Volume 4: The Sea and the Ship Heading North Chapter 193: Start over from the beginning
[… Different… I am different… I am me… Let me come… Let me come…]
These words make people feel a little confused, as if a madman is talking nonsense.
Jon turned to the next page, and the words on it were much clearer than the previous ones, as if a different person had started writing.
[The first step... I will take back myself. I will find it back from where I lost it...]
[Complete the incomplete, let me know that I am still myself... Everything is still in time, it has changed, and good changes have begun... ]
The contents of the diary became shorter and shorter, and when Jon turned to the last page, he only saw a bunch of lines scribbled on the page.
It was as if the person who was recording had gone crazy to the extreme, and all his previous rationality was gone.
Finally, he turned the last page and saw such a symbol on the back of the last cover of the diary.
【1/5】
"What does this mean?"
Not only Jon was reading, but Fred also read the last few pages of the diary. Although he recognized the letters on the diary, he had no idea what the writer was trying to express.
Jon turned the diary back to the page after the one about releasing the basilisk and read the entire content again.
"This part was most likely written by Tom Riddle, the Dark Lord, when he came to Azkaban nine years ago."
"Even after he came here, he still insisted on writing a diary?" Fred asked in disbelief.
Jon shook his head.
"This is not a diary, but more like his unconscious soliloquy. However, this soliloquy provides us with more information than the psychological words he wrote before."
"Looking at what he said at the beginning - [Horcruxes are not the perfect answer to immortality], he must have realized something and noticed the huge side effects of Horcruxes."
"If you want to make this kind of thing, you must kill people to meet the prerequisite. No matter when, killing one's own kind will definitely cause the most emotional fluctuations in people, and at that time people's negative emotions will inevitably overflow. The production of Horcruxes relies on such emotions to cut the soul, which undoubtedly weakens the subjective thoughts of the person himself, allowing the negative emotions when killing people to remain."
"That's why the Dark Lord becomes more and more crazy, terrifying, and unreasonable as time goes on. It is precisely because he is in this state that he will never be able to notice the changes in himself."
"Black magic is like this. It changes people silently and makes them no longer themselves. Magic controls people, and such influence is almost irreversible, because reason and madness are inherently in conflict."
He tapped the line of words in the diary: [People should control magic, not be controlled by magic].
"But the Dark Lord suddenly realized at this moment that he was no longer himself, but a puppet controlled by the Horcrux."
“The problem here is huge.”
Fred also followed John's line of thought. He had already learned about the Horcruxes from John before getting off the ship, so there was no communication barrier.
"Maybe he suddenly got it?"
"This actually involves a fundamental question." Jon said seriously, "Will a madman think that he is a madman?"
Fred was stunned.
"Shouldn't it be...?"
"The reason why lunatics are called lunatics is because they have a whole set of ideas that are different from those of ordinary people. They don't think they are special, but only think that normal people are special. Day after day, without any interference from the outside world, for what reason did such a lunatic suddenly come to his senses, realize that he is crazy, and start looking for a way to become a normal person again?"
Fred couldn't answer John's question. No one could know the reason except Voldemort himself.
Jon didn't dwell on this temporarily unknown answer for too long. He turned to the next page and pointed to the words written in extremely sloppy handwriting.
[I will become stronger... The power of magic comes from the soul... My power belongs to me...]
"Look here, he said magic equals soul, and he's also saying he's going to get stronger, which means he has a way or a plan to strengthen his soul."
"But the next sentence is a little confusing. [I am who I am]... This doesn't sound like a soliloquy. Moreover, the handwriting on this page is very different from the previous and next two pages. It's like..."
Jon frowned.
"It seems like he is talking to someone?"
Fred shuddered, then he spoke hesitantly.
"Could it be... the one in the Horcrux?"
"Not really. The remnant soul in this diary belongs to the Dark Lord's school days, the arrogant, ambitious, yet good at disguising himself. He is indeed very talented, but he does not have the mentality and experience like himself later on. This does not seem like something that Tom in the diary would write."
Jon then flipped to the last page, which had handwriting similar to the first page of the new record, but in a more fluent language.
"Look at this sentence, [The first step... take myself back first, and find it back from where I started losing it...], we can basically conclude that this diary is the beginning of the Dark Lord's creation of the Horcruxes. Now he plans to start over again from here, [complete the incomplete, let me know that I am still myself...], and it is at this time that he plans to recover all the remaining souls in all the Horcruxes..."
"This means that when he wrote these words, he might not have recovered the remnant soul in the diary. Even if the soul in the diary could talk to him, the words it said would not be retained."
Jon stroked his chin thoughtfully.
"This looks like him, but also a little bit different..."
It was quiet in the underground secret room, and Jon's words gave Fred goose bumps.
He said cautiously.
"You said that the Dark Lord has split into two selves in terms of consciousness. One is affected by the Horcrux and is even crazier, and the other is suddenly enlightened and wants to find himself again?"
Jon didn't answer Fred's question. He was staring at the most difficult to decipher page, where the sentence had the most confusing meaning.
[… Different… I am different… I am me… Let me come… Let me come…]
What was Voldemort trying to do when he wrote these words?
Absorb the Horcrux in the diary?
Or...something else?
Who is stopping him from doing this?
