Yi Pingan, I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry...
Yi Pingan, I know that even if I say sorry 10,000 times, I won't get a single "it's okay" from you, but I still want to say it. I also know that maybe you won't see this microblog, but I still want to say it.
I know you are very sad about He Xubei's death, and I am no less sad than you. Although it was not caused by me, it is not completely unrelated to me. If I hadn't forced you to get an answer, perhaps this would not have happened.
But is it wrong for me to say that I like you? You once had a crush on He Xubei, and you know the feeling of a secret crush. Do you know how it feels when I secretly like you?
If you like someone, you have to say it out loud. I can’t hide it, so even after confessing three times, I still want to tell you - Yi Pingan, I just like you!
Now that things have happened, no one can change anything. I know you hate me, blame me, and don't want to see me, but please treat yourself well.
Late at night, Li Ye wrote a long Weibo post.
At that time, I was not sure what his mood was when he wrote this Weibo post. Maybe it was bitterness and heartache, maybe it was guilt and discomfort, or maybe it was all of the above.
When I was discharged from the hospital, Ling Shanshan came to pick me up. I had no relatives, and my friends were few to begin with, and they all left me one by one. I am very grateful that I still have a kind girl like Shanshan to accompany me.
In fact, Ling Shanshan is no less sad than I am. She grew up with He Xubei. Although they separated later, they can be considered childhood sweethearts and like siblings next door. Their feelings for each other are obvious.
Now that He Xubei is gone, how can she not feel sad? It's just hard for her to suppress her emotions and take care of me.
"Shanshan, thank you." I hugged her.
Shanshan was afraid that something might happen to me again, so she decided to stay with me at my house for a few days. I couldn't persuade her, so I had to agree.
At night, I couldn't fall asleep. I had nightmares as soon as I closed my eyes. I dreamed that He Xubei fell into a black abyss. No matter how I shouted or tried, I couldn't save him.
I struggled to wake up, covered in sweat.
Eleven o'clock.
Shanshan asked me what was wrong, and I said, I wanted to drink.
There were not many people at the night market not far from the community, so I picked a seat and sat down, and asked the boss to bring a bottle of beer over. Shanshan said that I was not in good spirits and asked me not to drink.
I smiled bitterly and said, "Good girl, just let me drink. This is my third time drinking. Only when you are drunk will you not feel pain!"
Shanshan stopped stopping me and suddenly fell silent.
I didn't use a glass, I just gulped down the beer from the bottle. Even though I'd only had it three times, I really hated the taste of beer.
Li Ye once asked me how to drink beer. I said it is best to drink it open from the bottle. Sipping it from the glass is a kind of red wine with a small capitalist style.
In fact, the reason I drank it in big gulps was that I didn't like the taste of beer and wanted to drink it in one gulp to reduce the stimulation to my taste buds.
After listening to what I said, Li Ye said that I was a female hero.
Now I still drink beer in big gulps, but the difference is that I let it stay in my mouth for a while instead of swallowing it right away. The bitter taste of beer is numbing my taste buds and my heart.
I was drunk when I drank the sixth bottle. I heard Shanshan calling my name. I could feel that it was very difficult for Shanshan to support me alone. Then I heard a strange voice again.
"Hey, little girl, you drank so much... Do you want us to help take you home?"
My eyes were hazy, but I could clearly see two or three young men in front of me, smiling at me and Shanshan with ill intentions.
Why do I always get into these troubles?
In the past, He Xubei would rush out to help me, and Li Ye would drive them away. Now He Xubei is dead and Li Ye has been driven away by me. Who else will appear before me like a god?
The young men came up and tried to snatch me away from Shanshan. I was waving my hands and feet in a state of confusion, and Shanshan hurriedly pulled me away.
"What are you doing?" The young men stopped what they were doing after hearing the voice.
I saw He Xubei in a trance. It turned out that someone would come to save me... But how could He Xubei beat three people alone? I waved my hands and shouted at him to go away. But I opened my eyes wide and saw that He Xubei had turned into Li Ye again.
"Li Ye, is that you? Go away... go away! I, didn't I say I don't want to see you? Go away... it's you, you killed him! Do you think I will like you if He Xubei dies? You are dreaming! I don't like you, I have never liked you... " I was talking nonsense, and Shanshan beside me was busy comforting me.
Li Ye's expression froze, and then he squatted down and carried me on his back, regardless of my resistance. The young people knew Li Ye, so they didn't want to bother Shan Shan and me anymore.