We were so close that I could even hear your heartbeat and breathing.
I could definitely feel you coming towards me.
But when I open my eyes, you are still ten years away from me.

I threw myself into Tang Ruize's arms and burst into tears. My heart was filled with strange emotions that I couldn't understand. Only by crying could I feel a little better.
"You!" His voice was doting but with a hint of helplessness, "I wasn't paying attention to you for a moment and you got yourself into such an awkward situation."
He patted my back gently and whispered, "Don't cry, look, the fireworks are so beautiful!"
I sniffed and slowly stopped crying. Perhaps it was because I saw my family that my emotions collapsed in an instant. Listening to Tang Ruize's comforting words, I finally calmed down.
He let me go and smiled at me wearing the fox mask. "Really? Wearing this mask made me look for you in the crowd for a long time before I found you."
"Why can you find me even though I'm wearing a mask?" I asked sullenly, "Ruize, do you have X-ray vision?"
"I don't have X-ray vision, but I can read minds." He stretched out his hand and tried to take off the fox mask on my face, and I dodged to the side.
"Don't look at it." I said angrily, "I can't let you look at it."
"I say, little Skylark..." His voice suddenly became a little deeper, and the original playful expression disappeared, replaced by a somewhat scary serious expression, "Don't move."
I had never seen Tang Ruize with this expression before, so he told me not to move, and I actually stood there without moving.
He gently lifted my mask, put the mask on my head, raised his hand, and slowly wiped the tears from my face with the sleeve of his white shirt.
He wiped it very carefully and seriously.
I stared at his face blankly. Would the Tang Ruize I knew do such a thing?
"What's wrong?" He asked me calmly, "Why are you looking at me like an alien?"
" Because... Rui Ze, you are like a mother to me. When I was very young, I lived with my grandmother. Later, even when I went abroad, my parents were very busy, so I was with you most of the time. Really, you have always been by my side like a mother, especially like now, carefully wiping my tears, which really makes me feel the warmth of a mother."
"You bastard." Tang Ruize was suddenly a little amused and scratched my nose with his hand. "If you keep talking nonsense, I will beat you up."
"By the way, how did you know I was here?" I asked.
Tang Ruize said: "After I got home, my grandma told me that I should watch the fireworks here, so I came here."
"Grandma has already gone back!" Then I remembered that I was here to accompany my grandma.
"So, why are you crying?" He patted my head, "I remember that little skylarks don't like to cry."
"Look over there." I pointed in the direction of Shu Haining, "Because that guy said we can't be friends."
Tang Ruize followed my gaze and smiled softly: "Just because he said that, have you given up?"
I don’t want to see Shu Haining, and I don’t want to see Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian leaning against each other intimately.
"Because there is nothing we can do about it."
"Because of that girl named Hua Yuemian ?" Tang Ruize asked, "Because of a girl, we can't even be friends?"
"They are together now." I recalled the kiss in my mind, and a sharp pain flashed through my heart. "At this time, it is impossible for us to return to the good friendship we had in the past."
"Little Skylark." Tang Ruize looked at me with a half-smile, "Even if the two of them are really together, it doesn't matter if they just become good friends. No matter who you are, you will have friends of the opposite sex."
Tang Ruize's words were like a bolt of lightning, splitting my muddled brain.
"Whether it's you or Shu Haining, what do you think of friendship?" Tang Ruize said calmly, "We are just friends. We won't cause any trouble to anyone."
Yes, we are just friends. Why would I think that Shu Haining doesn’t want to be friends with me because he is with Hua Yuemian?
It’s obvious that friends and girlfriends are completely different and there won’t be any conflicts!
They were just friends, why did I care so much about the relationship between Hua Yuemian and Shu Haining? Why did I feel heartbroken when I saw Hua Yuemian kissing Shu Haining? Why did I burst into tears all of a sudden?
What on earth am I thinking about?
"Go say hello." When I was in confusion , Tang Ruize put his arm around my shoulder and hugged me as we walked towards Shu Haining.
The fireworks were still flickering. Tang Ruize walked up to Shu Haining and said with a smile, "Hello, nice to see you again."
Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian finally discovered the existence of Tang Ruize and me.
Hua Yuemian's hand was still around Shu Haining's arm. When she saw me coming, she seemed a little embarrassed, but she didn't let go, and Shu Haining didn't pull his arm out, allowing her to hold it like this.
"What a coincidence, are you guys here to see the fireworks too?" Hua Yuemian said with a smile, "Yuque, where did you go this afternoon? We ran into Tian Su, and he said you were here too, but we didn't run into you."
My heart moved slightly. Hua Yuemian knew that I was here. Does that mean Shu Haining also knew about it?
That's why he appeared in front of me when I woke up, but how is this possible? The beach is so big, how could he know where I am?
Unless he came to me on purpose.
My heart trembled slightly. The moment this thought came to my mind, I pierced it fiercely, because this kind of thing is impossible. He is with Hua Yuemian! How could he leave Hua Yuemian alone and come to me?
I subconsciously glanced at Shu Haining, but saw his eyes fell on my shoulder. I tilted my head and followed his gaze, and saw that it was Tang Ruize's hand on my shoulder.
"Skylark?" Hua Yuemian saw that I didn't say anything, so she called me again.
I came back to my senses, glanced at her, and dragged Tang Ruize away. I don't know why, but my dislike for Hua Yuemian became more and more serious, to the point where I felt disgusted whenever I saw her.
"Let's go home." I pulled down the mask to cover my face, not wanting anyone to see my hideous expression at this moment.
"Goodbye, both of you, have fun." Tang Ruize said to Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian in a very gentlemanly manner.
"Let's go!" I pulled him and walked faster. I didn't breathe a sigh of relief until we walked out of the crowd watching the fireworks.
I walked towards home while chatting with Tang Ruize. This fireworks show was really terrible. I wish I hadn't come. But if I hadn't come here, I wouldn't have watched the fireworks with Shu Haining.
Even though we only watched the fireworks together for a few minutes, and even though my heart still aches when I think back on it, I don't want to deny everything that happened today.
"Didn't you say you couldn't come to watch the fireworks today?" I remembered that he said he had to attend a class party the day before yesterday.
Tang Ruize glanced at me and said, "Because the party was a bit boring, I left halfway. What, do you have any objection?"
"Of course I have no objection." I said with a smile, "But it's great that you can come."
"You!" He knocked my head, "You really make me worry. I can't just leave you alone when you're like this."
"Hey, stop hitting my head. If you keep hitting me, I'll become stupid," I protested. "Then there will be one less genius in the world."
"You are stupid to begin with, do you still need me to knock you?" He said jokingly, "You single-celled organism."
"Tang Ruize!" I was angry. "I have low emotional intelligence, I am a single cell, then what are you?"
"I am the brother of a low EQ, single-celled organism!" he replied.
I was immediately deflated. Okay, Tang Ruize, you win.
The university admission letter came in early August. It was from S University, majoring in finance, the same school and major as Tang Ruize.
Tang Ruize had his summer vacation in early July, and without any suspense, he got the scholarship that year.
Finally, the scholarship was used to buy two plane tickets, and Tang Ruize and I flew to the country where my mother was. I don't know why, but I didn't want to stay in Qinglu. I always felt that the atmosphere there was extremely depressing.
When Tang Ruize asked me if I wanted to go see my mom and dad, I agreed almost instantly.
It's really strange. I was in such a bad mood at home, but as soon as I walked into the research institute, all the unhappy emotions disappeared.
It was exactly the same as ten years ago, when I was almost on the verge of collapse. After leaving Qinglu, I was finally able to smile.
"Since you're here, help me with the work." This was the first thing my mother said after she saw Tang Ruize and me. However, I was the only one who could help with what my mother was doing, so Tang Ruize was sent to my father by my mother.
When I look at the photos taken by the satellite, I always feel that they are very familiar. The sky is indeed much easier to get along with than people. I can't see human emotions clearly, so I always can't understand my own emotions very well.
"What happened?" Mom asked me without looking up while drawing with a pencil.
"Nothing happened!" I didn't want my mother to know about what happened between Shu Haining and me, because that little thing was too insignificant compared to the entire starry sky. I always felt that if my mother knew that I was troubled by such a thing, she would definitely laugh at me.
"You've only been back for a month, and you're already running back in despair. Do you think I'll believe what you say?" Mom looked up and glanced at me. "Tell me about it. As someone who's been through it, maybe I can give you some advice."
"Mom, do you still remember that you brought me here from Qinglu ten years ago?" I asked, "Why did you want to take me away at that time?"
Mom thought about it for a moment and said slowly, "Because your eyes looked dead at that time, I felt that it was wrong to leave you there. Although I don't know what happened to make you no longer trust people, I think that if it was Yun Que, he would be able to get out of the predicament after some time."
"Don't trust people?" I was stunned. "In my mother's eyes at that time, was I unwilling to trust people?"
"I still remember what you said at that time. You said that place is not the place for you to stay. Skylark, do you know why people are so persistent in finding a place to stay?" asked the mother.
I shook my head blankly.
"People will place their hearts in others, feel the warmth and love, and then feel at peace. People cannot live alone forever, just like flowers cannot live without water. Once they leave the water, the flowers will wither. The same is true for humans. If they are always alone, they will become unmotivated, decadent, self-destructive, and insecure. In fact, many of these things are given by others."
"So I took you away from that place. If that place makes you distrustful of others, then that place is not suitable for you to live in." Mom looked into my eyes and asked, "Do you understand?"
"Well, although I'm still a little confused, I can understand the general meaning." I said.
"So, what is the purpose this time?" The mother put a completed drawing on her right hand side. "Although I am a scientist, I am your mother first. I also want to hear your daughter's thoughts."
My heart felt warm, as if my empty heart was suddenly filled.
"Mom, why do I feel heartbroken?" I put down the pencil in my hand, held my cheeks with both hands and asked, "I feel so uncomfortable in my heart. I care about someone very much, so I should be very obsessed with that person. Sometimes I feel very happy, but I feel very lost and uneasy, and I will hate someone even more because of this."
"I couldn't figure it out, and it bothered me," I said. "So I came here. And strangely enough, I don't feel that way at all when I'm here ."
"Oh my!" Mom suddenly looked at me and laughed, "Our little skylark, you are in love!"
"What?" I was stunned.
What did mom just say? I'm in love?
"Mom, don't be ridiculous!" I felt anxious. "How can I fall in love? I don't even have anyone I like."
"But Yun Que, what you said are the feelings you will have when you like someone!" Mom reached out and ruffled my hair. "Friendship makes people happy, but love makes people heartbroken. You like the person who wants to be friends with him!"
"How is that possible?" I denied it quickly. "How can that be love? I just care about him a little bit, but I feel upset when I think of him. I just don't know what to do when he gets close to me. I just... just..."
But what?
Just clinging to him for no reason.
"Skylark." Mom said seriously, "What you said are the 'symptoms' of falling in love with someone."
Things that were originally vague in my mind but that I had begun to realize suddenly became clear because of my mother's words.
I like Shu Haining, so I was overly obsessed with wanting to get back to our former friendship, so I cared a lot about him being together with Hua Yuemian, who had hurt me, so I had unreasonable expectations of him, and so when I saw the scene where he and Hua Yuemian kissed, I burst into tears.
"So that's how it is!" I gently put my hand on my chest, my heart beating, "So this is what love is!"
"Go confess your love to him and tell him that you like him." My mother ended the conversation between her and me with such a shocking sentence.
"Wait, he has a girlfriend." I said quickly.
My mother nodded and said, "Well, you can't confess your feelings in this case. No matter how much you like that person, as long as that person is in a relationship, you must not tell him or her how you feel."
"I know," I said. "I won't confess."
"Good boy." The mother said appreciatively , "This is my good boy."
"Although you are praising me, why do I feel something is wrong?" I said with a dark face, "Why do you sound like you are praising a primary school student? I am going to college soon."
"You're still my child even if you go to college." Mom glanced at me and looked down at me. "Do you have any objections?"
"Of course not!" I said decisively.
I have to try to forget my love for Shu Haining because he is with someone else, so I can't let him know my feelings.
So, I stayed in my mother's studio to help out throughout the summer vacation. As long as we didn't meet during the summer vacation, after school started, he would go to another city to attend university with Hua Yuemian, so we wouldn't meet again.
It's strange that before I knew I liked Shu Haining, I had an inexplicable hostility towards Hua Yuemian. Of course, most of it was because she had hurt me.
But now, knowing my own feelings, I don’t feel so disgusted when I think of Hua Yuemian.
Maybe this is what it means to love someone and love his dog.
I don't want to give up hating Hua Yuemian at all, so I have to forget that I like Shu Haining. It should be easy to do!
Because when you think about it, after meeting again ten years later, I didn't have that many contacts with him in total!
Well, at first I brushed past him on purpose, hoping the few times he recognized me would be negligible.
Why do you like him? When did you like him?
I just can't figure it out.
Could it be the day when he pulled me and called me "idiot" in my ear?
Or the time during the fireworks display when he wiped my tears and rested his head on my shoulder?
No, no, none of them are right. I denied all these possibilities, and then I lay on the table like a deflated ball, not wanting to move.
I really don't want to admit that I thought about it for half a day and ended up not remembering anything.
In short, there is no doubt that I like Shu Haining.
It would be enough to know the final answer to this question, but now the answer has become the question. Forgetting this relationship is the answer, but I can't come to a conclusion on how to deduce the process in between.
There are so many math, chemistry, and physics formulas in my mind, but none of them can be applied to my problem.
"I'm going back tomorrow, Yunque, please go somewhere with me." Tang Ruize called me while standing outside the door.
Mom didn't look up, she just said, "Go ahead, I'm almost done with your help. I don't need you here anymore, you and Rui Ze can go for a walk."
"Okay." I put down the pencil and ruler in my hand and slowly walked towards Tang Ruize. "Where are we going?"
"Go see an old friend." Tang Ruize said with a smile.
I took the subway with Tang Ruize, and thirty minutes later, Tang Ruize and I were standing in front of a Catholic church.
"Where is this place?" I didn't quite understand why Tang Ruize brought me here.
Tang Ruize said: "I lived here before your parents adopted me."
"Ah?" I was stunned. Tang Ruize had never told me anything about himself. I only knew that he was adopted by my parents when he was eleven years old. From then on, he became my brother and a member of my family.
" A pastor who used to take care of me is sick, so I came to see him." Tang Ruize said, and entered the church first.
So you're here to visit a patient?
"Come here empty-handed, is that okay?" Although I have a low EQ and speak very bluntly, I still know the most basic common sense. "Do you want to buy a fruit basket?"
"No need." Tang Ruize grabbed my arm and pulled me forward. "Will you buy fruit when you go back home?"
"Of course not." I almost blurted out, and then I understood what Tang Ruize said. For Tang Ruize, this is his home, so there is no need to go through those empty formalities when going home to visit his family.
Tang Ruize took me all the way to the second floor of the church, and walked along the long corridor to the end. There was a room with an open door. It was a bedroom, and an old man with white hair was lying on the bed.
Tang Ruize took me in. The old man on the bed heard the footsteps and opened his eyes. There was a kind look in his gray-blue eyes.
"It's Ruize who's back!" The old man looked at Tang Ruize with a smile and said in stiff Chinese, "Is the girl next to you your girlfriend?"
"My sister," I answered, "I am Rui Ze's sister. We are family."
Tang Ruize looked back at me, with a look in his eyes that I couldn't understand. He walked to the old man and asked, "Are you feeling better?"
"I probably won't live to see Christmas this year. Don't show that expression, kid. Everyone will die, sooner or later." The old man said with a smile, "It's been a long time since we last met. Rui Ze has grown up!"
"Well, my adoptive parents are very good to me." Tang Ruize said.
"You guys continue chatting, I'm going to go out for a walk." I said, and walked out of the room. Tang Ruize didn't stop me.
I thought that maybe Tang Ruize had something important to say to the pastor.
Coming down from the second floor, I saw people coming to the church to worship.
I walked out of the church and walked along a path for a while, and came to a green lawn. The lawn was well-trimmed. A huge sycamore tree was planted in the middle of the lawn , and under the sycamore tree were four wooden benches with backrests.
I walked over and sat down on the bench. Through the dense branches of the sycamore tree, I could see the blue sky and white clouds. The breeze was blowing on my face, and the temperature was just right, making me feel very comfortable.
I lay on the bench and watched the white clouds floating across the blue sky. The sky here is completely different from the sky at the seaside. It is not the kind of blue that seems to drip water, but a very clean and transparent light blue. Just looking at it can make people relax.
The church bells rang, as if all my worries were blown away by the bells. I closed my eyes comfortably and let out a long breath.
I lay like this for a while, and just when I was about to fall asleep, Tang Ruize came over and patted my face.
"Woke up."
I sat up from the bench, and Tang Ruize sat down beside me, leaning back on the bench. After a while, he said, "It's terminal cancer."
"It must be sad, after all, they are family." I didn't know what to say. I didn't really know how to comfort others.
"Well, I was taken to church by a pastor when I was nine years old. From the age of nine to eleven, I lived in the church." Tang Ruize slowly told me about his life. "My home is in a small rainy town in the south. You know, people like us, once they are found to be talented in certain areas, will be forced to do things they don't like."
"When I was six years old, I started to refuse to go to school, so my family locked me in the room and bought me a lot of books. I only had two choices, either go to school or study by myself."
"You must have chosen the latter."
Because if it were me, I would make the same choice. The school curriculum is simple and a bit boring for people like us.
Tang Ruize said: "The room was small and somewhat dim, with only an incandescent light above the head and only one window leading to the outside world."
"There was a wall opposite the window. Because the window faced the narrow alley, the small room was extremely dark every time it rained, and the sky through the window was also gray." Tang Ruize paused for a moment, "Until I was nine years old, I spent three years in that small room."
When Tang Ruize was nine years old, his parents signed him up for the Primary School Mathematical Olympiad. He won first place and was recommended to participate in the International Mathematical Olympiad.
It was also in that year that Tang Ruize's parents encountered a serious car accident on the way to the airport to send him home. At that time, he was on the plane and did not know that he had become an orphan.
He later lived in this country and until he was adopted by my parents, he lived in the church.
After listening to Tang Ruize's words, I couldn't calm down for a long time.
"Don't make that expression." Tang Ruize tapped my head. "It's been so many years. I don't feel sad or upset anymore."
"You must have been very lonely at that time, right?" I asked softly. There were many things he didn't tell me, and I didn't know how to ask. I was afraid that my directness would make him sad. At this time, I wished that my emotional intelligence could be higher, so that I could say some nice words to comfort him.
"Rui Ze, I am your family. Not just me, but also mom, dad and grandma, we are all your family." This was all I could say clumsily.
"I understand, I have always understood, I always think how lucky I am to be by your side." He smiled at me, "Because with you, my light won't seem so dazzling, and you may not even know it yourself, but you are actually very strong."
"Not strong at all!" I lowered my head with a dim look in my eyes. "In my eyes, Rui Ze is the strong and powerful one. There are many things I can't do. I always put my hopes on others, which makes me get hurt again and again. It would be great if my heart could be stronger."
"I told you that you are very frank, no matter you are happy or angry, you will never hide your emotions. In fact, people who are not strong enough cannot do this. You see, I am actually very sad now, but I dare not show it. Sometimes frankness is also a kind of courage, which is not something that people with weak hearts can do." He looked at me with a smile, "Everyone has a weak side. Even I, who is very strong in your eyes, will feel sad about certain things and will be anxious about certain things. No one can be calm and composed all the time. There will always be some people or things that will break that calmness."
I was stunned. Could it be that the real purpose of Tang Ruize bringing me here today, besides visiting old friends, was to convey these words to me?
"Did I worry you?" Did he see my confused state of mind these days? That's why he said these words to me, telling me that I'm not a weak person?
"No." He rubbed my head. "Don't think too much, I just felt it. Come on, let's go back and pack our bags, after all, we have to go back tomorrow."
"Okay." I nodded and walked forward side by side with Tang Ruize. I don't know if it was because I felt too good about myself, but I always felt that my originally empty heart was filled with something. It was a bit heavy, but it made me feel my heart truly.
It is said that in the last summer vacation of the senior year of high school, many ignorant teenagers will truly grow up and become mature adults. I didn’t understand what that meant before, but now I understand a little bit.
Maybe this is what growing up is like. The heart becomes heavier than before, the weak become silent, and the strong become dazzling. However, no matter how things change, perhaps deep in the heart, there is a dark color that you don't want to touch.
When I got home, my parents had come back early. My mother had prepared a table of food, so the family finally had a chance to have a meal together.
In my impression, my parents are always busy. Later, when I was a little , I tried to help my mother with some simple things. I always thought that if my mother finished the work in her hands quickly, she might have more time to spend with me.
Later, Tang Ruize came along, and he spent most of his time with me eating and reading. It was always easy to chat with him, and for the first time in my life, no matter what I said, there would be someone to respond to me.
After dinner, I packed up my things. At this time, my mother came in with a big paper box. She threw the box on my bed and said, "This is the reward for getting first place in the exam."
"Oh, there is such a reward?" I rushed over and opened the paper box. Inside was a laptop. "You should get a reward if you don't get first place. Is this really okay? You bought me such an expensive laptop. This is not a laptop that can be sold on the market, right?"
"The research institute bought it in bulk. The processor is great. I'm giving it to you so that you can help me with work when I'm too busy." Mom said maliciously, "Anyway, college courses are nothing to you, especially the finance department. You should have plenty of time."
"Hey!" I protested, "How can I have time to experience college life?"
"This is your own business. You should arrange your own time." After saying that, my mother left my room. I sat on the bed and looked at the laptop in front of me.
Never mind, it's not bad to help out occasionally, after all, I don't hate the sky above my head. I say I don't hate it, but actually I like it a little.
Just because of Shu Haining, every time I look up at the starry sky, my heart always aches and my mood becomes so heavy that even breathing feels difficult.
I'm avoiding the starry sky above me because I don't want to feel that way anymore.
Tang Ruize and I returned to Qinglu on the afternoon of the next day. I was going to report to the university tomorrow, but Tang Ruize and I did not start school on the same day. He still had a week before school started.
Of course, there was military training at the beginning of college
And during the summer vacation, the subway from the university to the beach was finally opened.
I packed some clothes for the next few days. I originally thought that I wouldn't have much, but after packing all the things I needed to take, I actually filled up a 20-inch suitcase.
I originally didn't plan to bring my laptop because it was heavy and big, but my mother called me and told me to bring my laptop and my cell phone with me. The most important thing was not to forget to charge my cell phone so that she could contact me at any time.
Because in these few days, a grand astronomical wonder will take place in the vast universe above our heads. At such times, astronomers are always the busiest, and my mother is no exception.
I had no choice but to stuff my laptop into the box as well.
I had packed everything and my grandma called me downstairs.
I thought it was my grandma who wanted to talk to me about something, but when I went downstairs I realized it wasn't my grandma who was looking for me, but Hua Yuemian.
I was surprised. Why did Hua Yuemian come to see me? Knowing that I hated her, she still came to make trouble for her and me. Is she a fool?
"Skylark, I have something to tell you." She stood up and said to me who was standing on the stairs and planning to ignore her and go upstairs, "It's very important. It's about Haining. I want you to listen to it."
Five minutes later, Hua Yuemian and I stood outside my door.
I should have turned around and left, I should have ignored anything about Shu Haining, but I followed Hua Yuemian out uncontrollably.
"If you have something to say, just say it directly. I don't like beating around the bush." ​​I leaned against the iron gate and said in a deep voice.
Hua Yuemian seemed to be struggling with something and didn't speak for a long time. Just when I was impatient and wanted to leave, she finally spoke: "Yuque, what do you think of Shu Haining?"
"Childhood playmates, that's all." I replied calmly.
"Besides this, is there nothing else? Skylark, do you care about Haining?"
Is it because girls are always more sensitive, so did she notice my mood?
If that's the case, then there's nothing we can do!
"Although I still don't quite understand what's going on, I think I like him." I said bluntly, "Hua Yuemian, you're already with Shu Haining, right? Don't worry, as long as you're still together, I won't say anything, and Shu Haining also said that there's no place for me by his side anymore."
Hua Yuemian's eyes trembled, as if she was a little surprised: "Why do you think Haining and I are together...ah, was it that day? Did you see it?"
"Yes, I saw it." I looked into her eyes with great frankness. "I saw you kiss him, so that's it! You can't do that kind of thing with someone you don't like."
Hua Yuemian's body stiffened for a moment, then quickly relaxed. She lowered her head and dared not look me in the eye: "So you will definitely not take him away, right?"
"Did you come here just to say these nonsense to me?" I frowned and asked, "Stop this boring distraction! I said, as long as he is still with you, I will not say anything, and I don't intend to say anything. Are you relieved now?"
"I'm sorry, Yun Que. I may have done a lot of things to hurt you. I didn't mean it before, but this time, please forgive me, okay? I really like Hai Ning. Although what I said is a bit excessive, I really don't want to lose him." Her voice was trembling, and it was obvious that she was trying to be strong. "Can you agree to a willful request of mine? Can you please keep your distance from Hai Ning?"
"You are really disgusting." I said coldly, "What happened between you and Shu Haining is your business. Why do you want to tell me all this? I don't think I have forgiven you yet. I still hate you. What you just said makes me feel that it is right not to forgive you. You underestimate me and Shu Haining. He didn't even want to be friends with me for your sake. You said this as if there is something shameful between Shu Haining and me. Hua Yuemian, I don't like to play two games. I don't like anything shady."
"Why can't you be a little more cheerful?" I couldn't help it. "What's the point of you saying these things to me? You are really disgusting, that's it!"
She opened her mouth as if she wanted to say something, but in the end she said nothing.
I turned around and walked back, feeling very disappointed.
What did she say to keep my distance from Shu Haining? Is she crazy? School is about to start. She and Shu Haining will go to the same university, and I will stay here. How can Shu Haining and I meet again?
What is she worried about?
There is absolutely no need to worry. Although I don't know why Shu Haining likes Hua Yuemian, he refused my approach for her, nipping in the bud any factors that might cause harm to her.
Just for this reason, Shu Haining must like Hua Yuemian very much!
It’s so annoying. Why do I have to think about Shu Haining and Hua Yuemian again?
I slept very uneasily that night and had intermittent dreams.
In my dream, I was standing alone on the beach, as if I was the only one left between heaven and earth.
It was a terrible feeling. When I woke up in the morning, tears were in the corners of my eyes.
After hurriedly washing up, changing into clothes and combing my hair, I went downstairs, had breakfast, said goodbye to my grandma, and went out with my suitcase.
The subway entrance at the seaside is not far from where I took the bus before, and it takes about fifteen minutes to walk there.
The morning sun shines on my face, giving me a feeling of vigor and vitality. When I arrived at the subway entrance and went through security, I bent down to pick up my suitcase.
The suitcase is really heavy! At this moment, I regretted not calling Tang Ruize to take me over. It was a bit difficult to put such a heavy suitcase on the conveyor belt that was as high as my waist.
Just as I was about to put the box down, a hand firmly grasped the handle of the box. Then, the box, which was as heavy as a stone to me, was easily lifted up by that hand and placed on the conveyor belt.
"Thank you!" I said gratefully, and turned around to see which Lei Feng who loved helping others it was. However, when I saw the familiar face of Shu Haining, the smile on my face froze in an instant.
"You're welcome." He put his box on the shelf calmly. "The people behind are still waiting in line."
"Oh." I came to my senses in an instant and took a few quick steps forward. My box had already slid off the conveyor belt . I pulled out the handle of the box and dragged the box forward.
I was a little confused. Why was Shu Haining here? He was also here to take the subway. Was he going to the train station? It was possible, because today was the start day for many universities. Maybe Shu Haining's school was also starting today.
That's not right. I looked back and saw that Shu Haining came alone. Wasn't he from the same school as Hua Yuemian? He was here, but where was Hua Yuemian?
Did I go to the station first? I thought so, bought the ticket, and walked towards the entrance with my suitcase.
Whatever the case, it has nothing to do with me.
I simply stopped thinking about Shu Haining and stood outside the waiting line waiting for the subway to arrive.
The car arrived very quickly. Although the road had just been opened, there were many people because there was a large flow of people at the seaside.
I walked in dragging my suitcase. All the seats in the subway were occupied, so I dragged my suitcase and found a relatively safe place to stand.
But at this time Shu Haining also walked in.
"You have been deliberately ignoring me since just now, right?" Shu Haining stood beside me and asked me with a slight frown.
I looked at him speechlessly. He clearly said that we wanted to be strangers, but now he was asking me this kind of question.
"I thought we weren't supposed to talk," I said.
Shu Haining was silent for a moment, then slowly said, "If we're not friends, can we not even talk?"
I felt annoyed and wanted to get angry at him, but when I thought that today might be the last time I saw him, I could only swallow the words that were on the tip of my tongue: "What are you talking about? I don't know what we have to talk about. Are you going to the train station?"
"Really? It turns out that we have nothing to talk about!" He smiled softly, "That's right, after all, there is almost nothing left to talk about."
"Well, the things that can be talked about no longer exist." He had already denied it.
When the subway stopped, someone finally got off the train, and there were two empty seats next to each other. I dragged my suitcase over and sat down, because I had to sit on the subway for an hour, standing to get to school, and I was exhausted.
Shu Haining sat down next to me, and I carefully moved to keep a certain distance from him.
"Am I a monster?" He said with some dissatisfaction when he saw me moving to the side.
I was too lazy to pay attention to him, so I leaned my head against the back of the chair, closed my eyes, and planned to sleep all the way to school - this was the best way to stop chatting with Shu Haining.
I like this person!
If I allowed myself to continue talking to him, I was afraid I would end up in heartache again.
You can't like him, so you can't talk to him.
I kept reminding myself as I fell into a half-sleep. I really hope that when I wake up, this person is gone, so I don't have to say goodbye to him, how nice!