Volume 6 2014 Chapter 1061 I Like You (Finale)
This game lasted for three days.
Yi Haoyan accompanied the little dinosaur to Everland, Namsan Tower, Han River Park and Gyeongbokgung Palace...
If possible, Park Ji-yeon would like to play for a few more days.
But she only had three days in Seoul before she had to return to China to continue her already scheduled itinerary, so she had to give up in the end.
Gathering and separation are like duckweed, and everyone has a reason to leave.
"Hey~ don't think too much. Haven't you had a lot of fun these days? With me by your side, you will definitely get through this!"
Park Ji-yeon patted the boy's shoulder with a bright smile. Yi Haoyan has been doing very well these days, and he has been very normal during the game. It can be seen that he is very happy, which makes the little dinosaur feel relieved.
"Okay, thank you!"
Yi Haoyan responded to her with a smile.
Looks like it's back to normal.
…
After seeing Park Ji-yeon off, I returned to the apartment.
Yi Haoyan sat on the sofa in a daze, the smile on his face had long disappeared.
He returned to his usual indifferent look, completely different from the happy look he had just shown.
These days, Yi Haoyan has been cooperating with Park Ji-yeon.
He could understand the little dinosaur's thoughts and knew that the other party had good intentions, so he tried his best to cooperate with the other party.
To act out a scene of "You want me to be happy, so I will show it to make you think I am happy."
What else can we do?
Let Park Ji-yeon continue to worry?
She has so many schedules to attend to and she can't even take care of everything herself, so don't let her worry about such troublesome things. It's better to avoid causing trouble for others.
So even though it has been hard these days, Yi Haoyan is trying his best to play the role he should play.
It was not until he sent the little dinosaur away that he finally took off his mask and returned to his true self.
Depression is not a problem at the conscious level, and it cannot be solved by just giving some advice and thinking more positively.
Park Ji-yeon had good intentions, but she didn't understand.
Her efforts were of no help except making Yi Haoyan feel more tired.
After three consecutive days of outdoor sports, the boy was exhausted and felt very tired.
After lunch at noon, he went to sleep and slept until 8 o'clock in the evening. When he woke up, it was already dark outside.
When a person is alone at night, he always has many ideas. There is an idea that has been buried in Yi Haoyan's mind for a long time, and today he finally wants to try it out.
He walked out of the apartment and came to the rooftop.
This apartment building has thirty-three floors.
The wind on the top floor was stronger than I had imagined, whistling past my ears, completely different from the bustling and noisy world below.
Coming here, you can basically have a panoramic view of the night view of Seoul.
The boy came to the edge of the roof and sat on the parapet facing outwards.
There are stars in the sky and neon lights on the ground. The starry sky and the night sky merge together, and it feels like you can't tell the difference between heaven and earth. It seems that if you take a step forward, you will be integrated into this beautiful starry sky.
But this is just an illusion.
The starry sky above is something that ordinary people can only look up to but cannot touch, and the neon lights below... only look like the starry sky. If you really take that step, what you will encounter will be an abyss of no return.
In fact, the idea of suicide has been secretly present in Yi Haoyan's mind for a long time, he just never said it out loud.
As an intelligent creature, humans naturally have the instinct to survive. Only when the pain of life exceeds the limit of tolerance will creatures seek to actively end their lives.
Most suicides are done on impulse.
But Yi Haoyan knew that he was not impulsive.
He once thought seriously about the meaning of life, but the result was not very positive.
There is actually no meaning in living.
No matter how you live, whether glorious or humble, everyone will die.
Except for a very few lucky people who are recorded in history, everything about other people's lives will be reset to zero after death, leaving no trace, as if they had never lived.
Decades of time are nothing compared to the real natural world. Even a man as rich, powerful and talented as Yi Haoyan cannot escape this rule.
He didn't think there was any chance that someone like him would be recorded in history.
In this case, we should live happily and joyfully.
Are you living a happy life?
Yi Haoyan felt that the answer was no.
He is indeed a perfect existence in the eyes of ordinary people. He has everything he needs, but he does not feel happy.
He couldn't even keep his first love.
And Choi Jin-ri.
What did this girl who loved him wholeheartedly and unconditionally do wrong?
There is nothing wrong, it's all Yi Haoyan's fault.
He himself caused the current situation.
Park Ji-yeon thought Yi Haoyan couldn't accept the reality of breaking up.
In fact, he just couldn't face himself.
cowardly.
Selfish.
timid.
inability.
Fragile.
Does such a person have the right ?
These days, Yi Haoyan has clearly felt his influence on the people around him.
Everyone was very careful when speaking to him. Even Sister Eun-hee would consider the tone of her voice, not to mention Bae Joo-hyun, who almost always acted according to his gaze.
If there is no smile on her face, the young lady will be very nervous.
The same is true for Park Ji-yeon.
They are all worried.
It turns out that I have become a burden.
If so.
Then what’s the point of living?
Thinking of this, Yi Haoyan sat on the edge of the roof, his legs swinging unconsciously, as if he didn't care at all about this situation of teetering on the brink of life and death.
In fact, death is not a simple thing.
He knew the whole process of suicide by jumping off a building in detail.
To be honest, this is actually a terrible way to commit suicide and it is painful in many ways.
First of all, humans are afraid of heights, which is a self-protection instinct.
People standing on high places will have increased psychological pressure. At the moment of jumping off the roof, the feeling of weightlessness will make their fear reach its peak, which is not a comfortable experience.
Moreover, the brain will be highly concentrated in this situation, and people will feel that time has slowed down, thus prolonging the feeling of fear.
At the same time, the stress response caused by psychological factors can make the body very stiff and even tremble uncontrollably.
As the falling speed increases, the wind resistance will make the skin, ears and eyes uncomfortable, breathing will become difficult, and you may even feel suffocated.
Then because the speed is too fast, the eyes will experience narrowing of the field of vision and blurred vision.
People will be in extreme regret and fear, but they can do nothing but watch themselves rush to the ground.
The moment you land, the powerful impact force instantly breaks your bones, internal organs, blood vessels and nerves, but the pain does not disappear instantly.
For about two or three minutes, the person falling from the building will experience the most painful feeling in the world.
All the bones in the body are shattered and the internal organs are ruptured. The person is like a rotten tomato. All the blood, body fluids and tissues are scattered on the ground. If the doctor gives first aid, the painful process will be prolonged. The doctor will try to put the person back together after being broken into pieces. No painkillers will be effective in this process.
Even if you are lucky enough to die immediately after falling from the building, it will be a very ugly death.
In short, jumping off a building is a painful way to die. The only advantage is that there is no chance to regret.
Yi Haoyan sat on the edge of the roof, thinking about these things while staring at the night sky in a daze.
The instinct for survival and the painful torture were repeatedly pulling at each other in my heart, and the whole person was just like in his current state, hovering on the edge of life and death.
He sat on the top floor all night.
From the starry sky to the dawn, the soul and body are dangling on the edge of the abyss, ready to fall at any time.
…
Because Yi Haoyan had been acting normal since he was discharged from the hospital, the Sun family did not take extra precautions.
When Sun Enxi worked overtime very late and returned to the apartment and didn't see anyone, she was completely panicked.
In addition to notifying her family, Eun-hee started calling Yi Hao-yeon frantically.
"He could have committed suicide."
While waiting for the call to be connected, what Professor Jin had said before suddenly popped up in his mind like a curse, making Sun Eun-xi feel uneasy.
Who would have thought that Yi Haoyan, who seemed to have stabilized, would suddenly disappear?
Fortunately, the call went through.
"Where are you! I don't see anyone at home?"
At this time, Sun Enxi no longer cared about her tone.
"I'm on the roof."
Yi Haoyan's reaction was very calm.
"What rooftop? Which rooftop?"
Eun-hee starts to sweat.
“The roof of the apartment building.”
The boy remained calm.
"What are you doing there? You...wait a minute...don't hang up, don't hang up! I'll be right up!"
Sun Eun-hee was terrified.
She didn't dare hang up the phone and kept talking to Yi Haoyan. At the same time, she sent text messages to her family to inform them of the current situation. She trotted to the elevator and went all the way to the top floor.
Then, she saw Yi Haoyan sitting on the edge of the roof, just one step away from falling.
This scene made Sun Eunxi freeze in place. She didn't even dare to breathe hard, fearing that any movement she made would cause her brother to fall.
"Haoyan, what's wrong with you?"
Eun-hee tried hard to calm herself and make her voice sound calm, even though she was extremely anxious.
"I can't sleep."
Yi Haoyan supported himself on the fence with both hands.
After sitting all night, he was very tired.
"It's okay if you can't sleep. It's cold outside. Can we go home?"
"It's not cold, I feel fine. It's more relaxed here."
"Then can you please come down from there first? If you want to stay on the roof, you can come over here. Sister will accompany you."
Eun-hee just wanted him to leave that dangerous place.
"Sister, do you think my life is meaningful?"
Yi Haoyan doesn't care about these at all.
"Yes! You are so important to us. Everyone likes you and everyone needs you."
"I don't think so. I'm a burden now. It might be better for everyone without me."
"That's not true! Weren't we very happy celebrating your birthday together a few days ago? Everyone was very happy for you!"
"That's all fake. You guys are actually acting like that because you're worried about me and afraid that something might happen to me. You want to make me happy."
Yi Haoyan's tone was indifferent.
"Oh, I forgot to mention that I acted so happy just to live up to your kindness. Actually, I don't feel anything."
"It's okay, that's part of life. Look! At least we are all thinking about each other, and that's the meaning of life!"
Sun Enxi tried to persuade her brother, but it was of no use.
“It’s meaningless…”
After saying
This made the young lady extremely anxious, but there was nothing she could do.
Fortunately, someone from home finally came over.
This time the commotion was quite loud, and soon a large group of people came to the rooftop, and there seemed to be firefighters and various rescue vehicles gathered at the bottom of the building.
The surroundings suddenly became very noisy.
Only the area around Yi Haoyan remained quiet.
In order to avoid irritating him, no one dared to approach him casually.
…
"Hao Yan! What are you doing there?"
Bae Joo-hyun finally arrived.
After hearing the eldest lady's notice, she almost ran all the way out of the practice room, not caring about any other schedule or practice.
Rushing back to the apartment, the young lady hurried to the rooftop, and just as she was gasping for breath, she saw the young man sitting on the edge of the rooftop.
"Would you please come down? I'm scared if you sit there."
The usually calm Bae Joo-hyun completely broke down.
The moment she saw Yi Haoyan, her tears couldn't stop flowing out, and even her voice was filled with tears.
Everything was fine before, they were happily celebrating birthdays and even dancing together, how did it turn out like this?
That person, the person I care about so much, was smiling at me gently a few days ago, but now he is on the verge of life and death.
If you're not careful, you might lose him forever.
This contrast is too cruel for Bae Joo-hyun.
"Joo Hyun, I'm sorry. I made you worry. I always do things like this."
The appearance of Bae Joo-hyun caused Yi Haoyan's emotions to fluctuate.
It was impossible for him to remain indifferent when facing the crying young lady.
"No! It doesn't matter! I'm willing to do these things for you, I'm willing to be scared for you! I just want you to come back, okay?"
One sentence still blames him for making you feel scared, and the next sentence accepts everything.
In fact, Bae Joo-hyun didn’t know what she was saying now. She was speaking incoherently and just wanted Yi Haoyan not to do anything stupid.
"People like me always cause trouble to others. I am a burden to Sister Zhuxuan. It might be better for Sister without me."
Yi Haoyan lowered his head, he didn't dare to look at Pei Zhuxuan's tearful eyes.
"Look, if I had ended this quietly, you wouldn't have to delay your trip. I made this trip just for me, and I made you cry. I'm sorry!"
The boy's expression was sad.
"Don't say sorry to me! You didn't apologize to me! It was me who didn't take good care of you! If I hadn't moved out because of my debut, you wouldn't be like this now. It's not your fault, it's my fault! Woohoo!"
The boy's apology made Bae Joo-hyun even more scared, and she felt that the other party seemed to be getting farther and farther away from her.
"I didn't manage my life well, and I caused a lot of trouble for Sister Zhuxuan. I have been looking forward to Sister's debut, but not only did I miss it, but I also had to trouble you to take care of me. I only cause trouble."
"No! No! You are not a bother to me!!"
The boy's words frightened Bae Joo-hyun to the extreme.
She had a strong premonition.
If you don't say something now, you will never have the chance to say it again.
Many people came to the rooftop. Sun Enxi was here, and her aunt and uncle also arrived, Khmer Yao, Jin Zhihao were even there, and there were many family bodyguards and rescue workers.
But at this moment, there is only one person in Bae Joo-hyun's world.
"Haoyan, you have never been a problem to me."
She looked at Yi Haoyan.
Just look at him.
"I like you! I have always liked you! Even though I knew you had a girlfriend! Even though you haven't realized it for all these years! I have always liked you!"
The whistling wind on the rooftop seemed to slow down suddenly, as if afraid that its own movements would affect this tearful confession.
"Because I like you, those are not troubles. They are happy things for me. They are happy things."
"Even if you say that you bring me trouble, but to me, your existence is happiness."
"You are alive and I can see you. Even if we are not together, I feel happy."
"Can you please come down? If not for yourself, then for me, okay? I know you are in pain now, and it is painful to live. Can you hold on for a few more days for me? Just a few days will be enough!"
"At least give me a chance, give me a chance to take care of you, and give us a chance."
Bae Joo-hyun cried and said that she actually didn't know what she said. She was just pouring out the emotions she had cherished for five years. She instinctively tried to save Yi Haoyan and also save herself.
Rather than saying that she was trying to persuade Yi Haoyan, it would be more accurate to say that her soul was praying for fate's mercy.
Yi Haoyan stood there in a daze, not moving.
At this moment, the morning sun shone from behind him and sprinkled on Bae Joo-hyun's face opposite him. Her already beautiful facial features were dreamy in the golden halo, like a goddess who had descended to earth, bringing salvation and hope.
Because of the backlight, the boy was completely in shadow at this time.
But... that shadow is slowly being dispelled as the sun rises...
