Chapter 8 I want to say goodbye to my past self Qi Beichen02
Maybe she was very tired too.
She rested for a while, but she didn't close her eyes. I was also very tired, but I didn't dare to close my eyes, for fear that she would disappear as soon as I opened my eyes.
"I want to take a shower," she said.
Seeing her calm tone, I felt relieved. The shower and faucet in the bathroom were still running. I relaxed my arms, sat up quietly towards Qianlan, put on her short skirt, and went to the bathroom.
Maybe she will understand me, maybe she will think it through... I comforted myself.
I heard the sound of her taking a shower in the bathroom, and I couldn't help feeling annoyed again.
There was an opened pack of cigarettes on the bedside table. I took out one. I was still finding it hard to believe what had just happened. I somehow pulled back the quilt and stared at the sheets.
Nothing at all.
I couldn't help but laugh at myself. Since she and Sun Nuofan had done such a thing, of course there would be no trace. I put on a pair of pajamas casually, sat on the chair, and opened the window a little to prevent the smell of smoke from staying in the room.
Xiang Qianlan will never know how much I love her. I love her to the point of being twisted.
Qi Beichen, be good to her in the future and protect her with your life. I said to myself in my heart, the past is the past.
When Xiang Qianlan came out of the bathroom, I handed her a glass of water with a smile, but she didn't take it. In the moment I was distracted, the cup suddenly fell to the ground, and there were pieces all over the floor. I went over to ask her to move away and not step on the broken glass.
"You're burned." I squatted down and wanted to hold her ankle. She walked past me, picked up her bag, and didn't say a word to me.
The door closed quickly in front of me.
I pushed the door open out of control and shouted towards the corridor: "Xiang Qianlan, why are you doing this to me!" I raised my head and laughed uncontrollably. How ironic!
In the silent house, after I calmed down, I felt a pain in the sole of my foot. I saw a piece of glass piercing into the flesh. After it was taken out, blood kept flowing.
If I don't take any measures, will I die from excessive bleeding?
Finally, I was afraid of death and endured the pain to go to the clinic downstairs, where an old doctor treated my foot. When I got home, there seemed to be her lingering scent in the room, but something had gone bad.
Since that incident, Xiang Qianlan has been hiding from me. She didn't go to class, didn't go back to the rental house, and I didn't even know where she went. If someone hadn't come to find me, I'm afraid I would never know that I had made an unforgivable mistake until I died.
I had just finished class that day and saw Chai Quan as soon as I walked downstairs. He was wearing a baseball cap turned backwards, a black vest with anime characters printed on it, ripped jeans, and a pair of flip-flops. He looked unruly.
"Mr. Qi, I finally found you," he said.
I asked him, "What's the matter?"
"Nonsense, otherwise I wouldn't have come all the way here to chat with you." Chai Quan spat. Every time in front of me, he always behaved in a wretched manner.
"Are we going to drink instead of chatting?" I said.
"Go ahead, do you dare to go?" he said with his nose turned up to the sky.
I nodded: "Okay, it's my treat."
"Of course you're welcome." Chai Quan replied.
Chai Quan didn't want to go to the bar, he said it was too noisy, so we sat down at a food stall and ordered beer and barbecue. Chai Quan's first words were shocking. He asked me, "Why didn't you go back when Lanlan's mother passed away?"
I looked at him in surprise: "What did you say?"
"Why are you pretending, little brat?" Chai Quan yelled at me, "I said Lanlan's mother passed away, why didn't you come back with her!"
Chai Quan's voice was so loud that not only I but everyone in the food stall heard it.
He gave me a meaningful smile and took out two cigarettes from his pocket. I asked with some difficulty, "Xiang Qianlan's mother died? When did it happen?"
"You are not in a relationship, so you have been studying hard and making progress over the past year?" he said.
Such a big thing happened in her family, and I just found out about it now.
Chai Quan continued to talk to himself: "It happened last winter. Some criminals broke into Lanlan's house and robbed her. Auntie was injured. Later I heard from the hospital that they couldn't get through to Lanlan on the phone. When Lanlan came back, it was too late. If I knew which grandson was the one who robbed her, I would chop off both of his hands."
"Why did the phone happen to break at that time?" Chai Quan shook his head.
In winter... my phone broke...
There was a thread that connected my broken thoughts together, and an idea suddenly exploded in my mind. In winter, Xiang Qianlan suddenly began to become another person. She suddenly withdrew from the entertainment industry, broke up with Sun Nuofan, and abnormally proposed to date me...
"You said Xiang Qianlan missed the call from the hospital because he broke his phone?" I asked him.
"Yes, I always felt that Lanlan was hiding something from me, but she didn't say anything when I asked. I thought you knew it, so I came here to ask you." he said.
This is the truth!
I know Xiang Qianlan's character very well. How could she possibly forgive me, especially after I did that to her...
I was stunned for a while, then I threw a few bills on the table, dragged my heavy steps, and ran out. That night, my mind kept echoing what Xiang Qianlan said: "My mother is over there, everything is fine..."
Chai Quan shouted at me from behind: "Why are you running?"
"I have something to do!" I shouted at him.
I felt like I had fallen into the depths of the sea, unable to breathe. I didn't know where to find her, and I didn't know how to face her when I found her. Guilt and sadness were like two poisonous snakes entwining me, making my body extremely cold.
I have committed an unforgivable mistake... Who will save me...
I looked everywhere for her but couldn't find her. The teacher said she was on a long sick leave. I even found out Sun Nuofan's address and ran to find him to ask where Xiang Qianlan was.
Xiang Qianlan hid herself. She didn't want to see me at all.
Seeing my nervous look, Sun Nuofan smiled and said, "Maybe I should thank you for pushing her to my side."
"Do you know where she is?" I grabbed Sun Nuofan by the collar, and immediately two security guards came up to pull me back.
"I know...but I won't tell you." Sun Nuofan looked at me with a smile and asked the security guard to drag me away.
I pushed two security guards away, and three more people blocked me.
"Xiang Qianlan! I know I was wrong!" I cried and shouted to the people upstairs, "I was wrong! I'm sorry! Xiang Qianlan! I was wrong!" I was pinned to the ground by three security guards and I kept repeating "I was wrong".
"Don't disturb her again, she is mine." Sun Nuofan's voice was calm, and I suspected that I was dreaming.
In a daze, I heard someone driving me out of the neighborhood. I saw a window upstairs with curtains blowing in the wind, as if someone had just been standing there, watching everything downstairs.
I waited all night, but to no avail.
The next day, it rained heavily unexpectedly. I stayed in front of Sun Nuofan's house and didn't leave.
The rain hit my face, and I felt both laughing and angry. Suddenly I understood what I was afraid of and why I had lost control of myself.
I'm afraid she won't even bother to hate me.
I stared at the window intently, wanting to see it more closely, but suddenly I felt a stomachache. I tend to get stomachaches , and even my mother didn't know this.
I held my stomach and sat on the ground against the wall. The rain from the eaves dripped onto my neck and my back. It was so cold. Xiang Qianlan, if I died in this rain, would you come to see me? However, I always have a feeling that she will never appear again...
A true farewell is always silent.
"Xiang Qianlan, I want to get to know you again, starting with your name..."
I stared blankly at the rain-soaked road and the deserted streets, and fainted in the heavy rain. In my dream, the rain stopped, and the footsteps echoed in my ears. She seemed very close to me...
"Even if you didn't propose a breakup, I would have done it . Why do we always do the wrong things..." "...There will always be only games and deceptions between us."
"I really hope we will never meet again..."
Her voice was a little vague, as if it came from far away.
The raindrops were falling, I smelled the scent of disinfectant, I was completely exhausted, in the dazzling light, I vaguely saw a figure, she was walking towards me.
"Xiang Qianlan..."
"You're awake!" A nurse who looked very young came up to me, took my temperature, and looked at my eyelids. I half-supported myself and sat up, feeling dizzy.
"Who sent me here?"
"A Mr. Sun has already paid the relevant medical expenses for you. If you have stomach problems, don't get out in the rain again."
I interrupted her: "Is it just him? Is there anyone else? A very beautiful girl, tall, with big eyes, who looks a lot like Athena Chu."
The young nurse shook her head and said to me apologetically: "You should take a rest."
The nurse went out, and I saw the clothes soaked by the rain were put aside. She changed into clean hospital gowns. The nurse came in with an incubator and said to me with concern, "This is what the gentleman told you to drink."
"He is so kind? I don't want to drink." I struggled to get out of bed and walked to the corridor. I couldn't see her in the long corridor.
"Are you okay..." The nurse chased out.
"fine."
"But...you..."
"I'm fine." I emphasized.
Then, I walked back to the ward, changed into my wet clothes, and prepared to go to Sun Nuofan's house. The young nurse was so anxious that she was about to cry. When she met such a disobedient patient like me, she couldn't stop me and could only watch me walk out of the hospital.
"You must have come to see me..."
I looked up and saw heavy rain pouring down in the gray sky. I smiled, gritted my teeth and rushed into the rain again.
