Chapter 12 Even if I have no memory, I still love you 1
Before I knew it, it had been more than a week since I left hell. I had been living in Shang Yi's house and had hardly ever gone out, except occasionally walking around the small garden outside the house. Shang Yi was very busy and sometimes went out, but he would always make time to be with me every day.
Maybe he was afraid that I would disappear. Even though I had said many times that I had thought it through and would not disappear easily, he would still stay with me.
On this day, the color of the sky was particularly beautiful and the sun was shining brightly, but it didn't feel hot. Instead, it was warm and made people feel lazy.
I sat on the sofa and watched TV as usual.
The door suddenly opened and I greeted without turning my head: "It's so early today."
"It seems like you're doing well." This voice stunned me as I sat on the sofa.
I turned around and saw An Lengxi and Nuo standing at the door. They were shoulder to shoulder. They were about the same height and build, but their appearances were completely different. I suddenly didn't know how to face them.
After a long while, I stood up, looked at them and asked, "You..."
"I was worried about you, so I followed you." Nuo's voice sounded a little cold, but his face was full of tenderness.
An Lengxi on the other side exuded a cold aura. I always felt that he seemed to dislike me and hate me very much.
"Are you afraid of me?" An Lengxi asked with a frown.
"Long time no see, how are you?" I gave a faint smile.
"Of course not as good as you." The tone was full of sarcasm, but it was within my expectations. I was not angry and still had a calm smile on my face.
"Don't listen to him. He was the one who asked me to come with him. He even had a fight with his father for you." Nuo explained.
"Did I fight him alone? Isn't he your father too?" An Lengxi glanced at Nuo coldly.
They are obviously one person, so why are they so incompatible? Why can't An Lengxi tolerate Nuo?
"But I have no memory." Nuo said, walking towards me.
Nuo walked up to me, stretched out his hand to stroke my hair, and said, "Yingning, even if I have no memory, I still like you very much, so I came!"
I couldn't tell whether I wanted to see them or not. I was very happy when I first saw them, but then I felt a little sad.
"It's the same with An Lengxi. He just can't let you go." Nuo's tone sounded a bit like he was teasing An Lengxi.
An Lengxi's face became more and more gloomy, and he was filled with gloom. I was afraid of running into trouble, so I didn't dare to say a word.
An Lengxi walked over to my side, pushed me to sit on the sofa, and then sat next to me.
"What's wrong with you? You look like you're out of spirits." Although his tone was cold, I still felt warm in my heart when I heard his greeting.
I smiled and shook my head: "I'm fine, it's always been like this these days."
"I think Shang Yi didn't take good care of you." An Lengxi's attitude was extremely unfriendly.
I laughed and said jokingly, "Then are you going to take care of me yourself?"
"No?" An Lengxi glanced at me, and seeing that I was looking at him in surprise, he frowned and reached out to pull me, so I fell on his lap unexpectedly. "What's with that expression? Although I'm not as gentle, considerate, and tolerant to you as before, my feelings for you haven't changed. What's so surprising about taking care of someone you like?"
"An Lengxi , don't you blame me? Aren't you angry?" I asked with some self-blame.
"What do you think? We could have been together. We had to convince my father with great difficulty to get married, but we didn't expect so many things to happen." An Lengxi's expression became increasingly gloomy, which made me feel a little scared as I sat on his lap.
"I'm sorry." It seemed that he was really angry, so at this moment I didn't know what to do except apologize.
An Lengxi glanced at me nonchalantly, then said, "Although I am very angry, I don't blame you."
I don't believe it. The look on his face just now looked like he wanted to eat me.
Nuo also sat next to An Lengxi at this time and said, "Even if An Lengxi is angry, you don't have to care, because he is now in a state where he can't control himself."
Hearing his provocative words, An Lengxi did not fight back, but just glanced at him and continued to look at me silently.
What is the situation now? The atmosphere is so subtle...
I always feel that it will become very lively in the future.
It turns out that it was not only lively but also full of tension.
"That's it. I'll live here from now on." An Lengxi announced bluntly.
His arrogant attitude made Shang Yi very dissatisfied: "Young Master, why are you staying here instead of staying in the underworld? Don't you have a house?" Although An Lengxi heard these words that were full of the meaning of driving him away, he looked calm.
"We just want to accompany Yingning." Nuo said calmly.
Shang Yi was silent for a while, sighed deeply, and said: "Then please appear as one person."
An Lengxi immediately denied his words: "Impossible, how can I be one with him again? If I have him, I will have to take a lot into consideration, and it will become an obstacle for me and Yingning to be together."
"Yeah! I don't think so either, because I'm not sure if I will disappear after becoming a part of An Lengxi, and whether I can still express my thoughts in this way." Nuo also lowered his head, expressing his inner concerns.
"Shut up!" Shang Yi yelled unhappily, "Have you ever considered Yingning's feelings?"
Indeed, seeing the two of them together, I felt like there was a lump in my heart.
My tears slowly fell from the corners of my eyes without me noticing. An Lengxi and Nuo fell silent immediately after seeing this. Shang Yi hurriedly came to my side, stroked my hair, and comforted me: "Yingning, don't care what they say. You promised me that you would live well in the future."
I looked up at him and nodded. Yes, I have to be strong!
At this time, Nuo looked at me and said, "I'm sorry, did I say something wrong?"
"No, I will respect Nuo's idea. Nuo is not wrong." I replied.
Shang Yi suggested: "Yingning, how about we go out for a walk tomorrow?"
I understood that this was his good intention, so I nodded.
At night, the stars twinkled and the whistling wind outside the window was like a song that kept plucking my heartstrings. I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze, unable to fall asleep.
Suddenly, with a creaky sound, the door opened.
I sat up puzzled and looked towards the door.
Although I don't know who the visitors are, I know there won't be anyone else except them.
"What's the matter so late?" I asked.
"Don't make any sound..." At this time, Nuo's voice came.
I saw him close the door, walk towards me, and then sit next to me.
I was a little confused. What was the matter with him coming to see me so late?
Soon, I felt someone grabbing my hand.
"Yingning, tell me the truth, do you hope to see the An Lengxi of the past?" The tone was very stiff, and perhaps it was not appropriate to ask this kind of question, so should I tell the truth?
Seeing that I was silent, Nuo gently stroked my head with his other hand and held me in his arms.
I leaned on his shoulder and heard him say, "I want to hear your true thoughts."
"Nuo, my mood is very complicated. I like everything about An Lengxi. No matter it is you or that An Lengxi, I should like you, but I also feel that..." This feeling is really complicated, so complicated that I don't know how to explain it.
"Okay, stop talking." Nuo seemed to understand my thoughts and couldn't bear to see me struggling like this, so he said gently, "Yingning, your thoughts are the most important to me. Can you promise me one thing?"
I nodded.
"Forget An Lengxi in your memory for a short period of time."
Nuo's request was a bit unreasonable. Isn't this what I have been doing recently? But facing them, it was too difficult!
That night, Nuo kept his arms around me and stayed by my side until dawn.
"Nuo ..." I looked at him and called softly.
Nuo's eyelashes trembled slightly, then he opened his eyes. Seeing that I smiled faintly, he also smiled, but quickly restrained it reluctantly.
He looked at me and asked, "Did you sleep well?"
I nodded.
At this moment, there was a knock on the door, and then the door was pushed open. An Lengxi stood at the door with an expressionless face.
I thought he would get jealous and come to settle the score with Nuo, but I didn't expect that he just watched everything calmly and didn't get angry.
"Get up, let's go out for a walk." An Lengxi conveyed his meaning in a cold voice and then left.
In fact, I was wondering if he had made some kind of agreement with Nuo, otherwise why would they come to me together, do they plan to live in peace in the future?
The color of the sky is light blue and the air in the morning is particularly good.
An Lengxi and I were walking in a nearby park. There were not many people around. I think this is why Shang Yi lives here! It is very quiet and we will not be disturbed.
"Why do you always look..." An Lengxi looked at me, seeming to have an indescribable feeling.
"I'm fine!" I immediately shook my head.
An Lengxi's eyes were fixed on me, as if he had seen through my lie.
"I'm an angel, what do you have to worry about? Right?" I still looked at him with a smile.
"Who said I was worried?" An Lengxi denied calmly, "Even if I'm not worried about you, there are still a lot of people who are worried about you, right?"
"You are you, Nuo is Nuo, Shang Yi is Shang Yi, and they are different." I said frankly.
But I’m not sure whether An Lengxi understood what I meant.
"I also want to have your concern at this moment..." I continued.
An Lengxi didn't look at me, but I knew he was in a good mood at the moment.
I looked at Nuo who was not far away. He just followed us silently and didn't say a word to disturb me and An Lengxi.
I turned and walked towards him and said, "I'm tired and want to go back."
An Lengxi grabbed me, looked at me and said, "Yingning, isn't it good for us to be together like this?"
I nodded, but I didn't think so.
Nuo, An Lengxi, I'm really sorry, I think I can't live this kind of life, I can't live with you, it will be very tiring and painful. I can only say that in my heart, whether it is the gentle An Lengxi or the somewhat rude An Lengxi, they are all good. I clearly understand that those gentleness, thoughtfulness, rudeness, and jealousy are all born only for me, and I can't separate them to love.
In my memory, that lingering scene replays in my mind like a movie. Even though I know you are him, it cannot change the sadness in my heart.
On this day, I was standing on the balcony basking in the sun as usual, and Shang Yi slowly walked up behind me. Although I didn't look back, the familiar aura on his body still made me aware of his approach.
I didn't speak, and he didn't speak either. We just stood there quietly.
Although I am grateful that he plays a guardian role, it also makes me feel guilty.
"I will be in a difficult situation if you do this!" I said with a smile.
Shang Yi walked up to me, looked at me, and said lovingly, "Can you please stop laughing?"
"Why?" I didn't understand what he meant. Wasn't it good for me to smile? Didn't he want me to be happy too?
"Seeing this forced smile only makes me uncomfortable." Shang Yi leaned on the balcony, lowered his head and gave me a helpless look.
"I'm sorry." Apart from these three words, I don't know what else to say.
Shang Yi shook his head and said, "This is the last thing I want to hear."
"So what do you want me to do?" Laughing is not right, crying is not right either, what should I do?
Shang Yi looked at my embarrassment, sighed, and changed the subject: "I recently took an advertisement, do you want to give it a try?"
After hearing what he said, I was a little confused.
Shooting commercials? Me?
I said nothing and just stared at him blankly.
"Because we are still in the process of looking for a heroine, I think you should be a good fit." Shang Yi's tone was quite perfunctory.
"No way? I'm afraid I'm not in the mood for that." I shook my head in protest.
"Really? If I say I can help you change your current situation, you still decide not to accept it?" There was a hint of temptation in Shang Yi's eyes.
"What do you mean?" I asked, frowning.
Shang Yi smiled even more brightly, but avoided the question. Curiosity forced me to accept his proposal.
What kind of advertisement should we shoot? Will Novo Anlengxi agree to it?
After dinner that day, the four of us sat together as if we were having a meeting. Because the atmosphere was too serious, especially when Shang Yi and An Lengxi looked at each other, it seemed that sparks would fly if they were not careful.
After a long time, Shang Yi broke the silence and said, "Yes, An Lengxi, I will take Yingning out to relax tomorrow."
"Let's go too." An Lengxi said with a slight frown.
"No need, Shang Yi can just accompany me!" I looked at him and said firmly.
"Why?"
Hearing An Lengxi's question, I didn't know how to answer. I thought for a long time before saying, "Because I owe it to Shang Yi."
An Lengxi looked at me, then at Shang Yi, stood up and said, "Okay, it's up to you." Then he left.
Nuo said calmly: "Come back soon."
At this time, Shang Yi smiled and looked at An Lengxi's back with some pride. I sighed secretly, why are they like children who never grow up?
Nuo seemed to have seen something from Shang Yi's expression and said, "But Shang Yi, you'd better not do anything to make An Lengxi angry. Now that we have finally regained our composure."
"Are you calm now?" Shang Yi seemed very angry and suddenly stood up from the sofa.
Nuo was silent, probably because he didn't know what to say.
The next day, Shang Yi took me to his company.
As soon as I opened the door, I saw a man wearing glasses walking towards me quickly. He walked around Shang Yi and came in front of me. He held the frame of his glasses and looked at me from head to toe and from toe to head with a serious expression.
Just when I was wondering what he wanted to do, I noticed a cunning look on his face, and he said, "You look really good, which agency are you from? Would you consider joining us?"
"Hey!" Shang Yi pulled him over and said, "Don't go after her. She's my friend. She's here to help me."
The man with glasses looked at Shang Yi, gave up decisively, and said weakly: "Here is the script, take a look!"
I took it and flipped through it casually, only to find that it was an advertisement for lip gloss, which required a kiss at the end.
I closed the script, turned to look at Shang Yi, and said, "You didn't tell me there was a kissing scene!"
"Really? Didn't I say that?" Shang Yi was obviously pretending to be confused, his shoulders were shaking, and it was obvious that he was trying not to laugh. I angrily threw the script in my hand on his head.
"How do you want me to explain?" Is he trying to make things difficult for me? He knows An Lengxi's temper and personality very well, isn't this just to embarrass me?
Shang Yi turned my body around so that I was facing him, and comforted me, "Leave it all to me! Or do you not trust me? I said I would help you change your current situation."
His eyes were so sincere that I didn't know how to refuse.
"I believe it." I nodded slowly in response.
Yes! We have been through so much together, how could I not trust him? Shang Yi really cares about me and would never do anything to hurt me, but even so, I still feel a little uneasy.
"She's so beautiful, I've never seen her before!"
"It looks like he and Shang Yi are a good match."
The discussions of people around me made me even more uneasy. Every minute and every second standing here felt like a year. I really wanted to go home as soon as possible.
"What's your name?" a woman dressed very exaggeratedly stood in front of me and asked. I didn't know how to answer. Could I use my real name?
"Call Yingning!" Shang Yi responded from the side.
"Really? Your skin is so good, have you taken care of it? Come with me, I'll put on makeup for you."
Then she took me to the dressing room to change my clothes and put on exquisite makeup.
According to the script, I shot the first scene well, and everyone praised me for being a big star, but the next scene was the kissing scene with Shang Yi. Although I didn't hate him, he was my good friend, so how should I act?
"Are you nervous?" Shang Yi's voice suddenly came from behind me.
