Extra: Heaven without you is worse than hell, hell with you is heaven 2
I rushed over to save her, but she actually cared about the person who wanted to hurt her. I watched her treat Shang Yi who was sitting on the ground with tenderness, and I felt like a volcano about to erupt.
"I'm leaving!" I really couldn't bear to watch it anymore, and realized that Shang Yi would not attack her again, so I was ready to leave, but unexpectedly I was held back by her.
"Are you just leaving like that?" She looked at me with wide eyes.
I was a little angry and said in a very unfriendly manner: "Do I still want to treat you to a midnight snack?"
She immediately fell silent, as if she had done something wrong and was waiting to be punished.
Seeing her like this, I adjusted my mood and said, "I'll take you home."
We chatted on the way. What surprised me was that she didn't care at all that I was not a human.
What she cared about was my hair color. I was so mad at her.
But why does this feeling seem to be expanding? As long as she is sad, I will definitely not feel good. As long as she cries, I feel like my heart is bleeding.
My whole mind seemed to be drawn to her, but I couldn't tell her my true thoughts. I really hated myself for being so cowardly.
On the Ferris wheel in the amusement park, I covered her ears and said to her the words hidden deep in my heart: The more I like her, the more I hope she can live a good and happy life.
I have always tried my best to make her happy. The time Yingning stayed at my place gradually decreased, and the time agreed upon between my father and I also decreased.
When we went to Queshan for the trip, Shang Yi followed us the whole time. I knew his intention was not to disrupt our lives. My hostility towards him was actually fading, but I hated myself even more.
Although I thought about letting Yingning go with me, I couldn't say anything when I saw her.
I would rather not say anything than say something that I would regret. And she might not have a future with me, so I would rather not ask her.
Extra questions will only make her more troubled. She is about to mature, and I just want to be with her.
After I came back, Shang Yi found me and tried to get me to change my mind in a tough manner, so we had an argument.
In fact, I don’t know what I said, but I didn’t want anyone to disturb my mood or shake my determination.
I made such a great decision to give up on her, why do you have to shake my resolve?
I walked away in annoyance, but when I returned to the classroom, I found that Yingning was gone. I thought she had gone out for something, so I didn't pay much attention to it. But when she came back, I felt very strange, as if she had become a different person.
Yes! Why does she look so evil? In the past, no matter what the situation was, she always looked harmless.
"Where have you been?" I was a little confused and felt a little strange about the girl in front of me.
Unexpectedly, she asked back in a domineering manner: "Where did you go just now? Who were you with? What did you do? What did you say?" Then she asked, "Do you like me? Even a little bit?"
I felt uncomfortable just looking at her, but I said reflexively: "I can't like you!"
"Then let's end it! An Lengxi, we don't need to continue this! This inexplicable relationship..." She said contentedly. Although she was right and it was right, my heart seemed to be stabbed by something, and the pain made me unable to think.
I asked blankly, "What do you mean?"
"Literally..." After saying that, she left without any reluctance.
When I realized that something was wrong with her, I found that she was gone.
Where did she go? Why did she suddenly become like this? Who could do this? Shang Yi? He shouldn't hurt Ying Ning, after all, he also likes Ying Ning.
Who took her away? I didn't even notice.
Just as I was feeling restless in the classroom, I accidentally saw a note on the table with only a few simple words on it - "Devil's Cave".
What do you mean? Was Yingning taken there? That's the devil's lair. Wouldn't Yingning be dead if she went there?
I was extremely anxious and rushed to the devil's lair, praying that she was okay.
When I saw Yingning, I found that she was tied there and seemed to be in a coma.
Seeing that scene, I was extremely heartbroken and tried my best to save her. I didn't want anything to happen to her, or that I had lost control.
But why does she seem to not care about anything? Why is the way she looks at me different? Does she no longer like me?
But it’s okay this way, she has her destination and I have mine.
When she was beaten and fell into coma, I vaguely heard her conversation with Shang Yi, and it seemed that everything was understandable.
It turned out that she just wanted to test me.
I actually felt relieved.
Because Yingning didn't change her mind, she was just confused, she still liked me. At this time, I also understood her thoughts and feelings, maybe I couldn't give her enough sense of security.
"So you were testing me." Although I could understand her, I was still very angry because she and Shang Yi were teasing me together. Didn't she know how worried I was? She actually let my worries go and arranged such a farce.
Maybe I will never be able to give her the answer she wants.
Because this matter involves too many things, and in order to avoid any complications, I think I should leave early!
In fact, I was more afraid that my father would hurt Yingning if he knew about this, and might even arrest her for me. I knew my father's temper very well.
Either he captures Yingning and lets us be together, or he destroys her because I can't have her, or he will be happy and at ease because it plays into his hands, and then I have to listen to his arrangements.
"Leng Xi, do you remember what you promised me?" As soon as we met after I returned to the underworld, my arrogant father went straight to the point.
"I remember, but I can't do it!" My words were obviously challenging my father's authority.
His expression was extremely serious and his eyes stared at me with determination.
I know things will get bad if this continues, but I absolutely don't want to be with anyone other than Yingning.
"You need to inherit my position and you have to start a family." My father looked at me and said.
As long as I have Yingning in my heart, I will never be able to do it.
My feelings for her come from the bottom of my heart, so no one can shake it.
"Father, I am willing to accept the punishment." But I cannot accept your arrangement - if I say this, my father will be even angrier.
The fire of hell is burning fiercely.
This is the hottest place and also the cleanest place. Because here, ordinary things will immediately turn into smoke. My father punished me to reflect on my mistakes here.
During this time, I found a way to enter the fire, took out the ice silk and made a silk garment, on which I also wrote a sentence - I promise that your experience will be like the burning of a raging fire, unable to explain your true feelings and unable to distinguish between the true and the false.
This line of words cannot fully represent my feelings, but it can be regarded as a commemoration of this relationship.
It was clearly my own choice, so who can I blame for missing her so much now?
Her figure flashes through my mind every day. I wonder how she is doing and whether she is sad because of what happened to me.
However, without realizing it, I hated myself very much. The longer time went by, the more I hated myself.
Before long, some very strange changes occurred in my body.
One day, I just closed my eyes and rested for a while, and when I woke up, there was someone else beside me, and I had no idea. Why was there someone else here besides me?
Why do I want to find Yingning now? Do I regret it?
At this time, the person next to me also woke up. He looked at me and said, "I didn't expect you hate me so much."
"Who are you……"
"Part of you!"
Part of me? What does that mean?
"I am your other side. You hate me, and even hate and blame me for destroying your relationship with Yingning. This has reached its limit in your subconscious mind, so I was separated from you. But have you ever thought that I actually like her as much as you do? As long as she is happy, what does it matter to us?"
His words were a little harsh. He was me? If he said yes, it was me.
Did he need to tell me that I could do anything to make her happy? But I couldn't leave her.
No, that's not right... Why am I no longer thinking so much and having so many concerns? Instead, I just want to be with her wholeheartedly?
Could it be that……
I looked at the man in front of me and immediately understood something. I smiled coldly and said, "So you are the culprit!"
He said to me calmly, "I am you."
"Enough, I don't want to hear this." I shouted impatiently, and before a few words, the two of us started fighting.
I don't remember exactly what happened in the end.
My mind was blank for a long time. The next time I thought about it was when I was pierced by Yingning's holy light. I seemed to wake up, and vaguely remembered that I had a big fight with another me. We fought in the fire for a long time. My father got angry and erased all our memories.
Thinking of this, I covered my chest and felt very uncomfortable.
I forgot about Yingning. She came here for me, and I did things that hurt her.
Does she hate me already?
When the past events completely emerged in my mind, I decided to look for Yingning, but found that she was with that guy.
We are clearly the same person, but why do I always feel like I have a grudge against him? When I see him, I am filled with anger and have no place to vent it. Especially when I see him and Yingning being so close, I feel even more uncomfortable.
I snatched Yingning from his hands, but I felt that I had done something wrong because I treated Yingning so rudely.
What's wrong with me? I clearly don't want to hurt her.
What happened afterwards was really ironic. Now I actually make Yingning feel disgusted.
I went through a lot of trouble to convince my father to let me be with her, but she thought that I was not the real An Lengxi.
Have I really changed so much?
Perhaps because she guessed wrong, Yingning was devastated and left.
In fact, I later thought carefully about whether I should try to accept this clone named "Nuo". Once I accept him, will it mean that I will be like before, hesitant and thinking about many things?
Even though she didn't recognize me, I didn't want her to leave. I wanted her to stay with me forever, so Nuo and I went to find her.
Life was peaceful for a while, and I thought Yingning would slowly accept the existence of me and Nuo, but Shang Yi took the opportunity to kiss Yingning while filming an advertisement with her. Yingning was obviously mine, but I knew he wouldn't do this for no reason. During the conversation, I deeply felt Shang Yi's dissatisfaction with me, because he saw the sadness hidden deep in Yingning's heart.
How could I not see it? I just thought time could dilute everything. It turned out that Yingning was suffering alone.
Although I am really unwilling, I will do what she wants anyway because I love her.
So, Nuo and I went back to our father overnight and asked him to help us become one again.
At this time, Nuo also opened his heart and said to me: "An Lengxi, I originally wanted to stay with Yingning for a few more days, and she also promised me that she would not think about the old An Lengxi in the short term, but I underestimated her obsession with that An Lengxi."
I love Yingning as much as Nuo loves her, right?
Seeing that I remained silent, Nuo showed a bitter smile and said with emotion: "I hope that the An Lengxi she sees again is complete. In fact, Yingning's feelings are very delicate. If you are incomplete, she will still love you. I have also learned that the happiness she wants is to be with you. In the future, I will help you hold her tighter and will never let you push her away again."
But when I returned to Shang Yi, I heard the news that Yingning had left.
I don't understand why she left.
As the days go by, I feel like each day is a year in my longing for you.
Yingning, when will you come back? How long do you want me to wait?
On this day, I was just staring at the sky on the balcony as usual. I was thirsty and wanted to get a glass of water. As I walked into the living room, I saw a familiar figure.
At first I suspected that I had seen it wrong, until I closed my eyes and opened them again and found that the figure was still in front of me, then I was sure that she had really come back.
I was so excited that my breathing was a little disordered and my steps were a little unsteady. I had waited for so long, but now I didn't know how to start talking.
Suddenly, she stood up and seemed to be about to leave. I immediately adjusted my breathing and called out, "Are you leaving?"
The moment I saw her turn around, I seemed to see the ice and snow melting and the bright spring coming.
What I didn't expect was that after getting my father's approval, she actually moved into hell with me. My father had clearly agreed to let us live in the human world, and we only needed to come back occasionally to visit, so why did we have to come back and live here?
Although the place we live in is not too bad, there is no sunshine after all.
In fact, I probably guessed that her kindness was overflowing again. She probably felt that her father was too lonely living here alone, so she wanted to come back and live here.
But later, when I saw the hell that had been completely transformed after her modification, I didn't know whether to cry or laugh, and I didn't know what expression my father would have when he saw it.
Now the whole hell is filled with pumpkin lanterns she made herself, as well as some strange candles.
"Yingning, are you sure you want to do this?" Her father would definitely not let her off if he saw her.
"You always say that hell is scary, so I dressed up. Look at the pumpkin lantern I made, isn't it pretty?" She looked confidently at the pumpkin lantern that was almost as tall as herself.
Sure enough, when his father saw this, his expression was a little complicated, but he didn't get angry. How should I put it? He just glanced at Yingning coldly.
Seeing Yingning walking forward without caring about the danger, I was really worried.
"Father, what do you think? Isn't it romantic?"
My father's face became even gloomier.
Just at this moment, Shang Yi came over.
Yingning greeted them cheerfully and said with a smile, "I have prepared something special for you to eat today."
"What?" Shang Yi looked at her and said, "I know without thinking that you won't prepare anything good. Look at what you have done to hell. Sigh."
"This is called innovation, do you understand?" Yingning rolled her eyes at him, then clapped her hands. Soon, several people came over carrying a large tripod with fire burning inside.
"We're having a barbecue today." Yingning looked very happy, but everyone's expressions seemed frozen. She looked at everyone and asked softly, "What's wrong?"
Shang Yi couldn't help but laugh out loud: "Haha! How dare you use the most precious golden tripod of the Lord of Hell to do such a thing."
Everyone looked at the father at the same time, but his expression remained unchanged.
I always thought he would get angry.
"Why are you looking at me?" Father said coldly, then stared at Yingning and asked, "What are you roasting?"
"I prepared a lot, including chicken wings, mushrooms, and..."
Seeing that they were getting along well, I turned around and looked at Shang Yi next to me. He seemed to be as confused as I was.
After the barbecue, when everyone dispersed, Yingning drank a few glasses of wine with me. He was a little drunk, like a different person, chattering a lot: "Xi, do you know why I don't want to go to heaven, but would rather go to hell?"
I looked at her in silence, waiting for her to continue.
"Heaven without you is worse than hell, and hell with you is heaven." Her words were like an electric current that instantly struck my heart.
"If a person is lonely, it is useless even if he is in a beautiful place; if a person is happy, what difference does it make where he is? Don't you think so?" She leaned her head on my shoulder. "For me, having you by my side is my greatest happiness, and meeting you is God's blessing. I will be grateful for this blessing, and please stay by my side forever and never leave..."
I nodded. Yes, although we have experienced many ups and downs before, the sun always comes after the rain. If we have not experienced deep pain, how can we know that love can be so sweet?
I hope we can stay this sweet forever and create a better future.
