Volume 2 2010 Chapter 229: Bravely Approaching
Love is often emotional at the beginning.
Curiosity, liking, like, love.
The reasons for these feelings are sometimes strange.
Standing on the street looking a little lonely.
A calm demeanor when analyzing a problem.
The angle at which you bend when you salute slowly.
The smile that blooms when you say you like rabbits.
When Quan Enfei recalled, all she could think of were the moments that made her heart beat. Even though some time had passed, these memories were still vivid in her mind, as real as if they had just happened before her eyes.
My lover!
Let us stay together forever!
The girl is looking forward to the future, but is also worried about the reality.
If a love that starts with emotion wants to last, rational thinking and analysis are essential.
Emotional feelings often carry the aura of love, which are beautiful, moving, fascinating but also somewhat illusory. Rational understanding is real, objective, not so perfect but real.
When two people are in love, their hearts are often very close, but their lives are not intertwined. Many real things are obscured by the sweet love and cannot be seen clearly.
If you want to go further, you need to get closer.
Not only do our hearts need to be close, but our lives also need to be integrated. Many realities that need to be faced will be discovered in the process of integration.
But the reality is often not so beautiful, and many loves end at this stage.
Quan Enfei naturally knew that this was the part of reality that she was reluctant to face.
Both parties' family backgrounds, growing environments, and future development directions all need to be gradually familiarized and integrated.
Quan Enfei had just subconsciously avoided these contents before.
Today, Eunjeong's reminder made her realize her feelings, although there is no suitable method at present. But it doesn't matter, as long as she works hard, there will be a way.
The girl made up her mind secretly.
Haoyan oppa, please let me get closer to you.
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There is more than one person who wants to get close to Yi Haoyan.
After sorting out her feelings, Bae Joo-hyun quickly began to take action. She has always been a girl with strong execution ability.
She knows Yi Haoyan much better than Quan Eunfei.
Bae Joo-hyun knows everything about his family background, past experiences, medical condition, and even the fact that he is not so likable in private.
This is different from the image in Kwon Eun-fei's eyes of a handsome, smart, mature, reliable, occasionally childish and cute, almost perfect except for being a little aloof and unsociable.
Bae Joo-hyun sees many sides of Yi Haoyan.
When we first met, he was cautious, reserved, considerate and gentle. He was just a nice, gentle and well-behaved little brother.
Sometimes I am amazed by my own appearance, and I am dazed and full of praise. I feel silly, like an innocent big boy.
She worries about her own debut, analyzes and arranges various things, comforts Seulgi, resolves TVXQ's crisis, helps Girls' Generation's seniors reach the top, and is mature, rational, and able to see through people's hearts.
And his outlook on love is completely in tune with mine. Even though he is younger than me, I have developed a sense of dependence on him unconsciously, like a mature and reliable man.
Of course, there are also many headaches.
For example, when we were playing around in the swimming pool in Jeju Island; when we were joking with ourselves on that last summer night; when we were being sarcastic to our seniors in Girls' Generation; when we were brazen enough to say that we could get into Seoul National University even though we were in Arts High School...
He is so jumpy, naughty, sharp-tongued and even a little presumptuous, just like an immature child, making people want to lose their temper.
Finally, there is the thoughtful and caring look as he secretly prepares for his own coming-of-age ceremony.
Just like a perfect boyfriend, so caring, gentle and heart-warming.
It’s a pity that this boyfriend is not mine.
Apart from this, Bae Joo-hyun feels that her relationship with Yi Haoyan is even closer than that with Kwon Eun-bi.
The two are not lovers, but their lives have merged to a great extent like lovers.
We spend every day together and know each other well.
She knew his family affairs.
He had met her parents.
She is concerned about his condition.
He supported her dream.
She knew his temper.
He was familiar with her character.
Except for one.
She liked him, but he didn't know it.
Bae Joo-hyun feels that she is closer to Yi Haoyan than Kwon Eun-bi and understands him better.
This is not someone who will easily fall in love with someone else. Such a person does not have such a mature view of love.
It was true that he was a step late, but that didn't mean he was doomed. He was only 16 years old, there was still a lot of time, and he still had a chance.
The most important thing now is to continue to integrate into his life and make him unable to live without me, just like I can't live without him now.
He likes idols, and I like idols too, and I can't relax in preparing for my debut. This is the bond that connects them, and it's also why the two met.
Yi Haoyan has lost his parents, and his sister Enxi and his uncle and aunt all have their own things to do, so it is difficult to take care of all the details of life.
This happens to be my strong point, and there is still a lot to do.
Work hard, Bae Joo-hyun!
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Choi Sulli is still very ignorant.
The girl couldn't figure out how she felt about Yi Haoyan.
The two of them spent too little time together and didn't really know each other very well.
It wasn't Yi Haoyan's intention to make the girl cry the first time they met . It was just that some characteristics of her personality made him, who was sensitive, dislike her, so he naturally fought back...
He is a guy who is very indifferent to people he is not familiar with.
This matter was not a big deal, and normally it would not have any impact. After all, the status gap between the two parties was too big to be considered bullying, and Yi Haoyan was actually right.
But Shirley cared.
This vicious-tongued guy left a strong impression on the little girl.
After crying, Shirley stubbornly stated that she would work hard to win it back, which also made the boy's perception of her change a little bit.
Of course, only a little bit.
The main reason is that the girl is really beautiful. Yi Haoyan is also a boy, so it is inevitable that he will be impressed by beautiful girls. It's just that he himself will not admit it.
The two didn't have any contact for a long time afterwards. Yi Haoyan didn't care, but Shirley was a little "uneasy".
It was not until the tutoring incident that the little girl was forced to bow her head and submit, and was commanded by Yi Haoyan to complete the task, which incidentally improved the depressed atmosphere of the group.
After this back and forth, Shirley began to secretly admire Yi Haoyan's brain. While she was convinced, the lonely and caring little girl also discovered his gentleness hidden under his venomous tongue.
This kind of tenderness has a fatal attraction to Shirley.
The trauma of her broken family caused distortion in her psychological growth at a young age.
Lack of care makes girls tend to try to gain attention from the outside world through flattery and exchange, and they lack the ability to love themselves independently.
So she always tries her best to complete the company's requirements, even if it is not something she likes.
For example, before debuting as an idol, Sulli originally wanted to be an actress.
On the one hand, as a newcomer she has no say and cannot go against the company's arrangements; on the other hand, the girl doesn't dare to go against it in her heart, for she is afraid of losing care and that the company will no longer pay attention to her.
If a person suppresses himself for a long time, his heart will become distorted. The subconscious mind cannot be controlled, and the true self that cannot be satisfied will always be expressed in other ways.
No one is always well-behaved and cute, everyone has their own side.
The girl started to become a little rebellious.
And this rebellious part was felt by Yi Haoyan.
His instinctive "counterattack" made Sulli cry, but later out of his kind nature and concern for his idol, Yi Haoyan tried to find a way to help F(X) stabilize the group's emotions, and at the same time gave Sulli a relatively normal way to vent through a prank.
Of course, there is some goodwill in this "by the way".
He just felt that a child with a personality like Shirley might not be able to adapt to the assembly line of SM, which does not require personality. It might be better to vent emotions occasionally.
But for Shirley, this kind of unintentional tenderness was too precious for her whose personality development was somewhat imperfect.
Especially since this tenderness comes from that "hateful" person.
Invisible tenderness is the most deadly.
The contrast between the before and after made the girl subconsciously feel that Yi Haoyan was a person who would give her care without requiring her to pay anything in exchange.
His kindness or praise made the girl feel a warmth she had never felt before. This warmth radiated from her heart and wrapped her whole body, just like the embrace of her mother that she once had deep in her memory.
To her, who is lonely inside, such a person is like an eave in a rainstorm, a shade of a tree under the scorching sun, an oasis in the desert, and a campfire in the cold winter, and has an irresistible attraction.
Shirley would think of Yi Haoyan from time to time.
The girl felt like a moth that saw a candle flame at night, and would turn towards him unconsciously.
Although she couldn't figure out the reason, there was a voice that kept echoing in Choi Jin-ri's mind.
Do you want to take a closer look, maybe you will find happiness?
