Fate always likes to play tricks on us.
When you are happy it pours down rain,
When you are sad,
It is sunny.

The relationship between Zhou Yao and us became increasingly distant, to the point where we thought we were going to lose this friend. But then she actually sent us a WeChat message, inviting Yi Tian and I to attend Lu Yan's birthday party.
Since Zhou Yao had invited me, even though I knew I would meet Lin Chujian and Xu Yaxin, I still had to go. On the way to the birthday party, Yi Tian and I couldn't help but complain about Lu Yan. He was really a person who was particularly keen on celebrating various anniversaries! The days I saw him this year were basically at his various anniversary celebrations.
As expected, the birthday party was held in the most famous five-star hotel in the city. Yi Tian and I, who were habitually late, opened the door and saw that almost everyone was there, including Lin Chujian and Xu Yaxin, as well as Lin Chuyu and Li Qiuyang who were beyond my expectations.
But if you think about it, you can understand that although Lin Chuyu has changed jobs, he still has prestige in the industry. For Zhou Yao's career development, especially since Zhou Yao had caused trouble in the debate competition before, Lu Yan naturally wanted to please Lin Chuyu and help Zhou Yao make a comeback.
But Li Qiuyang's appearance was surprising.
"Why are you here too?" Yi Tian asked Li Qiuyang in surprise.
"Didn't you tell me that? You also told me to come over first." Li Qiuyang was also a little confused.
Yi Tian slapped her head and remembered that she had reminded Li Qiuyang several times before that Lu Yan had invited him for his birthday today. Knowing that I didn't want to come with Li Qiuyang, she let Li Qiuyang come first.
"Li Ge, sit here." Lin Chuyu patted the seat next to him and greeted me.
I looked around, everyone had their own company, and it seemed that only Lin Chuyu had a place for me. I walked over to sit next to him, and he carefully helped me get two slices of watermelon, removed the seeds, cut them into small pieces, inserted toothpicks and put them in front of me. Although his expression was still indifferent, the action of handing me the watermelon was very ambiguous: "Eat it!"
"Thank you...thank you..." I took the plate he handed over to me somewhat awkwardly, and put a small piece of watermelon into my mouth under his gaze.
Almost everyone's eyes fell on Lin Chuyu and me. I felt very uncomfortable and looked at Lin Chujian involuntarily. I saw Xu Yaxin approaching Lin Chujian, putting a piece of fruit into his mouth affectionately, and then asked with a sweet smile: "Is it delicious?"
I knew this was done on purpose for me to see, but my heart still shattered like glass. I stepped on it barefoot and it hurt so much that it bled.
"Brother Chu Meets You, can you have another piece of watermelon?" Xu Yaxin's artificial voice sounded from the side.
"If you want to show your affection at home, do it. Don't pretend at other people's birthday parties, as if you're afraid that others don't know you're being pretentious!" Li Qiuyang saw the sadness on my face and couldn't help but retort to them.
Yi Tian tugged at his sleeve and whispered, "Today is Lu Yan's birthday, don't be so childish as to quarrel with such a person."
"I just can't stand the look of those two. Shouldn't women who do shameful things behave themselves and behave themselves?" Li Qiuyang's voice was very loud. Everyone knew what he was talking about and the atmosphere became awkward for a moment.
"Li Qiuyang!" Yi Tian whispered to stop him, "Do you really have to cause trouble today?"
Because we ruined Zhou Yao and Lu Yan’s 100-day anniversary of their love last time, Yi Tian and I had already agreed before coming here this time that no matter what tricks Xu Yaxin played, we would both endure it.
It is precisely because we both have such considerations that even though Yi Tian dislikes Xu Yaxin, she still endures it.
But Li Qiuyang had no idea what Yi Tian and I were planning, and he just stood up for me. I was afraid that Li Qiuyang and Yi Tian would quarrel, so I quickly stepped forward to be a peacemaker, pulled the two of them to sit in a corner, and comforted them in various ways.
Zhou Yao glanced at us and without saying much, turned around and started talking enthusiastically with Lu Yan's group of wealthy friends.
The rift in our friendship has become wider and wider since the last little dispute in the dormitory, so wide that I can no longer reach Zhou Yao and I can no longer understand what she is thinking.
If she had completely given up on her friendship with Yi Tian and me, then why did she invite us to Lu Yan's birthday party?
Since she invited us here, does that mean she still considers us as friends? But why has she been so indifferent since Yi Tian and I entered the room?
It is impossible to say that I do not regret this friendship, but whether to save it is still an unknown for me. I am no longer sure whether Zhou Yao and I are still walking on the same path.
Just as I was lost in thought, everyone started giving birthday presents to Lu Yan. When it was my turn, I handed Lu Yan a very expensive Gundam model.
When Lu Yan took it, his eyes lit up and he smiled and thanked her, "Li Ge, I didn't expect that you would be so accurate in giving me gifts even though I haven't seen you pay much attention to me before. How did you know that I like to play with models? Sorry for the expense!"
Rich people's birthdays are a big competition party, with everyone giving more lavish and expensive gifts. After a round, the value of the gifts Lu Yan received was probably enough to pay for the down payment of a small apartment. I couldn't help but secretly smack my lips.
Zhou Yao was the only one who hadn't given a gift, and everyone looked at her. But after searching her bag for a while, she pulled it out and found nothing.
Xu Yaxin seized this opportunity and said with a sarcastic smile: "Oh, you didn't prepare any gifts? That's right, the gifts everyone gave are so expensive, most people can't afford them!"
Zhou Yao glanced at Xu Yaxin, and a hint of hatred flashed across her eyes. When she turned to look at Lu Yan, the hatred had disappeared and turned into embarrassment: "I'm sorry, I forgot the gift in the car. Give me the car keys and I'll go get it."
Lu Yan said it was okay and handed the key to Zhou Yao.
Everyone made way for her to leave. After she left, the topic suddenly turned to the issue of girls giving gifts, and everyone began to guess Zhou Yao's gift. In the end, everyone had their own thoughts, and someone even brought up the topic of marrying someone of equal status.
I think some of these people might want to watch a good show. After all, Lu Yan and Zhou Yao don't seem to be a good match at the moment.
I turned my head to look at Lin Chujian, and Xu Yaxin was still wrapped around him like a snake.
I wonder, if we two stay together and get to the point of getting married, will there be problems because of our equal social status?
Then I smiled bitterly again, we...will never reach that day.
"Hey, Lu Yan, I heard that Zhou Yao is from the countryside. Could she have brought a lot of local specialties as birthday gifts for you?" A boy I wasn't familiar with looked at Lu Yan jokingly and asked loudly.
"Go to hell! I just like country girls!" Lu Yan cursed, but he didn't seem very angry. Maybe they were used to joking like this! He continued to talk along with everyone's topic, "As for me, I can accept anything Zhou Yao gives me, but if you want to give me some local specialties or messy handicrafts, it means you look down on me, so I can only ask you to turn left and get off the elevator, I won't see you off!"
I was very glad that Zhou Yao went downstairs to get the gift. Although Lu Yan was obviously joking, with her personality, she would probably be sad and upset for a long time after hearing these words.
Their hypocrisy made me feel a little nauseous, so I informed Yi Tian and walked out of the room to get some fresh air.
As soon as I opened the door of the box, I unexpectedly saw Zhou Yao. She was standing there stiffly, her face pale and her body seemed to be trembling a little.
"Zhou Yao, are you okay? You look bad." I asked with concern.
"Bang!" A bag of something was thrown into the trash can. I couldn't help but ask what it was. She said coldly, "It's trash. Don't bother with it."
I glanced into the trash can in confusion, and saw a beautifully packaged box lying inside. Perhaps because Zhou Yao had thrown it too hard just now, a corner of the outer packaging had been torn, and a part of the transparent box inside was exposed. I could vaguely see that there was a handmade everlasting flower diffuser stone car pendant inside.
Looking at the discarded gifts in the trash can, I knew that Zhou Yao had heard everyone's jokes. I was about to explain, but Zhou Yao looked at me coldly and stopped me: "I'm going to the bathroom."
I stood at the door of the box, watching Zhou Yao gradually walking away, and a chill rose in my heart. Her body was very petite, but her tightly clenched fists contained a power that seemed to be able to break everything.
The people behind him were still talking and laughing. Lu Yan warned everyone not to use the fact that Zhou Yao was from the countryside as an excuse. He also told everyone that he, Lu Yan, loved Zhou Yao to death and no one was allowed to bully her.
Unfortunately, Zhou Yao couldn't hear these words.
A long time later, I remembered Zhou Yao's back as she walked away, cold and filled with infinite pain. I thought, maybe it was from that time that she began to change completely!
After I stood outside the box for a while, Zhou Yao came back from the bathroom. Her mood had become much more natural. She pushed open the door and walked into the box as if nothing had happened.
I felt something was wrong, so I followed Zhou Yao back to the room. The group of people who were still discussing the gifts eagerly just now looked at Zhou Yao as if they were watching a good show when they saw her come in.
Xu Yaxin looked up at us, stared at Zhou Yao's empty hands and asked with a half-smile: "Zhou Yao, aren't you going to get a gift?"
She is the kind of person who always wants to watch other people's good shows.
This kind of person will often have a big show waiting for others to watch in the end, just like the saying goes, it’s not that there is no retribution, it’s just that the time has not come.
Zhou Yao was completely different now than when she was outside the door. She smiled sweetly and walked to Lu Yan, bent down, held his arm with both hands, gently touched his lips, and said, "This is the gift."
Everyone knew what this meant. For a moment, cheers and whistles were heard. I didn't understand Zhou Yao's thoughts. I didn't understand why she seemed like a different person after going to the bathroom when she was so disappointed with Lu Yan after just throwing away the gift outside.
In such a lively atmosphere, I was huddled in the corner and looked out of place. I couldn't help but look at Lin Chujian, and the diamond ring on Xu Yaxin's ring finger always stabbed my heart again and again.
They are engaged, what am I holding on to?
During this period of time, different people always told me that we should look forward.
People always ask me if I am doing well and if I need help.
I don’t know what their mentality is, but I know that there are only a few people who truly care about me.
I am tired of dealing with the hypocrisy in life and panickingly facing all kinds of collapses that were beyond my calculations.
At that time, I always wanted to see Lin Chujian's face, call him and listen to his voice, but I knew I couldn't.
In just a few months since the breakup, I have already experienced several cold winters. I don’t know when the spring sun will rise, or maybe there will never be such a day.
Everyone was advising me to give up and giving me a bunch of lectures. I really wanted to cry and tell them that I understood the principles, but I couldn't do it.
I drank glass after glass of wine, and no matter how Yi Tian and Lin Chuyu tried to stop me, I couldn't stop. I thought, maybe if I got drunk I could forget about Lin Chujian. Maybe only if I was drunk I wouldn't be dazzled by that shining diamond again and again.
The boy I love the most is getting married, but I am not the bride.
I saw this sentence in a book a long time ago, and I thought it was just the whining of a loser. If it were me, I would turn around and leave without shedding a tear.
Now it's my turn, and my tears have overflowed into a sea.
It turns out that the pain we cannot understand is because we have never experienced it. Only after experiencing it and feeling the pain do we know that words are not enough to describe the feeling.
I fell asleep to Yi Tian's screams. I felt a sharp pain in some corner of my body, but I couldn't open my eyes.
For a moment, there was chaos around me. Perhaps it was because the song had ended and everyone was leaving. This meal, which was filled with all kinds of emotions, ended in my sadness and coma.
When I woke up, I was in the hospital, with Yi Tian and Li Qiuyang sitting next to me.
Yi Tian told me everything that happened last night with a look of anger. I don’t remember it anymore. I only know that I am still learning to forget, but I haven’t forgotten it yet.
I have always liked to use one word to describe Xu Yaxin - lingering.
For example, when I was in love, when I was at Orange Media, or - in my current new company.
After staying in the hospital for a few days, I packed up and rushed to report to the new company as soon as I was discharged. During the days I was on sick leave, work had probably piled up.
Unexpectedly, as soon as I entered the company, I received a bolt from the blue.
"Li Ge, you're here. From today on, Xu Yaxin will be our new colleague." Lin Chuyu saw me coming and said, "Sort out the information on Qingmu, Yuhua, and Shuiqing on hand and give it to her."
"Why? These three are my projects. I am capable of completing them. Why should I give them to her?" This is not directed at anyone. I absolutely cannot accept anyone taking over my projects without any reason. "Manager Lin, I think you need to give me an explanation."
"Yaxin came from Xu's company. She has extensive connections and knows the top executives of these three companies. It will be more convenient to handle this matter. Besides, you have other projects on hand, don't you?" Lin Chuyu said.
I couldn't refute his reasons, but I also understood from Xu Yaxin's smug look that this was a form of suppression. What I didn't understand was why Lin Chuyu stood on Xu Yaxin's side. Was their relationship that good? According to the fact that Lin Chuyu had shown me kindness intentionally or unintentionally many times before, shouldn't he help me?
Lin Chuyu is probably the person I find the most difficult to understand.
"Manager Lin..." I wanted to protest again but was blocked by Lin Chuyu.
"Li Ge, you have just been discharged from the hospital and your body still needs to be recuperated. You should have a good rest during this period of time, and let Ya Xin help you with the matters at hand."
I couldn't refute Lin Chuyu's reason. Who made me drink myself to death for Lin Chujian and stay in the hospital for so long? If it were another company, those projects would have been transferred to others without my consent, right?
I understood it, but I didn't want to continue to be entangled with Xu Yaxin in this meaningless way, so I decided to resign again.
When I handed my resignation letter to Lin Chuyu, he was stunned for a moment, as if he had expected it, but also seemed a little surprised.
"Li Ge, is this your decision?" Lin Chuyu asked me, with some reluctance in his eyes.
I stood up, bowed to him and said, "Thank you very much for your support during this period. I think I still have to walk my own path in the future. I'm sorry."
"Li Ge, you know how I feel about you, if it's possible..."
"No need to say, Manager Lin, I have made up my mind." I interrupted what Lin Chuyu wanted to say and explained to him solemnly, "I finally understand that many things cannot be solved by avoiding them. I did not give up my favorite job because of Lin Chujian. Now I can't accept your kindness and go against my true feelings just because I am frustrated in love."
I bit my lip, sighed and said, "I still love Lin Chujian, I'm sorry."
"You...well, good luck to you."
"Boss Lin, goodbye."
When I turned around, I heard Lin Chuyu whisper, "Then how do I continue?"
What to continue? Work? Relationship? Or something else.
Whatever it was, I didn’t want to know, so I opened the door and walked out.
When I left the office, I saw Xu Yaxin at the door. She looked at me like an enemy, and then glanced at Lin Chuyu inside the door, her anger growing even stronger.
I ignored her and walked out of the office building. The sun burned my eyes. I thought about whether I was too ruthless to Lin Chuyu. I also knew that in a relationship without love, ruthlessness is the best way.
I don’t know what Lin Chuyu is thinking, but I understand that my relationship with him ends here.
A long time later, Yi Tian asked me, if you had chosen Lin Chuyu, would the result be different?
I have thought about this question thousands of times, and the answer every time is that I will not choose him, just like I will not let go of Lin Chujian.
Of course, I also understand that the current Lin Chujian is no longer the boy I loved back then. He is engaged and will get married, but I will never be his bride.
I can't give up, all I can do is try not to disturb.
After leaving Lin Chuyu, I was not in the mood to think about work anymore. As graduation was approaching, I decided to go back to school to prepare my graduation project and thesis.
After Yi Tian and Li Qiuyang knew my decision, they were a little puzzled but supported my decision. They said they would stay with me forever.
Li Qiuyang’s words moved me, and I had a deep talk with him, for Yi Tian and for myself.
I said, I don't know how many people a person will fall in love with in this life, but I know it's not easy to meet someone you truly love, and it's even harder to stay with them all the way. Love itself is a process of mutual compromise, because I love you, so I am willing to make changes for you and for our future. A relationship that blindly asks the other person to change for you is not equal, and it is impossible to last.
Li Qiuyang said that he loved Yi Tian deeply, but he didn't know how to express it. In his heart, his sister was always so important. As long as his sister was happy, he would feel happy, so he always unconsciously ignored Yi Tian in some things.
I hugged him and said, "Sister is very happy, you should be happy too."
This was the first time I hugged him, and I thought it wouldn't be the last time. Although there was Aunt Zhang between us, after I calmed down, I could understand Li Qiuyang's desire to protect his mother as a son.
Aunt Zhang is a thorn in my heart, but a tree that Li Qiuyang can rely on in his heart.
I didn't stop being busy during the days when I didn't have work. Yi Tian and Li Qiuyang's relationship improved. They often went out to play together. Sometimes they would show concern for me, an "older woman who had been heartbroken". I would just smile at them and let them have fun. As for Zhou Yao... she became more and more indifferent to us, and gradually we all stopped talking.
It's not that I haven't thought about melting the ice between us , but no relationship can be passionate all the time. It's impossible to do something like trying to please someone who doesn't like you over and over again.
The days passed as usual, and there seemed to be nothing worth causing a stir.
I was just relaxing on this rare peaceful day, but a phone call from my mother threw my life into chaos again.
"Li Ge, Mom is about to board a flight back home. She will arrive at 3 pm tomorrow. Remember to come pick me up with your boyfriend, the one called... Lin Chujian. Tell him that I already consider him my son-in-law. If he dares not come, I will not marry my daughter to him."
"Mother……"
When I wanted to refuse, my mother had already hung up the phone. I felt like crying but I couldn't. It was really a headache to have such a willful mother!
But what bothered me more was that it was normal for her to know that I had a boyfriend, but how did she know that my boyfriend's name was Lin Chujian? I don't remember saying that!
Should I tell her that Lin Chujian and I broke up, or should I find someone to pretend to be her?
The latter was quickly ruled out, and the former seemed unlikely either. I was afraid that if my mother knew that I had broken up, she would hug me and cry for three days and three nights. I really couldn't stand her excessive emotions.
With extremely complicated feelings, I dialed Lin Chujian's number. The moment I heard his voice, my eyes couldn't help but turn red.
"Lin Chujian, can you do me a favor?" I asked cautiously.
"What happened?" I could hear his concern through the phone, and a little warmth flowed in my heart.
"My mother is coming back tomorrow. She said she wanted to see you. I... I don't know how she knew about you, but it's a rare occasion for her to come back, and she mentioned this. I really don't know how to refuse. She will be back for a short time, just... a few days. When she leaves, you will..."
"Okay." He agreed before I finished speaking.
"Thanks……"
What kind of love makes me so humble in front of him.
In fact, sometimes I wonder, we have broken up, and he is engaged, so what exactly is my behavior now? The third party of the third party?
In my past relationships, I played the role of tragedy. What about now? What is Xu Yaxin's role?
"Forget it, I still..."
"When will Auntie arrive?" he interrupted me.
The words that were not said were eventually swallowed back into my stomach. I told myself that everything I did was to not make my mother sad. Let me make this mistake for the last time. There will be no future.
In fact, I knew very well in my heart that I did this not for my mother, but to find a shameless reason to continue with the feelings that I could not let go of.
I know it's all just pretend, but I'm willing to indulge in it anyway.
"I'll be waiting for you at the entrance of Terminal T1 of the airport at 3:30 tomorrow afternoon. See you there. Thank you, thank you so much!" When did our relationship become so polite?
It seems like a long time ago, so long that I can’t remember clearly.
Airport Terminal T1.
Lin Chujian and I stood outside the railing waiting for my mother to come out. We stood side by side and could clearly smell the faint fragrance on him. There was no uninvited guest Xu Yaxin, and no quarrels or work disputes.
It’s just like when we were in love, as long as we were with each other, even without words, we would feel warm in our hearts and couldn’t help wanting to smile.
When I looked up at him, I saw a smile at the corner of his mouth. I wonder if his smile was from the heart like mine?
At half past three, my mother appeared in my sight. The little old lady was becoming more and more fashionable. She was wearing a pair of fuchsia trousers that blinded my eyes.
I adjusted my mood and threw myself into her arms: "Mom, I miss you so much!"
"I miss you, too. But before you express your longing for me, shouldn't you introduce this handsome guy next to you?"
My mother looked Lin Chujian up and down. The way the mother-in-law looked at her son-in-law gave me goose bumps. I could only pull him to my side and introduce him to her, saying, "Mom, this is my boyfriend Lin Chujian. Chujian, this is my mom."
"Hello, Auntie." Lin Chujian said politely.
"I've heard about you for a long time, and finally I get to meet you today." Mom said with a big laugh.
I was a little confused: "When did you hear that? I don't remember saying that."
"You, your dad and I knew about it when you just started dating him. You even said you never mentioned it, but did you know that you mentioned Lin Chujian several times every day during the meal? And those photos on the wall of your room, if you were not in love, were you just ordinary friends? Mom is not old enough to think that an ordinary friend would write something like 'Li Ge is Lin Chujian's favorite girl' on the photos." Mom exposed me mercilessly in front of Lin Chujian.
If we hadn't broken up now, I would definitely hide beside Lin Chujian shyly, my face red and speechless.
But in the current situation, I really don’t know what expression to use to face it.
Compared to my embarrassment, Lin Chujian was much more natural. He put his arm around my shoulders and whispered in my ear: "So you like me so much, there are photos of me all over the wall."
I blushed in shame.
"Tsk tsk, Chujian, my daughter has always been the little princess in the palm of my hand. You must take good care of her in the future!" Mom seemed very satisfied with my shy face. After winking at me, she gave Lin Chujian a warning.
"I will definitely treat her well." Lin Chujian took the suitcase from her mother and said with a smile, "I have booked a hotel for Auntie. You can go and have a rest first. I have also booked a place for dinner. After you have a rest, let Li Ge take you there."
I looked up at Lin Chujian, who seemed a little dazed. His smiling face was very different from the previous times I saw him.
Every time we met, he was hesitant to talk, and I looked sad. Of course, there was Xu Yaxin between us. It had been a long time since we had the two of us talking to each other like today.
I am grateful to my mother for giving me this opportunity, an opportunity to not live in memories and to truly feel the world.
"No, no, I've already booked a hotel, you can just take me there. I'm going to rest, and you two can have some time for yourself. Otherwise, after I leave, Li Ge will definitely blame me for being a third wheel."
They were still talking and laughing, but my world was empty, filled only with Lin Chujian's smile.
A very childish sentence suddenly popped up in my mind: I will protect his smile.
I know clearly that I cannot protect this smile, and I want to imprint it in my mind and never let it disappear.
"Li Ge, why are you in a daze? Let's go!" Lin Chujian turned around, took my hand and walked forward.
I followed him. In the light and shadow, he was like a prince coming against the light. He saved my withered heart and made new buds sprout again on the dead tree.
After sending my mother to the hotel, we tacitly agreed not to mention the breakup or Xu Yaxin. We were just like a couple in love, going to the places we wanted to play and eating the places we wanted to eat.
Perhaps we all understand too well that during this youth, we will never have such an opportunity to love unscrupulously again.
How nice would it be if times like this could continue forever and never end?
But what was supposed to come finally came.
The next day, Lin Chujian did not show up to have dinner with my mother as planned.
Unlike the missed appointment at Lover's Lake, he sent me a text message saying, "Ya Xin knows, I'm sorry."
I seemed to be able to foresee Xu Yaxin's hysteria after she knew about this, and I could see his helplessness in front of Xu Yaxin.
The beauty of yesterday did not last for twenty-four hours after all.
I walked into the hotel alone. My mother looked around but couldn't find Lin Chujian. She laughed and said, "Did your princess temper scare Lin Chujian away? He doesn't even dare to come today."
"As expected of my biological mother, you really understand me." I tried to act relaxed and kissed her on the cheek. "But you just ran away, didn't you?"
"you……"
My mother saw that I was not joking. She looked at me with some sadness and heartache and said, "Actually, I noticed something was wrong between you yesterday, but I didn't think much of it. You are a child who always likes to act strong, but in fact, you are so fragile inside."
"Mom..." All the resentment and hatred in the past have long since become insignificant because of my deep longing for her. I hugged her and was about to cry. "Did I tell you yesterday that I missed you so much?"
"Silly girl, mom misses you too!" Mom patted my back and said softly, "Do you want to come with me this time?"
I was dumbfounded.
Later I learned that the main purpose of my mother's return this time was to see if my boyfriend was reliable. If he was an unreliable man, she planned to take me abroad directly after I graduated.
As for going abroad, I may need a long time to consider it.
"Li Ge, the news has gone viral in the circle of friends. Xu Yaxin cried, made a fuss and even threatened to commit suicide at home against Lin Chujian. She wants the whole world to know that you, a bitch, hooked up with her Lin Chujian again. What on earth did you do?" Yi Tian called to gossip shortly after I picked up my mother.
I explained the matter briefly.
She said with emotion: "Lin Chujian is such a bastard. Xu Yaxin has her hands full all day long. Do you think Xu Yaxin is pregnant? That's why Lin Chujian is so obedient for the sake of the child. This is how TV dramas often play out."
"Who knows! " This sentence hurt me again.
The three words "Lin Chujian" are like a curse tied to my heart. Once mentioned, I feel excruciating pain.
My mother stayed for only a week and then left. When she left, she asked me to think carefully about going abroad.
During this period, she met with her father. The two people who had tortured each other for more than 20 years sat down and laughed it off. It was like they were friends who had not seen each other for many years. They talked about the past calmly, as if the experiences they had experienced together were just other people's stories.
My life has returned to the lawless days when Yi Tian and I were together. Apart from working on my thesis, I would just wander around. When we felt empty, lonely and cold to a certain extent, we would go shopping to vent our feelings.
If Xu Yaxin and Lin Chujian were not in my life, I think I would definitely be a happy person.
Things don't always go as planned.
After some deep thought, Li Qiuyang opened a bar with his friends for the sake of his future with Yi Tian. He invited us on the opening day.
Since we were opening a bar together, Li Qiuyang would invite us to attend, and the partners would of course invite their friends as well. So, I once again met those people I didn't want to see.
I began to lament that this circle was too small, so small that I even suspected that this was the only bar in the city.
"Li Ge, do you think that if I rush up to Xu Yaxin and slap her twice, will she go crazy?" Yi Tian was furious when she saw Xu Yaxin.
"Come on, we are here to celebrate for Qiu Yang today. You hit Xu Yaxin twice and you feel good, but how will Qiu Yang end up?" I rolled my eyes at her.
"That's right. For the sake of my Qiu Yang, I can only endure it for a while."
Maybe Xu Yaxin also understood that there should not be any noise in today's occasion. At the beginning, everyone was peaceful and each of them was drinking with their friends, and there was no interaction.
Occasionally I would look up at Lin Chujian, and sometimes our eyes would meet, but we never said a word.
We used to have occasional work interactions, but after I resigned, we haven’t spoken to each other since the last incident at the airport.
It’s not that I haven’t asked myself if I have let it go. I also thought that I had let it go, but when we met again, my heart was still beating violently and accompanied by pain.
Lin Chujian, I am planning to stop loving you. Today, I give you my final blessing. I hope you will be happy forever in your future without me.
I was having a lot of thoughts, but Li Qiuyang's words interrupted them.
"Thank you friends for coming to support us today. I have no words to thank you. Let me drink this cup first." Li Qiuyang went on stage and said to the microphone, a little excited, "It has not been easy for me to get here. I am most grateful to Li Ge and Yi Tian for their encouragement and support. Li Ge, you will always be my favorite sister! And Yi Tian, ​​you are the love of my life."
Li Qiuyang, who was usually not good at speaking, had never said such words before. I looked at Yi Tian. She was staring at the people on the stage with a flushed face, and she was almost fainting with happiness.
The next round of toasts came. After Li Qiuyang toasted us and the members of the Crow Band, he turned to Lin Chujian. When it came to Xu Yaxin, she blocked the wine and said shyly, "Sorry, I can't drink..."
"Hey, Xu Yaxin, you're not the kind of guy who doesn't even give me this face, are you?" Li Qiuyang's partner said pretending to be angry.
"Of course I'm not being disrespectful, it's just that I'm pregnant, and pregnant women can't drink alcohol." Xu Yaxin said with a smile.
I was stunned. Yi Tian held my hand and looked at me, a little sad. I tried hard to force a smile for her, but found it was too difficult.
Li Qiuyang also looked at me with complicated eyes, and there was anger behind the complexity. I knew that he wanted to rush up and beat Lin Chujian up, but he couldn't do it because of his partner's face.
He has really grown up.
"Congratulations!" Those who didn't know the truth were congratulating, while those who knew the truth were stunned.
Lin Chujian's face was also full of shock. He looked at me, as if he wanted to explain.
"I have no idea..."
Before he could finish his words, Xu Yaxin took over. She shyly leaned into Lin Chujian's arms and said, "I know you don't know about this, but I just wanted to give you a surprise! Don't blame me."
“When did it happen?” Lin Chujian’s voice was so cold that it made people feel chilled.
"How could you forget? It was last time, when you were drunk ! Didn't I take a photo of us that night and send it to that someone?" Xu Yaxin shyly hit Lin Chujian's shoulder, her face full of smiles.
Then who...
Why didn’t she just say it directly, where is Li Ge?
"How is that possible? Didn't you say nothing happened that night?" Lin Chujian still didn't believe it.
"I, I just don't want to tie you down with that kind of thing, but now I'm pregnant, so I still have to tell you."
"Li Ge!"
"Li Ge!"
There are so many people calling my name behind me that I can no longer tell who is who.
Yi Tian and Li Qiuyang came to me and wanted to go out with me, but I refused.
I returned to school in a daze. With every step I took, I would remember that Lin Chujian and I had walked through here and how much he loved me.
There are still so many couples in front of Lover's Lake, and I am still the one who doesn't fit in.
That night, I was sad and desperate, the boy I loved was with someone else and forgot about me. So Li Ge, what are you holding on to? Why can't you let go?
Isn’t it just Lin Chujian?
Isn’t he just Lin Chujian, the man who once doted on you and loved you to the point of lawlessness?
That was all... in the past!
Yes, that was all in the past. No matter how beautiful the past was, it could not change the cruel reality. He and I broke up a long time ago.
I closed my eyes and curled up in agony.
Finally, I fell asleep in a daze, and in the blur, it seemed that someone picked me up.
Who is it?
I said, "Hey, don't save me. I'd rather die here than face those people again."
I said, "I'm sorry, I love him so much, I can't forget him."
I said, "Am I really useless? Haha, I keep saying I'll give up, and then I keep breaking my promises."
I heard the person holding me say, "Li Ge, I'm sorry."
"I don't want to hear sorry. That boy named Lin Chujian has said sorry to me too many times. I don't want to hear it again. If he feels sorry for me, why doesn't he love me well? Why...can't he just love me well?"
Lin Chujian, I love you!
When I woke up, I was lying on the bed in the dormitory. Yi Tian said that it was Lin Chujian who sent me back. He was afraid that I would catch a cold and have a fever, so he stayed by my bed all night. He just left, and if I chase him now, I can still catch up with him.
I jumped out of bed and ran downstairs without even bothering to put on my shoes.
His figure is still within my sight, and he will hear me as long as I shout.
My mouth opened, but no sound came out.
I shouted, and he heard me, but what can I do? We are no longer the same as we were at the beginning.
I squatted on the ground dejectedly, unable to hold back my tears, and kept saying to myself, I agreed not to love you anymore, so why am I feeling hurt again?
I have read many love stories before, in which the men and women always love each other, and even if they encounter setbacks, they will get together in the end.
I yearned for love and thought I would be the protagonist of love, but gradually I discovered that I was actually the tragic supporting actress.
I just want to simply fall in love, I just want to simply be loved by someone, that's all.
Who knows, simplicity is often the hardest.