Doctor Jiang told me that Xu Minyou's condition was not optimistic, mainly because he was too impatient. The only way now was for me to accompany him for a while and let him calm down again. His heart was too restless that a little stimulation would make him collapse.
I sat next to him. Xu Minyou looked so quiet when he was sleeping. I couldn't imagine him looking like in the photo at all.
do you like me?
I asked silently in my heart.
Is this a miracle? When I was secretly in love with someone in such a humble way, there was another person who also liked me in this way. This sounds so incredible. Compared with the probability Song Yan said, this is completely a miracle.
I lay on the bed, staring at his face quietly , muttering, "When did you meet me? What do you like about me? What is there about a lousy guy like me that is worth liking?"
These confusions have been deeply buried in my heart from the beginning to now.
"Hey, where's Dr. Jiang?" A familiar voice sounded outside. I smiled bitterly. Is this really a case of enemies meeting on a narrow road? What is Guo Jiani doing here at this time?
She seemed to have looked around but couldn't find Dr. Jiang, and was about to go into the inner room. I didn't want her to see me here, although it didn't make any difference whether she saw me or not.
I just simply don't want to see her.
Guo Jiani's footsteps were getting closer. At this moment, Dr. Jiang's voice rang out. He said, "I'm here."
It turned out that Guo Jiani caught a cold after being caught in the rain that day, and she came to see Dr. Jiang to take her temperature. Dr. Jiang said that she had a slight fever and could get an injection of antipyretic medicine or an IV . Guo Jiani finally chose the IV.
I immediately felt depressed. She was receiving an IV in the outer room, and I had to wait until she finished the infusion before I could leave. Otherwise, if I came out from the inner room, she might have some misunderstanding.
Fortunately, Dr. Jiang came over and closed the door. I stood up and walked to the window. It seemed that I was trapped here.
However, since it has come, I should make the best of it. There is no point in worrying. I took out my phone, found a small game and started playing it, but the phone ran out of battery after playing for a while. There were only medical books here, which I couldn't understand at all. I was feeling bored, and when I saw Xu Minyou's phone next to the bed, I grabbed it, thinking that I would not read the content, but just find a game to play to kill time.
I turned on my phone, but my hand stopped in mid-air.
Doctor Jiang told me before that Xu Minyou liked me, but it was just his speculation. But now, when I saw this text message on the screen, I finally confirmed that what Doctor Jiang said was true.
This message is in the draft box.
The content is as follows:

Nanxi, I like you very much, I have always liked you. Let me stay by your side, stay there forever, okay?

I looked back at his face, and for some reason I looked through his phone. I was the only one in his contacts, and the note for my number was "Butterfly".
Contacts, text messages, draft boxes, call logs, all of them only exist for me.
This phone seemed to exist just to contact me. My heart suddenly ached. It was probably that day when he asked for my phone number and called me at night. At that time, I thought he was a cold boy who liked to keep people at a distance, so he would not give me his number easily.
How could I have thought that he was not indifferent, but gave me the whole world.
How can someone be so special?
It was particularly sad, and I couldn't bear to let him go. I couldn't just leave him alone. My desire to protect him had been growing heavier since I saw his pale face in the magnolia forest that day.
I restored the phone to its original state and put it back. He could not hear the ringtone of the incoming call. In addition to the vibration sensor, only the flashing light could tell him that there was a call or text message. That day he said that he spent his time reading or daydreaming, and another part of his time was spent missing me.
When he misses me, does he hold his phone and wait for the white light to come on?
How could he allow himself to be so wronged?
He hadn't woken up yet, and I didn't know if he couldn't sleep at night. He had dark circles under his eyes. I had never looked at his face so carefully before. The closer I looked at him, the more I felt that he was as fragile as a withered leaf, which would break if I touched it lightly.
The waiting time is always so long.
Time passed by bit by bit, and it seemed especially quiet here, until another familiar voice came from outside.
Today is really a good day, everyone is running to the infirmary.
"Guo Jiani, are you okay?" There was a hint of concern in that person's voice. He seemed to be like this to everyone, generous with his care. All the things that had touched me in the past were just things he could give at will.
"It's okay, especially since you came to see me." Guo Jiani's gentle voice always makes people feel disgusted.
"Then let's go. It seems that the club has an activity this afternoon." Song Yan said.
Oh, I forgot that Song Yan and Guo Jiani joined the same club. Regarding the club activities in college, there are always all kinds of eye-catching handsome men and beautiful women. People like me who are inconspicuous basically will not participate. Song Yan and Guo Jiani joined the same club. I just found out about this recently. I suddenly found it very funny. It turns out that the length of time really has no meaning. What does it matter if we have known each other for a long time?
"Are you very sad?" Xu Minyou's voice suddenly came over. I was startled and turned to look at him. I don't know when he woke up, but he didn't speak.
I was suddenly a little surprised. Couldn't he only hear my voice? Then how could he hear what the people outside were saying? Could it be that his loss of control helped him regain his hearing?
He looked at me with surprise, and apparently realized that he could hear the noises outside, and was stunned for a moment.
I heard footsteps going away from the outer room. After a while, the inner door opened and Dr. Jiang walked in. I quickly grabbed his hand and asked, "What's going on? Xu Minyou seems to be able to hear other people talking!"
Dr. Jiang didn't quite believe it. He took out his cell phone, dialed a number, and handed the phone to Xu Minyou. Xu Minyou took it subconsciously, and he put the phone to his ear in a daze. After a while, he whispered, "Grandpa?"
An old man cried with joy on the other end of the line: "Xu Minyou, can you hear grandpa's voice? Can you really hear it?"
"I can hear it," he whispered. "I really can hear it."
He took the phone down and sat there in a trance, letting his grandfather talk non-stop on the other end. Dr. Jiang took the phone, said a few words politely, and then hung up. He was obviously a little surprised: "Tsk, from only being able to hear one person's voice to being able to hear other people's voices, this progress is very good."
I looked at Xu Minyou, but I saw a hint of uneasiness in his eyes.
He seemed to be afraid . I reached out and held his hand. He raised his head and looked into my eyes. I smiled at him and said, "Don't be afraid of anything. I'm here, Xu Minyou."
Coming out of the infirmary, I said to Xu Minyou, "I want to go to German class with you."
"Don't you want to face Song Yan and Guo Jiani?" he asked me, "If you can't see them, you will feel better, so don't go to class for the time being."
I was stunned for a moment. I really didn't think about Song Yan and Guo Jiani just now, but it's okay this way, so that he thinks I want to escape, not to protect him. Doctor Jiang told me that Xu Minyou's condition is very unstable. He is in the stage of breaking the original closed world and accepting the real world. If he can't control his emotions, it is easy to fail and return to the world of only himself.
It seems like there is nothing I can do for him, but if it's just simple companionship, then I can still accept it.
"Yeah, I don't want to face them." I said, "You know, I'm heartbroken, even though it's only one-sided."
Xu Minyou held my hand tightly, as if he wanted to comfort me and give me strength: "You are better than Guo Jiani."
"Thank you." I felt a little embarrassed. "But in the eyes of others, everyone will think that Guo Jiani is much better than me."
"That's because they don't know you at all," he said.
"So do you know me?" I asked this question almost subconsciously, "Uh... I mean..."
"Of course I understand you." He smiled and didn't embarrass me. "You are a coward who only dares to look at others secretly. You are a coward who never has the courage to confess to the other person."
I wanted to laugh. He said I was a coward, but Xu Minyou, what about you? Aren't you also a coward? The confession text message was hidden in the draft box, and I probably would never press the send button.
"Xu Minyou, you won't forget me, will you?" I suddenly felt a little scared, afraid that this coward would return to that world where he alone was once again.
His palms were covered with sweat, and he said, "No, I will try very hard to remember you."
"Okay, we have an agreement. You must try very hard to remember me." I said, and completed the rest of the words in my mind: I will also try very hard to protect you.
Wang Sisi stopped me as I was about to leave and asked me, "Lu Nanxi, what are you doing? You don't even go to class. Do you still want to pass the final exam?"
"Of course I do. It's okay. I'll be back to class in a few days," I said.
Because Xu Minyou's situation had to be kept secret in school, I did n't tell anyone else. Except for the time when Xu Minyou told Song Yan himself, it seemed that no one else knew Xu Minyou's secret.
"Well, I just hope you know what you're doing." She said that and left me alone.
I was holding my books, planning to go to class with Xu Minyou, but there was a person standing by the fountain in front.
Song Yan walked towards me slowly and stopped in front of me. He asked me, "Why don't you come to class?"
"I just want to try the German class. Maybe I'll consider transferring to the German class." I made up this excuse to fool him.
Song Yan's eyes flickered, and he said, "Lu Nanxi, did you turn around because of Xu Minyou?"
"If you must think so, then just think of it as such." I found that since I gave up my secret crush on Song Yan, talking to him seemed to become easier and I didn't have to worry about anything. In the past, I always wondered whether I would say something that would make him unhappy, but now there is no need for that at all.
I took a step forward, and he suddenly asked me, "Are you in love with Xu Minyou?"
"Why do you think so?" I was surprised and stopped and turned to look at him.
"Because you always care about him and even quarrel with me for him. You are obviously very weak, but people feel that you are protecting him. You have been sitting with him in the German class recently." He asked, looking into my eyes.
"If you think this is love, then so be it." I said, and looked at the time. "It's getting late. I should go."
"Lu Nanxi!" Song Yan called me.
"What?" This time I didn't look back.
He asked, "Do you have to transfer to another class?"
I replied uncertainly , “Let’s talk about it later.”
It is not so easy to change departments, especially since I majored in English and it is not easy to change to the German department which is totally unrelated to me. Unfortunately, he seemed to take my perfunctory words seriously.
Xu Minyou was waiting for me on a bench outside the apartment building, and looked over at me when he heard my footsteps. This was already the fifth day that he and I had taken classes together, and tomorrow was the weekend.
I have been with him since he recovered his hearing. His condition is relatively stable, but I cannot always accompany him to class. Dr. Jiang said that I can go back to English class when his condition is stable. But Dr. Jiang did not say when he would be considered stable.
It is already deep winter, and the weather has become very cold. Before I knew it, a semester has passed. Now that I think about it, I have experienced a lot this semester, especially that I went to the infirmary twice. Half a year is a long time, but it is also very short. However, at least I did not stay where I am.
"Nanxi, please go out for a walk with me tomorrow." During the break, Xu Minyou suddenly said to me, "I haven't been out for a walk since I came to this city."
My eyes widened: "But you..."
"It's okay. It's okay as long as you're by my side." He said, "I haven't even gone shopping with you before."
I laughed, "Okay, but once you feel uncomfortable, we will come back."
"Okay." He nodded.
At this moment, I didn’t know what would happen the next day. If I could know what would happen the next day, I think I would definitely not agree to go shopping with him that day.
Unfortunately, there are not so many "ifs" and possibilities in life.