Chapter 6: Unspeakable Sorrow 01
After almost a week, I finally recovered a little. Shen Xiaoyu called me several times to urge me to go to school, and I finally decided to go to school.
When I went to school, I found out that during the time I was away, the news of my breakup with Ji Chuan had spread everywhere. Witnesses on that day spread the story of my breakup with Ji Chuan, and there were several versions: some said that Ji Chuan was with another girl behind my back, and I was so angry that I beat Ji Chuan in front of many people; some said that Ji Chuan was with another girl and wanted to break up with me, but I refused to do so, so I wrestled with Ji Chuan and scratched Ji Chuan's hand; some said that I saw Ji Chuan being affectionate with another girl, so I fought with that girl...
I listened carefully and heard all kinds of things. On the way to the classroom, people, whether they knew me or not, pointed at me behind my back.
Neither Ji Chuan nor I are particularly famous people. I really don’t know how our story aroused the curiosity of these classmates.
I don’t know who spread those rumors. It is particularly cruel for me to magnify my private life like this.
When we got to the classroom, my classmates were pointing at me and talking about me. Although I couldn't hear clearly what they were saying, I could almost guess that it was either that I was pestering Ji Chuan, or that Ji Chuan was pestering me.
Yao Yizhou took out a lunch box from his schoolbag and handed it to me. I took the lunch box, waved my hand, and sat next to him.
Yao Yizhou opened his mouth, then slowly closed it, as if he was going to say something, but in the end he said nothing and just smiled at me.
In fact, I could guess what Yao Yizhou was going to say. From what I knew about him, he was definitely trying to persuade me to think more positively.
But I can't tell him that in this whole incident, I am the victim and the one who was abandoned... I really want to tell Yao Yizhou this.
Generally speaking, once a relationship ends, most people will think it is the man's fault, but now I don't know what is going on. In the rumors about my breakup with Ji Chuan, it is actually more my fault, and it is said that I was the one who made the most noise during the breakup. I really don't know what is going on with such an outrageous rumor...
Although such rumors make me feel very embarrassed and sad, I really am not in the mood to argue with those people now.
I looked at the warmth in Yao Yizhou's eyes, and suddenly felt that all the anxiety and uneasiness disappeared.
Yao Yizhou didn't ask me about the breakup, nor did he ask which of the various rumors was true. He just silently picked up a notebook from the table and handed it to me.
"Xiaoya, these are the notes for the classes you missed." Yao Yizhou's voice was very gentle.
I took the notebook and my heart was filled with gratitude towards him.
When the class was over, I seemed to have lost my self-awareness, my head was dizzy, and I followed my classmates to the classroom door.
Suddenly, someone seemed to push me from behind, and I staggered and almost hit the wall beside me.
Yao Yizhou supported me from behind at the right time.
I smiled at Yao Yizhou and thanked him for his timely help, but I found that Yao Yizhou was looking at the stairs.
I followed Yao Yizhou's gaze and looked towards the stairs, only to see a figure that was both strange and familiar to me standing there. I stared at that figure, stunned in place, and for a moment I didn't know how to react.
"Maybe he is waiting for someone." I murmured in a low voice, and I didn't know whether Yao Yizhou beside me heard it.
At this moment, Ji Chuan actually waved at me and smiled at me, but his expression was very melancholy.
It turns out that Ji Chuan came to see me...
From his eyes, I could tell that he was a little nervous, which made me unable to guess his real intention in coming to see me.
My mind went blank for a moment. Then, I shifted my gaze, lowered my head, grabbed Yao Yizhou's arm, and whispered in his ear, "Yizhou, let's go."
However, Yao Yizhou did not agree with my idea of escaping and did not move a step.
Yao Yizhou’s rejection suddenly reminded me that Ji Chuan and Yao Yizhou have been good friends since high school, and the brotherhood between them has always been as strong as iron.
Ji Chuan could see that Yao Yizhou was helping him, and gave him a grateful smile.
However, as I was standing aside, I saw a different emotion in Yao Yizhou's eyes. There was an inexplicable loss in his eyes.
Ji Chuan walked up to me and stopped, looking into my eyes. After a long pause, he said softly, "Xiao Ya, let's talk."
Ji Chuan's request made my heart tighten. I let go of Yao Yizhou's arm and stood there trying to act calm. Although I didn't know why Ji Chuan came to me this time, I still slapped him when we broke up. Could it be that he came to ask for that slap back? Or to warn me not to harass his new girlfriend?
With this thought in mind, I couldn't help but sneer and said, " Why ? There is nothing to talk about between us!"
Facing Ji Chuan, I could only say such heartless and cruel words. It was absolutely impossible for me to bow my head to apologize to him and beg for his forgiveness like a beggar! Since we had already broken up, I would never miss this past relationship, and it was even more impossible for me to smile and tell him that all this was a misunderstanding and that I was just being suspicious.
"Xiao Ya, can you give me a chance to listen to my explanation, please?" Ji Chuan's voice was almost pleading, but it sounded more and more ironic to me.
I shook my head and said in an extremely firm tone: "What were you doing when I needed to hear your explanation the most? I have no interest in the history of your relationship with that girl, and I don't want to know how far you have developed, or whether you have made a lifelong commitment, because you, Ji Chuan, are nothing to me now!"
My words were very harsh, but Ji Chuan had obviously never heard me say such cruel words. Perhaps in his mind, my love for him was enough to forgive all the mistakes he made. His eyes became more and more lonely.
Just when I thought Ji Chuan had given up, he suddenly reached out and grabbed my shoulders, forced me back to the corner, looked down at me menacingly, and said in an unresistable tone in my ear: "Xiao Ya, please give me a minute and listen to my explanation. I promise that you will change your mind after listening to my explanation."
I tried my best to push Ji Chuan away, but he obviously didn't realize that I had so much strength. He staggered and almost fell to the ground.
I snorted coldly and said contemptuously: "I don't know who spread the rumor that we had broken up in school when I was not here, but since it has come to this, let break up. I don't owe you anything. Please don't bother me anymore."
"Xiaoya, listen to me, that girl and I are just an ordinary man and woman, you must believe me!"
Ji Chuan's voice was almost a roar, but I smiled contemptuously: "It's normal even though they're in a relationship?"
Ji Chuan shook his head, his eyes full of disappointment: "Wen Ya, I didn't expect you to become so unreasonable."
"I know clearly whether I have changed or not. But you, perhaps you think you have made the same mistake that all men in the world would make, thinking that I like you enough to forgive your two-timing. Unfortunately, I am not as generous as you think, and I will not make such a stupid decision. For so many years, I have always thought that I must have you, but now it seems that whoever of us leaves can live a better life. Now that the news of our breakup has spread in the school, let's end it like this, and part ways amicably."
I spoke quickly, and I didn't know how much Ji Chuan heard. But when these heartless words were really spoken, my heart ached, but I would rather let it hurt like this until the pain paralyzed my nerves.
Ji Chuan stretched out his hand and tried to grab my arm, but I dodged backwards and turned my head away from him.
Many classmates around us saw me and Ji Chuan entangled with each other, and they whispered to each other. Ji Chuan, who was very proud, seemed to have heard the private whispers of the classmates, and was too embarrassed to stop me from leaving, so I quickly left the corridor.
In this struggle, I fled. To be honest, I was not ready yet and did not have enough courage to look Ji Chuan in the eye. His sudden appearance made me lose my composure and I did not know what to do.
I walked to the milk tea shop where I worked in a daze. The boss lady was busy in the shop. When she saw me walk in, she greeted me warmly. But when I thought about the fact that I missed a week of work for no reason, I felt very embarrassed.
"Madam, I'm really sorry. I was absent from work suddenly for some other reasons and didn't have time to say hello to you. I have caused you trouble and inconvenience. I am really sorry and hope you can forgive me."
I sincerely apologized to the boss lady, but she shook her head nonchalantly and said with a smile, "It's okay, Yao Yizhou took your job. How are you, are you feeling better? You've been sick for a week, you don't know how worried he is about you, he called you many times, but it seems like he can't get through to you."
I was stunned. I didn't expect Yao Yizhou to work for me. I felt warm inside. I didn't turn on my phone last week and didn't answer any calls from anyone. It was natural that Yao Yizhou couldn't get through. But what I didn't expect was that Yao Yizhou was silently helping me do things without telling me anything. He knew everything about me, but I seemed to know nothing about him.
The lady boss sighed and said leisurely, "If you come to work today, Yao Yizhou probably won't come. In fact, he does a much better job than you. Business was especially good last week."
After hearing what the boss lady said, I smiled and said nothing. After a long while, I slowly said, "Actually, he and I are just ordinary friends. We have known each other since high school and have always had a good relationship."
After listening to me, the lady boss couldn't help but stick her head out to look at the door. I think she wanted to see Yao Yizhou. But this time she was really disappointed. Yao Yizhou didn't come to the milk tea shop.
I had no idea where Yao Yizhou had gone, and I didn't call to ask him where he had gone. He came to the milk tea shop just to keep me company, and this was just his concern for me as a friend, but I couldn't take it for granted. If I really thought so, then I would be an asshole.
In the next few days, Ji Chuan went to the stairs outside our classroom to wait for me almost every day, but every time I saw him standing at the door of the classroom, I locked myself in the classroom. I didn't want to see him again, and I didn't want to argue with him about his relationship with that girl. I didn't want to listen to his so-called explanation.
When I needed to hear Ji Chuan's explanation the most, he thought I was being unreasonable. But now, I have completely given up on Ji Chuan. Even if he defends himself with flowery words, I will not believe anything he says.
A few years ago, I didn't know what time passed, and I couldn't believe that two people who loved each other so much would be speechless overnight. Now I finally understand that love is only temporary, and staying together is the most difficult thing.
