Chapter 12 Even if I have no memory, I still love you 2
It's not a question of whether I'm nervous or not, right? He should know what I'm thinking and what I'm worried about, but he still jokes with me. How abominable!
Shang Yi said flatteringly: "I told you to leave it to me!"
"But I still can't help it..."
"Next scene, get ready!" The director in the distance issued a "death warrant".
This scene required me to stand under the tree and raise my head for Shang Yi to kiss me. I walked under the tree stiffly, my body trembling a little.
After many NGs...
"Why do you look so painful? Can you relax a little?" someone in the crowd yelled at me impatiently.
I lowered my head and took a deep breath, relaxing my facial muscles. As soon as I raised my head and squinted my eyes, a pair of warm hands held my face. I only heard the director shout "Cut" and the last shot ended.
Is it over? But it seems that I didn't kiss him? I touched my lips. Could it be that I didn't feel it? I looked at Shang Yi with some doubts.
"Yingning, my feelings have never changed from the beginning to the end. That's why I care about everything you think, and of course I won't force you to do something you don't want to do." There was a gentle look in Shang Yi's eyes, which seemed to have a healing effect and touched my heart.
But I am a little confused. If so, what is his purpose in doing this? Is it really just for the commercial?
The answer to this question finally became clear the next day.
The entertainment news on TV was all about the scandal between Shang Yi and me, and they even deliberately included photos of us "kissing".
The sad thing is that An Lengxi also saw the news. Although I wanted to explain, I didn’t know how to start.
He just sat quietly in front of the TV, not saying a word, not questioning, not getting angry, which made me feel extremely scared, a bit like the calm before the storm.
Nuo also saw it, and although he looked unhappy too, it was not as obvious as An Lengxi.
All day long, I tried to avoid them, hoping that Shang Yi would come back to give me an explanation. But he didn't come back until the evening. When he entered the room, he saw the heavy atmosphere and probably guessed something. But instead of apologizing, he smiled and said, "What? You didn't even turn on the lights? Are you deep in thought or doing something else?"
At this time, An Lengxi stood up, turned around and looked at Shang Yi, the hostility in the depths of his eyes spreading like a tide.
I thought the two of them would start fighting on the spot, but An Lengxi just said coldly: "Let's talk." After that, the three of them went through the door, leaving me alone.
I stared at the door anxiously. If I really made a big fuss about something that didn't happen, it would be too worthless. So I walked to the door and was about to knock when I heard An Lengxi's voice: "What do you want to do?"
"Actually, you are not An Lengxi at all, at least not the An Lengxi that Yingning likes. I'm just trying to change the status quo. What's wrong with that?" Shang Yi's voice was filled with a strong smile.
"Did you do this on purpose?" An Lengxi continued to question.
Shang Yi continued to answer fearlessly: "Of course! Since the person she likes is no longer here, I think I am the best person for her."
"But Yingning still cares about us very much." Nuo said calmly.
"Yes! She cares about you, so your existence is the source of her pain. She forces herself to smile and accept it, but can't you see what kind of mood she is in? Or can you see it but turn a blind eye to it?" At this moment, Shang Yi's tone lacked the teasing tone, and his sharp words made the room suddenly quieter.
I held the door handle and wanted to push it open, but the door suddenly opened and An Lengxi stood in front of me with a sullen face.
I met his gaze, but heard him ask softly, "Do Nuo and I make you feel uncomfortable?"
I stood there for a long time, and finally nodded.
After getting my answer, An Lengxi took a deep breath and walked away without looking back.
Then, Nuo also came to my side and said, "I'm sorry, I thought as long as I was with you, you wouldn't be sad..." He hesitated to speak, as if he didn't know how to express himself.
This night was destined to be a sleepless night for me, but the next day, when I got up, I found that Nuo and An Lengxi were missing.
What is this? Leaving without saying goodbye? I can't accept this ending, and I don't know whether to ask Shang Yi to settle the score, but he was kind enough to help me, so how can I vent my anger on him?
Maybe heaven is where I belong.
half year later.
I was standing on the sidewalk in a snow-white dress, but no one around me could see me.
In the past few months, I have been walking alone, learning to bless, harvesting touches and joy, and now I want to go back and take a look. Just a thought, the snow-white wings behind me spread out, I flew up, and a few translucent and shining feathers floated in the air.
When I returned to Shang Yi's house, I found it was still the same. I stood at the door and looked up, feeling complicated and indescribably wonderful.
I walked in and found it spotless inside, but there was no sign of anyone.
I sat quietly in a corner of the sofa for a while, then stood up and prepared to leave.
"Are you leaving soon?" A familiar voice came from behind.
I turned around and saw a head of fiery red hair. It was An Lengxi. I stared at him for a long while before I walked towards him and hugged him.
"I'm sorry." Apart from these three words, I don't know what to say.
He reached out his hand, gently caressed my back with his warm palm, and said, "I'm glad you're back..."
I looked up at him blankly and said, "You..."
An Lengxi smiled and asked, "Don't you recognize me? Do you want me to help you remember?"
After saying that, he lowered his head and kissed my lips.
Tears welled up in my eyes. I stared at An Lengxi with wide eyes. He smirked and said, "How dare you leave my sight so casually? Do you know how serious the consequences are?"
"I……"
"Bei Yingning, you have to stay by my side for the rest of your life. I will never let you go." An Lengxi stretched out his arms and hugged me tightly from behind, making me unable to move.
"promise……"
At this time, An Lengxi shook his head helplessly, poked my forehead with his finger, and said, "How stupid are you? Weren't you the top student in the grade before?" Then, he held my hand again and placed it on his chest, "He's here."
My heart suddenly tightened, I looked at him with tears in my eyes and said, "Didn't you say..."
An Lengxi looked a little angry and said, "What on earth are you thinking about? You can tell that I will put your wishes first. But when we went to hell to find my father and asked him to help Nuo and I get back together, you disappeared when we came back!"
"But..." I thought about the past and felt a little disappointed, "It seems that An Lengxi will not accept the promise."
"I'm afraid I'll push you out again." After saying that, An Lengxi hugged me tightly again.
I feel very happy being held by him like this.
"Well, actually there are some things I don't understand..."
"Hmm? What's the matter?" An Lengxi asked, resting his chin on the top of my head.
"Will the real you be cold, jealous, rude, and unreasonable? An Yihuo said that personality can be balanced. Now your personality seems too gentle, more like Nuo."
Now there is no trace of An Lengxi in him. Of course, it’s not that that An Lengxi is not good, but I want to see a more complete An Lengxi.
An Lengxi took my hand and led me to sit down.
"Yingning, actually I liked you the first time I saw you!" An Lengxi's words echoed in my mind, and I looked at him in disbelief.
The first time? Was it the time I went to a basketball game?
"That's why I took care of you in the garden later, otherwise I wouldn't have stayed with you all the time. People in hell can see the death of humans, so I wanted to wait for you, but you unexpectedly entered heaven. I think we are not suitable, and I have been avoiding you. I am afraid that I will hurt you. In fact, seeing you and Shang Yi being too close, I was really angry. I have been putting pressure on myself, which is why I split into Nuo when my father erased my memory. But no matter whether it is Nuo or An Lengxi who lost Nuo, they will only be gentle to you, because they will not bind each other."
"But when you lost your promise, I couldn't see any tenderness in you. And now, you don't seem to have lost your promise either."
Suddenly, my wrist was tightly grasped by An Lengxi. He looked at me and asked indifferently, "Do you want to see it?"
I immediately shook my head. An Lengxi saw my expression and laughed: "Don't be silly. I lost my memory at that time, and then I was violent towards you because you liked Nuo. In fact, even if I lost Nuo, I would still love you the same."
Oh, I am really confused.
"From now on you must treat me with your most complete side. I don't want to make any more mistakes." I hugged him and said angrily.
An Lengxi put his arms around my waist and suddenly acted a little scary: "You've been gone for several months, and I couldn't find you no matter how hard I tried. How should I punish you?" I knew he was really angry.
Wow, I think I said something wrong.
"Don't be angry, okay? At that time, I... I couldn't accept it for a while, so I chose to leave."
An Lengxi hugged me and said expressionlessly, "No, you must punish me. It's no use pretending to be pitiful."
"Okay, what do you want?" I accepted my fate. After all, he had a hard time in the past six months, and I should compensate him.
An Lengxi stretched out her slender fingers and brushed them across her lips, and said seductively: "Kiss me..."
"Huh?" I was completely stunned.
"Hurry up!" He was waiting for me with a contented look, with a faint smile on his lips.
With a blushing face, I quickly kissed him on the lips, then turned and ran away.
Another half month passed in the blink of an eye.
"An Lengxi, you are so unkind. Yingning is back and you didn't even say hello to me?" Shang Yi said angrily, with one hand on his waist.
"Why should I say hello? Do you want me to disturb our intimate moments?"
"This is my home!" Shang Yi stomped his feet in anger.
"I forgot." An Lengxi said nonchalantly.
"Yingning, although I agree with your approach, next time you leave An Lengxi, please say hello first. I can cover for you..." At this time, Shang Yi's words seemed to hit An Lengxi's vital point even more lethally.
An Lengxi frowned unhappily.
"Okay, can you guys stop quarreling all the time?" I glared at them helplessly and asked with a serious expression, "An Lengxi, have you been in the human world for the past six months? Haven't you returned to hell?"
"Before my memory was erased, I had actually told my father that I would rather die without you. And after I regained my memory, I told him the same thing, and only then did he agree to let me be with you." An Lengxi said, so wasn't it a conspiracy for An Yihuo to agree to let me be with him at that time?
Although it was only a few seconds, it seemed like a long time to me because I was having an intense psychological struggle.
"I want to see him," I said.
An Lengxi and Shang Yi both looked at me strangely.
"What did you say? You want to see my father?" An Lengxi looked confused and didn't understand my decision.
"Forget it, Yingning, you've finally reunited with us, I'm really afraid something bad will happen again." Shang Yi's tone contained a hint of pleading.
"Yes! In fact, as long as he says the word, we must go back, but since he didn't give any order, there is no need for us to go back." An Lengxi was indeed calm and wise.
"But I want to go, and I want to go alone," I said firmly.
"What are you talking about? You still want to go alone?" Shang Yi thought he had misheard and raised his voice.
"Okay, you go. If you can't come back, I will look for you." An Lengxi looked at me calmly, as if he expected that I had made a great determination to go this time, and I had to go.
"Well, go ahead! I will protect you too." Shang Yi said affirmatively.
But think about it and you will know that An Yihuo will not welcome me. I snatched away his beloved son and even caused them to turn against each other. But some things have to be faced sooner or later.
Hell was still the same, there was no daytime, no sunshine. An Yihuo sat alone on the high hall, as if he had endless things to do every day.
Although I looked small and humble standing in the hall, I felt that I was much better than him in comparison, because he had no one around him in the end.
"What are you doing here?" he asked, not even looking at me.
"Looking for you." I replied simply and clearly.
"Looking for me? Do you have something to talk to me about?" He asked doubtfully, and it was obvious that he was deceiving himself.
"I hope you can help me and An Lengxi be together."
"What are you talking about whether you can be together or not? Aren't you already together?" An Yihuo said with a sneer.
"I hope to have your blessing." I said frankly.
At this time, An Yihuo finally looked me in the face. He stood up and walked towards me. Every step he took was intimidating and frightening.
But I still stood still.
He stretched out his hand and waved his red sleeves, and I was immediately thrown far away. I rolled on the ground for a few times, and my body was a little painful, but I didn't care and stood up immediately.
An Yihuo looked at me and said, "Blessings? Are you kidding? I didn't lock you up, which is already fair to you!"
I approached him without fear and said, "Yes! You didn't stop us. Doesn't that mean you have already helped us?"
Hearing what I said, An Yihuo seemed very angry. This time, the red light from his sleeves was more powerful, and I did not dodge.
It hurts so much. I haven't felt this kind of pain in a long time! But this kind of pain is bliss. I gritted my teeth and stood up again.
An Yihuo looked at me, frowned, and asked, "What do you want to do?"
"I don't want you to live alone."
"You pity me?" He immediately looked at me murderously.
"No, that's a kind of emotion!" I shook my head in denial.
"You to me?" An Yihuo looked at me in disbelief.
"I hope to understand you and live in peace with you like I did with An Lengxi." I said softly. Although I was not sure how he would treat me, I still went forward bravely. "I came here with great determination today, so no matter how you torture me, I will not dodge."
"Don't you want to live in peace with me? Why are you here to be tortured by me?" An Yihuo snorted coldly.
"So what do you mean..."
"Come back occasionally!" An Yihuo said helplessly.
"We will definitely become friends!" I laughed happily.
"Did you get the relationship wrong? You should call me father, right?" An Yihuo seemed very dissatisfied with what I said.
I smiled secretly, then blinked and called out, "Father."
An Yihuo clenched his fist and coughed lightly.
If possible, I hope everyone is happy.
