Chapter 11 My feelings tell me that he is not the one I love 2
"Yingning!" everyone shouted in unison.
An Yihuo supported Nuo and asked with concern: "Are you okay?"
Nuo frowned and looked down at the blood on his clothes, without any trace of pain on his face.
Of course, I was the one who felt the pain, because one of my hands was bleeding.
An Yihuo looked at me with a hint of murderous intent in his eyes. It should be said that he was angry, or felt ashamed, because I had tricked him.
"Yingning, you..." An Lengxi, who was wearing a red robe beside him, seemed to understand something.
"What's wrong? Are you feeling unhappy? Are you angry out of shame?" I asked with a smile, feeling very proud. This undoubtedly made An Yihuo even angrier. "You are so silly and cute. I love him so much, how could I let him get hurt?"
After hearing what I said, Shang Yi looked very confused.
"What do you mean?" An Yihuo's words seemed to be testing me.
"It's a no-brainer, but you've always lived in darkness, so let me explain it to you." I walked forward and stood in front of An Yihuo. "Did you overestimate yourself, or underestimate me? From the moment I agreed to get married, I had already guessed the truth of the matter."
An Yihuo looked at me in surprise, his eyes very fierce.
"Although we haven't met many times, I know your character very well. Will you watch us get married without stopping us? If so, you wouldn't have put forward such harsh conditions in the first place. All you want to see is my painful and embarrassed look, which in a way gave me a hint - I will only suffer if I marry An Lengxi. I think after this wedding, you will laugh at me and say that my love for An Lengxi is nothing more than this, right? Because he is not An Lengxi at all, and the real An Lengxi is Nuo who gave me the red dress." I said, looking at the man in a red robe behind me.
Although he looks exactly like An Lengxi and knows some things about me, my feeling tells me that he is not the person I love.
Everyone was immediately in a state of great surprise. An Yihuo was the first to ask, "What do you mean?"
"Today is the seventh day of the bet..." I said.
"Yes, the seventh day! How are you going to help Nuo recover his memory? I really want to put you in hell right now." An Yihuo's eyes flashed with a trace of struggle, and then he looked at me and said, "You already liked Nuo before you knew his identity, right? Do you still dare to say that you are devoted to my son?"
I didn't pay attention to An Yihuo's words. Instead, I looked at Nuo calmly and said, "Even if a person loses his memory, his personality will never change. Although An Lengxi is sometimes indifferent to me, he definitely cherishes me with his heart, and I can feel it. I love him, so even if I lose my memory, I believe that when I meet him again, even if I can't remember the past, I will fall in love with him again. The same goes for him. Even if he has never said that he likes me, he will make me feel warm even if he loses his memory, and we will still love each other."
Nuo looked at me with a confused expression.
Everyone's expression was even more confused. At this time, I heard a very harsh laugh. I turned around and looked at An Yihuo, who was clapping.
"That sounds nice!" His sharp voice made me feel uncomfortable all over. He continued, "Lengxi, what do you think?" After that, he looked at An Lengxi who was wearing a red robe beside him.
I shuddered immediately, feeling somewhat puzzled. Did I guess wrong? I looked at An Lengxi, who was wearing a fiery red shirt and had a dazed look in his eyes, and I felt very uncomfortable.
He turned his head and sneered, "Will you still love each other? Why don't you love me, Bei Yingning?"
"What is going on?" Shang Yi couldn't help but ask when he saw this situation.
"That sounds nice, but you only love the good side of An Lengxi. You don't accept his other side at all." An Yihuo's tone was very gloomy, and then he said coldly, "Go away! Leave here!"
Ask me to leave?
"I won't leave until I figure this out." I looked at him firmly.
"Okay, then I'll tell you. Indeed, Nuo is An Lengxi, but he is also An Lengxi." An Yihuo walked slowly to An Lengxi, who was wearing a red robe, and said calmly.
"You separated the two of them?" At this time, Shang Yi spoke.
An Yihuo shook his head and said, "They split up on their own. I was the one who caused them to lose their memories."
Shang Yi seemed to understand what An Yihuo said, but I didn’t understand!
I walked towards Shang Yi and asked with a frown, "What's going on?"
"Yingning, people's personalities can be gentle, violent, weak, or strong. These are all balanced by the essence, which means..."
"That is to say, 'Nuo' is the lost part of me, and we both like you and care about you. I always felt that my gentleness made you sad, and in the end we broke up, even though we both lost our feelings for you." An Lengxi smiled desperately. Seeing him like this, I suddenly felt very guilty.
"Did I know Yingning before? Then why did you recover your memory but I didn't?" Nuo was a little confused, but he also got some clues and asked in an incomprehensible way.
"Because Yingning hates me, I was baptized by her holy light." An Lengxi's words were full of self-mockery, and he always felt...
I took a step back.
"The An Lengxi you love is only the gentle and tolerant one, not the complete An Lengxi. The fact that you did not accept the An Lengxi by your side is the best possible thing." I didn't want to listen to An Yihuo's words anymore, but he said aggressively, "Do you still dare to say that you love my son very much?"
This statement is so sharp that I can't refute it.
But I think he is weird. Maybe he is right. Subconsciously, I like An Lengxi because she is gentle. But there seems to be something missing in Nuo. I thought it was just because he had amnesia.
"I'm sorry, I didn't understand it in the end."
I felt a little heartbroken and apologetic and was about to turn around and leave.
"Yingning..." Shang Yi looked at me worriedly.
Nuo Ze blocked my way, took my hand again, and asked, "Does it hurt?"
"It doesn't hurt, Nuo. Although this is the result in the end, I don't regret coming here. At least you don't have to wait for me there blindly, looking for your lost things." I said with a faint smile. At this moment, the surroundings were unusually quiet.
"What about me? Am I insignificant to you?" An Lengxi looked at me, looking very sad.
"No one is indifferent. I can't even tell who is who. What right do I have to tell you that I care?"
After all, they are just different individuals. Only when they become one person can they become the An Lengxi that I like. Since they have split up, the An Lengxi that I like is gone.
I took a deep breath, turned and left.
I didn't expect An Yihuo to let me go without stopping me, but for me, what difference does it make whether I go or not?
"Yingning!" Shang Yi caught up and called softly.
I don’t remember clearly what happened afterwards, but when I regained consciousness, I saw a dazzling light. Where was this?
I sat up and found myself in a gorgeous room, surrounded by artistic decorations. However, the oversized poster in front of me was a little hard to accept - Shang Yi?
Is this Shang Yi’s house in the human world?
Oh, he is really narcissistic enough to put such a big poster in his room.
I moved my body slightly, and felt a sharp pain in my palm. I looked at the injured hand that had been bandaged and smiled.
"Are you awake?" Shang Yi walked in from outside and asked.
I nodded.
He walked slowly to my side, carefully took my hand, and said, "You shed a lot of blood. Do you think the angel won't die?"
Of course I know that even an angel will die if injured, but what is the difference between my current state and death? Even if my body is fine, my heart is already dead.
I smiled sadly and shook my head.
"Don't worry! I'm fine now. At least you will be with me until the end." I said with a smile. His face didn't look very good.
Shang Yi held my shoulders and said, "Yingning, go back to heaven! Go and beg the Emperor of Heaven for forgiveness. Don't stay here any longer."
"Why? Even if not in hell, I believe I can still live in the human world!" At this point, how could I go there? It's not where I belong at all.
"If you continue to be depressed like this, within ten days you will turn into several rays of light and disappear completely." Shang Yi looked at me with a terrifying look in his eyes, and then he pulled me up, "Yingning, are you going to become depressed just because you recognized the wrong person? The Bei Yingning I know is not like this."
It's not because I recognized the wrong person, but because my him has disappeared. Even if he hasn't disappeared, he is not the An Lengxi I like.
Thinking of this, tears rolled down from my eyes, and a ray of white light emerged from my body and quickly disappeared into the air.
I looked at it, my heart full of doubts, and asked, "What was that just now?"
"Don't be sad anymore." Shang Yi looked at me and said nervously, "Yingning, the people in heaven are different from the souls in hell. Because the people in heaven have flesh and blood, and their bodies have the so-called qi, but once this qi disappears, the flesh and blood will disappear as well."
So, what just came out was the energy in my body?
I looked up at Shang Yi. Is he worried about me?
"Why is this happening? Is it because I stabbed myself?" I asked confused.
Shang Yi shook his head and said, "Do you subconsciously want to disappear now? That way you won't feel anything."
Disappear? I just feel like my life is boring.
"The people in heaven have very strong psychological qualities. Not only do they have a noble and kind heart, but they also have a firm willpower. You had it before, but unfortunately now..." Shang Yi's suggestive words made me understand.
I nodded and said calmly: "I understand. Since it is my choice, you should respect me!"
I know it's cruel to say this, but there's nothing we can do about it.
"I will respect your choice." Shang Yi said word by word, and then smiled very charmingly, "Of course, An Lengxi will also respect you, and maybe disappear with you."
"Just don't tell him." I said hastily.
"Yingning, what about me? Have you ever thought that if you leave, I won't be sad and upset? Even if I am a devil, I still have feelings, and I said I like you." Shang Yi looked at me and said frankly what was hidden deep in his heart.
I looked at him, then hugged him and said, "I'm sorry, I'll try my best!"
I'm sorry, Shang Yi, maybe I'm too selfish, but I have no choice. My thoughts now are completely out of my control.
"Okay, we will work hard with you." Shang Yi said affirmatively.
I always feel that his feelings at the moment are very special. It doesn't make people feel that there is that kind of ambiguous love, but rather helplessness and pity.
"Shang Yi, do you treat me as your sister now?" I asked with some confusion.
"Because I know I can't replace An Lengxi, but I can at least protect you as your friend, confidant, and brother." Shang Yi's tone was extremely sincere and full of tolerance.
"Shang Yi, if I still disappear, then you must accept my heart!"
"Yingning, I am indeed in the human world now, but it is still under the jurisdiction of the Lord of Hell. Eating your heart can indeed allow me to escape from here, but I will be bound by you for the rest of my life."
I shook my head and said, "It's not a bondage. At least before I disappear, let me become a part of you. Isn't that beautiful?"
Shang Yi looked out the window and said helplessly: "We really can't communicate! Didn't you promise me that you would try? Then don't say discouraging words!" He suddenly raised his voice, which stunned me.
"I'm sorry, don't be angry." I realized I was wrong and apologized immediately.
Shang Yi seemed very angry. He did not accept my apology and stood up and left.
He was worried about me, but I was so selfish. Even though I was hit hard, I shouldn't have escaped. And as long as I continued to live, there was hope that I would meet An Lengxi again, right?
