the planes flying overhead. The buzzing sound rang in my ears, as if something was taken away in an instant.
I raised my head and put my hands in front of my eyes to block the glaring sunlight, imagining which plane he was on.
When I lowered my head, my tears fell silently.
Maybe we will never meet again in this life.
Maybe we are destined to miss each other in this life.
I still live my life as usual, but I still keep thinking about Lu Qingyu, thinking about his rogue appearance, thinking about the way he swore that I was the only one in his heart, thinking about the way he hugged me tightly as if he would never let go, thinking about the way he didn't trust me... No matter what kind of person he is, he seems to be deeply engraved in my heart, and it still hurts when I think about him.
As I was sitting by the window and daydreaming, my cell phone rang.
I glanced at the screen of my mobile phone and found that it was a call from Ning Yuan.
I picked up the phone and heard Ning Yuan say, "Sister, I came to see you today. I'm waiting downstairs. Please come down soon."
His voice was urgent.
I didn't expect him to come without saying hello, so I was a little surprised: "Okay, wait, I'll be down soon."
After I hung up the phone, I quickly put on my clothes and ran down the stairs, but when I got there I didn't see him. I looked around but couldn't see Ning Yuan.
I was a little anxious, so I took out my cell phone to call him, but there was only a busy tone on the other end and the call couldn't go through.
What on earth is going on? I know Ning Yuan would never joke with me, is there something wrong with him?
Thinking of this, I became more and more anxious. I took out my cell phone and continued to call him. The more I couldn't get through, the more anxious I became.
After waiting for a long time, I still didn't see him. I became more and more uneasy and looked around anxiously, but there was still no sign of him.