Chapter 6: Unspeakable Sorrow 03
In the following days, Shen Xiaoyu and Yao Yizhou spent more time with me than before. Basically, apart from classes, I was with them every day.
Yao Yizhou and Shen Xiaoyu accompanied me to places I had always wanted to go but had not been to, and they also accompanied me to sing, drink, and play games. In fact, singing, drinking, and playing games are not things I like, but I really can't think of what I like to do, and every time I go to a familiar place, it reminds me of the scenes with Ji Chuan before, which is simply a torture for me. In order to escape this torture, I can only throw myself into various carnivals. But the more I do this, the more empty I feel inside, as if something is leaking out from a hole in my heart. This keeps reminding me that since I lost Ji Chuan, I have become incomplete.
This kind of life made me feel disgusted after a while.
On the weekend, I told Yao Yizhou and Shen Xiaoyu that I wanted to be alone for some time.
Shen Xiaoyu didn't say anything. She just patted my shoulder and looked at me with extremely worried eyes: "Wen Ya, are you okay alone? Are you sure you won't do anything to make me worry?"
I smiled at Shen Xiaoyu, shook my head, and dispelled her doubts with an extremely confident tone: "It's okay, don't worry, I just want to be alone at home and be quiet. I promise, I won't do anything out of the ordinary. If I suddenly want to go somewhere, I will definitely call you."
Yao Yizhou seemed a little unsure of my promise. He frowned and said, "You must keep your phone on 24 hours a day. Don't turn it off for no reason so that we can't find you. Otherwise, I will definitely go to your house to look for you. Even if you are not at home and sneaked out, I will keep looking for you until I am sure you are safe."
Yao Yizhou had never spoken to me in such a tough manner. I was stunned for a moment, then I scratched my head in embarrassment and said guiltily, "Don't worry, I really won't do anything rash. If you and Xiaoyu are worried, just go to my house. But you know that the woman is not a pushover. What if she suddenly gets mad and kicks you all out?"
When Yao Yizhou and Shen Xiaoyu heard what I said, they laughed at the same time.
After saying goodbye to these two friends who kept telling me not to turn off my phone, I didn't go home, but got in a taxi and went straight to the bar.
The bar was very noisy. The powerful rhythm of the music made people want to sway along as soon as they walked in, and men and women of all kinds were twisting their bodies wildly on the dance floor.
I sat down at the bar and ordered a margarita, but the bartender gave me a cocktail instead. He pointed to a man not far from me and whispered to me, "Ma'am, this is from the gentleman in the black shirt next to you. He said he wanted to talk to you."
I looked in the direction the bartender was pointing and saw a young man raising his glass and toasting me. I smiled and picked up my glass to toast him back.
When the man in the black shirt saw that I accepted the wine he offered him, he walked towards me with the glass.
I squinted my eyes and looked at him carefully, and he looked at me as he walked.
"Beauty, what kind of wine do you like to drink?" The man in the black shirt sat down next to me and handed me a cigarette.
I took the cigarette from him, fiddled with it for a while, and said softly, "I usually just drink some red wine, but I don't really like this cigarette."
"French and Italian red wines are both good. I have a bottle that I brought back from France. Would you like to taste it?"
I couldn't help but laugh. "I want to drink red wine. I have plenty at home. Why should I go to your house? Besides , is your red wine any better than mine?"
The man in the black shirt shrugged and looked at me in surprise: "Beauty, it looks like you are still in school, right?"
I didn't know how this person knew that, so I asked him out of curiosity.
"Isn't it simple? If you weren't in school, you wouldn't be dressed like this. You would be dressed like them." said the man in the black shirt, pointing to the scantily clad women twisting their bodies on the dance floor.
I looked down at my tightly wrapped clothes, and raised the corners of my mouth slightly: "Since you know I'm still in school, don't waste your time on me. Go find girls who are right for you. Maybe you can get something."
The man in the black shirt waved to the bartender and pointed to the glass in his hand. The bartender understood, nodded and started to make drinks for him.
"It seems that you are a frequent visitor here." I sneered, my heart full of contempt for the man in front of me.
But I just want to chat with strangers. Maybe all the men in this bar have the same idea as him. Although I know this is not good, but only in the bar, there will be no rejection...
"I don't come here often, only when I feel upset. This city is so big, but for me, this is the most relaxing place. Only here can I be my true self...what about you?" The man in the black shirt took a sip of wine and stared at me with his head turned sideways.
I didn't want to say anything more to him at first, but after a while, I frowned and said, "I've been here a few times, and I was always upset . I think the atmosphere here is good and lively, and it won't make me feel lonely."
"Lonely? Pretty girl, did you break up with your boyfriend? That's why you went to the bar to get drunk alone? I'm not trying to scare you, but bars are full of people of all kinds. You'd better leave as soon as possible to avoid something irreparable."
The man in the black shirt was still trying to comfort me, but I raised my glass and took a sip. I looked at him and couldn't help asking, "I didn't expect you to be so kind... But since I'm here, I just want to relax. I don't have any plans."
"You really look like my sister. When my sister was in school, she was as cute as you." The man in the black shirt said softly, tilted his head back and took a sip of wine, looking thoughtful.
I snorted coldly and said nonchalantly, "Do you men particularly like to use this trick to pick up young girls?"
I originally thought that the man in the black shirt would answer my question seriously, but what I didn't expect was that he was laughing so hard that I fell over, leaving me confused.
"Beauty, you look like a child who is well protected by your parents. You have never encountered any problems. A breakup is like the sky falling. Don't think too much about it. Just treat it with a normal mind. In fact, when it comes to love, the more you care about someone, the more you will be hurt."
I shook my head and downed the cocktail in my glass.
The man in the black shirt pointed to my glass and the bartender nodded and said loudly, "Give this beautiful lady a basic cocktail."
After a while, the bartender placed the drinks in the hands of me and the man in the black shirt.
The man in the black shirt gestured to me, and without saying a word, I picked up the glass and drank it all in one gulp.
"Beauty, you can't drink like this. You'll get drunk easily. Do you know how to play finger-guessing games? How about we play finger-guessing games while drinking?"
The man in the black shirt wiped his palms and made a finger-guessing gesture, which immediately aroused my curiosity. I nodded and said loudly, "Come on, let's play finger-guessing. The loser has to drink."
"Come if you want, who's afraid of who?"
The man in the black shirt pushed up his arms and excitedly made fist-fights with me.
I am just a beginner, how can I compare with the senior bartender like the man in the black shirt? Before long, I drank several cocktails, my head was a little dizzy, and I was in a very excited state.
Just when I was playing finger-guessing with the man in the black shirt, Yao Yizhou suddenly appeared and ran towards me panting. As soon as he ran to my side, he grabbed my wrist and shouted: "Wen Ya, look at what you have become! Stop drinking and follow me!"
The man in the black shirt grabbed Yao Yizhou's arm and raised his eyebrows and asked him, "Little boy, who are you?"
I heard the man in the black shirt ask this, and squinted my drunken eyes and asked him back, "Who are you?"
Yao Yizhou saw that I was drunk and still flirting with other men, and frowned and said sternly: "She is my friend, she is drunk, I have to take her away."
The man in the black shirt snorted coldly and said with an unhappy look on his face: "It depends on whether this beautiful woman is willing to go with you."
I listened to these two people arguing in front of me and suddenly found it a little funny. But who knew that as I laughed, tears couldn't stop falling.
I looked up at Yao Yizhou and cried, "I know who you are, I know who you are..."
Yao Yizhou looked at me with a distressed look on his face. I buried my head in his arms and burst into tears, calling Ji Chuan's name over and over again in my heart.
However, at this moment, my mind suddenly came to its senses, and I told myself clearly that Ji Chuan would never be able to appear by my side like a heavenly soldier and save me from the water and fire when I needed him the most. Since last week, the man named Ji Chuan has completely disappeared from my world, and he can no longer be the person who cares about me the most and loves me the most.
The more I thought about it, the sadder I became, and the louder I cried.
The man in the black shirt frowned and left awkwardly. Seeing how grief-stricken I was, Yao Yizhou hugged me with a look of heartache and patted my back gently to comfort me.
Tears kept pouring out, blurring my vision, but in the blur, I saw a familiar figure. I wiped my tears and tried to open my eyes wide, only then did I see clearly that it was Shen Xiaoyu, who was standing not far from Yao Yizhou and me, watching me and Yao Yizhou hugging each other with a sad expression.
I struggled to push Yao Yizhou away and explain to Shen Xiaoyu, but I seemed to have lost all my strength and couldn't push Yao Yizhou away. Yao Yizhou was like a solid wall, blocking Shen Xiaoyu and me, until Shen Xiaoyu turned around and left silently, and I could no longer see her figure...
From that time on, I had a very ominous premonition in my heart, feeling that I would lose Shen Xiaoyu forever.
Suddenly, I felt that I was very much like Li Jiawei, and as disgusting as her.
Maybe it was the alcohol that took effect, I don’t know how I got home, but I know that with Yao Yizhou around, nothing would happen to me.
When I woke up, I found myself lying on the bed in my bedroom.
After I sobered up, I had a headache and felt a little listless. I didn't go crazy anymore, but pretended nothing had happened and completely ignored the hug that night.
Yao Yizhou also tacitly refused to mention anything about what happened in the bar that day. He always stayed with me quietly, reading books with me, writing papers with me, and daydreaming with me.
In the following days, my time seemed to be monopolized by Yao Yizhou. Except for sleeping and going to the bathroom, he followed me closely all the time.
I knew he was afraid that I would sneak out to drink again. In fact, I could guess how many places he and Shen Xiaoyu had gone to before they found me that day, but I didn't dare to ask, let alone take the initiative to call Shen Xiaoyu. I was like a child who had made a mistake, and could only use obedience to cover up my mistake, trying to get their forgiveness in this way.
It was the weekend, and Yao Yizhou came to my house early in the morning, which surprised my father and the woman.
Yao Yizhou smiled and told my father seriously that he came to review homework with me, and the teacher assigned homework, and he and I were in the same group and had to work together to complete it.
I really admire Yao Yizhou's ability and determination to tell lies with his eyes open. My father couldn't find any loopholes in what he said, so he let him in and encouraged him to take care of me and help me with my studies.
I was speechless and could only take Yao Yizhou into my room.
After arriving at the room, Yao Yizhou and I stared at each other, not knowing what to do.
I thought for a long time before I said slowly, "The teacher didn't assign any homework, did he?"
Yao Yizhou shook his head and said softly: "I just want to accompany you, I'm afraid you will be lonely."
This simple sentence instantly touched the softest part of my heart, but I pretended I heard nothing, opened the drawer of the bedside table and searched for the disc inside.
There were a lot of old movies in the drawer. I brought all the discs to Yao Yizhou, raised my eyebrows and said, "Pick one from the drawer, and let's watch a movie."
Yao Yizhou chose Stephen Chow's old movie "A Chinese Odyssey". The two of us sat on the floor, and I deliberately turned up the volume of the movie very loudly, so loud that I could hear it clearly through the door.
I thought my father would come in and blame me and Yao Yizhou, and kick Yao Yizhou out on the grounds that we were not studying. However, I underestimated my father's tolerance for me. Perhaps he and that woman saw that I was not in a good mood recently, so my father rarely criticized my various ridiculous behaviors recently.
