There are only three days left before Ye Bihan goes abroad. She is busy with preparations all day long, and now basically everything has been packed.
Lately, she often says, "Okay, okay, you don't need to bring these. I'm going abroad, not to space. I can buy them if I don't have them." When I help her pack at home, I hear her say this to her mother every ten minutes or so.
But what her mother said was right. She had to leave her hometown and go to such a far place, so she would definitely be worried.
While cleaning up, Ye Bihan said, "Qingtong, let's go for a walk."
"Okay, where do you want to go?"
"I want to go to the highest place in the city and take a good look at it. Maybe I will miss it a lot when I am away for a year."
When we went out after dinner, it was already dark, but the street was brightly lit and we couldn't even see the stars. We went to the school's observatory together, which is said to be the place where you can see the most beautiful scenery in the city.
It was during the holidays and at night, so the whole campus was unusually quiet. At this moment, I felt like this campus belonged to the two of us.
The steps of the observatory were covered with dust. We climbed up quietly, and the chain on the door was able to open a gap just enough for us to squeeze through.
I jumped over a fence and onto the stands, and instantly, I could see a lot of scenery. After living here for so many years, this was the first time I felt that this city was so beautiful.
"Cheng Qingtong, I give you a thumbs up. Fortunately, you remembered this place, otherwise I would have missed such a beautiful scenery."
I smiled proudly: "With this lady here, you won't miss anything."
I stood on tiptoe and made a gesture of embracing the starry sky. There was a clicking sound in my ear and I turned my head sharply.
"Qingtong, have a drink!"
It was Ye Bihan who opened a bottle of beer. I was happy: "You are very thoughtful! But you must never touch this stuff after you go abroad!" I took the beer she handed me, and there was a hissing sound inside.
"Okay, stop nagging me. Besides, my ears are already callused. Are you going to drink it or not?"
I simply raised my glass and clinked it with hers loudly. The beer foam swirled and the cool liquid flowed down my chest. Ye Bihan smiled brightly at me. Nothing had changed. We were still the same as before, wearing armor together and roaming the world together.
I didn't mention my impending separation from her, nor did I mention any sad stories. We chatted tacitly, talking only about the happy years.
It feels like youth has always been this happy.
Ye Bihan, it's so good to have you around, because with you you can string together my life of more than twenty years into an unbroken thread.
You helped me experience the years I missed;
You will remember the time I have forgotten;
All the memories I lost are in your heart.
So I want to say, Ye Bihan, it’s great to have you.
One day left.
In recent days, we have become like conjoined twins, inseparable. She said she wanted to give me a piece of clothing, so of course I had to help her realize her wish, and I accepted it without hesitation.
Afterwards, we picked out a set of couple outfits in the mall, bought the same style for women, and wore them around in public.
We talked and laughed along the way, without any feeling of parting, and we didn’t think too much about tomorrow. The present moment is the one we should cherish the most.
No one knows which comes faster, the accident or happiness.
On the way to eat barbecue, we passed by a high-rise building under construction. The noise was so loud that it was annoying. We covered our ears and lowered our heads as we walked forward.
No one expected that something would fall from the sky...
No one expected that the thing would hit me right on target.
It was just a matter of a moment. I raised my head and looked in horror at the thing falling straight towards me, but suddenly I felt my body lighten and flew away.
"Xiao Han!"
At the last moment, she pushed me out with all her strength. She was hit by something and collapsed to the ground.
At that moment, it seemed as if there was no sound in the world anymore. Ye Bihan was the only person left in my mind. I rushed towards her...
Blood flowed from her head and smeared on my clothes, hands, and heart... Her eyes were tightly closed, and no matter how hard I shook her, she never responded...
Ye Bihan, you said that no matter when I called your name, you would answer...
But you never heard me, never opened your eyes, and never responded to me.
A crowd of people gathered around and someone called an ambulance. I just sat next to her and cried my heart out.
Why didn't I get hit...
The ambulance came and they took you away from me. My heart was almost always in your grip. You entered the operating area and the words "In Surgery" were always lit up.
There was nothing I could do except stare at the light and wait outside.
The fear in my heart consumed me bit by bit. I was afraid that I would never see her again from now on.
I just felt cold all over and wandered back and forth at the door of the operating room. I had never thought that waiting could be so difficult and long.
The three words "under surgery" were like a warning light. I often stared at it, which hurt my eyes. When I avoided it, everything was blurry when I looked elsewhere.
Snapped--
Lights went out.
I was stunned , my heart was beating fast. The doctor came out, sweating profusely and with a frown on his face.
"Doctor! Is she okay? Is she awake?"
The doctor took off his mask and wiped the sweat off his face.
I was particularly afraid that he would say: Sorry, we tried our best.
"We tried our best, but she was too badly injured. Her life has been saved, but it's hard to say when she will wake up."
My lips were trembling. The doctor had already turned and left. I rushed over and grabbed his arm, "Doctor, she will wake up, right? Please explain clearly what you mean by 'it's hard to say when she will wake up'. You are a doctor, how could you not know? Please explain clearly..."
"Calm down, this is a hospital, please don't make any noise, there are other patients..."
"I can't take care of other patients! You must heal her for me quickly..." I was pulled away and the doctor walked away. My tears had already blurred my vision and I couldn't see anything. I cried for a while before I suddenly came to my senses, stood up, and rushed into her ward.
Ye Bihan, you have to wake up, you must wake up quickly.
I sat in front of her, looking at her pale face. I don't know why I suddenly thought of Wenrou, and remembered what Wenrou said to me before she left. I was very scared, afraid that Xiaohan would leave like this.
She has always been lively and noisy in front of me. She has never been so obedient and quiet in front of me. From the time she entered school until now, it seemed like a dream. A lot of things happened, but it seemed like nothing happened. When she woke up, we were still in the high school classroom, still struggling hard for the college entrance examination. I had not met Mo Xiyi, and she was not preparing to go abroad. Everything was just a dream.
When Lin Xiaozhu and Mo Xi arrived, I was in a daze, looking at her and thinking about the past. I didn't even know they came in.
It wasn't until a shadow appeared beside me that I realized there was someone behind me. When I turned around, I saw Lin Xiaozhu. He looked at my red and swollen eyes and wanted to speak, but he hesitated for a long time and still didn't say anything.
I stopped looking at him and ignored Mo Xiyi who was standing at the end of the bed in a daze.
Lin Xiaozhu: "Qingtong...doctor...what did you say?"
He probably hesitated for a long time before he dared to ask.
"The doctor said that the condition is quite serious and it is hard to tell when he will wake up."
I frantically repeated the doctor's exact words to them. I felt heartbroken with every word I said. I muttered to myself, "Why wasn't I the one hit... Why..."
I was about to cry, but I held back my tears, stood up, and looked at them. After the last conflict, it was hard for me to put the two of them in a harmonious picture. Today, it was rare that the two of them did not have a conflict, and they came to the hospital together, as if they had become a family.
"Please sit down. The doctor just said that he couldn't tell when she would wake up, which means that she will wake up eventually, so... don't worry." After I said this, it seemed like I was comforting myself.
There was sadness and warmth in Mo Xiyi's eyes, as if he wanted to drive away my worries and give me a little comfort with his eyes. I smiled at him gently, and I thought that smile must be uglier than crying.
But later, I saw him smile, with the corners of his mouth turned up, a small arc. This was probably the first time I saw him smile on his own initiative.
I have imagined countless scenarios in which he would smile at me on his own initiative.
For example, he was moved by me, he found that he actually fell in love with me, and then smiled at me.
For example, on a rainy day, I saw that he didn’t bring an umbrella, so I gave him one and he smiled at me.
For example, we eventually drifted apart, and when we accidentally met many years later, he smiled at me...
However, neither of them was true. I was wrong. I miscalculated in the end.
Ye Bihan, I planned everything, but I never expected that you would get hurt. Even if I can never see his smile again, I don't want you to get hurt.
I'd rather it was me who got hit.
This way, not only will you not get hurt, but Moshi may even feel a little nervous.
How nice that would be.
Seeing that I was in a daze again, Lin Xiaozhu took the initiative to come forward. He gently squeezed my arm and said softly, "Qingtong, it's okay. Xiaohan is just tired and wants to sleep in. When she has slept enough, she will wake up naturally. Let's wait for her to wake up together."
I nodded and pretended to be strong: "Of course, she will wake up, and I will wait here until she wakes up."
Someone knocked on the door. Mo Xi opened it and a figure rushed in.
It is easy to fade.
When Lin Xiaozhu saw that the person coming was Yi Dan, he turned around and wanted to pull him out, but Yi Dan was so strong that he held the door and refused to let go. Although Mo Xiyi knew that Yi Dan was sorry for Ye Bihan, he was Yi Dan's friend after all, and it seemed that Yi Dan was not here to cause trouble today, so he did not intervene.
I couldn't bear to see Yi Dan so desperate but still trying his best.
"Xiaozhu! Don't stop him!"
Their actions immediately stopped. Lin Xiaozhu was a little confused, but she slowly let go.
"Let him in!"
I don't know why I let him in at that time. According to common sense, he caused Ye Bihan to be hospitalized, smashed my dry cleaning shop, and injured me. I should have asked Lin Xiaozhu to drag him out without hesitation, and I didn't even want to look at him.
But at this moment, I suddenly feel that those little fights in the past were nothing, and now, facing the real life and death, we should perhaps be more open-minded.
Maybe one more person really means more strength!
Maybe if we give one more blessing, everything will really be better?
Facing life and death, what else can I not let go of? What hatred and grudges do we have? Everything is just a passing cloud.
Yi Dan staggered to Ye Bihan's side and touched her hair. I didn't go forward to stop him. He sobbed like a child. Mo Xiyi and Lin Xiaozhu left the ward, and there were only three of us left in the room.
Perhaps, even the worst people have true intentions, they just portray themselves as too bad.
At this time, the doctor came to the ward and informed us to go and hear the final result. I quickly followed the doctor to the office. Yi Dan wanted to follow, but I stopped him.
"You stay here and take care of her. We can't be without someone here."
He nodded and agreed obediently. That selfish bastard has now become so obedient, and I suddenly feel a little relieved.
When I entered the doctor's office, I saw Uncle Ye and Aunt Ye's eyes were red and Uncle Ye's brows were furrowed. I felt a little guilty. If it weren't for me, Xiaohan wouldn't have been injured.
The doctor looked solemn as he held up the examination report and said, "The patient's condition is quite serious. He is currently in a vegetative state..."
Mother Ye almost fainted and my head was buzzing.
"Family members please control your emotions first. We will do our best to treat her. We do not rule out the possibility that she may wake up. We hope you can cooperate."
Uncle Ye: "Cooperate, we will definitely cooperate well. As long as we can cure my daughter, we will cooperate in any way..."
We were all in a very low mood. After leaving the office, I stopped Aunt Ye.
"Auntie, I am sorry to Xiaohan. If it weren't for me, she would have gone to a new school and started a new life."
Aunt Ye couldn't hide her pain, but she still comforted me: "Qingtong, you don't have to blame yourself. How could you control the materials that fell from the construction building?"
"But...if Xiaohan hadn't pushed me away in time, today...I should be the one lying on the hospital bed..."
Aunt Ye raised her head in surprise, and Uncle Ye was also surprised.
Uncle Ye smiled and said, "Qingtong, don't say that. If you were Xiaohan at that time, you would have done the same. In the hearts of uncle and aunt, you and Xiaohan are both our daughters..."
If they hit me or scolded me at that time, I could accept it, but instead of saying a single harsh word to me, they comforted me instead.
My heart suddenly felt choked with anxiety, as if a heavy stone was pressing on my chest, and even breathing became difficult.
My phone kept vibrating, but I didn't want to see anyone or say anything.
I swayed my body and walked out of the hospital gate.
Maybe God was sympathizing with me, as it was raining heavily outside, blurring the whole world. I walked into the rain and became one with it. The coldness of the rain quickly soaked my whole body, and I gradually lost consciousness.
Before I knew it, I had walked to a coffee shop that Ye Bihan and I often went to. Because it was raining, there seemed to be few people in the coffee shop. From the outside, it was warm and comfortable inside. It was such a pleasant life to sit at a table with friends in groups of three or four, chatting and drinking coffee.
I turned my gaze to the corner where we often sat. Ye Bihan seemed to be sitting there, laughing happily, and pointing and commenting on me from time to time. Those times were so happy.
But when I looked carefully, I found that the person sitting there was not her, and the person sitting opposite her was not me, but just two strange women drinking coffee.
The rain was too cold and my clothes were soaked. I squatted down, hugged my knees tightly with my arms, and buried my head in my arms.
I heard that when an ostrich encounters danger, it will always bury its head in the soil, thinking that by burying its head it cannot see the danger and that it is safe. But now I am an ostrich, and deceiving myself is the only way I can escape.
I don’t know how long I squatted like this, it felt like a century had passed. I felt a warmth on my back, and my arms were pulled up by a pair of strong arms. It was Lin Xiaozhu.
"Cheng Qingtong! Do you have to humiliate yourself like this? Do you know that everyone is looking for you? Can't you just give me some peace of mind?"
Finally someone is criticizing me, and I finally don’t have to criticize myself all the time, which is good.
I kept my head down, and my crying and laughing seemed to scare him, so he tightened his arms and pulled me into his arms. I just let him hold me like that...
He whispered in my ear: "Let's go home."
He was about to leave when he pulled me along when we saw Mo Xiyi. I looked down at my shoulders and saw Lin Xiaozhu's clothes draped over them. I looked at him, who seemed a little dazed. I wanted to explain, but I felt my body shaking violently and my lips were trembling too. I couldn't open my mouth or make a sound.
I just let Lin Xiaozhu lead me forward. Mo Xiyi followed us silently. At that time, I really hoped that he could catch up with me and take me away from Lin Xiaozhu to his side. I really hoped that he would be the one who said to me, "Let's go home."
But why, Moses, are you always one step late?
Why don't you ever try to fight for it?
Why is it so hard for you to take a step toward me?
Lin Xiaozhu sent me all the way home. My mother was waiting for me at the door, looking at it from time to time. When she saw me come back, she pulled me into the house with heartache.
"Kid, why are you still walking around outside when it's raining? Why don't you hold an umbrella? You are becoming more and more disobedient. Come in and change your clothes..."
My mother was still the same nagging person, she had never changed, but I didn't have the energy to argue with her like I used to. The water on my body dripped down drop by drop, and my mother wrapped me in a towel, but I still sneezed every few minutes and couldn't stop.
Lin Xiaozhu suddenly put his hand on my shoulder, and I had to look up at him. His eyes were so gentle, which was rare. He, who had always been domineering, overbearing and amorous, was now standing in front of me with deep affection.
I have to say, he really impresses people when he looks like this.
He held me in his arms and hugged me tightly, as if I would slip away if he wasn't careful.
His arms were very strong, and the temperature of his body warmed me up little by little. I was shivering with cold just now, but now I felt much better.
"Qingtong, don't torture yourself like this. I will be very sad if you do this."
My body suddenly stiffened. I thought he just wanted to comfort me, but at this moment, I already had a rough idea of ​​what he was going to say.
I pushed him away with great effort. He was a little reluctant, but I kept struggling, so he let me go.
"Qingtong, I have to admit that I have liked you, and I have already liked you since long ago. I have never worked so much about a girl. You are the first. If it is not because of you, why do I save you at night and do n’t touch you; why do I help you find so many brothers and Yidi; Tong, if you are willing to keep me guarding you, I won't get you a little harm! "
I lowered my head and was silent for a while.
Maybe it's normal to hear a boy confess his love to his beloved girl like this, but it would be different if the boy was Lin Xiaozhu. He has always only known how to play with emotions, and I can't help but be surprised that he can say such words at this moment.
"Xiaozhu, you know where my heart is."
I put my palm on my heart, feeling its beating, and looking out the window, I said to him, "This place has already been occupied."
Outside the window, a figure stood there alone. The rain blurred his face and wet his clothes. But no matter how blurry my vision was, I could still clearly recognize that it was him, Mo Xiyi.
Whether in a crowd or in the pouring rain, I can always recognize you at a glance. Your lonely back, angular profile, and clean and pleasant smell have appeared in my dreams more than once.
This is why I can't forget you.
But at this moment, you turned and left again. I don't understand why you are already next to me, but still refuse to come to me. Even if you just look at me at this moment and say a few words of comfort, it's such a simple thing, but you still can't do it.
Lin Xiaozhu's gaze drifted to the window. He saw Mo Xiyi standing there just now, and also saw his back as he turned and left. When he turned back to look at me again, my face was already filled with sadness and sorrow.
He smiled disappointedly, walked past me and left.
I watched them leave, and my heart ached, as if being cut by a knife. When my mother saw Lin Xiaozhu leave, she came to me from the side. She has always been a person who doesn't know how to comfort, and only knows how to nag and say some nagging words, but at this time I don't need comfort, I just need her to be by my side.
As long as she is here, she is the best comfort to me.
I could finally cry loudly without restraint and without any scruples. I leaned on my mother's shoulder and let my tears flow. Her thin shoulder became my most solid harbor at this moment.
"Why? Why is growing up so hard?"
"Isn't love a sweet feeling? Why do I feel only pain?"
"Mom, it turns out that growing up is such a painful thing!"
With a loud bang, thunder sounded outside.
The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and my eyes felt swollen and almost unable to open. My mother patted my back with concern and said softly, "Xiaotong, don't be afraid, mom is here."
The tears that I had tried to stop burst into tears again.
Her voice suddenly sounded like a cool breeze in summer and a warm fireplace in winter, and I suddenly felt like a child lying in a cradle listening to his mother singing.
She said, Xiaotong, don't be afraid, mom is here.
At that time, my father was still alive and my mother was not so nagging. She was very gentle and shy at that time, and always acted like a little woman in front of my father.
But now, the years have gradually carved her into the image of a neighborhood auntie. She has to go out to earn money and cook to support her family.
I felt sorry for her and didn't want her to worry about me too much, so I immediately wiped away my tears and stood up from the ground.
"Mom, I'm fine. It's going to be fine. Everything is going to be fine."
She smiled, touched my hair, frowned slightly, and two deep wrinkles appeared between her eyebrows. My heart tightened.
"Xiaotong, you have grown up. There are some things you must experience. You must be brave and don't be afraid. Mom will always be by your side. Xiaohan...it was an accident. Don't blame yourself too much. Mom believes that good people will always be rewarded. She will definitely wake up."
I nodded firmly. I was extremely tired at this time. After changing into clean clothes, I lay on the bed and fell asleep in a short while.
In my dream, I saw many people.
Ye Bihan was smiling at me. She said she had already gone to a new school and had made friends with many people, so I shouldn't worry about her.
Cai Qihang has found a good business project and is gradually getting on the right track. He also has a new girlfriend and they are very much in love.
Lin Xiaozhu pointed at my nose and said, Cheng Qingtong, who do you think you are? Why would I like you? It's a joke.
Finally, I saw Mo Xiyi, I took his arm, and we walked into the marriage hall together under the witness of the pastor.
But before I could say "I do", I woke up from the dream.
After waking up, I wanted to fall asleep as quickly as possible and finish that incomplete dream, but I couldn't fall asleep no matter what.
How I wish my dream would come true.