Su Jingnian attended a public school. According to Sun Qing, he was a good student with excellent academic performance and good conduct. He was also a favorite of his teachers and parents and always lived in a dazzling halo.
Su Jingnian was indeed dazzling. Even though he only had a soft glow on him, people dared not touch him.
The second semester of senior year began in a tense learning atmosphere. Sun Qing fell behind in her studies. She always couldn't remember the questions I gave her. I patted her shoulder and unconsciously suggested, "Why don't you ask Su Jingnian to help you with your lessons?"
Sun Qing jumped up three feet high, hugged me and said happily: "A Yin, you are so smart."
The next day, Sun Qing asked me and Su Jingnian to go to the city library to study. The three of us found a quiet corner and did our homework together.
Su Jingnian's voice has been lingering in my ears, like the soft Wu dialect of Jiangnan. I don't know why, but when I see his profile, I always think of Zhuang Li. Maybe their profiles are both very stunning.
Every time they studied together, Sun Qing would hold the book and read seriously at first, but after a while, her upper and lower eyelids began to fight, and finally she simply fell asleep on the table with the book in her arms.
I looked helpless.
I wanted to wake her up, but Su Jingnian stopped me. He put his index finger to his lips and made a "silence" gesture, which looked very tempting. I nodded for some reason and did not wake Sun Qing up.
Su Jingnian handed me a piece of paper with the function formula on it, and asked me to draw the function graph.
The cube of the difference between X squared plus Y squared minus 1 is equal to the product of X squared and Y cubed.
To be honest, I really don’t know how to draw such a complex function.
So I shook my head and handed the paper back to Su Jingnian.
Su Jingnian laughed softly, and his whole body was dazzling.
He drew a few strokes, then handed the picture to me and whispered in my ear, "Ding Lanyin, how could you forget me?"
He actually drew a peach heart.
I stared at the peach heart in the coordinate system with wide eyes, feeling a little amused. But Su Jingnian's words were strange. Was I supposed to remember something?
I turned around and asked, "Is there anything I should remember?"
When I turned around, my lips almost brushed against Su Jingnian's nose. I was so close to him that I could even smell the faint mint scent on him, and his eyes were brighter than the stars in the sky.
The air is full of ambiguity.
My face flushed and I stared at the words on the book, but my mind was recalling the feeling of just now.
Su Jingnian seemed a little embarrassed. He sat up straight and his ears gradually turned red.
Later, when I think of this scene in my youth, I always sigh. Because I was too young, I naively thought that beautiful things were beautiful, such as Su Jingnian.
One day, Su Jingnian asked me to go to the city library to borrow books. I sat on the floor leaning against the bookshelf, reading the novel "Left Ear". Su Jingnian saw how focused I was, so he also borrowed a copy of "Left Ear" and sat next to me to read with me.
This novel is really good, and the characters in the novel are so wonderful. Li Bala dares to love and hate, and Xiao Erduo is stubborn and persistent. Their youth is exactly our youth.
When I read the part where Xu Yi appeared, I suddenly burst into tears because I remembered Zhuang Li who had disappeared for a long time.
Maybe I didn't notice it at the time, but when I read about Xiao Erduo secretly looking at Xu Yi, I realized that I had had that kind of look in my eyes before - with expectation, desire, admiration, and fear.
This book made me cry uncontrollably.
Suddenly, a gentle hand covered my eyes and my tears wet his palm.
Just as Zhang Yang leaned close to my ear, Su Jingnian also whispered something in my ear.
He said: "Ding Lanyin, I hope you will remember me, just like Xiao Erduo will never forget Xu Yi."
I am not Little Ear, and Su Jingnian is not Xu Yi.
After reading this book and borrowing some books, I left the city library with red eyes. As soon as Su Jingnian and I walked out of the city library, we ran into Sun Qing. She was holding a stack of books in her hands, and it seemed that she was also borrowing books from the city library. The first thing she said when she saw Su Jingnian was: "I asked you to come to the city library to help me borrow some reference books, didn't you say you were busy? Why are you here with A Yin?"
I had no idea that Su Jingnian had rejected Sun Qing's invitation and then invited me. At that moment, I didn't dare to look into Sun Qing's eyes, as if I had done something wrong.
Su Jingnian explained calmly: "I finished my work and happened to meet her, so we came here together. Also, I remembered what you said, so I borrowed books for you." After he said that, he raised some study materials in his hand.
Sun Qing looked at me with a puzzled look.
Su Jingnian also looked at me, waiting for my answer.
In order to prevent Sun Qing from thinking too much, I had no choice but to nod. Although her expression had eased a lot, she was still a little unhappy. She suggested, "Let's go eat together."
Su Jingnian glanced at me and replied, "I won't go, you guys go." After that, he stuffed a book into my hand and left in a taxi.
Sun Qing grabbed the book out of curiosity and flipped through it. A bookmark accidentally fell out of the book. Sun Qing picked it up and saw a few words written on the back of the bookmark: The graph of the function is what I want to say.
Her expression suddenly became extremely unnatural.
Sun Qing had studied that function graph and spent a lot of time on it.
She put the bookmark back into the book, handed it over, and said with a forced smile, "It seems that Su Jingnian likes you."
"Maybe." I originally wanted to throw the bookmark into the trash can, but for some reason, when I walked to the trash can, I turned back and put the bookmark into my wallet.
The time of senior year passed quickly, and the college entrance examination came in a blink of an eye. I performed well in the exam and was admitted to a key university, while Sun Qing was only admitted to a junior college.
The happiest thing is that the two schools are very close to each other, so we can play together often.
But what I didn’t expect was that on the first day of college, I met Su Jingnian, who was admitted to the same school as me.
That day, I was studying how to get to the girls' dormitory, when suddenly a warm hand held mine. I was startled at the time, and when I turned around, I found it was Su Jingnian, who smiled like a child who had succeeded in a prank.
He looked at the hands holding each other and said with a smile: "This is my answer, what about yours?"
My answer...
The image of Zhuang Li leaving indifferently appeared in my mind again.
I pulled my hand out of Su Jingnian's and said calmly, "Let me think about it."
Su Jingnian's hands and Zhuang Li's hands are completely opposite, one is warm and the other is cold. Perhaps someone who understands would choose to hold the warm hands.
Perhaps Su Jingnian felt that he had waited too long, and before I gave him an answer, he made a grand confession at school.
It was during the school's autumn sports meeting, and I was asked by a senior from the sports department to be a cheerleader. I said I didn't know how to cheer, and the senior said, "You just need to stand at the finish line, and that will be the best way for those boys to cheer you up."
Okay, I admit that when my senior said this, I still felt vain.
When the radio was announcing "Male athletes for the 1,500-meter race please report", I saw Su Jingnian grab the microphone, walk towards me, and ask seriously: "Ding Lanyin, are you willing to be my girlfriend?"
His confession was not fancy, nor was there a long introduction. He just came to me with the microphone and expressed his heart with sincere and simple words.
At this time, the entire playground fell silent in tacit understanding.
I was standing not far from the podium, so I could see Su Jingnian's eyes. I said like a possessed man, "If you win first place in the 1,500-meter race, I'll promise you."
Su Jingnian nodded without hesitation and signed up at the last minute. No one said he broke the rules.
After the command gun was fired, Su Jingnian rushed out like an arrow from a bow. Although he looked frail, he ran so fast. On the contrary, those who participated in the competition followed behind leisurely, as if they were determined to create opportunities for Su Jingnian.
In the first lap, Su Jingnian was in good condition. But in the second lap, his face became paler and his pace became slower. In the third lap, he was shaky and could fall down at any time, but he still gritted his teeth and persisted.
In the last half lap, he ran past me and I could feel his consciousness becoming more and more blurred.
I couldn't help but run to him, stopped him, and said, "Su Jingnian, I promise you."
At that moment, before I could react, he hugged me and said intermittently: "If you...promise...you can't regret it..."
I nodded vigorously.
Actually, I like and admire Su Jingnian. He is too perfect, there is no one who doesn't like him. I once loved Zhuang Li, and I couldn't forget him. After all, he was the first boy I dated and the first boy who kissed me. Maybe I won't be able to forget him for a long time.
But how can people always live in the past?
I have to look forward. Zhuang Li and I are no longer possible. I am not stupid enough to stay pure for Zhuang Li and foolishly use memories to support my future.
It was not until I went to college that I realized that many people had loved others before, but they never stayed together. The real world is so complicated. The older we get, the wider the world we see and the more people we meet. This means that it is impossible for people to love only one person in their lifetime.
Zhuang Li only belongs to the past. Now, only Su Jingnian really exists.
Everyone in the dormitory said that if you don't have a romantic relationship in college, then your college life is a waste. If there is no other choice, Su Jingnian is the best choice. If you want to have a romantic relationship, then have one. Anyway, you are free anyway, and you are single anyway.
Being with Su Jingnian, I will seal all the memories with Zhuang Li deep in my heart and concentrate on dating Su Jingnian.
I am happy to be with him.
Every morning, Su Jingnian would buy breakfast and wait for me downstairs in the girls' dormitory, and then we would go to class together. When eating, he would always considerately ask me what I wanted to eat, and then make a decision. When watching a movie, he would not only focus on the screen, but at some point he would suddenly come over, kiss my face, and smile confidently.
In winter, he didn't want me to wash clothes in the dormitory with cold water, fearing that my hands would get frostbite, so he would always collect my dirty clothes and take them to the dry cleaners for cleaning before sending them back. He was willing to do all the errands for me, including fetching water and running errands.
When two of us are together, I finally feel the beauty of love.
It turns out that I have known Su Jingnian for a long time. After dating for a month, Su Jingnian asked me if I still remembered him. I said I didn't know, and then he told me that he and I went to the same kindergarten when we were young.
I was very surprised by this. It turned out that my fate with Su Jingnian started when we were in kindergarten. I suspected that he was talking nonsense and asked him to show me his childhood photos.
When he shyly took out his childhood photo and handed it to me, I finally believed that there was such a person in my childhood, but the difference was too big.
Looking at a handsome man like Su Jingnian, you would never imagine that he was a little fat boy when he was a child. To be precise, he was like a ball, and he seemed to be rolling when he walked.
In the few memories I have, I only remember that Su Jingnian was particularly unpopular with other children at that time. All the children didn't want to play with him, except me. In fact, I didn't want to play with a fat boy at that time, but the teacher always asked me to play games with him.
Su Jingnian said that at that time he swore that he would become very handsome in the future and then marry me.
I smiled and said that he was precocious and knew how to get married at such a young age.
Su Jingnian said a little embarrassedly: "Because I hope my wife is a fairy, and at that time I thought you were like a fairy."
Hearing him say that, I couldn't help but show off.
Su Jingnian tolerated me, let me go, and accepted me, and also took great care of me.
Every time I talk about Su Jingnian in the dormitory, I always have a happy smile on my face.
Su Jingnian is so good to me that I have overdrawn my future happiness.
If I had known that so many things would happen after being with Su Jingnian, I would rather not have this happiness.
When there are not many classes, or when Su Jingnian is busy, I will go to find Sun Qing, ignore her strange mood and share with her every detail about Su Jingnian.
But I didn't know that I was going to torture her piece by piece in this way.
Grandma Sun Qing's illness has not been cured. Several times when I went to her dormitory to look for her, her roommates said that she had gone out to work. She worked so hard, it really made people feel distressed.
Sometimes I would go to the bar where she worked, watch her busying around, and pick her up after get off work.
When I went there again, the bar owner said she had resigned.
So I ran to Sun Qing's dormitory to find her again.
When I arrived at the dormitory, Sun Qing was staring at her phone. When she saw me, her first reaction was to hide her phone.
I smiled maliciously and asked, "Where did you see me hiding my phone? Was I chatting with a boy?"
Sun Qing looked a little flustered. She quickly stood up and pretended to tickle me: "You are talking nonsense. I will punish you."
I fought back, not wanting to be outdone, and asked, "Why did you quit your job at the bar?"
Sun Qing surrendered breathlessly: "Some kind-hearted people donated money, so I don't have to work so hard."
"Then you must repay your benefactor."
"Of course."
If I had known earlier that the so-called benefactor Sun Qing mentioned was Zhuang Li, if I had known earlier about the dirty deal between them, perhaps the ending would have been rewritten, and perhaps everyone would have been happy.