postscript 01 The Past That Can't Be Returned - Ji Chuan
When I first learned that Wen Ya was also abandoned by her biological mother at the age of four, my feelings towards Wen Ya became different. Many times, I felt that she and I were the only two people who could comfort and warm each other in this huge and cold city.
One day, Yao Yizhou picked up Wen Ya's diary and said he wanted to return it to her, but I snatched it away. When I returned the diary to Wen Ya, she confessed to me. At that time, I really felt that I was the happiest person in the world.
What could be more exciting in this world than the fact that the girl you like also happens to like you?
However, when I excitedly shared the news that Wen Ya and I were together with Yao Yizhou, he looked very lost.
Later, I accidentally found that Yao Yizhou had written Wen Ya's name on a blank piece of paper and realized that Yao Yizhou also liked Wen Ya. I couldn't let Yao Yizhou continue this kind of relationship. After all, Wen Ya was already my girlfriend. I would not allow such a thing to happen, and I would not allow Wen Ya to leave me one day and be with someone else, especially this person was my best friend.
That day, Yao Yizhou and I talked for a long time, and he finally promised not to interfere in the relationship between Wen Ya and I. Although I already knew that this might be the best outcome, I still knew that I could not change the fact that Yao Yizhou liked Wen Ya.
When filling out the application form, Wen Ya happily took my application form and filled it out. In fact, she didn't need to do that, but I was still very happy. But during the physical education class, everyone was there, but Yao Yizhou was the only one missing. I went to the classroom to get something, but I saw Yao Yizhou filling out Wen Ya's application form.
I questioned Yao Yizhou, and I really didn't understand why an art student like him would give up the admission quota of the China Conservatory of Music and give up his dream for love. Because I know him so well, I know that music is like his life, a dream that he can never give up, and something he wants to fight for all his life.
When we were in college, Wen Ya and I often clashed, and our ideas became increasingly divergent. I loved Taekwondo, just as Yao Yizhou couldn't live without the violin, but Wen Ya only saw Taekwondo as a hobby, and we had less and less to talk about.
I really felt helpless about Wen Ya's idea, but no matter how I told her, she would not change her mind and original intention, which made me very upset. At this time, a girl who also liked Taekwondo appeared in my life, her name was Li Jiawei.
Li Jiawei is very considerate and smart. I have never met someone who understands me so well and is willing to listen to my inner thoughts at any time. As our communication became more in-depth, I couldn't help but develop a subtle liking for her.
Wen Ya was very unhappy with the intimacy between me and Li Jiawei, she even slapped me, that was the first time she hit me, after that, no matter how many times I called Wen Ya, she would not answer. I waited downstairs of her house night after night, waiting for her response, planning to knock on her door as soon as she called me back or replied to my message, to give her a surprise.
But I waited for almost a week, but Wen Ya didn't say a word. At this time, I realized how wrong I was. It turns out that people's hearts are really very narrow, so narrow that they can only accommodate one person.
I really regretted this outcome and could only go to Yao Yizhou for help, but what I didn't expect was that Yao Yizhou swung his fist and punched me hard.
It was really hard for me to imagine that someone who had always been so gentle and refined could be so violent. I covered my face that was hurt by Yao Yizhou's beating, smiled bitterly and said to him, "Yizhou, I don't blame you for hitting me, but I want to beg you, please help me this time. As long as Wen Ya can forgive me, I will do anything you want."
"Ji Chuan, do you think you are qualified to say such things? I am telling you clearly now, I have liked Wen Ya since the military training. It was you who told me that Wen Ya liked you and asked me to give in to you and make you two happy. Okay, I promise you, but how do you treat her? Look at what she was like before she met you, and look at what she has become now. I will only hit you with this one punch. After this punch, we are no longer friends, let alone brothers. From today on, I will never give in to you again. I will protect Wen Ya and take good care of her so that you will never have the chance to hurt her again."
Yao Yizhou snorted coldly, his expression was extremely cold. His words were like a sharp knife stabbing straight into my heart, making my breathing stagnate. I opened my mouth to argue, but couldn't utter a word for a long time.
Yes, he was right, every word he said was right. I had always been optimistic, thinking that Wen Ya, who loved me so much, would forgive me unconditionally as before, and that no matter what I did wrong, as long as I turned back, Wen Ya would be waiting for me there.
All along, her love made me so sure, but now, I found that Wen Ya has been getting farther and farther away from me. I went to her house to find her, admitted my mistakes to her, and wanted to get her forgiveness, but she was still extremely cold and treated me like a stranger.
At that moment, I was extremely sad, until I later heard from my classmates that Yao Yizhou was going to confess his love to Wen Ya on her birthday, and it seemed like a big scene. I always remember Wen Ya's birthday. How could I forget the girl I loved with my life so easily?
Later, on her birthday, I followed the people who were helping Yao Yizhou release the sky lanterns and watched them from afar. When I saw Yao Yizhou holding Wen Ya, I finally couldn't help but shed tears.
Because it was only then that I realized how much I loved Wen Ya, and it had always been like this, and it had never diminished in the slightest. To me, she was my air, my everything. My heart began to panic, and for the first time I felt that breaking up, which was almost a fact, was so difficult for me to accept.
Later, Yao Yizhou got into trouble, and when I rushed to the hospital, I heard the sad news that he had left this world forever. I wanted to comfort Wen Ya, but when I saw her cold eyes outside the emergency room, I realized in despair that there was no way Wen Ya and I could ever get back together.
It turned out that during the time when I made her heartbroken, Yao Yizhou had become her water, her air, and an indispensable part of her life.
I lost Wen Ya just like that, forever, but I will always remember Wen Ya with a smile on her face, the girl I once loved with my life.
