Dou Xun didn't want to come at first.

However, the cold war between him and Xu Xilin in recent days really tortured him. Dou Xun was really afraid of Xu Xilin's cold treatment. Xu Xilin rarely used cold violence against others, only once every two or three years.

But every time he had to break his bones.

Dou Xun was anxious and at a loss, to the point that he became suspicious and couldn't sleep in the last few days. Any noise outside would wake him up in the middle of the night, and he would rush to the door to see if Xu Xilin had gone upstairs.

That day, Dou Xun actually gritted his teeth and put off a lot of things. Holding on to a glimmer of hope, he struggled to buy some time and came to the place Lao Cheng told him to go. He wanted to take advantage of the situation and break the ice with Xu Xilin by taking advantage of the crowd.

Along the way, Dou Xun pondered over various excuses in his mind, trying to come up with a perfect countermeasure. He pondered over it nervously, but he didn't expect that before he could put it into practice, he saw such a scene.

Dou Xun's heart was sinking, but the blood in his body was trying desperately to rise, boiling and surging in his veins, rushing to his forehead heavier and heavier each time, and then smashing back into his chest as if it had lost weight.

Lao Cheng came up to him enthusiastically and said, "I thought I couldn't invite you. Come on, worship me and bless me so that I won't fail the exam next year!"

After being interrupted by him, Dou Xun finally regained some consciousness and took his angry eyes away from Xu Xilin. He simply nodded to Lao Cheng and took the drink he handed to him.

Xu Xilin was planning to leave, but Dou Xun's scary expression made him overreact. He stood up, put his arm around Dou Xun's shoulders, and forced a nonchalant smile: "Why did you come so late? I was ready to leave."

Dou Xun's shoulders suddenly tensed up, and he said in a strange tone: "You're leaving just after I got here?"

Xu Xilin's hands that were holding his shoulders were strong, and his cheeks were bitten so tightly that he could not keep smiling.

Dou Xun's newly recovered consciousness was instantly burned away by his evasive attitude.

He felt like a festering sore, a scar, which Xu Xilin covered up like a shortcoming. Only when no one was around would he look around and cautiously take it out to let it air.

Dou Xun sneered and rudely shook off Xu Xilin's hand: "Are you so afraid of me?"

Xu Xilin's face turned cold, and he whispered with a hint of warning, "Dou Xun."

Dou Xunsen's cold gaze passed over him and swept across Deng Shu's face. The sneer on his face could not even be concealed in the dark private room of Yuebanwan.

Deng Shu felt inexplicably struck by his deep hostility and shrank back when he glared at her.

Lian Laocheng realized that the atmosphere between the two of them was not right: "Why are you two..."

Xu Xilin felt bitter in his mouth, not knowing what had irritated this ancestor again. He was afraid that he would say something in public, so he could only patiently say in a low voice: "If you have anything to say, let's go back and talk. If you are angry, you can vent it at home, okay?"

He was in no mood to coax Dou Xun in front of outsiders. He just wanted to get the guy with rabies back home as soon as possible.

Little did he know that his reluctant comfort was like a piece of paper trying to cover up a fire, which basically only served to add fuel to the fire.

Dou Xun laughed sarcastically and sadly - let’s talk about it when we get back, let’s talk about it when we get back.

The evil fire in his chest burst out recklessly: "Dou Junliang said that I was sick, and you wanted to send me away. I think you two have the same opinion. Xu Xilin, you think I am shameful, and a few more words can make you tremble with fear, right?"

He insisted on saying it!

Wu Tao turned down the background volume of the KTV in the private room to the minimum, and for once played the role of a peacemaker: "What are you two doing? You're quarreling as soon as you meet each other, and there are girls here, can you be more careful?"

Xu Xilin stared at Dou Xun for a moment with a gloomy face, then waved at Wu Tao and picked up his coat: "It's none of your business, Dou Xun, if you don't leave, I will, do whatever you want!"

As he spoke, he strode out without even thinking of picking up his cell phone or wallet. Although his facial expression looked calm, he was probably furious inside.

Lao Cheng was totally confused and didn't know how to start persuading him. He could only sigh heavily, resignedly picked up the things Xu Xilin dropped, and hurriedly chased after him.

The remaining Wu Tao was a little scared when facing Dou Xun. After a long while, he tentatively raised his hand and patted his shoulder: "Genius, are you okay?"

Dou Xun stood on the ground like a wooden stake for a moment, then chased out silently.

Yu Yiran: “…What’s going on?”

"Who the hell knows." Wu Tao shrugged at her. He felt that he had never been able to figure out Dou Xun's cowardly temper. After hesitating for a moment, Wu Tao said, "You guys sit down first. I'll go take a look."

The crescent moon was warm and cozy, but as soon as I stepped out of the door, the biting northwest wind immediately came up with its fangs and claws.

Lao Cheng caught up with Xu Xilin across the street at Yuebanwan’s gate.

Xu Xilin was wearing a beige short coat that day. He was tall and slender. In the dead of night, his face looked particularly haggard, his cheeks were even a little sunken, and his eyes showed deep fatigue. The youthful spirit of his early years had been worn away completely.

Lao Cheng's steps stopped involuntarily. He felt that Xu Xilin, standing there expressionless, looked like a strange man with a lot on his mind. He was completely different from the outspoken and lively young man in his impression.

Lao Cheng tried to calm himself down, took Xu Xilin's phone and wallet and slowly walked over: "Commander, I forgot something."

Xu Xilin sighed absentmindedly: "Thank you."

In the cold wind, Xu Xilin finally came to his senses and realized that he was actually afraid of Dou Xun, afraid that he would reveal their secret in front of everyone. He rubbed his hands blankly and asked himself: "Why would I speculate about him so maliciously? How did he and I end up in such a mess? What was the reason?"

Lao Cheng asked cautiously, "What happened between you and Dou Xian'er?"

Xu Xilin paused and said evasively, "He wants to work directly. I think it's better for him to continue his studies. He said he got mad that day and had a quarrel. It's no big deal."

"Oh, just because of this?" Lao Cheng scratched his head and said, "You too, why do you care so much? You are not his father."

Xu Xilin said nothing, his eyes passed Lao Cheng and fell behind him. Lao Cheng turned around and realized that he couldn't talk about people behind their backs. Dou Xun had quietly stood at the intersection behind him without anyone noticing.

Lao Cheng tried to smooth things over: "Dou Xun, our regimental commander is a little bit of a jerk, but isn't he doing this for your own good? He doesn't treat you as an outsider, so he says whatever he wants. Otherwise, why haven't we seen him go to the prison and argue with them one by one to get them to stop committing crimes?"

Dou Xun looked straight at Xu Xilin: "Are you doing this for my own good or do you want to get rid of me?"

Xu Xilin lowered his head with great exhaustion: "Dou Xun, you should understand something."

Lao Cheng: "Hey, we are all brothers."

Dou Xun said indifferently: "I am not his brother."

Xu Xilin: "You're not done yet, are you?"

Dou Xun walked over step by step: "I know what you mean. You think I'm a piece of dog-skin plaster that you can't get rid of. But after a few years abroad, everything will be different. After you come back, everything will be indifferent, right? By then, you can get rid of me without any effort, and do what you need to do steadily. When you talk to others in the future, you can say that I am an acquaintance who lived in your house when you were a child - right?"

Lao Cheng shut up silently, feeling that Dou Xun's words contained a lot of information.

Xu Xilin's face turned pale. He didn't expect that the pain in his heart would be distorted into this meaning in Dou Xun's eyes.

Then, before he could open his mouth to stop her, Dou Xun had already yelled out: "I'm telling you, stop dreaming, it's impossible! You are mine once you become mine, and you will always be mine! Now that we have come to this point, don't even think about turning back, there is no way back! No one will pretend to be good brothers with you and play house with you!"

Lao Cheng: “…”

He felt that if Dou Xun’s Chinese was not taught by the physical education teacher, then there might be something wrong with his ears.

Xu Xilin's head buzzed.

For a moment, he felt as if he was stripped naked in public, exposed to everyone's gaze with nowhere to hide. The sounds of the people and cars around him were all blurred as if covered by a mosaic.

Xu Xilin moved his lips and said almost unconsciously: "Dou Xun, do you know what you are saying?"

"I know, I dare to say anything, but you don't dare to listen." Dou Xun said desperately, "I have not done anything wrong, I have not violated any laws or disciplines, I am upright, I am a homosexual, so what? If you find this matter difficult to talk about, why don't you bang your head against my bed and die?"

Wu Tao, who had finally found the right direction and was chasing, suddenly braked to a stop. He stopped a few meters away as if he had been struck by lightning. He could neither move forward nor retreat, and looked at the frightened Lao Cheng in confusion.

This was a scene that had appeared in Xu Xilin's nightmares countless times. It suddenly came true, and for a moment he actually felt it was a little unreal.

Then Xu Xilin didn't say a word - he really had nothing more to say. He turned around, hailed a taxi, got in and left.

In the past few years, the entire city has undergone tremendous changes, and the former glory of Yuebanwan is gone forever. It has gradually become an ordinary entertainment venue in the city, and from the outside, it looks a bit old.

It actually felt a little strange.

The old roads that he had walked many times seemed new. Xu Xilin sat in the car like a sleepwalker and walked back home on the unfamiliar road. He didn't remember how he entered the house or what he had said to his grandmother. When he came to his senses, he was already in Xu Jin's study.

Lao Cheng and Wu Tao called him several times, but Xu Xilin didn't answer any of them. He didn't even think about checking his phone, and let it ring until it hung up automatically. There were countless thoughts in his mind that exploded like fireworks and extinguished like ashes, without keeping any of them. He sat under the dim desk lamp for half the night, and then someone knocked on the door tentatively.

Dou Xun spoke without thinking in a rage. It took him half a night to calm down and calm down. After the impulse passed, Dou Xun realized that he had done something stupid and irreparable. The more he thought about it, the more panicked he became. He wished time could go back five hours and beat himself to death. Finally, he mustered up the courage to knock on Xu Xilin's door.

This was the first time in his life that he took the initiative to knock on Xu Xilin's door.

However, Xu Xilin did not open it.

The sound of Dou Xun knocking on the door and his courage quickly faded away, and soon only a thin layer of bloody skin was left. The sound of his knocking on the door became smaller and smaller, and he became more and more hesitant, until finally he could not even lift his hand.

Then he heard a sound of a chair moving in the room. Dou Xun raised his head with a little hope, but saw through the crack in the door that the light inside had dimmed... The fire in his eyes also dimmed. He stood stiffly at Xu Xilin's door for a long time, helpless, so he had to leave sadly, as usual, hoping that tomorrow or the day after tomorrow... even if it took a week or a month, Xu Xilin would finally forgive him.

The next day, an unexpected visitor came to the Xu family.

Song Lianyuan came with a bunch of nutritional supplements for visiting the patient. He walked in, looked at Xu Xilin's face, and asked, "Is anyone home? Are you alone?"

Dou Xun went to work, and the nurse accompanied grandma to the hospital for a follow-up check-up.

"It's just me." Xu Xilin fell asleep for a while when it was almost dawn, but was woken up by his biological clock not long after. He felt very tired and had tinnitus.

Song Lianyuan asked again: "How is the old lady's leg? When will she be back?"

"Maybe in the evening - the leg is still the same, the old man bumped into something, and it's too slow to recover." Xu Xilin pinched his brows and said vaguely, "Brother, don't bring anything next time you come."

Song Lianyuan had a sense of the underworld and looked much more serious than his peers. He ignored him and directly put all his things on the cabinet in the entrance hall, filling up the cabinet. "You still treat me as your brother?"

Xu Xilin frowned: "Where did you say that?"

Song Lianyuan: "Some things are different when you are my brother and when you are an acquaintance. Which one do you want to hear?"

Since he was a child, whenever he had any unsolved problems, he would go to Song Lianyuan. Song Lianyuan said that if Xu Jin got old in the future, he would take care of his retirement, and if Xu Jin passed away, he would send him off and look after her son for her in the future.

Xu Xilin said without hesitation: "Brother."

Song Lianyuan nodded, then raised his hand expressionlessly and slapped him hard.

Song Lianyuan had been out in society for a long time, and his career path was a mystery. All the little hooligans were afraid of him, and his hand was so strong that he could slap a cow to death. Xu Xilin was almost slapped to death by him. He staggered and hit the wall. His eyes went black, and he was numb for a moment. Then he tasted blood in his mouth - his tongue was cut by his teeth.

Xu Xilin was beaten dumbfounded and also brought out of his dazed state.

Song Lianyuan asked calmly: "Do you know why I hit you?"

Yuebanwan is Song Lianyuan's territory, and any slight movement outside may reach his ears.

Xu Xilin covered his face with one hand and held the wall with the other. His chest heaved violently and silently. After a while, he nodded.

"Look at yourself in the mirror. Do you look like a man? Do you still look like a human being?" Song Lianyuan paused, then continued, "I was very happy when I knew you were admitted to a key university. I didn't even graduate from junior high school, so I don't know what you guys study in college. It's probably very profound knowledge. If you can achieve some success in your career after graduation, and be well-known and not be looked down upon by others, that's enough - then, what are you doing?"

Xu Xilin was speechless, his face and heart ached.

Song Lianyuan sighed, looked up at the ceiling, and then looked at Xu Xilin: "If the old lady was at home today, I wouldn't dare to hit you, otherwise the old lady would fight me to death."

He reached out and patted Xu Xilin's shoulder vigorously: "Think about your mother, think about your grandmother, think about yourself, ok? Brother, you are not a child anymore, you are an adult!"

Song Lianyuan delivered the things, slapped Xu Xilin, said a few words, and left in a hurry without even entering the living room. Xu Xilin stood blankly in the empty room for a while, spitting out the blood foam on the tip of his tongue.

In the evening, Dou Xun was rarely asked to work overtime. He returned home full of hope and saw Xu Xilin changing the water for the bird.

Xu Xilin heard the door open and looked back at him. Dou Xun couldn't help but freeze, staring at him nervously, waiting for today's verdict. Xu Xilin put the kettle away, washed his hands, and said to him, "Let's talk upstairs."

Dou Xun was so happy that he almost cried for joy.

He followed Xu Xilin upstairs step by step, and circled around Xu Xilin. When he sat down, he found that the half of Xu Xilin's face, which had been covered by his collar, seemed a little swollen, so he reached over to take a look: "What's wrong with his face?"

"It's okay, don't touch it." Xu Xilin stopped his hand.

Dou Xun had thin palms and long, beautiful fingers. He stretched them out obediently, allowing Xu Xilin to pinch his fingers from time to time.

After a while, Xu Xilin raised his head and said to him, "Dou Xun, let's forget it."