Wednesday, February 15th, cloudy
If you really like someone,
As long as he lives well, that's enough.
I am willing to bear all the pain.
Just so that his life can be filled with sunshine.
Xu Yi's departure made my world collapse.
But I am still willing to bear all of this.
As long as he is happy...

Early in the morning, I took out the recorder Xu Yi gave me and started writing my diary.
"February 15, Wednesday, cloudy weather. Xu Yi, do you know what I am doing now? It is eight o'clock in the morning, and I am making soup for you, your favorite..." Looking at the soup overflowing from the pot, I quickly put down the recorder in my hand.
Xu Yi, this is the loving chicken soup I made for you! You can drink it soon!
Standing at the door of the ward, I hugged the thermos tightly, and couldn't help but smile. I lowered my head and touched the thermos repeatedly, and my heart felt like it was filled with marshmallows. The warmth slowly seeped out of the thermos and reached the bottom of my heart.
I pushed open the door and said with a smile on my face: "Xu Yi, there is chicken soup today." But the next second, my smile froze at the corners of my mouth.
At first glance, the ward was empty, with no one in it.
I strode to the bedside and saw the neatly folded quilt, as if it had never been touched, and everything was in place.
Hey, where is Xu Yi? Why isn't Xu Yi in the ward?
"Xu Yi, are you in there?" I knocked on the bathroom door hurriedly, but no one answered.
Xu Yi is not in the bathroom! Xu Yi is not in the ward! Where did Xu Yi go? A sense of uneasiness rose in my heart. Will Xu Yi be in trouble?
No, definitely not! There are so many doctors and nurses in the hospital, how could Xu Yi get into trouble? He must have just gone for a checkup or went out for a walk! Yes, yes!
"Xu Yi, where are you? Xu Yi, I'm Xia." I walked out of the ward quickly and ran in the hospital corridor in a panic, pushing open one door after another. I searched every room, but there was no sign of Xu Yi.
No ward!
No office!
There is no CT room!
Not even in the regular exam room!
Maybe... maybe the nurse took Xu Yi to the hospital park to relax. I kept giving myself hope, and then held on to it tightly.
I ran back and forth in the park quickly, looking for Xu Yi everywhere, on the grass, by the lake, by the flower beds...
But there was no sign of Xu Yi!
Why did Xu Yi disappear?
Where did Xu Yi go? Did something serious happen?
The uneasiness in my heart became stronger and stronger, and a huge sense of fear enveloped me.
"Xu Yi, where are you? Xu Yi, come out!" I shouted hysterically like a madman.
"thump!"
I accidentally tripped over a stone and fell forward heavily, with pain in my knees and palms.
In just a moment, the conversation between Xu Yi and his mother was like a spell that suddenly popped up, constantly echoing in his ears...
"Ye Xiya! Ye Xiya! It's Ye Xiya again! You almost lost your life because of Ye Xiya. You finally woke up, but you gave up going to the United States for treatment because of her. Are you willing to give up your parents for her?"
"The car accident has nothing to do with Xia. No matter what, I will not leave Xia!"
"Xu Yi, you have to understand one thing, it's impossible for you and Ye Xiya to be together!"
"Give up on it. Even if I can't be with Xia in the future, I will never be with the person you arranged for me! It was like that before, and it's still like that now that I can't see you!"
"But you already have an engagement!"
"I'm... blind now, are you still unwilling to let me go?"
The severe pain prevented me from standing up temporarily. I lay on the ground and tears suddenly welled up in my eyes.
The anxiety and fear that had been suppressed all burst out at this moment.
Xu Yi, where are you...
The originally clear sky suddenly lost its original color and turned into a dead lead gray. The cold wind made the tear-stained face extremely painful.
"Why are you crying here? What's wrong?" Just as I was sobbing, a nurse came up to me and helped me up from the ground.
I raised my head and looked at the nurse in front of me with tears in my eyes. She seemed to be the nurse in charge of Xu Yi's ward.
"I...can't find Xu Yi..." I said as tears kept falling.
"Oh, Xu Yi was picked up by his mother this morning!" The nurse wiped the tears from my face, "It seems that she said she was going to the United States."
"Going to America?" My mind suddenly went blank. I even forgot to thank the nurse and rushed to the hospital entrance like a fly...
Xu Yi, what's going on? Did something happen suddenly?
No matter what happens, I am willing to face it with you, I am willing to stay by your side, even if it means waiting for you for a lifetime.
Is this the neighborhood?
I looked up and saw that all the buildings were made of white tiles inlaid with dazzling golden patterns. They were all in gorgeous European design. Neatly trimmed plants surrounded the houses, and the private swimming pool in the front yard shone brightly under the sunlight.
Looking at the luxurious villas in front of me, I confirmed it again in my mind.
Ye Xiya, Xu Yi is so good to you, but you are not even sure where his home is. What are you doing?
The feeling of self-blame kept pouring into my heart like the rising tide.
I shook my head vigorously, Ye Xiya, have you thought clearly whether this is the place?
"It should be here, right?" He slowly reached for the doorbell, his heart feeling as if it was hanging in the air by a rope.
"Ding dong, ding dong."
The doorbell rang and I stared at the closed door.
Xu Yi, you know, no matter what the result is, I will never give up on you!
You once appeared when I was so sad and painful, like a rainbow, warming and healing my wounded heart. So, from the moment I fell in love with you, I decided that I would never leave you again!
"squeak--"
The door opened slowly.
"Xu Yi, it's Xiaya!" Without thinking, I shouted towards the door.
When I came to my senses, I found that there was a man in his fifties standing in front of me, wearing a white shirt and a black bow tie.
"Hello." The old man bowed slightly. "I am the housekeeper here. Excuse me, who are you looking for?"
I stared at the old man in front of me and asked anxiously, "Um... does Xu Yi live here?"
"Well, are you here to look for Master Xu Yi?" The old man glanced at me and said, "The Master has already left."
"What? Left? Left so soon?" I stared at the butler with my eyes wide open in shock. "When did he leave? Where did he go?"
My heart started beating violently. I hugged my trembling body and told myself to calm down. I must calm down.
"The young master and his wife left an hour ago." The butler answered my question politely, "They will take a flight to the United States at 2 o'clock this afternoon. After that, the whole family will immigrate to the United States."
What?
A heart-wrenching pain took away all my consciousness, and my heart shattered like glass in an instant.
I took several steps back in shock, my mind going blank.
Why immigrate to the United States?
Does that mean I will never see Xu Yi again?
America is such a faraway place, so far away that I can't reach it.
"You are Miss Xia, right?" The housekeeper's voice brought me back to my senses. "You like the young master very much, right? But the young master is already engaged. If you really want to do good for the young master, you shouldn't look for him anymore. I think you don't want to see the young master break off his relationship with the lady..."
The housekeeper's words were like a sharp knife that pierced the softest part of my heart.
Xu Yi's mother's words echoed in his ears again...
"Ye Xiya! Ye Xiya! It's Ye Xiya again! You almost lost your life because of Ye Xiya. You finally woke up, but you gave up going to the United States for treatment because of her. Are you willing to give up your parents for her?"
…
"Xu Yi, you have to understand one thing, it's impossible for you and Ye Xiya to be together!"
Why is it impossible for Xu Yi and I?
He finally woke up, why can't we try to be together?
The feeling of loss is so painful, no one understands it better than me...
"Miss Xiya, if you really like someone, shouldn't you do it for his good, make him happy, and let him live a better life?" The housekeeper looked at me seriously, "If Miss Xiya really likes the young master, she will know what to do."
"Um...thank you." I bowed politely to the housekeeper, then turned around and ran quickly towards the entrance of the community.
I quickly hailed a taxi and headed for the airport.
No matter what, I want to see Xu Yi for the last time!
"Master, please drive faster." I looked at my watch anxiously and urged the driver.
As if to reflect my mood at the moment, the sky suddenly became gloomy and lifeless, and then it started to rain.
Looking at the people walking back and forth in the airport hall, I anxiously searched for that familiar figure in the crowd, but I couldn't find it.
Notice board! Notice board!
I ran to the notice board in the airport lobby.
Two o'clock, two o'clock in the afternoon. Flying to the United States, the United States.
Gate 18!
Finally found the information about the flight to the United States at 2 pm on the bulletin board!
"Number 18, number 18." I kept muttering to myself, looking for the boarding gate to the United States.
As I was approaching Gate 18, my eyes fell directly on a black-haired boy. He lowered his head slightly, and the hair that fell on his forehead blocked his eyes. There was a lonely look on his handsome face.
Xu Yi!
It’s Xu Yi!
The moment I saw him, the haze in my heart seemed to be dispelled by a strong and warm light.
Just as I was about to rush over, a little boy suddenly ran over from the side.
"ah!"
I hurriedly stopped and held the little boy in front of me: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, sister didn't see you just now, did you bump into anything?"
The little boy smiled at me brightly, but...but his bright eyes looked unusually empty.
"Sister, I'm sorry. Mom said I can't see and shouldn't run around. It's not your fault." The little boy looked straight ahead. "But I just heard a beautiful harmonica and couldn't help but run over. I have a very beautiful harmonica, but unfortunately... I can't see what it looks like now."
I squatted down and pinched his little face: "Don't worry, sister believes that your eyes will be cured, and you will definitely see the harmonica you like."
"Sister, do you know? I will be able to see again soon!" The little boy pulled my hand excitedly, "I will go to the United States to get my eyes treated! Mom said that as long as I go to the United States, I will be able to see again!"
After the little boy walked away, I couldn't take another step forward...
I walked quietly behind a pillar, looking at Xu Yi who was so close to me, and tears fell silently.
The housekeeper's words kept echoing in my ears...
"Miss Xiya, if you really like someone, shouldn't you do it for his good, make him happy, and let him live a better life? If Miss Xiya really likes the young master, she will know what to do."
I took a deep breath. I knew, I knew what I should do, but why was my heart so sad at this moment?
Xu Yi, do you know? No matter what decision you make, I will sincerely bless you with a smile! Because I like you, I really like you...
Xu Yi, if it is really impossible for us to be together, then let me engrave your appearance deeply in my heart!
The announcement came over the radio that passengers at Gate 18 were starting to board the plane.
I wiped away the tears that kept falling down my face.
Ye Xiya, don’t cry, don’t cry!
If Xu Yi goes to the United States, his eyes can be cured, he can start a new life and pursue his dreams. This is the Xu Yi you want to see, isn't it?
I leaned tightly against the pillar, watching Xu Yi's figure getting smaller and smaller, and finally disappearing around the corner.
When Xu Yi's figure disappeared, I seemed to lose all my strength in an instant. I fell down along the pillar and sat on the ground. My whole face was wet with tears. The sob that had been suppressed in my throat suddenly broke through my throat and echoed in the air.
Through the glass wall of the airport hall, I saw heavy rain outside the window and the sky was frighteningly gray, just like my mood at the moment.
"Dear passengers, please pay attention. Dear passengers, please pay attention. The flight to the United States at 2 p.m. has taken off on time. The flight to the United States at 2 p.m. has taken off on time..." The clear voice of the announcer came from the radio.
Take off? Has the plane taken off?
I raised my head, through tearful eyes, and outside the terminal, the lights were flickering and a plane was slowly taking off.
It was the plane Xu Yi was on!
"Xu Yi, Xu Yi!" Before I could come to my senses, I had already stood up and hurriedly ran out of the airport lobby. "Xu Yi, I'm here! I'm here!" I shouted, tears falling freely.
The heavy rain fell heavily on my body and face, and mixed with my tears, making it increasingly difficult for me to see clearly. There was water everywhere, and everything was blurry. I couldn't see anything, and the only thing I could see was the plane that was getting smaller and smaller.
I ran after the plane as it flew away, as if as long as I kept running after it, it would land and Xu Yi would be able to come back...
"ah!"
I don't know what I tripped over and I fell to the ground.
My hands were scraped and the pain was burning. Red blood oozed out from the scrapes and mixed with the mud and rain on the ground.
"Xu Yi!" I lay on the ground, yelling at the top of my lungs.
The plane became smaller and smaller, and gradually disappeared from sight.
The rain was getting heavier and heavier.
"Xu Yi!" I cried and shouted in the direction of the flying plane, "Xu Yi, you must be happy, be fiercely and vigorously happy! Be happier than anyone else!"
“Huahuahua——”
The only response I got was the continued sound of rain.
The world is silent.
"Xu Yi..." I climbed out of the mud, hugged my arms tightly, and let the rain wet my hair and clothes.
"Xu Yi, be happy, you must be very happy..." I murmured like a ghost, and finally the murmur turned into a huge whimper.
"Wow, wow, wow..." I hugged my body with my arms and cried like a child in the heavy rain...

Wednesday, February 22, cloudy
Even though time is slipping away,
I still haven't gotten over the sadness.
There seemed to be a thick fog in front of me.
I can't see the direction.
I don’t know where to go next.
Since Xu Yi left,
I just got lost...

The night sky was washed very clean by the rain. Every star should be hanging clearly in the night sky, but why have they now turned into a bunch of blurry and dazzling circles of light?
I lay on the bed, letting the tears flow from the corners of my eyes.
Xu Yi has been gone for a whole week, but I still fantasize that he will appear in front of me at any time, with a warm smile and say, "Xia Ya, I'm back."
I felt so tired, but the suffocating pain in my chest kept me from sleeping.
"Xia, are you asleep?" My father's voice accompanied by the knock on the door brought me back to my senses.
"Yeah, he's asleep." I took a deep breath and tried to make my voice sound normal. I didn't want my dad to notice that something was wrong with me.
"Xia, Dad just received a call from the company and has to rush out of town to work on a new project."
My heart, which was already in a knot, suddenly felt like it was pierced through.
Is Dad leaving too?
I wanted to tell my dad to rest assured, but when I stood up, I suddenly felt a black screen in front of my eyes, as if the world was spinning, and my whole body was hot as if I was exposed to the sun in June.
I opened the door and saw my father and the luggage beside him.
"Xia, Dad will rush back to see you as soon as he finishes the new project. You are alone at home, so remember to ask Uncle Gu for help if you have any problems, okay?" Dad reached out to touch my head, but I quickly dodged him.
"Is Xia angry with Dad?" Dad frowned.
"Haha, Dad, why would Xiaya be angry? I will take good care of myself and wait for you to come back." I tried to smile, not wanting Dad to see that something was wrong with me. "I want to tell Dad that Xiaya has grown up and is no longer a child."
Dad smiled at me and nodded slightly.
Dad's car drove farther and farther away...
The raindrops hanging on the leaves swayed, reflecting the moonlight. The light shot into my eyes, and the tears that I had been holding back rolled down from the corners of my eyes again.
I slowly squatted down, buried my head in my knees, and let the tears fall down.
Ye Xiya, stay strong! You must stay strong!
Even though I kept cheering myself up, I still couldn't help but call Chen.
Chen was still so attentive. He could tell something was wrong with me as soon as he saw me. He was busy feeding me medicine and applying ice packs to me: "Xia, do you feel better now?"
My heart felt like it was twisted by something, and suddenly it was no longer numb. Fortunately, Chen was still there.
Looking at Chen's gentle appearance, all the discomfort and grievance brought by the fever came out. Before I could say a word, tears had already rushed out of my eyes.
Chen frowned: "Xia, what's wrong? What happened?" He gently wiped my tears away. But my eyes were like a faucet that had been opened. No matter how Chen wiped, my face was still covered with tears.
"Chen...Xu Yi...went to America." I told Chen everything that happened in one breath.
Chen wiped away my tears lovingly with his hand: "Because Xu Yi left Xiya, Xiya can't hold on?" Chen's eyes were full of heartache.
"No!" I tried to raise the corners of my mouth and put a smile on my face, "Chen, if you really like someone, then you will definitely hope that he will live a better life and get the greatest happiness, right?"
Chen didn't say anything, just looked at me quietly.
"Xu Yi can only have his eyes cured and his dream realized if he goes to the United States. So, I am very happy that he can go to the United States. I want Xu Yi to be happy more than anyone else!" I pursed my lips and looked at Chen firmly.
Chen gently held my shoulders: "My Xia Ya has finally grown up!" Chen's eyes suddenly became very serious, "Xia Ya, not everything a person encounters is good, but not everything is bad. No matter whether you experience good or bad, as long as you experience it, you will grow up. And now you have really grown up!"
Looking at Chen's expectant eyes, I held back my tears and nodded vigorously.
Even though my heart is so bitter, I can endure anything as long as Xu Yi is happy.
"Go to sleep well. The new semester will start next week, Xiaya, come on!" Chen gently rubbed my hair. "After Xiaya starts school, I will also go to school to register. So, promise me that no matter what difficulties and setbacks you face, Xiaya will face them bravely and strongly!"
I cheered myself up and smiled at Chen: "I see. I'll see you off on the day you leave, okay?"
"Haha, of course!" Chen touched my forehead, "Then you must get better soon, haha, otherwise how are you going to send me off when the time comes?"
I nodded, closed my eyes and fell asleep.
Is school starting next week?
So fast...
It was as if Xu Yi waking up happened just yesterday.
Xu Yi, are you okay? I really hope your eyes can be cured, and I really hope you can be happy. Then, all the tears I shed will be worth it.
Xu Yi, I miss you...
I really miss you...

Thursday, March 1, sunny
Why did everyone sign that piece of paper?
I'm not a bad student!
I don't want to be expelled from school!
But no one cares what I think!
I have tried very hard.
But why didn't anyone see it?
Is it because he left?
Is my world shattered too?

The sky was as blue as a piece of jadeite, and it seemed endless from afar. The winter jasmine flowers at Yifeng College formed a bright yellow waterfall under the sun.
Such dazzling spring light, but it can't penetrate my heart at all.
On the first day of the new semester, I dragged my heavy steps to my seat in the classroom. The table was covered with a thin layer of dust.
The sunlight shines through the glass window onto the empty desk next to it, reflecting a cool light.
"This is the beauty chocolate my dad brought back from his business trip abroad. We don't have it in China!" Weiwei started showing off the chocolate in her hand as she entered the classroom.
"Wow……"
The girls quickly gathered around with envy on their faces.
Weiwei opened the light gold box and distributed the chocolates one by one.
All the girls had chocolates in their hands, except me!
I lowered my head and bit my lip. The feeling of being isolated was like something was stuck in my throat, so uncomfortable that it made it hard to breathe.
Fortunately, the class bell rang at the right time.
The head teacher walked into the classroom seriously, followed by a girl.
The girl's fluffy chocolate-brown hair was casually draped over her shoulders, her fair skin was like delicate porcelain, her deer-like eyes were clear and bright, and the corners of her cute mouth were slightly upturned, making her look both adorable and well-behaved.
"Hello everyone, I'm Chinatsu, please take care of me in the future!"
As soon as Chinatsu finished speaking, the classroom was filled with a buzz of discussion.
"What a cute girl!"
"Yeah, even the school belle isn't as pretty as her!"
…
"Chinatsu, just sit next to the class monitor." The teacher said to Chinatsu with a smile.
"Teacher, but I don't want to sit next to the class monitor." When Chinatsu spoke, her eyes were like a cute and innocent little deer.
"hiss--"
The whole class gasped.
The head teacher was notoriously authoritarian and never allowed anyone to say the word "no" in front of her.
"Teacher, I want to sit over there, is that okay?" Qianxia pointed to the seat next to me. "Haha, teacher, you won't refuse me, right?"
The classroom became increasingly quiet.
One second...
Two seconds...
"Well, if you prefer that seat."
Then, the head teacher looked at me and said, "Ye Xiya, take good care of the new students."
"Yeah." I nodded subconsciously.
The quiet classroom suddenly became lively again.
As soon as the bell rang, many boys from other classes suddenly appeared outside the classroom, and everyone's eyes were focused on Chinatsu.
At this time, Sora, who was famous throughout the school for being a playboy in the next class, walked up to Chinatsu with a wicked smile.
"Goddess, you are the new transfer here, right? I am Kong Si from the next class." Kong Si smiled and stretched out his hand in front of Chinatsu.
"I'm Chinatsu." Chinatsu smiled and extended her hand politely.
" Wow, Chinatsu, your hands are so soft!" Kongsi held Chinatsu's hand tightly, with no intention of letting go.
Qianxia still had a cute smile on her face: "Doesn't the entrance exam for Yifeng Academy require an IQ test?"
"Hahaha... Chinatsu, you're so cute!" Kongsi completely ignored Chinatsu's mocking words and put his other hand on her shoulder, "How about I take you for a ride in my sports car this weekend?"
Chinatsu still maintained a cute and innocent expression: "Actually... I advise you to stay away from me, otherwise... I might get angry at any time."
Just when Kong Si wanted to continue bullying Chinatsu, Chinatsu's body suddenly tilted to one side, her wrist turned deftly, and she grabbed Kong Si and pushed him hard. Kong Si lost his balance and his abdomen hit the corner of the desk hard.
"It hurts!" Kong Si's facial features seemed to be twisted together. He stared at Chinatsu in surprise, as if he suddenly understood something, and then rushed out of the classroom in a hurry.
"Ye Xiya, the dean wants you to go to the office immediately!" The class monitor walked up to me and knocked on my desk.
I stood up slowly: "Got it."
"Oh... the moment everyone has been waiting for is finally here!" Weiwei said in a high voice, "Hurry up, the dean is waiting for you!"
I didn't seem to have done anything wrong, why did the dean come to me?
I walked quickly into the office, lowered my head and whispered, "Director, you are looking for me..."
“Crash——”
The dean threw a stack of things in his hand towards me with force. The paper-like things scattered in the air and fell to the ground in a spiral.
All the teachers in the office stopped what they were doing and looked curiously at the things scattered on the floor.
"Look at what you have done!"
I squatted down and found that they were photos of Xu Yi and I, all of which were secretly taken on Valentine's Day!
One photo shows me hugging Xu Yi tightly from behind with my eyes closed.
The angle of the other photo made it look like I was actively kissing Xu Yi.
The angle of each photo makes people feel that I am both proactive and open.
But in reality...
I gently touched Xu Yi's face in the photo with my fingers, and my heart felt so sour, as if a lot of sea water was poured into it.
The white light that flashed before my eyes that day suddenly flashed through my mind...It turned out that it was not my illusion, but someone was really taking pictures of us!
"These photos were uploaded to the Internet and have received tens of thousands of hits. Do you know what the consequences will be? Our Yifeng College has always been known for its strict school spirit. As a student of Yifeng, you actually hugged and kissed boys on the street and were intimate in public. What do the parents and the school board think of our college now? They will definitely think that there is a big problem with our school spirit!" The dean shouted in an almost roaring voice.
"Director, that day was..."
"Dean, don't let your high blood pressure recur because of a few bad students!" Before I could finish my words, I was interrupted by the usually gentle music teacher.
"Yes, yes!" All the teachers agreed.
The words "bad student" suddenly exploded in my ears!
"Your behavior has damaged the reputation of the school and caused trouble to your classmates. Take a look at this for yourself!" The director grabbed the paper on the table, crumpled it into a ball, and threw it at me with all his strength.
This time, the paper ball hit me right on the face!
I slowly unfolded the crumpled paper and saw some signatures: Weiwei, Momo, Anya...
Why do people sign their names on paper?
After the paper was fully unfolded, I saw a few large words written in black watercolor pen:
We strongly demand that Ye Xiya drop out of school!
My heart suddenly cracked open.
The thin paper in my hand suddenly became so heavy that my heart sank.
The sunlight outside the window suddenly dimmed.
My hands were clenched tightly together, my lips turned pale, and I couldn't utter a word to defend myself.
No matter how much I say, the director won’t listen, right?
"Ask your parents to come over this week and let them take a good look at what you have done! If your parents don't come, you will be expelled from school!"
"But my father is on a business trip..." When I heard the word "drop out of school", the paper ball in my hand fell to the ground instantly.
"Then you can go to study in another city with your dad!" the dean said sarcastically, "No one will know you there anyway!"
Her words were like sharp thorns that pierced my blood vessels, causing so much pain that the blood in my body froze.
If my father knew that I was going to be expelled from school, he would be very sad! I really want to be an excellent Ye Xiya and be his pride!
"Write me a 3,000-word self-criticism here and reflect on your shameless behavior!" said the dean, throwing the white paper and pen to me.
The office windows were wide open, and thick black clouds were rolling in the sky, as if they were going to come in and swallow me up.
"I saw a report yesterday that a female student stole money from her family and eloped with her boyfriend!" said the English teacher.
"Students nowadays, how can they know what morality is?" The math teacher shook his head and continued, "Look at those photos!"
Their entire discussion fell into my ears.
I held the pen tightly and wrote the three big words "apology" on the pale paper one by one!
By the time I finished writing the 3,000-word self-criticism, school was over and all the teachers had left. The corridor was dark in the evening, with only the old light bulbs emitting a faint light.
My tears just fell quietly.
Xu Yi, I miss you so much.
Can you hear the longing in my heart from the other side of the earth?
If you were still here, you would definitely smile and say to me: "Come on, Yesiya!"

Friday, March 2, cloudy
It was as if all the light disappeared at once.
The stars disappeared, the moon vanished,
Even the sun won't warm me.
When breathing becomes difficult,
When all happiness is away from me,
But Cheye appeared...
Has he really returned from heaven?
The man named Yuan Cheye...

The gloomy sky emitted a dazzling white light.
Countless people formed a circle around me, a dark mass. Everyone had a mocking look on their face, their mouths opening and closing rapidly.
"Ye Xiya, just wait to be expelled from school!"
"You are a girl who ruins the school spirit. Get out of Yifeng!"
"Traitor! Unlucky bastard! Get out of here!"
…
I held my head which was about to split apart with pain, squatting there helplessly: "I don't want to drop out of school! I don't want to drop out of school!"
don't want!
When I woke up from the nightmare, a beam of sunlight had already shone through the curtains onto the bed. I was sweating coldly when I suddenly saw the date on the wall that I had circled with a red pen, and my thoughts that were just immersed in the nightmare were suddenly pulled out of my mind.
"Oops!" I yelled unconsciously.
When I rushed to the train station as fast as I could, the news coming from the radio was that the train Chen was taking had stopped checking tickets and was about to depart.
I hurried to where I could see the railroad tracks and pressed the send button on my phone to send the message I had edited.
Chen, I'm sorry I couldn't send you off. I will take good care of myself. Don't worry about me.
Thirty seconds later, Chen sent me a message -
Xia, no matter what happens, you must be firm in your heart!
I watched the train that Chen was on getting farther and farther away from me, until it turned into a black dot and disappeared from my sight, and then I left reluctantly.
Lian Chen has also left, and now I am really alone. But how should I face everything that is going to happen next?
Walking to school, I was in a heavy mood and ignored all the excitement around me. I couldn't hear if anyone was playing or laughing, and I couldn't see if anyone was pointing fingers at me.
As soon as I reached the school gate, my thoughts were interrupted by a rude voice: "Hey, isn't this classmate Ye Xiya who had a touching scene with the blind lead singer of the FLY band?"
"Weiwei, I heard that the blind lead singer went to America and abandoned our poor classmate Ye Xiya!" Jing Sen smiled smugly.
"Really? Xia, wouldn't it be even more pitiful if you were expelled from school?"
I looked up and in front of me were Jingsen and Weiwei's faces with mocking and sarcasm. I tried to go around them, but they deliberately blocked my way.
Weiwei suddenly pulled me and moved her face closer to me: "What? Are you afraid that people will know that you have been abandoned? Ye Xiya, weren't you very capable when you said that about me in front of so many people that day? Why are you speechless now?"
"What exactly do you want?" I raised my head and looked directly at Weiwei and Jingsen in front of me.
Jing Sen sang the same tune with Wei Wei with a smug look on his face: "What do we want? We want you not to show up! Ye Xiya, you are really a disgrace to our Yifeng Academy now! All the students in Yifeng Academy want you to get out of the academy as soon as possible!"
My chest suddenly felt as cold as if it was covered by a wet towel.
"What kind of drama is going on so early in the morning? Are bad students bullying innocent girls?" A voice as pleasant as wind chimes came into my ears.
I turned my head to follow Jingsen's surprised gaze, and saw the person's chocolate-colored straight hair gently draped over her shoulders, and the smile on the corner of her mouth was innocent yet playful.
It's Chinatsu!
"Hey, such a pretty girl, you want to come out and meddle in other people's business?" Jingsen looked at Chinatsu with a sly smile.
"There's nothing I can do. Your shameless behavior has polluted my eyes." Chinatsu still looked innocent, but every word she uttered was a mockery of Imori.
Chinatsu is actually helping me!
A ray of light suddenly appeared in the dark world.
"You..." Jingsen's smile froze instantly, and he stretched out his hand to try to grab Chinatsu.
But Qianxia dodged his hand nimbly: "Is this all you can do?"
"Okay! I'll show you what I can do now!" Chinatsu's escape made Imori even more embarrassed.
Seeing Inomori's hands constantly attacking her, the smile on Chinatsu's face gradually disappeared.
"I'm warning you, you can leave now before I get angry!"
"Huh, that's hilarious!"
As he said that, Imori grabbed Chinatsu's shoulders. At this moment, Chinatsu seemed to have reached her limit of endurance, and the smile on her face disappeared without a trace.
In just a moment, Chinatsu grabbed Imori's hand on her shoulder, bent down to go under Imori's raised hand, quickly straightened up, and with a sudden force, Imori, who was just arrogant, was pushed to the ground.
At this moment, besides anger, there was more disbelief on Jingsen's face.
Just when Jingsen was about to attack Chinatsu, Weiwei whispered something in Jingsen's ear, which made Jingsen look a little hesitant. I guess Weiwei told him about how Chinatsu taught Kongji a lesson that day.
"Okay, now I have something urgent to do, so I won't bother with you. Just be careful next time!" After saying this, Jingsen and Weiwei disappeared from our sight.
Watching them leave, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.
"Chinatsu, thank you."
Chinatsu curled her lips at me and said, "I just don't like boys bullying girls. I never thought of helping you on purpose." After saying that, Chinatsu turned around and walked into the school.
I stood there blankly, looking up at the leaden sky. Why did the light seem even more dazzling when I couldn't see the sun? It was as if countless invisible sharp fragments fell from the sky into my eyes, bringing endless pain.
My steps suddenly became so heavy, I turned around and walked in the opposite direction of the school...
“Pah—”
I didn’t know how long or how far I had walked, but at that moment I couldn’t lift my feet anymore and suddenly I knelt down on the ground exhausted.
I looked up blankly, where is this? It looks so familiar.
Oh, this is the firefly meadow, and there are footprints of Cheye and me on the ground.
Haha, Cheye, are you doing well in heaven?
I tried hard to raise the corners of my mouth and look at the sky, but my tears fell as fast as a rainstorm.
Don’t cry, don’t cry, you can’t cry, Ye Xiya, don’t let Che Ye see your tears! Don’t… let… Che Ye see! But, the tears could not be stopped.
I walked to the lake beside the grass, scooped up some water and washed the tears from my face again and again. But in the end, my face was wet and I couldn't tell whether it was tears or lake water.
I don’t know how long it took, it seemed like just a second, but it also seemed like decades had passed. The color of the sky had changed from bright to dark.
The street lamps lit up one by one, and the orange light looked so warm. I raised my hand and reached out to the distant light source, wanting to grasp the warmth, but there was nothing in my open palm.
The firefly that Cheye gave me at that time also slipped away from my palm in this way. When I opened my palm happily, it was empty.
I am destined not to be able to hold on to all the happiness and warmth, right?
Xu Yi’s sunny smile appeared in my mind again.
Xu Yi, I like you! I really, really like you! I like you so much that for your happiness, I can endure all the pain and misunderstandings, even if it means losing everything!
But...I have never said such words to you seriously.
I regret not telling you!
Xu Yi...
Suddenly, Cheye's face appeared on the calm lake surface—golden hair, clean features... He was smiling brightly at me, his mouth opening and closing as if to say, "Idiot."
"Cheye!" I whispered his name. Because I hadn't spoken, my voice became unusually unpleasant. "Are you okay in heaven? Are you happy?"
Cheye continued to smile at me, his smile was still so bright and filled with infinite warmth...
Suddenly, a strange face appeared on the lake. It looked so strange, but I recognized it at once.
"Mom, mom!" This is my mom. I can recognize her at a glance. "Mom, Xia misses you so much."
My mother looked at me with kind eyes and always smiled at me gently. I wanted to throw myself into her arms right away...
"ah!"
Suddenly, my feet felt empty...
“Wow——”
The water splashed everywhere, and instantly enveloped me. The water rushed into my body, clogging all my organs, but I felt that the cold water was as gentle as a mother's embrace.
The lake water rushed into my respiratory tract through my nose, as if to drive the air out completely. My respiratory tract felt a stinging pain, and my mouth involuntarily swallowed a large amount of lake water.
I felt worse and worse, my breathing became more and more difficult, and my consciousness became more and more blurred...
In an instant, many faces appeared in my mind...
For my hard working dad.
The most gentle Chen in the world.
Xu Yi has a smile as warm as a rainbow.
Cheye who lives happily in heaven...
"Crack, crack, crack..." The continuous and violent coughing made me open my eyes.
It was so cold that I couldn't help shivering.
I tried to sit up, but as soon as I moved, I started coughing, and a lot of water came out of my mouth and nose. My stomach was so bloated that I kept vomiting water.
The uncomfortable feeling gradually eased, and I lay on the ground exhausted. Where was I?
My mind was blank and I was like a mindless puppet, with my eyes open but unfocused.
"Stupid Ye Xia, haven't you always been strong and optimistic? How could you do such a stupid thing!" Suddenly, a familiar voice came into my ears like lightning, waking me up suddenly.
I sat up in disbelief. At that moment, my whole body was stiff, as if I had been cast into a stone statue.
Under the orange light, the boy's golden hair looked unusually warm, his brown eyes sparkled with a soft light, his eyebrows revealed a clean aura, and his pursed lips looked distant.
"Che Ye?"
The air seemed to be completely stagnant at this moment. Unexplainable currents of air were quietly surging around us, and an inexplicable rose fragrance was spreading all around.
Could it be that I am already in heaven now?
I immediately got up from the ground, walked unsteadily to Cheye, and looked at the face that was deeply engraved in my memory.
I finally met Cheye, I finally met Cheye, the Cheye whom I missed so much.
"Cheye, is this heaven? Are you living well here?" I happily grabbed Cheye's arm, and a warm touch suddenly hit me...
Sudden--
Cheye pulled his arm away from my hand quickly as if he had been electrocuted.
In my stunned eyes, he looked straight at me, and said coldly: "Don't touch me! The Ye Xiya I know is not such a coward and will not do such a stupid thing."
"Cheye, I..."
Before I could finish my words, Cheye interrupted me harshly.
"Ye Xiya, when did you become so useless? You are not worthy of me liking you, let alone my liking you! The Ye Xiya I like is strong and optimistic!" Che Ye's deep gaze fell on me, but it was as cold as moonlight, "Look carefully, this is not heaven!" Che Ye turned his head with anger in his tone.
"Cheye... I admit that I was in a bad mood and was depressed. Just now I saw you, mom, and Xu Yi on the lake, so I... I slipped and fell in."
"You're in a bad mood because you were abandoned by other boys, right?" Cheye's tone was stiff and cold.
"Cheye, Xu Yi has never abandoned me. I believe he must have gone to get his eyes treated." I looked at Cheye seriously, "You really misunderstood just now."
"Do you trust Xu Yi so much?" Che Ye's voice became even colder, and was filled with anger, "Ye Xiya, I really shouldn't have come back for you!" After saying that, Che Ye strode forward with resolute steps.
I was completely stunned by the situation in front of me. I forgot to call Cheye, forgot my current situation, and forgot what I should do. All my thoughts disappeared into the night with Cheye's back.
Was the boy just now Cheye?
Cheye clearly went to heaven, so why did he suddenly appear here?
The rose scent on him was so familiar, but it was also filled with an indescribable strangeness...
It was a long, long time before I came to my senses until I was shivering with cold.
The lake surface was sparkling with tiny orange rays of light.
The cold wind blew, bringing waves of chill.
I looked at the firefly meadow in front of me and felt as if nothing had happened, as if I had just been sitting here and having a long dream.
However, my clothes and hair were wet, the feeling of the lake water pouring into my body was still so clear, and my throat still felt the pain from the violent coughing just now.
My face felt itchy, so I reached out to touch it and felt something wet on my fingertips. Was it tears?
If everything that just happened was just a dream, why did it all seem so real?
Is Cheye back?