53 Chapter 53

◎Heartless◎

Chen Jing'an took the initiative to kiss.

The streets are quiet and empty, and everything is so quiet that you can hear your own heartbeat.

She knew that her kissing skills were always poor, so she only relied on instinct to get closer. She smelled the dull woody smell, her breath was entangled, and she couldn't care about anything. She just wanted to kiss with all her heart, at a good time and in a good place. people.

Shen Lie was a little surprised at first, but then he held her waist and used the strength to make her stand on tiptoe less strenuously. She stood in a loose and provocative posture, looking like she wanted everything she wanted.

It was fresh at first, but dissatisfied later.

Her kiss made him unable to come down, she was young and reckless, and accidentally bumped her teeth against his lips. When she realized it, she immediately wanted to pull away and apologize, so he had no choice but to tighten his grip on her waist, turning passivity into initiative. Prying open her lips and teeth, sucking and stirring, leading him to a new realm, one that belonged to him and that she had never visited before.

Chen Jing'an opened his eyes and looked at Shen Lie.

His eyes were like a lone wolf at night, dark and shining, hungry and thirsty.

The world seemed too big, so big that except for them, there was endless emptiness, but it also seemed so small, so small that there was only a pair of lovers embracing each other.

Chen Jing'an didn't care about anything and just wanted to have fun in time.

The partition inside the car rises to isolate the small space.

"How much did you drink?" Shen Lie couldn't let go and hugged her over. The two were facing each other. The air conditioner was on in the car. He felt it was unbearably hot. He raised his hand and tore off his tie randomly. He palmed her face and lifted her Kissing on the jaws, savoring the sweet taste of wine, which was so rare and pitiful, but he felt that his throat was burning, and he urgently needed comfort.

Kissing is no longer enough, not nearly enough.

Chen Jing'an held down his hand and suppressed the sound. She bit her lip, her face was red, and she leaned on his shoulder without support.

The black trousers were wet and had deeper marks.

When they arrived at Qianwan, Shen Lie wrapped his coat and carried her out of the car, tightly fitting her. She buried her head like an ostrich, leaving only one pair of eyes, which were moist and translucent.

Chen Jing'an has never been so crazy.

In the education she received, reservation is necessary, emotions should not be exposed, should be restrained, cultivate good morals, and have a strong sense of morality... Indulgence is shameful, and people should not only pursue physical happiness. .

But today, Chen Jing'an broke everything.

She felt dissatisfied, and the emptiness in her body urgently needed to be filled. She responded proactively, and her voice escaped from her lips and teeth. She no longer tried to cover it up, and even she felt strange. She fell layer by layer, falling into the endless hell. The fall came so quickly that her rational composure collapsed.

A person who loves lust is like holding a torch and walking against the wind, and will surely burn his hands.

When you reach the extreme, your brain becomes dazed and dizzy.

Chen Jing'an thought about the video she had with her parents some time ago and inevitably talked about going back. With her conditions, it would be easy to go back. The key was how she considered it. She has not yet given an answer.

At that time, Mother Chen saw something wrong: "You were not like this before. As a mother, I know my daughter very well. You have always had ideas. You have never been indecisive. You said you haven't thought about it clearly yet. In fact, in your heart You already have the answer, right?"

Chen Jing'an felt like he was hit.

"You don't want to come back, right?" Mother Chen was as gentle as before, "It doesn't matter, no matter what you decide, dad and I respect your opinion, as long as you are happy."

"..."

Chen Jing'an's chest felt blocked. , tears fell without warning.

"Why are you crying?"

Shen Lie thought that he had hurt her without knowing the severity, so he stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears that overflowed from the end of her eyes. The more he wiped, the more tears accumulated.

"Does it hurt?" He paused.

Chen Jing'an's eyes were blurry with tears and she nodded and said it hurt.

But she still wanted to hold him and refused to let go, wanting to hurt him even more.

Shen Lie took her into consideration, moved lightly, and only made adjustments when he received her feedback. Later, he entered the best state, like a tacit partner, completing a perfect work.

When I came out after cleaning, I was so tired that my knuckles were all sleepy.

Shen Lie was sitting on the sofa. He had long legs and long hands. He had not put on a shirt after washing. His loose trousers were loosely tied with trousers. His skin was too white and his muscle lines were clearly defined. Even in a relaxed state, his shape was still good-looking. He lowered his long eyes, and there was something unfinished in his eyes.

Today, Chen Jing'an was very proactive.

Very cool.

"Are you hungry? Do you want to cook something for you to eat?"

Chen Jing'an shook his head.

Shen Lie asked how the graduation ceremony was, but it was a pity that he had to work away from home and couldn't attend. In the photo, she looked clean and pure in her bachelor's uniform. It was a pity that she didn't see it with her own eyes.

"When will the luggage in the dormitory be moved? Ask Ji Hong to arrange a car and move the things here directly."

"Don't bother me. I don't have many things in the dormitory. I plan to send them home."

"Everything?" Some of them should be kept. Down.

Chen Jing'an met his gaze: "There aren't many things left. I'll put them away after I find a house."

"A house?"

"Well, the school dormitory will be available until the end of this month. Before that, I will rent a house first. " Chen Jing'an leaned on the bed and took a pillow, "You are too busy during this period, and I haven't had time to tell you something. Some time ago, a senior came to me and hoped that I could participate in the national tour. The time is just right. , I also want to accumulate more experience during this period, so I am ready to continue."

Chen Jing'an also said that she cherishes this opportunity, it is also a challenge, and the teacher is also very supportive. It is all benefits, and it seems that there is nothing she can refuse. In this place, she spoke a lot by herself, with a lively expression, which was completely different from her previous reticence.

Shen Lie looked at her quietly, his eyes as sharp as an eagle, as if he could see through all her thoughts beneath the surface.

No matter how much you say, there is a time when you have finished talking.

Shen Lie waited patiently for her to finish, then pulled his lips and asked, "What do you mean?" He

always has to come to this point and has to face it.

Chen Jing'an grabbed the pillow, took a breath, and faced him directly: "Shen Lie, can we just stay here?"

The voice was very soft, but it had weight, and he just hit him like this.

Shen Lie wanted to smoke for a moment. He lowered his eyelids and glanced around. The cigarette case was not in front of him. He was lazy and didn't want to move. He completely sunk into the sofa and tapped the armrest with his fingers. , their eyes met, her eyes were clear and firm, like a polished ice blade, with a bit of piercing pain.

"So you've laid all this groundwork just because you want to break up with me?" Shen Lie twitched his lips with some irony.

"This day has been here since we started, hasn't it?" Chen Jing'an's tone was still gentle, and even had the illusion of being gentle to the bone.

There was a muffled laugh in his chest, his fingers covering his lips, his eyes slightly narrowed with a gloomy look. Less than half an hour ago, she was still entangled with him on the bed. Now, she put on her pajamas, buttoned the top button, and told him that was all. She felt like she was being fooled, and fell from the top. On the ground, it turns out it doesn’t take much time.

At the beginning, she was as cold as ice and always asked when he would get tired of waiting.

There was a moment of silence.

The air was eerily quiet.

Chen Jing'an made a swallowing motion and continued: "Although this relationship was awkward from the beginning, until now... I feel very happy, happy enough, and satisfied. I hope you can be happy too... when it is consummated. Isn't it good to be over? "

It's better than resenting each other in the future, and ruining all the good things before.

"I don't know what you are thinking. I have no plans to break up at the moment." Shen Lie interrupted her. There was nothing perfect or not, he only knew that if he liked her, he should stay by his side.

Chen Jing'an asked: "How long do we have to wait?"

"Can't wait? I've never seen you like this in bed. The water stains on your pants are still there. Do you want to go and take a look? Your body is more honest than your mouth.

"When will it end? Do you think you have the final say?" Chen

Jing'an blinked, and the most secret and soft part of his heart was hurt. She couldn't help it at the beginning, and it was the same at the end. It was sweetness that was like a dreamy bubble, covering her eyes. In fact, after it was broken, she found that the essence had not changed, and her situation had not changed.

He could still play with her in the palm of his hand if he wanted to.

Chen Jing'an's body felt cold: "Then how do you think we can separate, do you have to wait until you get tired of it? How do you get tired of it, how many times do you need to sleep? I don't want to continue, Shen Lie, I just want to end it, you Can you please give me a pleasure and a precise time..."

"Chen Jing'an."

Shen Lie interrupted her rudely again, with a cold face, "If you can't say what I want to hear, you can think of using it for something else. Something."

He stood up, and the figure under the shadow of the lamp looked like a ghost.

Chen Jing'an's eyelashes trembled for a moment. Then, thinking that she understood something, she began to slowly unbutton her own buttons without looking at him. Her finger bones turned white, just like that rainy night when she was soaked all over.

What did she say then?

"Isn't this what you want?"

The memories overlapped. He was not the designer who brought her into the game before, and she was not a lost and pitiful prey. In the same way, it was hard not to feel stung.

Shen Lie pinched Chen Jing'an's chin, forcing her to look at him and look into his own eyes, his eyes cold and stubborn: "Chen Jing'an, you do know how to hurt people."

Unbuttoned her clothes, her skin was so white that it was dazzling, and the cloth Following the marks left not long ago, he pressed against her left chest, and a small piece of skin sank.

It hurt slightly.

Chen Jing'an had tears in her eyes.

"I just realized that you have no heart."