Today is Wednesday and I have dance class after school.
Since the last fight with my dad, I have not missed any dance class, even if I don't want to go to dance. But the good thing about dance class is that I can avoid meeting them.
Why bother!
It would be annoying to see each other, so I might as well avoid it so that no one can see it.
The dance class was not far from the school, only three stops away. Because it was the last class of the day and the teacher didn't extend the class, I decided to walk there.
It was a little chilly in the late autumn evening. I hunched my neck and lowered my head as I walked towards the dance training school.
When I was almost
I recognized the familiar voice and looked over. It was indeed Shen Xiaoxi. The strange thing was that Xia Nuo was standing next to her.
However, I don’t know if it’s because I’m used to Shen Xiaoxi creating all kinds of “surprises” for me, but when I saw her and Xia Nuo walking together, I didn’t feel particularly jealous.
Logically speaking, Shen Xiaoxi is someone I hate, and Xia Nuo is someone I admire. Seeing these two people standing together is enough to make me show all kinds of expressions, but I was unexpectedly calmer than ever before.
I stood there looking at Shen Xiaoxi, waiting for them to come closer.
"Are you going to dance class, Xiaodie?" In front of outsiders, Shen Xiaoxi always treats me with a loving sister and a friendly face. Once there is no third party around, she will immediately turn hostile.
Sometimes I really think that she will be a very good actress when she grows up.
"Yes." I said lightly. In front of Xia Nuo, even though I hated Shen Xiaoxi, I had to pretend nothing happened.
"What a coincidence! Classmate Shen likes one of my exercise books and asked me to bring her to the bookstore here to buy it. I didn't expect to meet you here." Xia Nuo smiled slightly, his eyes sparkling.
His smile is different from Shu Nian's. His smile can reach his eyes. This is a real smile.
I was stunned and a little annoyed. Why would I think of that guy Shu Nian at this time?
"Xiaodie, what are you daydreaming about?" Shen Xiaoxi pushed me.
"Oh, sorry, I was distracted just now." I said quickly, "What a coincidence."
"Now that we're here, why don't you take us to your dance studio? I haven't seen what a dance studio looks like yet." Shen Xiaoxi said with a smile, "How about it, Xiaodie, you won't be unwilling to take us there, right?"
"Isn't this bad?" Xia Nuo seemed to frown slightly.
"It's okay. We can watch the dance class. It's just that Xiaodie, are you willing to take us?" She said, grabbing my arm, as if she was acting like a spoiled child. "I really envy you for being able to learn dance. I want to learn it, too, but my mom won't let me."
I opened my mouth and was about to refuse her, but I felt a pain in my arm.
I frowned and looked at Shen Xiaoxi. She gave me a malicious and cold look where Xia Nuo couldn't see, but her voice was still the same as before.
I really have to admire her acting skills again.
"Xiao Die, just this once, just this once? If it really doesn't work, forget it. I don't want to embarrass you, even though I really want to see you dance."
I looked at Shanuo. He was looking at me with a smile and said nothing, but I couldn't say no.
"Okay, if you want to see it, come with me." I said helplessly.
Shen Xiaoxi gave me a victorious look, and I suddenly had a bad feeling.
After entering the dance school, I went to the dressing room to change clothes, while Shen Xiaoxi and Xia Nuo went to the classroom first. There were many people who came here to watch the practice every day, which was why I couldn't refuse.
Because you can obviously come and see , and it would seem hypocritical to refuse!
After changing clothes, I had adjusted my mentality. No matter what Shen Xiaoxi wanted to do, I would "fight the enemy with my soldiers and block the water with earth."
I looked up to find them and saw Shen Xiaoxi and Xia Nuo talking to each other. I couldn't hear them clearly because we were at a distance.
Shen Xiaoxi stood close to Xia Nuo, and her expression was full of tender longing when he didn't look at her. But I could feel that Shen Xiaoxi's admiration for Xia Nuo was different from my mood.
I ignored them and walked straight towards the teacher, and then under the teacher's guidance, I danced a new dance with all my heart.
At first I was a little hesitant, but gradually I found the feeling, as if I was possessed by my mother's dancing soul. With the soft music, I danced lightly and spun gracefully, completely immersed in my own world.
At the end of the song, the teacher nodded to me affirmatively and asked me to take a break.
I went to the side to get some water and wipe the sweat off my face.
Shen Xiaoxi, who was watching outside, suddenly waved at me: "Xiaodie, come here."
I had no choice but to go outfield with the water.
As soon as Shen Xiaoxi saw me coming out, she pulled me to Xia Nuo and said, "There will be a fun celebration in our community on the 15th of next month. It will be Xiao Die's first time to participate, and she will perform a dance! How about it, Xia Nuo, can you come and play?"
Uh, celebration? Didn't I already say no?
Why did Shen Xiaoxi say this to Xia Nuo at this moment?
"Oh? Really? It was really enjoyable to watch classmate Bai Xiaodie dancing just now! If she performs on the stage on the day of the celebration, she will definitely change into a beautiful dance dress, which will definitely make her look even better, right?" Xia Nuo looked at me and said.
"I don't want to participate..." I wanted to say that I didn't want to participate in the community celebration at all, but before I could finish my words, Shen Xiaoxi took over.
"Xiaodie has been practicing dancing very hard recently, so she will definitely dance better than today on the celebration day, right, Xiaodie?" Shen Xiaoxi looked at me with a smile, her eyes full of the smile of success.
I really wanted to refute Shen Xiaoxi, but I actually saw a hint of expectation in Xia Nuo's eyes.
Yes, looking forward to it.
After hearing what Shen Xiaoxi said, there was a hint of anticipation in his eyes.
I don’t know why he suddenly became interested in my dance. I only know that I couldn’t deny it, and if I denied it in front of Shen Xiaoxi, I would be losing to Shen Xiaoxi!
But I admitted that I lost to her.
Whether I deny it or admit it, I have lost. The only difference is whether I lose proudly or humbly.
I looked at Xia Nuo, and suddenly I felt an urge to give it my all.
If I have to lose, at least in front of Shanuo, I want to lose with a winning attitude.
"Yes, I will dance better than today." I knew that once I said this, I would fall into Shen Xiaoxi's trap, but at this moment, none of this mattered anymore.
"Xianuo, you must come and see it!" Shen Xiaoxi said, and deliberately glanced at me, "I invite you to watch our autumn celebration, will you come, Xianuo?"
Xia Nuo smiled and nodded: "Since classmate Shen invited me, how can I not go."
Shu Nian always says that I am an idiot. I think he is absolutely right. I am really a big idiot.
After the break, Shen Xiaoxi and Xia Nuo left. After the dance practice, I didn't want to take the bus home, so I walked home slowly with my schoolbag.
The dew on autumn nights was so heavy that it even wet my hair, and I felt wet all over.
How to do it?
Do I really want to attend the celebration? Although I agreed so readily before, after the desire to win wore off, I fell into deep confusion.
I don’t know why Luo Yuxin and Shen Xiaoxi are so determined to get me to attend the Autumn Festival. All I can think of is that they definitely have bad intentions.
When I reached the entrance of the alley, I looked up and saw a man and a dog standing there.
Shu Nian looked at me with a half-smile, as if he was looking at the biggest fool in the world .
"I heard that you will be dancing at this year's Autumn Festival." He said, and it was impossible to tell the emotion in his tone.
"Did Shen Xiaoxi tell you so soon? Haha, laugh if you want, go ahead, it's okay." It was bad enough anyway, and he wouldn't die if he made fun of me. "I'm a cowardly idiot, you told me that a long time ago, there's no need to repeat it again."
"Yes, now you have become self-aware and can even make fun of yourself." He smiled.
Suddenly, the big dog he was holding stood up on its front legs and pounced on me. I was caught off guard and fell to the ground. The big dog stretched out its big tongue and licked my face enthusiastically, looking very happy.
"Kaka, come back." Shu Nian said in a low voice, and the big dog obediently walked away from me.
"Is it called Kaka?" I asked.
"Yes, Kaka." He nodded, stretched out his hand to smooth the big dog's fur, and then handed his hand to me, "Get up. If you sit on the ground like this, people passing by who don't know the situation will think I want to bully you! Even though you look like someone who is easy to bully!"
"Hey, will you die if you don't say such harsh words?" I slapped his hand away and stood up. "It's so late, what are you doing here?"
"Are you an idiot?" He glanced at me with a hint of disgust in his eyes, "Of course I came out to walk the dog."
"Is it such a coincidence that you always meet me?" After asking this question, Shu Nian and I were both stunned.
"Haha, you're being too sentimental, aren't you? I walk the dog every day, but I've only met you three times, right?" He said slowly and carefully, "There are at least 365 days in a year, and at least 3,650 days in ten years. You see, with so many days, the probability of meeting you is less than one in a thousand."
"That's right!" I lowered my head, wanting to laugh, "But every time you meet me, I am at my most embarrassed and troubled."
"Troubled?" He laughed, "Is it because you were stupid enough to agree to Shen Xiaoxi's participation in the Autumn Festival?"
"How do you know everything?" I looked at him in surprise, "Can you read minds?"
"Idiot, who told you to show everything on your face?" He looked at me sideways, with disgust on his face.
"Really? Can this be seen?" I was even more confused.
"Hey, stop talking nonsense and come with me to a place." After he said that, without waiting for my answer , he turned around and walked forward holding Kaka's hand.
I really wanted to turn around and leave, but I still followed him spinelessly.
The place Shu Nian went to was a little far from my home. It was the fitness center in our community. It was called a fitness center, but in fact it was just some fitness equipment installed on the grass.
He sat down on a bench at the edge of the base. There was a street lamp above his head, which made the light in this area not so dark.
I sat down next to him and subconsciously looked up at the sky.
The sky was dark, not a single star could be seen. It seemed that this was the first time that Shu Nian and I met at night when there were no stars in the sky.
I turned to look at Shu Nian and asked, "Why do you have to come here?"
There was a hint of reminiscence in Shu Nian's eyes. He seemed to have remembered something, and his whole person softened a lot.
"Because this place... is a little special." His tone seemed to be much gentler, without any sarcasm or contempt, probably because he didn't want to taint the precious memories in his mind with that tone.
"Special?" I was very curious about what kind of story could make Shu Nian, such an annoying guy, tell it in such a gentle tone.
"It's not special, but it's the kind of scene that makes people smile when they recall it. It happened when I was very young. When I was crying miserably, a little girl gave me a blue flower. I don't know what flower it is, but no matter how long it has been, I will never forget what it looks like." He said, "Perhaps only here can I talk to you calmly."
"Hey!" I was a little angry, but he smiled at me.
Suddenly, without warning, he smiled.
At that moment, I felt like my heart was gently rubbed with a feather, and it felt a little itchy.
I have never seen him laugh like this. Shu Nian's laugh has always been malicious and sarcastic. That sarcasm seems to have penetrated into his bones and cannot be removed.
But now, his smile was clean and gentle, reaching deep into his eyes. Under the streetlights, it was as if all the brightest stars in the sky were hidden in his eyes, more beautiful than the most magnificent nebula.
A different emotion quietly arises somewhere deep in my heart.
Do you know that feeling?
At some unintentional moment, that person makes you surrender, makes your heart beat, and makes you feel that liking someone is such an unreasonable and simple thing.
Shu Nian, that annoying Shu Nian, the mean, poisonous-tongued Shu Nian who didn't know how to read the atmosphere when speaking -
I feel like at this moment, you have become different to me.