Chapter 4 The Man on the Tombstone 05
When Mosquito left, she was escorted in the same way as when she came, followed by a group of fans who might or might not be her shills and some curious classmates.
I slowly stood up and stood there watching her leave. My breathing became heavy and my mind went blank. I didn't know what to do.
My intuition tells me that Mosquito's sudden appearance must not be just a simple dream of a little girl to enter the entertainment industry. Mosquito has been timid and introverted since she was a child, and she never dared to perform in front of everyone. A job like an actor, which requires facing the public and the media all day long, is not suitable for her at all, and it is not her dream.
However, maybe people change, and maybe after so many years, Mosquito's personality has become more outgoing. But I can still sense that Mosquito does not like this line of work.
There was no passion for this career in her eyes, only the forbearance of having to succumb to fate.
I think Wang Meiwen has never forgotten the past. At that moment, she obviously recognized me, but she just didn't want to admit it. In her cold tone, there was her resentment towards me and the hatred that could not be hidden.
I think Mosquito should have known some secrets about her father's suicide.
It's just not clear who knows more, me or her.
After leaving the activity center, I went to the library, found a few books on corporate data analysis, picked a seat and read for a long time until my stomach started to growl. Then I closed the book, borrowed it from the reading room, and went into the cafeteria.
After finishing my meal, I hurried to the dormitory. While I was eating, I suddenly thought of the content circled in the book. It was very similar to a piece of data I had secretly read in the files of Ascendas Company. I had to go back to the dormitory and search the Internet to find out the specific case.
When I got back to the dormitory, everyone was there.
Chen Yisan didn't know what had happened to her and was hiding on the balcony crying.
When Cai Miao saw me come in, he looked strange, as if he wanted to say something but hesitated.
Instead, An Jia, who was busy comforting Chen Yisan, walked in from the balcony and slapped me without saying a word.
As soon as I came in, I noticed that the atmosphere was not right. Looking at Anjia's aggressive posture, I knew I had already made preparations for defense. How could I let her beat me so easily?
I held Anjia's wrist tightly and got a little angry.
"If you have any opinions about me, just say it directly, don't use your hands! I, Ai Ye, think it's not your turn to hit me!"
"Humph! You're still so mean! I knew you weren't a good person! If you didn't want to be a volunteer, you shouldn't have agreed to Xiaoshan in the first place. Why did you set her up behind her back and report her to her superiors for being irresponsible at work? Do you know how badly she was scolded when she was called to the Student Union meeting just now? With so many new and old students watching, Leng Zimo didn't give Xiaoshan any face and scolded her. If it weren't for you, how could Xiaoshan have been insulted like this, and how could she have been expelled from the Student Union!"
Anjia yelled at me, raising his other hand and waving it at me again, but my attention had already been diverted to the open box beside my bed.
My box is empty, there is nothing in it.
I just felt a chill in my heart, and I froze in place, breathing hard, with a sharp pain in my chest. I didn't have time to dodge, and I was slapped by Anjia, and my face was burning. In an instant, I was awakened by the slap, and looked at Anjia and the others with red eyes.
"Where are my things? Where are the things in my box?"
I yelled, pushed away the frightened Anjia, and searched the dormitory like a madman.
Can't find it, can't find anything.
"Where did you lose my things?"
I roared again, my chest aching, as if something sharp was cutting my heart.
"The box is empty, there's nothing in it. It's okay, throw it away if you want! But can you ask me before you throw it away? Where are my photos? Where are the old photos I put in the box? How did I wrong you? Did I kill someone or set a fire or something? Even if I broke the law, the police will come to arrest me. Why do you want to judge me? Where are my photos? Where did you throw my photos?"
Where is my dad…where is my dad?
Cai Miao finally couldn't stand it anymore and replied timidly: "We packed them in big plastic bags and threw them all into the trash can downstairs."
"Why are you so fierce? It's just a photo of a man. Why are you so fierce to us? The man in the photo is already on the tombstone. If he wasn't dead, he could have been your father! How shameless! You still hide his photo even though he's dead! It's you who did something wrong, not us. We're just punishing you. Who told you to treat Xiaoshan like this?"
Anjia yelled at me with his chubby face red and trembling, his body shaking.
I looked at her coldly, then smiled and said, "You're right, he's my dad! He died before I was born. If my mom hadn't let it slip when she was drunk, I wouldn't have known who my biological father was! It took me eighteen years to find out he was my dad. I went to his hometown by among the tombstones, and took it. What do you know? What do you know! You don't know anything! You all have such a good life!"
I became hysterical and my face was already soaked .
"Artemisia argyi..."
"Artemisia argyi..."
…
Someone was calling me from behind. I didn't look back, but rushed downstairs and reached into the big black barrel full of garbage to search.
Dad, I am an unfilial daughter. I have lived for so many years and only now know that you are my father. How could I let you lie alone in that desolate tomb?
Dad, are you blaming me down there? I know you're having a hard time, and you must be blaming me for never seeing you.
But please forgive me, I am very miserable now, my life is ruined, and I don’t know what to do.
Dad, please forgive me. If even you don’t forgive me, I don’t know how to live on.
Dad, I've been here for a long time and I have to go back. Mom is in a bad mood and I'm worried something might happen to her.
Dad, I will take you with me, and take your smile with me. Come on, smile.
Dad, you didn’t accompany me for the first eighteen years, please stay with me for the rest of my life!
Dad, it's so dirty here, they actually left you here. How could they leave you in such a dirty place?
With shaking hands, I opened the stinking plastic bag and searched through everything until I finally found the photo, which was covered with graffiti. I couldn't stop my tears from falling, onto my father's face.
It can't be wiped off, it can't be wiped clean, my father's face has been painted black, his smile has disappeared, and his facial features are not clear. How can this be, how can it be unclear? I haven't engraved my father's face into my mind yet, how can I not see it!
"Ai Ye! Please don't be like this. It's our fault. We didn't know that was your father. Ai Ye, please forgive us!"
Cai Miao pulled An Jia to apologize to me and shook my trembling body.
I held the photo in my hand, tears falling on it, and looked at them with blurred vision.
How to forgive?
How can I forgive someone who has defiled my father and destroyed the spiritual pillar of my life?
Why do I get all the blame when it's clearly not my fault? What have I done wrong to deserve such a cruel life?
Why do all people only think about themselves, think that what they do is right, judge and hurt others arbitrarily, and want to make everything right with just one word of forgiveness?
"I will never forgive you!"
The red suitcase was full when I came, but empty when I left.
"Aiye...where are you going so late?"
"Ai Ye...we were wrong, okay? Don't do this!"
"Artemisia argyi..."
There are no indiscriminate insults, no bad words, no hurtful pranks. As long as there is no ugly human nature, everywhere is paradise.
