I wanted to go see He Xubei's mother. He Xubei's death was a fatal blow to her. I remembered how Aunt Shen praised He Xubei in front of me.
"An An, my Xiao Bei is smart and sensible. He has never made me worry since he was a child. Did you know that my Xiao Bei can also play the piano? Let me tell you, he plays very well..."
How I wanted to say that I had seen it, but I didn’t, I just laughed in my heart.
After being in the same class with He Xubei for a long time, I asked him: "He Xubei, have you ever seen me before?"
I blinked my eyes expecting his affirmative answer, "I have seen it before." But the fact is that He Xubei did his signature move - pushing up the frame of his glasses, and then turned a page of the book, ignoring me.
Jingyan on the side laughed at me and said that if I wanted to attract the attention of my male god, I shouldn’t use such an old-fashioned method.
But I kept asking, "Think about it again. When I was seven years old, at a social gathering..."
That time, He Xubei raised his eyelids and looked at me carefully, but he just shook his head.
I got anxious and gestured, "It was the time when the music track of the folk dance I was dancing was broken, and you played the piano accompaniment... Do you remember? I was the crying girl, do you remember?"
"You looked so good in that white suit that day, and you played the piano! Do you remember it?"
He Xubei pushed up the frame of his glasses, then hummed slowly with a nasal sound: "Hmm."
I immediately became excited, and I grabbed Song Jingyan's hands beside me: "Jingyan, look, he remembers me. I told him he remembers me."
Then I pulled Jingyan away. Jingyan walked reluctantly while being dragged by me, saying, "You've known him for a long time, why don't you dare to confess your love to him now that you like him?"
He Xubei is still as outstanding as ever when he grew up. He still remembers the cat with a crying face. But the grown-up cat is not as outstanding as him. How could he dare to say that he likes the cat?
Standing at the door of He Xubei's house, I raised my hand but didn't dare to knock. I was suddenly afraid of seeing Aunt Shen's sad eyes. When I was hesitant, the door opened and a strange girl appeared. I thought I had gone to the wrong place, but the girl called me: "Are you Xiaobei's classmate? I've seen you in his Weibo album."
I was looking at the girl in confusion, and she added: "I'm here to take care of my aunt, she's in a very bad mental state."
Xiao Xia is He Xubei's cousin. She took me to Aunt Shen's bedroom. I saw Aunt Shen leaning on the bed. The white hair on her head hurt my eyes. She was holding He Xubei's clothes in her hands, staring at the photo with dull eyes, and muttering: "Xiaobei, where have you been? Why haven't you come back yet? Are you angry with mom? Mom never brought those people back again. Why are you ignoring me?"
Xiao Xia came over, looked at me and then at Aunt Shen, and said, "Auntie hasn't eaten recently. She just coaxed me to eat half a bowl of porridge and vomited it all... I'm worried that she won't be able to bear it if it continues like this!"
I walked over and called her, "Aunt Shen, I'm An An, I'm here to see you..."
Aunt Shen didn't respond, as if she didn't hear anything. Xiao Xia said that she has been like this recently and she ignores anyone who calls her.
My nose was sore and I tried not to cry. Aunt Shen turned her head and looked at me, then suddenly rushed towards me: "Yi Ping'an, it's you, it's you! Give me back my son, give me back my son... I know my son died for you! Xiaobei likes you, why don't you like him? He fell because you said you didn't like him... You evil person, give me back my son!"
I was so frightened by this sudden change that I dared not move. Aunt Shen's hands kept hitting me. Xiao Xia hurried over to hold her, while motioning for me to go out first.
I stood in the yard, Aunt Shen 's words echoing in my mind - he fell down because you said you didn't like him!