Chapter 2 Chaos Again 01
"Jian Lening, how do you know Xu Yan? Which junior high school did you go to? Why didn't I hear of you when I was in junior high school?" During the break of military training, Tang Yu pestered me to ask about Xu Yan .
Tang Yu and Xu Yan had been classmates in elementary and junior high school, and the two families seemed to have some connection.
I didn't want anyone to know what happened between Xu Yan and me, but Tang Yu pestered me so much that I could only explain to her half-truthfully: "I used to be in Anxin Middle School, and Xu Yan came to our school to look for my classmates, so we got to know each other."
I didn't lie, the fact is indeed like this, Xu Yan came to see Lin Jiarui.
"Are your classmates male or female?"
"male."
Tang Yu said "Oh" meaningfully, and glanced at me with his narrow and long phoenix eyes. He was silent for a while, and seemed very puzzled. He continued to ask me: "Did something bad happen between you? Otherwise, why did you show that expression when you saw Xu Yan last time? Are you afraid of Xu Yan?"
My hand holding the hat trembled, I took a deep breath, tried to find my normal tone, and answered: "My classmate and Xu Yan don't have a good relationship. There were some unpleasant things before, but it's all in the past. There's nothing to say."
"I see. It must be Xu Yan who came to your school to cause trouble for your classmates. He has been fighting with people everywhere in recent years. He was not like this when he was a child. He was quiet and gentle, with a cute baby face. It must be because his younger brother was born!"
Tang Yu looked like he understood it very well, sighed, and said helplessly, with a hint of sadness between his handsome brows.
I guess she felt it was not nice to talk about other people's family affairs, so she stopped talking. I didn't ask her any more because I knew what she was talking about.
Lin Jiarui once told me about Xu Yan's life experience. Xu Yan's parents now have another son, so the treatment he receives is of course different.
I have never had a good impression of Xu Yan. There was a time when I hated him very much. I hated him for destroying everything for me, just as I hated all the people who abandoned me that night. Because of them, I could no longer live a clean life like a normal girl.
A girl may not be proud, noble or outstanding, but she should live a clean life. But I am not clean.
It was not until a few days ago that Lin Jiarui's appearance made me realize that my so-called hatred was just a feeling when I was licking my wounds alone.
No one was wrong, including Xu Yan.
When he hurt me, he believed that I was the one who killed Tong Xingyu. He didn't know that his poor sister was already in the advanced stage of cancer like his biological father and was doomed to die.
Xu Yan is a radical person. When he gets angry, he can only choose to hurt others to comfort himself. In fact, he is very pathetic. It is easy to imagine how his adoptive parents will treat him, as he is an adopted son in such a family. Although he appears to be a child of a wealthy family, he should not be happy in his heart.
Did that family give him warmth? If so, why did he choose to fall into depravity, and why did he care so much about his biological sister Tong Xingyu?
If I say that I don’t hate Xu Yan at all now, that would be a lie. I still hate him, but not as deep as before.
Whenever I think of his insults to me, my heart aches, so I cannot forgive him, even though he is as pathetic as I am.
The assembly whistle sounded, and Tang Yu and I stopped chatting. Both sides seemed to be aware of the awkward atmosphere.
The military training lasted until sunset. When we dispersed to eat, the sophomores and juniors had already come out of the cafeteria. Suddenly, a familiar figure flashed before my eyes. When I thought I was having an illusion, Tang Yu beside me suddenly screamed as if he had discovered a new continent.
"Ah! That's my classmate from the first grade of junior high school!"
Just as I was feeling astonished, I saw Tang Yu waving his hands with surprise towards a distance, shouting Lin Jiarui's name.
Then, in my dilated pupils, Lin Jiarui's figure appeared, and he walked towards us with the same look of surprise on his face.
"Tang Yu, why is it you? You and Jian Lening are in the same class?"
I was very surprised that Lin Jiarui was in our school. He didn't look like he was just passing by, but rather like he had just come out of the cafeteria after lunch.
"Yes! You know Jian Lening! Oh, he transferred to your school when he was in the second grade of junior high school, right?" Tang Yu asked me.
"Yes, Lin Jiarui and I are in the same class." I answered her honestly, then cast my eyes to the boy next to me and asked in confusion, "Why are you here?"
Lin Jiarui scratched his head, pulled me over, glanced at Tang Yu awkwardly, then lowered his head and whispered in my ear: "I'm in the physical education class here. When I left that place , the high school entrance exam was over, and I didn't do well in the make-up exam. But I'm good at sports, so my family paid some money and I came here. In fact, I came here just for you, because I was afraid that you would be lonely here. I didn't tell you last time because I was afraid that you would ignore me, so I didn't tell you, and then I forgot to tell you."
Lin Jiarui pressed tightly against me. I could still smell the shower gel on him. Looking at his clothes, I realized that he should have finished his shower.
But how could he do it so quickly? We had just been disbanded. Doesn’t the physical education class have to undergo military training?
My ears felt warm, and I could feel Lin Jiarui's breath hitting my ears. My face suddenly felt hot, and as I tried to move away, I saw Tang Yu looking at us and smiling ambiguously.
My ears felt a little numb and Lin Jiarui's words were still echoing in my mind.
He said he came to this school because of me.
I suddenly felt warm in my heart.
When he first transferred to our school, he jokingly said, "An Xiaoduo and I are here, so how could he not come?"
But I always knew that he came for An Xiaoduo, but this time, he said he came for me.
I looked up at Lin Jiarui. He was grinning at me with a very sincere expression.
After going through so much, I actually believed it so easily this time. Lin Jiarui really wanted to protect me this time, just like a true friend.
Like he said – “I’m here!”
This time he is really there, truly existing in this strange campus. I can see his familiar smile as long as I look up.
My heart, which had been lonely and empty for a long time, was suddenly filled, and I felt really warm.
"Wow! Something is not right between you two! Jian Lening, weren't those things Lin Jiarui gave you last time? Seeing your face turn red, I must have guessed right! Tell me, are you two in that kind of relationship?" Tang Yu leaned on my shoulder and said mischievously.
The attention of passers-by was attracted by her words. I felt very embarrassed and looked at Lin Jiarui with a somewhat amusing and helpless look.
Although I don't have a deep understanding of love, I have always been able to clearly distinguish between love and friendship.
I knew from a young age that the relationship between Lin Jiarui and I was never love.
Just like I can wrestle with him and not feel awkward, but when we lean against each other and talk, his lips against my ears make me feel uncomfortable.
We all know that the person hidden in each other's hearts is not each other.
The person Lin Jiarui has liked has always been An Xiaoduo, from elementary school to now, and it has not changed over the years. Although he has never mentioned it, I know that when he was detained for hurting Xu Yan for me, An Xiaoduo left with Qi Xuan, and he must have felt bad.
After guarding for so many years, An Xiaoduo still left with someone else.
And what about me? Compared with Lin Jiarui, how much better off am I?
"It's better to meet by chance than to make an appointment. Since we don't have classes at night during military training, Mr. Lin should treat us to a meal outside! The food in the school cafeteria is terrible!"
Tang Yu is a very enthusiastic person. After a few casual chats, he persuaded Lin Jiarui to treat us to dinner.
Lin Jiarui did not refuse. He happily put his arms around Tang Yu and my shoulders and walked towards the school gate.
When we turned the corner, we met a teenager who was talking on the phone.
"I won't reply this week. I have something to do. That's it. I'm hanging up."
The boy hung up the phone in annoyance and punched the wall hard. When he turned around, he saw us and his expression was stunned for a second.
When I met Xu Yan again, the entanglement between us was destined to be difficult to resolve.
"Xu Yan, what a coincidence, I can meet you here? My old classmate Lin Jiarui said he would treat us to a meal, do you want to come with us? One more person won't eat much, and Mr. Lin is rich anyway, right, Lin Jiarui?"
Tang Yu, who was unaware of the situation, greeted Xu Yan enthusiastically.
Lin Jiarui stood aside with a gloomy face. He didn't say anything, but just silently put his arms around my shoulders and held me tightly against his chest.
I know that he wanted to give me strength and was worried that I would collapse when I saw Xu Yan, but he didn't know that Xu Yan and I had met before, more than once.
I smiled calmly at Lin Jiarui and told him I was fine.
The situation remained at a stalemate. Xu Yan looked at us coldly from the opposite side. There was a hint of resentment in his eyes when he looked at Lin Jiarui. He hated Lin Jiarui for stabbing him with a knife.
I thought Xu Yan would refuse, but he suddenly raised his lips and chuckled: "Go, why not? If someone treats you, it would be a waste if you don't eat!"
After saying that, he walked over and squeezed between me and Lin Jiarui, laughing wantonly, as if the resentment on his face just now was an illusion, as if all the unpleasantness that had happened between us before did not exist.
Lin Jiarui chose a Sichuan restaurant near the school because Tang Yu wanted to eat spicy food.
I didn't have too many requirements on what to eat. Xu Yan didn't say a word the whole way. Lin Jiarui had already eaten before us, and since he met Xu Yan, he probably didn't have much appetite.
The three of us each had our own thoughts, but we didn't want to show them in front of Tang Yu.
Tang Yu was holding the menu and ordering dishes excitedly.
The seats were for four people, so it was difficult to arrange them. Lin Jiarui and I sat in a row, opposite Xu Yan and Tang Yu. Tang Yu wanted to sit outside, so Xu Yan was squeezed in, facing me. When I looked up, I could see the boy's dark and cold eyes. He was staring out the window, and I didn't know what he was thinking.
I took a sip of boiled water and casually flipped through the menu on the table. Lin Jiarui was pulled by Tang Yu to discuss what to eat. He looked at me from time to time with a bitter smile on his lips.
Tang Yu didn't mean it, but it really made us embarrassed.
Looking at the prices on the menu, I couldn't help but widen my eyes and glanced at Lin Jiarui with some worry.
The dishes in this restaurant are very expensive, any one dish costs more than 50 yuan. Tang Yu comes from a wealthy family, so he naturally doesn't think the dishes here are expensive. With the mentality of making a killing from Lin Jiarui, he bought even more ruthlessly.
Although I know that Lin Jiarui's family is rich, I always feel that it is not worth eating so much in one meal.
"Tang Yu, that's all. Don't order any more. The four of us can't eat that much. Besides, Lin Jiarui has already eaten. I don't have much appetite either."
I finally couldn't help but call out to the rude Tang Yu. Upon hearing what I said, Tang Yu looked at me with a joking expression, closed the menu, and said, "Tsk tsk! You said there was nothing wrong between you two, but now you're afraid that I'll bankrupt him, so you come out to stop me!"
"Don't talk nonsense!" I was a little annoyed and my tone unconsciously became heavier.
Tang Yu was stunned for a moment, then stopped laughing. His face looked a little ugly, and he muttered, "I'm kidding. Why are you so serious?"
I have never been good at explaining, which would annoy others, and I didn’t know how to explain it. I just sat there blankly, lowering my head and drinking water in depression.
I don't like people always talking about things that don't exist.
The once dull atmosphere became even more oppressive.
Lin Jiarui suddenly stood up from his seat, holding a menu in one hand, and patted Tang Yu's shoulder with his other hand, saying with a smile: "Miss Tang is still a child who has not grown up. Be good! Brother will treat you to ice cream."
After saying that, he turned and went to the service counter to pay the bill - the rules of this restaurant were different from other places, you had to pay the bill before the food could be served.
Tang Yu was like a child. She would be happy whenever Lin Jiarui coaxed her. She followed Lin Jiarui to the service counter and pestered him for ice cream. Only Xu Yan and I were left at the table.
Perhaps our previous argument aroused his interest. Xu Yan withdrew his gaze from the window, played with his phone, and raised his lips habitually. I have never understood his smile, and I don't know how much coldness and warmth are in his smile.
He said, "Jian Lening, you are still entangled with him. Are you trying to force me to make things difficult for you?"
I pretended not to hear him and continued drinking water with my head down.
Lin Jiarui said that he and Xu Yan used to be friends, and the fight between them was caused by the child star Yu, and because of me, he did not have a good ending.
I don't understand why Xu Yan hates Lin Jiarui so much.
Tong Xingyu was hospitalized not because Lin Jiarui beat her, and Lin Jiarui also paid the price for stabbing him, so why is he still so persistent?
It was not until later that I realized that this was a question of man's dignity.
Xu Yan told me that he is a man , and the most inviolable thing for a man is his dignity.
Even if Lin Jiarui didn't beat his sister, didn't Lin Jiarui's behavior also hurt Tong Xingyu? He spent money to seek comfort from Tong Xingyu, and the love that An Xiaoduo couldn't give him. No matter how high-sounding the reason was, it couldn't cover up his selfish nature. He selfishly bought Tong Xingyu's self-esteem with money after being hurt by An Xiaoduo. This deeply hurt Xu Yan. As a brother, he actually let his own sister be someone else's substitute girlfriend for a living. This hurt him more than Lin Jiarui stabbing him with a knife.
When I think of Tong Xingyu, I always think of her eyes that are very similar to An Xiaoduo's, but much purer than An Xiaoduo's. I always think of that girl's innocent smile, and she asked me innocently: "Jian Lening, your grades are so good, can you help me calculate how many years it will take to spend 36,615.40 yuan if I spend 10 yuan a day? My brain is terrible, I'm not very good at calculating."
I suddenly felt a pang of sadness in my heart, and my eyes were a little wet. It was not until Lin Jiarui reached out and pushed me that I came back to my senses from the memory of the girl.
"Jian Lening, why don't you eat?"
The boy sitting on my right smiled at me, very warmly.
"This is delicious, Lin Jiarui. Your ice cream will melt if you don't eat it. If you don't want to eat it, I'll eat it for you."
Tang Yu snatched the chocolate double star that had already melted a little from Lin Jiarui's hand, with a smug smile on his bright face.
Lin Jiarui was not angry and continued to pick up the dishes slowly.
Except for Tang Yu who was talking, the three of us were silent. Usually, someone would answer after she asked a question.
"Xu Yan, why aren't you wearing military training clothes? Are you also in the physical education class like Lin Jiarui?"
With ice cream in his mouth, Tang Yu asked Xu Yan beside him in slurred words.
Xu Yan raised his head slightly, glanced at Tang Yu, then moved his gaze to Lin Jiarui who was concentrating on eating, and said casually: "I just got stabbed and survived, how can I have the energy to go to the gym class?"
"You were stabbed? When did it happen? How come I didn't know? Where was he stabbed? Who stabbed you? What deep hatred did he have against you?"
My hand holding the water cup couldn't help but tremble, and the cup fell to the ground and broke into many pieces on the spot. I squatted down in panic to pick it up, and my finger was cut as soon as it touched the glass shards. Bright red blood oozed from my fingertips, but I didn't feel any pain.
"Let me do it!" Lin Jiarui squatted beside me at some point, grabbed a tissue from the table to wrap my bleeding fingers, and then picked up the glass fragments on the ground himself.
I saw his thin back trembling.
My eyes felt a little sore and I blinked. I wanted to cry but I couldn't.
I feel so sad, so sad for all of us.
Tang Yu was still asking Xu Yan about that matter. Xu Yan stood up from his seat and smiled at Tang Yu: "Lin Jiarui is right. Tang Yu, you are like a child. You believe everything he says. I'm full. I'm leaving first. Thank you, Mr. Lin, for today. I'll treat you another day."
While Xu Yan was speaking, Lin Jiarui's cell phone rang.
Lin Jiarui glanced at the screen of his mobile phone, was stunned for a moment, then waved to us and ran outside to answer the phone.
I looked at Lin Jiarui's hurriedly departing back, and felt inexplicably panicked, as if something was slowly slipping away.
"You're leaving without eating anything? What a bummer. I don't want to eat anymore. Let's go together. Jian Lening, do you still want to eat?"
Tang Yu grabbed Xu Yan who was about to leave and said to me with his head tilted.
I shook my head and looked at the table full of untouched food. I couldn't muster up an appetite at all.
Tang Yu wanted to buy skin care products, so she asked Xu Yan to accompany her, while I waited for Lin Jiarui at the entrance of the hotel.
Lin Jiarui was standing under a sycamore tree by the road, talking on the phone, with a nervous yet joyful expression on his face.
A drizzle began to fall from the sky. I stood under the eaves, looking at Lin Jiarui in the rain, and instantly understood who the call was from.
Seeing that the rain was getting heavier, I bought an umbrella from a roadside stall, opened it, and walked towards the boy in the rain.
Even if it was her who called, there was no need for him to get so excited, and he didn't care even if it rained.
I secretly complained about Lin Jiarui's stupidity, but I couldn't help but feel sorry for him. He was so stubborn, just like me when I was a child, that "little eyes" that could make me forget his indifference and smile instantly as long as Xuanxuan looked back.
In some ways, I am so similar to Lin Jiarui.
"I bought it as you said and gave it as a gift. She took it, so she should be happy."
I stopped walking abruptly, and stared stiffly at Lin Jiarui who walked to the newsstand nearby and continued to make a phone call.
I stood five steps away from him, listening to his gradually hoarse voice and the gentle voice faintly coming from the phone. The warmth in my body was gradually disappearing, and the heart that was filled to the brim not long ago was slowly being hollowed out.
Before Lin Jiarui hung up the phone, I turned around in time and rushed into the incessant rain with an expressionless face, leaving only an umbrella on the ground, upside down, filled with rain water.
"Will your eyes return after they are healed?"
"Have you told Qixuan about her? What did he say? Does he know that Xiaoyan likes him?"
"Xiaoduo, I feel a little tired. I know your heart is not with me, but I will still wait. If you don't plan to come back, tell me, I won't wait any longer. I told myself, I will wait for three years. If you don't come back in these three years, and if no one wants Xiaoyan, I will take her."
"I think she's quite lonely, and I'm quite lonely too. It would have been better if I had fallen in love with her when I was a kid."
…
It turns out that they all knew.
An Xiaoduo knew it, Qixuan knew it too, they all knew that I was hurt by Xu Yan.
It was Lin Jiarui who said that he took it upon himself to tell his beloved An Xiaoduo about the harm I had suffered. Did he think that An Xiaoduo would feel sad for me because of this ?
We are no longer the An Xiaoduo and Jian Lening of our childhood.
An Xiaoduo, who hates me so much and has hurt me before, must be very happy after knowing this. She must be thinking: Look, Jian Lening, you are so pitiful. Qixuan doesn't want you, and now even God has abandoned you. Your parents don't know about this yet, right? If they knew, your mother would definitely have another heart attack. Qixuan also knows, but so what, will he sympathize with you? He is still accompanying me in the United States to treat my eyes. Jian Lening, you are such a failure!
Qixuan also knew about it. It was An Xiaoduo who told him. He would probably think the same thing: Little eyes, you are so dirty!
Yes, it's really dirty this time.
How could a boy who loves cleanliness so much be attached to someone as dirty as me?
I was running desperately in the rain. The rain was getting heavier and it hurt a little when it hit my body.
I wanted to cross that five-step distance and yell at Lin Jiarui, why did you tell all this to An Xiaoduo? Why did you make me so pitiful? Why did you expose my wounds to my friends who had me? Why did you trample on my remaining self-esteem? How can I stand upright in front of An Xiaoduo and Qixuan in the future? How can I proudly declare to them that I, who was abandoned, can still live well without them?
What Jian Lening wanted least was An Xiaoduo's sympathy, and what she wanted least was Qi Xuan's pity, because those would damage her self-esteem.
I threw all the things Lin Jiarui gave me into the trash can, along with An Xiaoduo's sympathy.
I am glad that I did not use those things for the sake of temporary happiness, otherwise I would not forgive myself for giving An Xiaoduo the opportunity to look down on me.
Everyone in the dormitory was shocked by my behavior. The most surprised was Tang Yu. My sudden departure that day had always puzzled her.
"Jian Lening, did you and Lin Jiarui have a fight? You have been avoiding Lin Jiarui these days, which I find very strange. Do you two have a conflict?" Tang Yu leaned close to my ear and asked me.
I didn't answer her, but just focused on organizing my clothes and ignored her questions.
Seeing that I ignored her, Tang Yu immediately got angry. She was a young lady who was loved by everyone. When had she ever been ignored like this? Her pretty face immediately became stern, and she angrily threw her hand away.
"If you don't want to say it, forget it. Why are you giving me such a cold face? I'm not the one who offended you. Do you think the whole world owes you?"
"Tang Yu, don't say that. Jian Lening must be in a bad mood." He Yiran and the others helped to persuade Tang Yu.
"She's the only one in a bad mood? I'm in a bad mood too, so do I have to show her my bad mood as well?"
I continued packing my things as if I didn't hear Tang Yu's noise.
I am no longer the "little-eyed" kid who always liked to quarrel and fight with others for no reason when I was a child. I no longer like to quarrel and cause trouble. Since the incident with Xu Yan, I even don't like to talk much anymore.
I like silence, and even hope to remain silent forever, finish three years of high school peacefully, leave here, and then finish college in an ordinary way, and live like this silently, burying my unbearable past in the mire of time.
"sorry!"
Tang Yu was still angry. The moment I packed up and prepared to go out, I turned around and apologized to her.
Tang Yu was stunned for a moment. I no longer cared whether she forgave me or not, so I walked out of the dormitory with my bag on my back.
It was not until much later that I realized that rifts between people are easy to create, but difficult to eliminate.
Today is the first holiday since the school started. I walked to the school gate with my schoolbag on my back, looking at the fathers and daughters or mothers and daughters walking together. I raised my head, blinked my sore eyes, and looked at the scorching sun above my head. I seemed to see my father who was building houses for people on the scaffolding on a more than 30-story building, and my mother who was sweating profusely but still working hard in the dim workshop.
I forced back the tears in my eyes, stood in front of the noisy school gate, and suddenly realized that there is a feeling in this world that is more precious than friendship and love, and that is family.
I feel very gratified. Ever since the An Xiaoduo incident, I have not caused any trouble to my elderly parents in the past few years. Even if I don't have the ability to go abroad, I was admitted to this key high school with my own ability, which made my parents, who have always been looked down upon, stand up straight in front of other parents.
I feel very relieved that on days like this, I don’t have to trouble them to pick me up. I can go home by myself and not bring them more burden.
I am relieved……
The only thing I feel guilty about is that I failed to protect myself. When I was abandoned by everyone, I was not strong enough to avoid getting hurt. As a result, I lost myself and hid a secret in my heart.
I took a deep breath and told myself, Jian Lening, don't cry, your life has just begun, don't give up your future happiness.
God is fair. All previous sufferings are paving the way for your future happiness.
I have always believed this.
I had only taken a few steps forward when I heard someone calling me from behind. I turned around and saw it was Xiao Jingjing.
Maybe because the electric tricycle was damaged by Xu Yan’s car last time, Xiao Jingjing rode an electric bike today. The bike was very new, as if it was newly bought .
Looking at Xiao Jingjing's face which was red from the scorching sun not far away, my nose suddenly felt sore and I ran towards the girl who was sitting in the car and waving at me in a panic.
Jian Lening, why are you so desperate about friendship? You still have Xiao Jingjing, and the girl who has been with you for so many years and never left. What else do you have to complain about?
"Ouch! Girl, how much do you miss me? You're about to strangle me to death!" Xiao Jingjing grabbed my hand that was around her neck and said in a sarcastic tone.
"Jingjing, it's great to see you!"
I loosened my hands and looked at the familiar face in front of me.
Xiao Jingjing opened her black and white eyes and smiled sincerely. I could even see the crystal tears in my own eyes through those smiling black eyes.
Xiao Jingjing was a little flustered by my gaze. She stared into my eyes and asked in a trembling voice, "Jian Lening, what's wrong with you?"
I finally couldn't hold back my tears, they came pouring down my face. I seem to have become more of a tearful person in recent times.
I quickly wiped my tears, waved to Xiao Jingjing, turned my face away, and smiled: "It's nothing, I'm just too excited to see you. Didn't I tell you last time not to pick me up? So I thought you wouldn't come and planned to take the bus back by myself. When I saw you, I felt very warm and touched. Jingjing, you are so good to me."
"Oh my! I thought it was a small matter! Jian Lening, when did you become so pretentious? Hurry up and get in the car, it's so hot outside, the sooner you go home, the sooner you can feel comfortable!"
Xiao Jingjing rubbed my long hair with a helpless look and threw a helmet to me.
I watched her start the car skillfully, my eyes fell on the tailpipe of the car, and I said in surprise: "Jingjing, this is a motorcycle, I thought it was an electric car!"
"The battery of an electric bike can never last long enough to take you home. Look, isn't my bike nice? Don't be fooled by the new exterior. It's actually full of old stuff inside. This is a second-hand item I bought from someone else and had someone assemble it. It's economical and practical." Xiao Jingjing said to me proudly.
I sat in the back seat of the car, looking at Xiao Jingjing's simple and bright smile, and my heart couldn't help but be moved.
I still remember the Xiao Jingjing who wanted to jump off the building because she didn't want to study. Compared with the her in my memory, the current Xiao Jingjing is more lively and energetic.
Compared to her, Jian Lening at that time had disappeared without a trace.
Everyone has a different path to take, Xiao Jingjing's and mine are all different, but this does not affect our dependence on each other.
I found that this is the kind of friendship I want. I won’t be angry with you because of a few words, and I won’t abandon you because of love.
If you are good to me, I will be good to you. If you are cold, I will give you support. If I am cold, you will give me a cotton jacket.
It feels so good.
When I was leaving, I looked back at the school that was getting farther and farther away, and saw Lin Jiarui standing at the school gate, staring at me from afar, wanting to say something but stopping himself.
There was a black private car parked next to the boy, and someone politely opened the door for him.
I turned my head away resolutely, as if I had not seen it.