I learned about Li Qiuyang's departure from Yi Tian.
The day after my dad was discharged from the hospital, she suddenly came to my office in tears, holding up her phone and saying to me, "Li Ge, Qiu Yang said he felt sorry for you and wanted to leave this city. What happened between you two? Do you know where he went?"
I was stunned for a moment, and tried to comfort her and calm her down: "Don't cry first, tell me what happened first? If you want to find someone, you have to let me know the whole story!"
She explained the situation to me while choking up. She called Li Qiuyang last weekend but couldn't get through. At first, she thought my dad had just had surgery and needed someone to take care of him, and Li Qiuyang couldn't spare the time, so she didn't care. But in the next few days, she still couldn't get through to Li Qiuyang, and she went to the hospital several times but didn't see him. She knew that my family had complicated relationships, and I must be in a bad mood, so she didn't come to ask me.
Yesterday was the day my father was discharged from the hospital. She thought that Li Qiuyang would call her back, but she waited for a whole day and there was no call. She couldn't help but call him, but still couldn't get through.
She had originally planned to go look for him today, but as soon as she woke up she saw Li Qiuyang's text message saying he was leaving. She panicked and came to me crying.
Seeing Yi Tian so sad, I felt bad too. I guessed that Li Qiuyang left because of the quarrel between me and Aunt Zhang that day and my indifference to him. I understand that he would be sad because of this, but I don't understand why he would leave so decisively because of this.
In his eyes, what exactly is Yi Tian?
Yi Tian also asked me the same question: "Li Ge, what am I in his eyes?"
I have no way to answer that.
She hugged me and cried, and kept asking me many questions like this.
She didn't understand why family disputes would make Li Qiuyang give up his relationship with her and leave without even a formal goodbye.
She also didn't understand why Li Qiuyang never cared about her when something happened.
She asked me how much she held in Li Qiuyang’s heart.
I still can’t answer this question.
She said that she really loved Li Qiuyang and wanted to be with him forever, but why was it that her efforts were never rewarded?
Seeing Yi Tian like this, I was also very sad. I comforted her and said, "Don't worry, I will find a way to help you find out where Li Qiuyang is now. I promise you that I will bring him back to you."
She wiped away her tears and asked uncertainly, "Really?"
I said, "I would never lie to you."
I think Li Qiuyang will never know how much hurt his departure this time caused Yi Tian. Even after a long time, he may not be able to let it go.
Some boys tend to think things are simple and just do it when they think of it. They don’t think about what the consequences will be.
He didn't understand that no matter what the reason, once the harm to a person is done, it can never be erased.
Some people say that love is a personal matter and has nothing to do with others. If it is really a personal matter, why are there so many emotional disputes and so many love scars in this world?
There are too many things in this world that make us tired. If we just keep avoiding them when we encounter them, what’s the difference between us and salted fish?
I look down on Li Qiuyang like this.
"Li Ge, will you really bring him to me?" Yi Tian's cautious look made me feel distressed again.
I nodded heavily: "Yes."
Giving Yi Tian a guarantee is simple, but it is not that easy to handle. I prepared myself for a long time before I bowed my head in front of Aunt Zhang. I was also baptized by her saliva for a long time before I got Li Qiuyang's current contact information.
There is no way this woman and I can live in peace. I have nowhere to retreat, and she will keep pressing me.
When the call went through, it was very noisy on his end. Li Qiuyang shouted loudly on the other end of the phone: "Hello, hello, who is it?"
I said, "It's me."
After a while of running and heavy breathing , it became much quieter over there. Li Qiuyang called me in a low voice, "Sister."
This sound also made me feel sad, but when I thought of Yi Tian, ​​my heart couldn't help but harden again.
If someone asked me a question, Li Qiuyang and Yi Tian fell into the water at the same time, and neither of them could swim, who would you save?
I would say without hesitation that the relationship between me and Yi Tian is irreplaceable.
"Li Qiuyang, I'm calling you today not because the issue between you and me has been resolved, but for Yi Tian. You've been together for such a long time, no matter what our relationship is like, no matter what my relationship with your mother is like, I have never interfered with your relationship for these reasons, but this time, are you going a little too far?"
"Sister...I..."
"You can leave, but why do you want to leave in this way? Why don't you give her a formal farewell? Even if we break up, we should give each other a formal notice, right?" Thinking of Yi Tian's tears, my words became more pointed. "Yi Tian is my best friend. What I hate most is her being sad. Li Qiuyang, you are a man. If you can't treat your feelings correctly and continue to hurt Yi Tian, ​​I will never let you go."
"Sister..." I interrupted him.
"Don't call me sister. I'm calling you today as Yi Tian's best friend! Li Qiuyang, if you're still a man, come back to me right away. No matter if we break up or something, you need to give Yi Tian an explanation, instead of hiding in a corner like this, making everyone worry about you and cry for you! Or are you going to tell me that you're not a man, you're just a coward?"
"Sister... I'm not... I just..."
I didn't want to hear his explanation, so I hung up the phone. I didn't know if he would come back, and if he didn't, I would have to go there in person, even if I had to tie him up and bring him back to Yi Tian. I didn't know if he would have moved to another place by then, and if that was the case, I would have to ask Aunt Zhang again.
In fact, when I heard him call me "sister" at the end, my heart ached. I was not sad that my relationship with that family could not go back to the past, but I was worried that he and Yi Tian could no longer walk together without any grudges. If that were the case, how sad Yi Tian would be.
Some things may be simple when you do them, but the consequences are something many people don't want to see.
Two days later, Li Qiuyang came back and sincerely apologized to Yi Tian, ​​who also forgave him. But I could no longer see the bright smile on her face, which she only showed in front of Li Qiuyang.
Even afterwards, Yi Tian asked me with a sad face why she tried her best but couldn't find Li Qiuyang, but I only needed to make a phone call and Li Qiuyang would appear. Is it true that in Li Qiuyang's heart, love is an optional existence?
I don’t know how to answer this and can only let them resolve each other’s doubts by themselves.
We are all growing up, and everyone has their own way of dealing with feelings. Even the people closest to us cannot control it.
Reality doesn’t give busy people a chance to breathe. Yi Tian’s problem had just been resolved, and the three of us hadn’t had time to have dinner together when Lin Chuyu called me and said in a somewhat anxious tone, “Li Ge, come back soon, Orange Media is looking for you.”
Orange Media?
I returned to the company with questions. My former colleagues from Orange Media were waiting for me in the conference room. When they saw me coming back, they surrounded me like they saw a savior, talking to me. In the end, it was Lin Chuyu who calmed them down and explained the purpose of their visit to me.
It turns out that after Zhou Yao took my place in the debate program, she handled the first few debate topics well, although she was a little overwhelmed. But in the recording of yesterday's episode discussing "Which comes first, love or bread", her views were... lacking in values.
When planning the debate program, in order to make the program more interesting, no scripts were prepared for the contestants, and they had to perform on their own. The program was stopped by the director and rescheduled for re-recording. Zhou Yao was exposed again for plagiarizing the debate content she participated in a few days ago. Now the Internet is full of comments scolding her and asking her to get out of the program. As a last resort, they came to me to save the situation. After all, I am a familiar person and it is easier to deal with.
I was surprised that Zhou Yao would plagiarize, but after getting Lin Chuyu's nod, I still stood on the stage. It was also ten minutes before the recording of the show that I met one of my so-called teammates, Lin Chujian.
"Long time no see." I greeted him. We had indeed not seen each other since his engagement ceremony.
"Yeah." Lin Chujian nodded and returned to his seat.
I looked down at the stage. Xu Yaxin was standing with Lin Chuyu. They seemed to be arguing about something. Her expression was very serious, even... a little scary.
Lin Chuyu, on the other hand, remained very calm and showed almost no expression.
"Come on Li Ge!" Yi Tian, ​​who insisted on following me to record the show, waved her hands shamelessly and shouted at the sidelines.
I waved at her, as if I was back in the debate days in college. Lin Chujian was always standing next to me, and the one cheering the loudest for me from the audience was always Yi Tian.
This is not a good debate.
Lin Chujian and I worked together to suppress the other debater so much that he could hardly breathe, and the debate ended in disgrace. Finally, the director said helplessly, "Next time, you two can't be on the same team. You are simply leaving no room for survival!"
Isn't this just a temporary solution? Will there be a next time?
God knows how tormented I was during the debate!
"Li Ge, you are awesome! I haven't seen you debate for a long time, and it makes me excited!" Yi Tian rushed over to give me a big hug, then looked at Lin Chujian and said, "You are also awesome, but you are still not as good as my Li Ge."
"In your eyes, is there anyone who can compare to Li Ge? Besides, when did she become yours? Li Ge is mine." Lin Chujian retorted habitually.
Everyone who heard this was stunned, including Yi Tian and me.
In the past, after the debate, Yi Tian would always say this, and Lin Chujian would respond in the same way. After saying it so many times, it became a habit, a habit that could not be changed.
Perhaps it's because there are too many overlaps with memories tonight, which has given us all an illusion.
After this embarrassing situation, I thought that Lin Chujian would smile at me like in the past and say "thank you for your hard work", but what I got was just a casual response and I left first.
I always thought that I lost to Lin Chujian because I loved him more. He could date and get engaged, but I was still obsessed with the past. In sleepless nights, I counted, one Lin Chujian, two Lin Chujians...
Now I know that in this chaotic love story, no one wins.
People in the audience began to applaud, one, two, three... more and more. Old colleagues who had worked with me in the past also came up to congratulate me, expressing their gratitude that Lin Chujian and I had allowed them to see a very exciting debate, and that this debate would definitely have a huge viewership tomorrow.
I smiled apologetically and glanced at Xu Yaxin in the corner. She was glaring at me angrily, her eyes looking as if she wanted to eat me.
Yi Tian pulled me out of the crowd and said, "You are still like before. As soon as the debate is over, you will be surrounded by a group of little fans... My Li Ge is so charming that I feel a little inferior to him."
"You have low self-esteem!" I pushed her head and said, "Let's go shopping later."
"Your name is Zhou Yao?" she asked.
I nodded.
"Zhou Yao, Li Ge and I are going shopping in a while. Do you want to come with us?" Yi Tian waved at Zhou Yao who was not far away.
"I'm busy." The other party left without even saying the basic courtesy.
We looked at each other and shook our heads at the same time. We were increasingly confused about what Zhou Yao was thinking. Perhaps we never understood it.
I suddenly remembered to ask, "You just saw Lin Chuyu and Xu Yaxin, didn't you hear what they were saying? I always felt that the atmosphere between them was a little strange."
"I seemed to hear Xu Yaxin say something like not allowed, not allowed, or something like a threat, but I didn't hear it clearly. What? Did you get jealous when you saw them talking?" Yi Tian smiled slyly, "But I heard one thing very clearly. Xu Yaxin said that she would fight you to the end and defeat you completely."
I smiled bitterly. What does it mean to be completely defeated? Wasn't my failure in love, Li Ge, not complete enough?
While shopping, I seemed to see Xu Yaxin and Lin Chuyu again. They were on the other side of the street, arguing fiercely about something. I wasn't sure if I was seeing things. After all, the relationship between Lin Chujian and Lin Chuyu was so cold, Xu Yaxin shouldn't have had much contact with Lin Chuyu.
Just when I was about to ask Yi Tian to come over and check, a bus passed by and blocked our view. After the bus left, their figures were gone.
I was a little confused. Was I seeing things, or were they really them?
Yi Tian told me not to think too much about it. After all, they were about to become a family, and it was not strange for them to appear somewhere together. This was on the street, not in a hotel.
Having said that, I still feel like something is wrong.
Yi Tian has always believed that "shopping" is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but after shopping for an entire afternoon, she was not really happy. Even when I treated her to a super luxurious meal, there was no joy on her face.
When we returned to the dormitory, it was already very late and the lights were off. It seemed that we were the only two people there again tonight.
I threw all the bags on the bed and said to Yi Tian, ​​"I'm going to go wash up first. Girl, you have to sleep with me tonight!"
She smiled shyly: "I am waiting for you, Master."
While I was still brushing my teeth, I heard Yi Tian talking on the phone with someone outside, her voice was very loud. I thought she was arguing with Li Qiuyang, so I rinsed my mouth in panic, wiped my face twice, and hurried out, only to hear her crying, "Mom, you and Dad have been arguing for so many years, aren't you tired? I have advised you to get a divorce and get rid of it as soon as possible, but you didn't listen. What's the point of crying to me now?"
"Yes, yes, I am cold-blooded. If I were not cold-blooded, I would have been driven crazy by that family a long time ago."
"Okay, okay, I don't want to argue with you. Aren't you tired? You quarreled with my dad and now you come to pick a fight with me. I don't care what you guys do. If you really think my dad is going too far, just get a divorce. I'm not a child anymore. I don't need you to force yourself to live for me."
"Can't bear to part with it? Then please think about this next time you quarrel with my dad . Do you think there is a relationship in this world that can't be broken up by quarrels?...Okay, I'm going to hang up first. Go to bed early. Good night."
After hanging up the phone, Yi Tian's face was already covered with tears. She sat on the bed and looked at me with some despair, which made me feel extremely distressed.
I once thought that Yi Tian’s family was happy and complete, otherwise how could she be so happy every day and rarely show any negativity or unhappiness in front of me.
Until now, I realized that all those happiness and joy were just to keep me from worrying. I must have burned a lot of incense in my previous life to have her in this life!
I also understood that her parents' affairs alone would not make her so desperate. I sat down beside the bed, hugged her gently and asked, "Did something happen between you and Li Qiuyang?"
Yi Tian is a very simple person, happiness and sadness are written on her face, and her sadness basically comes from three places, me, her parents, and Li Qiuyang. Over the years, the relationship between her parents has become more and more distant, and it has not stirred any waves in her heart. Only Li Qiuyang can make her like this.
"Li Ge, why do you think love is so tiring?" Yi Tian hugged me and sobbed, "Yesterday, Li Qiuyang and I talked about our future plans. The future I want is to get married after graduation, find a job, make more money, buy a small house, and have our own home. We may not be rich, and there may be some bumps in the running-in, but as long as two people love each other, these will slowly turn into happiness. The life I want is very simple, as long as the two of us can be together. But he said that he didn't want to, and his ideal life was to go around the country to collect folk songs, find inspiration, and make the best music for the whole world to listen to. I asked him if he had never included me in his future plans? When I asked him this question, I thought that if he could say one or two words that touched me, I would accept it and accompany him to travel all over the world. But he was silent. Li Ge, do you know? Silence hurts people more than any words ."
“He’s not a very articulate person, maybe he didn’t mean it,” I tried to explain.
"I've thought about it, maybe he just doesn't know how to express it, but then I thought about it carefully and realized that I'm not included in his future plans. Which boy would be willing to take the girl he loves most to wander around?" she asked me sadly.
I am speechless.
Yi Tian in front of us seemed to have matured a lot overnight. She began to see things that she had not seen before and think of possibilities that she had not thought of before.
It turns out that love really makes people grow. But this kind of growth is what I don't want to see. I would rather she always be that silly and happy girl than be so sad.
Yi Tian sighed, "We have been arguing since he came back, and I always feel like I am copying my parents' lives. My parents named me Tian because they hope that my life will be sweet and my family will be happy. I don't want to quarrel every day like them, and when the quarrel gets intense, I want to kill each other. Just like the phone call just now, they mentioned divorce during the quarrel, and my mother couldn't stand it anymore, so she called me and cried. I really don't understand why they don't divorce? If it were me, all my feelings would be worn away by repeated quarrels, and I would end up feeling hopeless. Li Ge, do you know how it feels to feel hopeless for someone you love deeply? I'm so scared that Li Qiuyang and I will become like that one day."
After listening to Yi Tian's words, I felt sad and even a little depressed. She always smiled at everyone, and I always hoped that she could smile forever, but many things could not go in the direction we hoped.
I hugged her tightly and comforted her, "No matter what happens, I will always be by your side. I will not quarrel with you, and I will never lie to you. In my future, Li Ge and Yi Tian will always be the best sisters."
"Thank you, Li Ge. If it weren't for you, I would have collapsed a long time ago."
"Can you stop pretending to be so affectionate with your sisters? You are disturbing me. I have to record a show tomorrow and I need to get a good rest." A faint voice sounded from the upper bunk, with an extremely disdainful tone.
We thought there were only two of us in the dormitory, and the sudden sound scared us. Then we realized that Zhou Yao was also in the dormitory, but because she was on the upper bunk with her head on the window side, she kept the lights off, covered herself with a quilt and didn't speak, so when we entered the room we thought there was no one in the dormitory.
Xu Yaxin moved out of the dormitory a long time ago because she was not comfortable living there. Zhou Yao originally slept on the lower bunk, but we don't know why she moved to the upper bunk not long ago. When we asked her about it, she didn't say much.
Since she got together with Lu Yan, she came back to the dormitory less and less often, and I haven't seen her for more than half a month. As the communication between us decreased, her attitude towards us became more and more strange.
It's impossible not to be surprised that she came back so suddenly.
"Why are you back?" I asked in surprise.
"My name is also on the roster of this dormitory. Why can't I come back? What? Did I disturb your pretense? I'm really sorry." Zhou Yao said sarcastically.
"Zhou Yao, what do you mean by being so sarcastic?" Yi Tian asked, "We are all sisters, is there anything we can't say openly?"
"Sister?" Zhou Yao sneered, turned over and stopped talking.
I patted Yi Tian on the back and signaled her to stop making a fuss. We must realize that many things and many people are different from before.
In the bedroom at night, a ray of moonlight shines through the curtains. The air flows quietly, just like time.
I lay on the bed, Yi Tian breathing evenly beside me, and when she turned around, she murmured, but I couldn't hear what she said. I raised my hand to cover her with the quilt and closed my eyes .