Chapter 5: The Dream Shatters Like the Deep Sea 05
"Of course I am your friend." I answered almost without hesitation.
"Really?" Jiang Sijin smiled, tears streaming from her eyes. She looked at me through her tears and asked me word by word, "If you considered me a friend, why didn't you tell me earlier that Li Anran betrayed me? Since you already knew, why did you hide it? Do you know that you are betraying our friendship by doing this?"
"Si Jin!" I said in surprise, "I want to tell you, but I don't know how to tell you. I'm afraid you will do something irreversible under impulse."
"So, you just watched me being bullied by Li Anran, by that bitch? Being treated like a fool who knew nothing!" Jiang Sijin stared at me, as if she was yelling at me with all her strength, and she cried even harder.
"No, no." I tried my best to explain myself. I reached out to wipe the tears from her face, but I cried too. "Sijin, don't cry. You are..."
Jiang Sijin turned her head away from my hand, still saying, "We have known each other for so many years, and I trust you so much, but what about you? How did you treat me? If Lin Zhan hadn't told me, I wouldn't have known about this! Many years of friendship is not as good as a person I just met!"
Every word she said was full of thorns and accusations. I didn't know what I should say to comfort her who was so mentally fragile.
"Si Jin, I'm sorry. When I found out Li Anran was with someone else, I was also shocked. I was afraid that something would happen if you knew it, so I was worried for the past few days. I was also trying to figure out how to resolve this matter without hurting you. I didn't deliberately want to hide it from you, I just wanted to minimize the damage." I tried to speak to her in a calm tone. She was emotionally unstable right now, and I didn't want her to be stimulated again.
"Stop talking!" Jiang Sijin suddenly shouted sharply, "It's useless for you to say anything now. I don't want to see you, I don't want to hear your self-righteousness, and I don't want to have a friend like you."
Jiang Sijin and I have known each other for many years and have had our share of arguments, but no matter what, I have never heard her say such words, and I feel sad.
But at this moment, she was no longer rational. No matter what I said, she would not listen. She was proud and fragile. I felt sorry for her and understood the pain in her heart.
I looked at her who was sobbing silently, and without saying another word, I turned and walked out of the ward.
Lin Zhan, who was outside the door, saw me coming out and wanted to go back in. I held him back and said, "She is in a bad mood. Don't go in and disturb her. It's getting late. Go back."
"But Sister Shuchen..."
"What's the point of you staying here?" I was a little annoyed.
Lin Zhan was stunned, then lowered his head and said, "Sister Shuchen, it's all my fault. I'll go back first and come to see Sister Jin tomorrow." After saying that, he walked away with a guilty look on his face.
I watched him walk further and further away, and I felt even sadder. What did he do wrong? He just liked Jiang Sijin and told her the truth. He simply wanted to help Jiang Sijin vent her anger, but none of us thought that things would turn out like this. And this irreversible consequence will always be an indelible pain in my heart, in Lin Zhan's heart, and in Jiang Sijin's heart.
Although I never wanted to hurt her from the beginning, and even wanted to protect her, things did not go as I wished. Perhaps this is what growth is, and it requires tears and pain as the price.
Jiang Sijin didn't want to see me, but I couldn't leave. She had to be taken care of in the hospital. I didn't know if she was asleep. I sat alone in the corridor outside the ward, feeling very tired, extremely tired.
I took out my cell phone and wanted to call Ning Qiyuan who was far away abroad. Maybe hearing his voice would give me more strength.
Perhaps it was a telepathic connection, my cell phone suddenly rang, and Ning Qiyuan's name popped up on the screen.
I didn't hesitate and picked up the phone.
"Shuchen, I... miss you a little." Ning Qiyuan's awkward but somewhat gentle voice came from a distant place, warming my heart instantly.
I burst out laughing and said, "How corny!"
"Tong Shuchen!" Ning Qiyuan called me by my full name. Even through the phone, I could feel him gritting his teeth.
"Yeah." I responded, feeling a little sour in my nose.
"Things are going smoothly. We are currently waiting for approval, which will probably take about ten days. I will tell you in advance when I come back. You can come and pick me up then." Ning Qiyuan gave the order without allowing any room for rejection.
"Yeah." I continued to respond.
However, Ning Qiyuan on the other end of the phone paused and suddenly asked me, "Tong Shuchen, what's wrong with you?"
"I'm fine!" I answered him with a smile.
"If you say nothing is wrong, then there is something wrong." Ning Qiyuan's tone was full of certainty, " Do you think I don't know you?"
I held the phone in my hand, and suddenly I couldn't say a word. On the phone, his voice was clearer than before: "Okay, if you don't say anything, I'll buy a plane ticket and rush back right away."
Hearing this, I was immediately shocked: "You haven't finished your school work yet, what are you doing back here?"
"Then don't force me to go back!" Ning Qiyuan threatened me casually.
He always finds a way to make me compromise. He is the only one in this world.
I sighed and told him the story as simply as possible. Ning Qiyuan didn't say a word, just listened quietly, and I found that after I told him these things, my heart gradually calmed down, and I was no longer confused, anxious, or aggrieved.
Ning Qiyuan was not a person who was good at comforting. After listening to her, he was silent for a long time and only said, "You have to be well and wait for me to come back."
"Yeah." I replied, and without saying anything else, I hung up the phone.
