In fact, I know that she always peeks at me, during class and after class. Sometimes I wonder if she is also peeking at me while she is lying on the table.
But I really enjoy the feeling of her peeking at me. I even want to sit behind her when I change seats one day to try what it feels like to peeking at her.
Since she knew that I lived in the same neighborhood as her, I found that she always followed me quietly on the way to and from school. I also liked the feeling of being followed by her, because I felt that she was very happy when she did this. I even wondered if it was because I liked her that she also liked me.
However, her tracking skills were so poor that she sometimes lost herself, and as a result she was late almost every day.
The new transfer student seemed to know her. When I introduced the new student to my classmates, the two of them were actually "flirting" with each other! This made me very unhappy. I... seemed to be a little jealous.
I heard Song Jingyan say that she was looking for a part-time job recently. I didn't know why she was looking for a part-time job. Seeing her running around looking for a job, I wanted to help her. There happened to be a fast food restaurant looking for a delivery person, so I immediately told Song Jingyan, but I didn't want her to know that I found it. Coincidentally, the fast food restaurant owner was a friend of Song Jingyan's father, so I didn't even have to make up a lie.
I wandered around for most of the day to find her a part-time job, and when I got home, I actually saw her talking to my mom at the door of my house. Seeing how happy they were chatting, I hid in the corner and laughed for a while, then came out and pretended to have just come home. I didn't expect that my mom liked her so much that she invited her to dinner.
I was a little excited, and to cover it up I deliberately said, "Mom, go cook. Yi Ping'an, come with me."
She actually followed me to my bedroom obediently. She seemed surprised to see the books on my bookshelf.
Although I called her in, I really didn't know what to say to her. Thinking of her last time skipping class, I pretended to be angry and said to her: "Have you seen enough? Yi Ping'an, last time you and Song Jingyan skipped class, I signed the leave slip for you. I don't know what you did, but I hope you will stop fighting and make trouble in the future, and concentrate on studying quietly. I checked, your academic foundation is not bad, it's just that you indulge yourself too much."
I didn't expect that she would actually promise me to study hard after listening to me, and she left without even eating. I suddenly felt annoyed with myself, how could I be so stupid! Why did I say all that! I let her leave without even eating.
In fact, it was not only Yi Pingan who secretly followed me. I would also follow her in the community when I had no classes on weekends. She was always accompanied by the boy named Yangguang, and she was very protective of him.
She once told me that Yangguang had a disease and intellectual disability when he was a child, but she never disliked him at all.
From this point of view, Yi Ping'an is indeed a kind girl.
Actually, I wanted to confess my feelings to her, but I wanted her to accept it, but I was also afraid that she would accept it. This mentality is indeed somewhat contradictory. If she accepts it, it means that she also likes me, but if she really accepts it, will my classmates laugh at her?
After all, there is such a big gap between her and me. If someone says something bad about her, she will not be able to bear it. So I want her to become excellent. I don’t care whether she is good or bad, because she was like that when I liked her. But I hope she can become the best version of herself in the eyes of others.