Fate is a wonderful thing. It can make you meet someone who will amaze you for the rest of your life, but it can also make you meet someone you will never meet in your entire life.
The lucky ones are the former, the unlucky ones are the latter, and Shen Nianci is the latter.
In the early autumn of 2016, Shen Nianci went to higher education, which meant that she might never see that person again, the person she could only hide in the corner and secretly watch.
She spent the first week of her freshman year in a daze, with no appetite. Her classmates were already making plans to go out with their new friends, but Shen Nianci was still just her deskmate.
Because she is too introverted, in other words, she has too low self-esteem.
Shen Nianci thought of taking advantage of the weekend to go out and stock up on some food and daily necessities.
She walked into a supermarket. There were a wide variety of goods on the shelves, but she lowered her head and walked towards the discount area. After buying things, she came out and unexpectedly saw a familiar figure at the entrance of the supermarket. She was stunned for a moment, then immediately rushed over and greeted happily: " Ze Ze , why are you here?"
"Transferred to another school." Li Yingze said lightly.
"Ah? Didn't you say that your parents don't agree with you transferring schools?" Shen Nianci said with some surprise.
Because she asked him, Shen Nianci felt that his grades were very good and he could not get a better education in their school. She once suggested that he transfer schools, but was rejected outright. Unexpectedly, he agreed now.
"After looking at the overall performance of the class, I agreed." Li Yingze said helplessly.
"Then we can meet often." Shen Nianci was secretly delighted. She felt that fate was so wonderful. She met him again. After a hurried farewell, Shen Nianci looked at his back in a daze.
Different from the secret crush in youth literature, Shen Nianci and Li Yingze were friends, and she would often play pranks on him with her friends, because at that time he looked so harmless, with innocence in his eyes.
At that time, Shen Nianci would never have thought that one day in the future, his eyes would no longer be clear, but alert, the kind of eyes that were alert to everything. Shen Nianci wanted to make him change back to his previous state, but she was not the right person, nor was she the one who could cure him.
In such clear eyes and healing smile, Shen Nianci fell step by step.
Such a seemingly innocent person, but in the second year of junior high school, he learned to fight like a gangster and ended up in the police station. Of course, Shen Nianci knew this news because she had a friend who was there.
When Shen Nianci heard the news, she was shocked, her face full of disbelief. In her heart, Li Yingze had never been such a person, and would never do such a thing. He was a good student, even a somewhat dull good student, unlike the kind of person who smoked a cigarette and bullied others.
She never thought that it might be because she didn't understand him.
When Li Yingze was in the first grade of junior high school, he sat in the last row because he was too tall. Even though he had good grades, he could only sit in the last row. At that time, Shen Nianci was in the class next to him and was in the third grade of junior high school.
Because Shen Nianci and his friends were "thick-skinned", they would sometimes joke with him, and as a result, they became familiar with each other.
When Shen Nianci graduated from junior high school, Li Yingze and another girl came on behalf of the class to congratulate Shen Nianci and his classmates on their graduation from the third year of junior high school.
Li Yingze stood on the podium, holding a speech, confidently expressing his blessings to his senior classmates. At that time, in Shen Nianci's eyes, he was the most beautiful form of youth, confident and shining. Even many years later, Shen Nianci still remembered him like this.
That is the most beautiful appearance of youth.
In contrast, the girl's voice was louder and more confident. Shen Nianci was sitting in the classroom with his eyes on Li Yingze. At that time, someone said, "You two are a good match." I was almost scared to death by Shen Nianci's eyes. Until now, Shen Nianci still hates that girl, even though they have no contact since then.
But that girl looked like the person Shen Nianci wanted to be the most. Unfortunately, inferiority complex filled her entire youth, and she would never be able to make a breakthrough.
Youth is like this. When you see the opposite sex around the person you like, you will subconsciously hate them.
As a representative of the first grade, Li Yingze went to eat with Shen Nianci after his speech. Li Yingze sat opposite Shen Nianci, a little reserved, and didn't pick dishes very much. Shen Nianci noticed it and picked a big bowl for him. Li Yingze said lightly, "Thank you."
Shen Nianci was delighted, but he could only pretend not to care and said, "You're welcome."
Li Yingze smiled back at her. He looked very handsome when he smiled, with two shallow dimples on the corners of his mouth and fair skin. For some reason, Shen Nianci liked to see him smile. She always felt that seeing her smile was like the sunshine in March, which made people feel warm in their hearts.
Shen Nianci always liked to stare at him in a daze intentionally or unintentionally, but at that time Shen Nianci's appearance was not outstanding. At first glance, she was what everyone called an ordinary face. This label followed her for a long time, but she had a good personality and was carefree .
But even so, it is difficult to conceal the inferiority in my heart.
"Then can you lend me your phone to play with for one night?" Shen Nianci asked cautiously, looking forward to Li Yingze's answer.
Although she didn't have any expectations, she still wanted to give it a try.
Li Yingze looked up at her and then nodded.
"Really?" Shen Nianci thought it would take a long time to borrow it, but he agreed all at once, and Shen Nianci didn't even have time to use the excuses he had prepared.
Shen Nianci followed Li Yingze and went into the classroom. Shen Nianci was waiting outside. Li Yingze took out his cell phone from the drawer and handed it to Shen Nianci in front of the whole class.
There was a sigh in the class. Shen Nianci's face was red. She didn't know if it was because of the alcohol, but her face was very red. In the dark night, the girl's thoughts were like the wind that could not be contained, blowing all over the starry sky.
Li Yingze didn't even log out of QQ in front of her, but directly clicked to add an account. At that time, they should still trust each other.
For many years afterwards, Shen Nianci kept wondering whether Li Yingze really liked her at that time? Or did he ever like her?
After struggling for a long time, she still didn't know the answer until she typed this sentence. Perhaps this is why she has been feeling uneasy for so many years.
After Li Yingze transferred to their branch school, Shen Nianci, who was in the same place as him, often asked him to go to school together on weekends. Their schools were not far away, just a few blocks away, and they both went to school for evening self-study on Sunday afternoons.
The difference is that Li Yingze has a day off on Saturday morning, while Shen Nianci has to wait until Sunday morning to have a day off, so she basically won't go home on the afternoon of the day off, as she thinks it's troublesome. Unless it's a short holiday, they might be able to go home together, but most of the time they don't see each other.
Shen Nianci still remembers one time, on a Sunday afternoon, she and Li Yingze thought it was still early, so they were strolling on the street. Suddenly, Li Yingze turned around and said a little embarrassedly: "Don't follow me anymore."
Shen Nianci looked back in confusion and found that there were several people behind him hiding in panic. Shen Nianci was puzzled and asked Li Yingze: "Who are they?"
"My classmate." Li Yingze said helplessly.
Later, Shen Nianci was grateful for this experience, because of this experience, she became his girlfriend for a short time. She got what she wished for. Shen Nianci was Li Yingze's girlfriend, otherwise they would not dare to do such a stupid thing.