54 Chapter 54

◎Don't let me see you again◎

"If I don't have the heart, I can continue to live like this, but I can't stand it, Shen Lie, I really don't want to go on like this anymore."

Chen Jing'an's eyes were all red . .

If it goes on like this, she has no worries about food and clothing. The embarrassment is just that the relationship ends after he gets tired of playing with her. She has to get out no matter how deep she is in. The sad thing is that she doesn't even have the right to stop.

"Has it reached this point?"

Shen Lie asked what did the kiss before mean, what did the scene on the bed mean, and what did it mean to let him sleep once before we parted?

"You just treat me as a breakup, isn't it very popular now?"

"A breakup?" A chuckle escaped from Shen Lie's throat, "Chen Jing'an, what do you think of me?"

"If you feel unhappy, you can go back to sleep."

When neither person speaks, there is only silence.

Shen Lie stared at her, his eyes were cold and dark, almost piercing her. He pinched the bones of her jaw, which were small and fragile. They could be dislocated with just a little effort. The depressed mood in his heart almost turned upside down. He pressed with his fingertips. He touched her lips and rubbed them hard, turning her eyes into a deep red that made her bleed.

"Why don't you sleep? It was given to you for nothing. How can there be any reason not to sleep?" Shen Lie sneered lightly, looking down at him with a willful and cold expression.

Chen Jing'an scratched his neck, and there wasn't much blood on his face.

"Don't make such an expression, as if you don't like it."

"I don't like it."

"Really?" Shen Lie was indifferent, and he carried her to the cloakroom.

In front of the full-length mirror, the mirror was glowing with cold light, reflecting the figures of the two people. Shen Lie held her chin to look at himself in the mirror. Her expression was clearly visible, every detail, and tears fell from the end of her eyes. He was vicious and domineering. : "Do you see clearly now? Do you really not like it? Chen Jing'an, you are a liar."

She closed her eyes and refused to watch the corrupt scene.

It's hard to do.

She was in a trance in the air, unable to land. The panic that she could fall at any time dominated her nerves. She couldn't stay still. Every impact could make her lose balance. She opened her eyes in panic. There was no trace of lust on Shen Lie's face. , cold and abstinent.

It seems like he is just an emotionless master.

The mirror was cold, and her body cooled down quickly. The tears seemed to never stop, and her face was soaked. Shen Lie's face became darker and darker. He said something disappointing and stopped and let her go. She had no support, and her legs and feet were weak. Slide down.

Before landing, he was picked up again and thrown into the bathroom.

Shen Lie cleaned her up, but she shrank and refused. He didn't have much patience: "Don't worry, I'm not interested in you now. If you still want to bother me, I don't mind doing it here." The

action was rough, and finally the shower washed away After she was clean, she was wrapped in a bath towel and thrown onto the bed. He turned off the light and hugged her from behind.

It doesn't matter if you share the same bed or have different dreams, as long as the person is still there.

Chen Jing'an curled up with her back to him, her stubbornness was all in that long and narrow bone, and she was unwilling to compromise no matter what.

When she woke up, Shen Lie was no longer there, and the side of the bed was cold.

Chen Jing'an got up and took a shower again. The water washed away, and there were some traces. After a night, they had darkened, like acne that would never go away. She picked something that could cover the traces, and put on light makeup for her bad complexion. , covering up his fatigue before going out.

She will be very busy next time.

Find a house, pack your luggage in the dormitory, and then meet up with your seniors to get to know each other, discuss the repertoire for the performance, and other matters.

Ruan Ling accompanied her to find a one-bedroom apartment. In fact, she felt that it was not necessary and she could share it with her. Anyway, she would tour across the country and her time in the capital would be very short, so the two of them could squeeze in together. good.

Chen Jing'an shook his head and said forget it.

Now that she and Shen Lie are unclear, he can do anything. When Ruan Ling is implicated, she will really feel guilty for the rest of her life.

Ruan Ling knew about her breakup with Shen Lieti and asked her if she had really thought about it clearly.

"Yeah."

He pulled away in time while the current love wasn't deep enough.

After finding a house, she packed some things. There were not many things, just two cardboard boxes. Before she had time to clean them, she sat in a daze in the empty room.

The scene was nothing but a stalemate.

The two of them were all contacted by Jihong, and when they met, he told her the time and place, and she would also go there. The two of them faced each other and had nothing to say. It was up to him to decide whether to do it or not.

Sleeping in each other's arms all night long, the ice between the two seemed like it would never melt.

Ji Hong felt the pressure was low. As a bystander and subordinate, all he could do was report Chen Jing'an's itinerary on time.

What friends did she meet, where did she go to eat, and how many hours of training did she finish... There was no detail, and life was simple.

During the time he spent with Chen Jing'an, he knew very well that this was a girl with a low level of story-telling and no desire to buy. Most of the time, she just carried a pipa on her back and rode the subway silently. When someone approached her, she declined politely. It was difficult to be precise. To describe her, clean and transparent seems to be the most appropriate. In this regard, beauty comes second.

A few days later, Ji Hong accidentally saw the account of a teacher in the ensemble with Chen Jing'an. The account often showed performances from various places, or a piece of music played, and behind-the-scenes exercises... In the latest update, there was Chen Jing'an.

He showed it to Shen Lie.

In the video, there are more than a dozen teachers playing. Chen Jing'an is wearing a plain cheongsam and holding a pipa in his hand to play together. After practicing one segment, someone laughed, raised his hand and said, "Sorry, I took the picture, but I still followed." "I, Xiao An, are you too honest?"

Chen Jing'an, who was named, pursed his lips and smiled: "I didn't notice it."

"

Xiao An is the youngest among us. No one is allowed ." Bullying.”

“…”

The atmosphere is good.

There were a few updates to the video, and there were a few comments underneath, saying that the girl playing the pipa looked familiar and seemed to have been seen somewhere. Someone replied that she was Yu Ji in the video "The Overlord Unloads His Armor".

In the picture, Chen Jing'an is smiling and taciturn. She is often teased, but occasionally she can tell a cold joke, and then she gets teased even more. She explains with a red face, and she can't help but laugh... lively and happy, Shen Lie was stung by this smile.

The phone was held back and there was a loud bang.

Ji Hong's nerves were tense, and he became nervous, wondering if he was getting into trouble.

Shen Lie knocked on the table, squinted at him and said coldly, "Go out."

Ji Hong didn't dare to delay, took his things and left, closing the door to block out the cold air inside.

That afternoon.

Chen Jing'an received a message from Ji Hong asking her to go to that private club, and all her memories came back to her. Why didn't she remember it? There were almost no good memories.

She went anyway.

When Chen Jing'an arrived at the place, Ji Hong was waiting outside the door and told her tactfully that Shen Lie was in a bad mood these past few days, so it was better not to be forceful and to talk to her about anything.

"Do you think he can speak well?" she asked.

Ji Hong was asked.

Upstairs, Shen Lie was the only one in the private room, holding a long stick and hitting the ball. Chen Jing'an stood by the door, hearing the sound of the billiards hitting, and was in a daze. Last year, he taught her how to play and what postures. No matter what angle she looked for, he was a patient and good teacher, and she was really taught.

Standing here again, my mood is completely different.

"Want to play?"

Shen Lie stood up. He was not wearing a tie, and one button was unbuttoned. His shirt was not flat, and there were signs of pulling, which showed his carelessness.

Chen Jing'an shook his head.

"No?" Shen Lie asked, his tone casual, as if the two of them had never quarreled or wanted to break up.

Chen Jing'an: "I don't want to play."

"..."

"Shen Lie, let's talk." Chen Jing'an walked in. He didn't have a good appetite during this period. He didn't have much meat on his body. He lost weight as soon as he lost weight. obvious.

"Okay."

There was an ice bucket next to him with wine in it. He slowly opened the wine, took the goblet and poured out the wine. The alcohol tasted mellow and spread in the air.

Shen Lie leaned against the billiard table and slid his fingertips over the edge of the wine glass: "Except for breaking up, you can talk about whatever you want."

"..." Chen Jing'an pursed her lips, obviously having nothing to say.

"You have nothing to say, but I have." Shen Lie raised his lips and said, "I can accept you moving out and living on both sides as before, as you wish. The house you rent is in an old community and the security is really worrying. Let's find another one. If

you want to perform, it’s no problem. I won’t interfere with your career. You can do what you like. Or if there is anything that made you uncomfortable before, you can mention it and I will consider it.” It must be like this." Chen Jing'an was stunned for a moment, his voice was soft and weak.

She knew he had given in.

"You didn't say the reason for the breakup. I was also wondering what made you uncomfortable."

"No, it's not uncomfortable. You've done enough." Chen Jing'an felt her fingertips were cold and her head was dizzy. She murmured. She pursed her lips and said, "It's just that I don't like it enough."

She didn't like it enough that she completely ignored it, anesthetizing herself and falling completely into it.

"Is it because you don't like it enough, or you don't like it?" Shen Lie pulled his lips.

Chen Jing'an looked into his eyes and knew that she had to be more decisive, as constant interruption would be the most hurtful. She changed her words: "I don't like you.

"I don't like you, Shen Lie. "

Every word was heard clearly.

Shen Lie raised his eyebrows and was not surprised. He pulled his lips and smiled softly: "I know. "

It's not important. Isn't it like this from the beginning?" What did I care about? As long as you know, as long as I want, you can still only be by my side. Not going on tour? It's just a phone call away. Jing'an, where do you think you can go? "

Isn't he always like this? He

only wants the result, not the process. As long as the result is that she, Chen Jing'an, will be by his side for the rest of her life, who cares what the means are?

Whether it's despicable or noble, he, Shen Lie, has never I don't care.

"If you want to continue to make trouble, it doesn't matter. I have the time and energy. If you are more obedient, maybe I really don't think it's interesting. On the contrary, if you make a few troubles, it will be quite interesting." "

He revealed the reality to her with his own hands.

The gap between the two of them was so big that Shen Lie wanted to crush her to death, but he just moved his fingers. He clapped his hands and adjusted his tie, looking elegant and graceful again.

"So Didn’t I leave too? I know you can do anything. I have experienced your methods a long time ago, but now I still have lingering fears. Shen Lie, how do you want to play, how long do you want to play, can't you give me a good time? I'm really worried that I won't be able to survive the day when you get tired of playing with me. Will you be satisfied if I end up like Aunt Yu Shengsheng? "

Shen Lie's expression gradually changed.

He had seen with his own eyes the scene after the woman's fall. The contrast between red and white was so eye-catching. When he imagined that the woman's face turned into Chen Jing'an, he clearly felt his heart being stung.

No one was there . He had been taught how to retain a person except by means. Chen Jing'an's

eyes were cold,

like a newborn calf that had not even grown its horns yet, but it still resisted.

Swallowing, he raised his eyes again, coldly and coldly: "Okay, who can't live without me? "

"Walk. "

"Chen Jing'an, don't let me see you again. "