March 1, 2017.
Shen Nianci hesitated for a long time and finally decided to confess her feelings, but she felt embarrassed to be too straightforward, so she decided to play a game with Li Yingze, which was to leave a message on the other's QQ space with the initials of the person she liked, and Li Yingze readily agreed.
The name Shen Nianci left was "LYZ", and the letters in Li Yingze's message had become blurred over time. She only vaguely remembered that it was three words, XZY or YZL. She had long forgotten whether it was XZY or YZL. She also didn't remember what Li Yingze replied to her after seeing his message. In her vague memory, she seemed to remember that he needed to think about it, but there was no result after a month.
On April 4, 2017, I remember it was after April Fools' Day, which happened to be a weekend. She met Li Yingze. Shen Nianci urgently grasped the straps of her schoolbag, and Li Yingze followed her silently and walked with her for a long time. Shen Nianci was also conflicted for a long time, and she still wanted an answer.
In adolescence, too straightforward words can easily make people shy, but Shen Nianci struggled for a long time and finally chose a more euphemistic sentence: "Ze Ze, have you thought about it?"
The name Ze Ze is unique to Shen Nianci. She is the only one who calls him that. It seems that Shen Nianci should have left something in his life.
Shen Nianci stood in front of Li Yingze with his back to him, waiting for his answer.
After a long time, Li Yingze replied with a "Yeah." His voice was pitifully small. Shen Nianci didn't know whether he was shy or just downplaying it. However, Shen Nianci didn't think too much about it. As long as she agreed to it, she would be very happy. She happily skipped and walked in front of Li Yingze, looking back at him from time to time.
The two of them were very strange. In the past, Li Yingze always liked to walk behind Shen Nianci, about half a meter away. Later, Shen Nianci liked to walk behind him, also half a meter away. Perhaps in the dark, some things were quietly changing.
At that time, she was really happy, like a lost deer that found its way home. She felt her steps were lighter when walking on the road, and the chirping seemed to be happy for her as well.
But the good times didn’t last long. In just one week, or less than seven days to be exact, Li Yingze posted a message on QQ Space. Shen Nianci still remembers the words: Actually, being alone is pretty good... and added three periods.
When Shen Nianci saw this dynamic, her hands were shaking. She was stunned at the school gate. After a long time, she opened the QQ chat box in a panic and typed: I'm sorry. She also sent many words to keep him. Later, Shen Nianci often regretted it. Maybe he didn't really want to break up at that time, but she gave him a way out.
Why did Shen Nianci apologize? Because that day, Shen Nianci wanted to see him so much that she bought a lot of fruits and waited at the station from midnight to six in the afternoon, but he didn't come. Shen Nianci was a little angry. She really hated waiting for people. She didn't remember what she sent to Li Yingze, she only remembered the helplessness and sadness when she saw that message.
Later, Shen Nianci felt a little regretful. Maybe he had something urgent to do that day, or was delayed by something. Just when he was extremely annoyed, he received questions from Shen Nianci. Anyone would feel uncomfortable if they were in his place. No one wants to be misunderstood and only blamed.
Perhaps, Shen Nianci was too unwilling to accept this, so he found an excuse and a decent way out for himself.
Shen Nianci, what exactly is trapping you?
The next weekend, Shen Nianci stood on the road he had to pass, waiting for his arrival, but after seeing him, Shen Nianci's first reaction was to escape, so she pulled her friend and walked towards his school.
Li Yingze also slowed down his pace and followed behind her. When passing an intersection, Li Yingze overtook her, but Shen Nianci's subconscious reaction was to walk up to him and talk to him. She didn't remember , but she only remembered that Li Yingze bought her a bottle of jasmine tea, which is still in Shen Nianci's home. Even though it has expired long ago, maybe more than just the bottle of water has expired.
Gradually, their contact became less and less, but Li Yingze would still slow down and follow Shen Nianci every time she met him. In fact, Shen Nianci didn't know if he was following her. Maybe it was just that Shen Nianci was on her way to school and they happened to be on the same road.
In the fall of 2017, Li Yingze's school, which served as the junior high school branch of Shen Nianci, had to move back to Shen Nianci's school because the school was going to be demolished. Shen Nianci was very happy. On the first day of school, she prayed in her heart for a long time that she could meet him.
She was lucky, they really met. Shen Nianci just passed by Li Yingze. After passing by, Shen Nianci could even feel Li Yingze's gaze, but she didn't dare to look back. She only .
Later, Shen Nianci liked to follow behind him, keeping a distance that was neither too far nor too close.
Just like that, it seemed that every time Li Yingze looked back he could see Shen Nianci's figure, whether it was after school, after class, or on the way to school. I remember that not long after the start of school, Li Yingze, as a third-year junior high school student, had to tutor for fifteen minutes after the evening self-study, and Shen Nianci, as a second-year high school student, had to tutor for thirty minutes. That night, Shen Nianci asked Li Yingze to go to the playground, and Li Yingze gladly agreed.
She remembered that it was almost winter at that time.
Their fate is really wonderful. Li Yingze's teaching building is also on the fourth floor, which happens to be a right-angled shape. Shen Nianci's seat is next to the window, and so is Li Yingze's. Just by looking over inadvertently, you can see Li Yingze studying hard, and you can also see him getting up from a nap, being in a daze, and listening carefully to the lecture.
That night, Shen Nianci kept observing what he was doing. Sure enough, when everyone went back to the dormitory to wash up, he was still sitting in the classroom studying, waiting for Shen Nianci to finish class. Shen Nianci was so excited that she later thought that maybe Li Yingze was not waiting for her that night, but was just studying. She didn't think so, so she lied to herself, he was just waiting for me.
Shen Nianci stood downstairs of her teaching building. She still had to clean that night. She looked through the window from time to time and could still see the lights on in the third grade classroom of Class 3. There was only that lonely figure inside. Shen Nianci quickly cleaned up and ran downstairs to wait for him. She watched the lights in his classroom turn off and he went downstairs. Finally, his figure appeared in Shen Nianci's sight.
Li Yingze walked over, and Shen Nianci turned around and walked down with him side by side. It was almost winter and it was very cold. There were almost no people on the playground. The cold wind blew on Shen Nianci's body, but she didn't feel cold. Instead, she felt a little excited and nervous.
She no longer remembered what they talked about that night. She only remembered that they had wasted two-thirds of their time, and with only a little distance left, they said a few words. It seemed that they had reconciled that night. When they left, Shen Nianci said, "Remember to agree to my friend request."
She only remembered that on the way, her elbow gently touched Li Yingze's elbow, and the throbbing feeling was still fresh in Shen Nianci's memory.
Li Yingze said "hmm", which was considered as an agreement. Shen Nianci happily sent him to the dormitory and went back to sleep. That night, she remembered that Li Yingze sent her a long article. She no longer cared about the details. She only remembered one sentence: "I am not worthy of your love."
And on the afternoon before that night, Shen Nianci returned to him the notebook that he had "stole" from him, filled with what he wanted to say, and he finished reading it in just a few minutes, so that was the reason for that long speech.
Li Yingze said a lot, but it had been too long, and Shen Nianci was a little confused. She was confused about Li Yingze's attitude and feelings towards her, and she was confused about whether she should remember or forget after so much time had passed.
Shen Nianci would often be with him, maybe going home, maybe going back to the dormitory, or maybe going back to the classroom. As long as Li Yingze was there, Shen Nianci would always find a way to follow him.
Later, whether he got used to it or it didn’t matter anymore, Li Yingze turned around less and less often, and he would even stop looking at their teaching building when leaving the dormitory.
What Shen Nianci still can't forget is that one weekend in April 2018, the unwilling Shen Nianci wanted to take another gamble, so during the morning reading on Saturday, he took a leave note to ask for leave from the head teacher who was in charge of the morning self-study. The head teacher was a little fat, probably in his early thirties. He looked very fierce, but Shen Nianci, with a nervous mood, still chose to pluck up the courage to go.
The head teacher took her outside and asked her why she asked for leave. She had forgotten the reason she gave because the only thing she remembered about that time was him.
With a casual glance, she saw Li Yingze looking at her in his seat. Shen Nianci thought she had seen it wrong. On the way to ask for leave, she confirmed again and again several times that Li Yingze was really looking at her, but she felt it hard to believe in her heart. It was not that she did not believe it, but that she did not dare to.
As soon as the morning self-study get out of class was over, Shen Nianci rushed back to the dormitory to pack her things. She was very fast and then ran to the school gate to wait for him. She prayed a thousand times in her heart not to miss it, not to miss it.
Fortunately, her prayers worked. She saw Li Yingze and his companions coming out, so she followed him.
During this time, Li Yingze looked back at her several times. Shen Nianci followed him nervously. Suddenly, Li Yingze waved his hand to stop a bus. Before getting on the bus, he glanced at Shen Nianci with an intriguing look. Shen Nianci was a little panicked. She actually had a little social phobia. When they arrived at the station, she didn't dare to shout: "Master, stop, I need to get off."
But that day she plucked up the courage and got on the bus some distance away from where Li Yingze got on. The bus was already full of people, so she had to sit on the small platform behind the driver. The journey took less than twenty minutes.
She could feel that Li Yingze had been looking at her for a long time, but she didn't dare to look him in the eye. The two of them just glanced at each other. Later, the car arrived at the station and Shen Nianci got off first. In fact, she got off the car only after she saw Li Yingze stand up.
Li Yingze followed behind her. Shen Nianci thought a lot. Li Yingze also slowed down his pace and followed behind her. She could even hear the sound of Li Yingze's clothes rubbing against each other when he walked. She only knew that he was very close to her. After walking across a narrow bridge, facing the regret, Shen Nianci took the lead and spoke: "Zeze, are you still angry about what happened yesterday?"
"Hmm? What's up?"
Shen Nianci didn't know whether Li Yingze really didn't know or was joking with her. From his subsequent conversation, Shen Nianci found that he really didn't care.
At that time, Shen Nianci was still very brave. While Li Yingze's class was having lunch, she dared to run to their classroom to give Li Yingze something. As a result, she was scolded by their class monitor. Shen Nianci directly retorted at that time. Li Yingze was also present. The reason why Shen Nianci ran to his classroom was because she saw that Li Yingze did not eat after school, so she bought him bread and milk and sent them to him. She later found out that Li Yingze hated drinking milk.
This is what Shen Nianci was talking about. Li Yingze comforted her and told her not to think too much, saying that their squad leader was just like that. Shen Nianci felt warm in her heart after hearing this. She asked back, "Can you keep your distance from her?"