"Once upon a time, there was someone who loved you for a long time..." I sat on the runway of Tongcheng High School and pressed the play button on the radio.
"But the wind gradually blew the distance away..." The radio has been baptized by time, and the sound quality is not as good as before. I snatched it from Wei Ran. I heard that this was a gift he prepared for Su Qingxin.
By the way, I’m Qin Ruxi.
No one has ever loved me in my life.
When I was a child, I had a childhood sweetheart named Wei Ran. We envied many other children, and I thought we would also envy the years.
Ever since Wei Ran's parents had a quarrel, Wei Ran didn't want me to follow him. I pulled Wei Ran's schoolbag and begged him in a baby voice not to leave me alone. He shook my hand off, scratched his head awkwardly, and said, "Qin Ruxi, adults say that boys can only play with boys, and girls should play with girls. Don't come to me anymore."
I didn't believe his lies and kept pestering him as usual.
Later, a girl named Su Qingxin came and took Wei Ran away from me.
Wei Ran was gentle and considerate to her, a kind of gentleness and consideration that I would never get.
But what's so good about Su Qingxin? She's sullen, doesn't like to talk, has no friends, isn't as pretty as me, and doesn't have as much money as my family. Why would Wei Ran like her?
I didn’t know at that time that there is no need for a reason to like someone.
At that time, I didn’t know that Wei Ran, whom I had always followed, had never actually liked me.
But I still didn't give up.
On the eve of the college entrance examination that year, Su Qingxin suddenly disappeared, and Wei Ran searched for her all over the world like a madman. He blamed me for Su Qingxin's disappearance and ignored me for three years.
At that time, no one asked me whether I was sad or not.
I saw Wei Ran often wait for him outside Su Qingxin's house. I watched him for as long as he waited for her. However, he could wait for her openly, but I saw he had to be sneaky. I hated this feeling, and I hated Su Qingxin. I hated that she would take Wei Ran's heart with her when she left.
Three years later, Wei Ran, who was a junior in college, suddenly dropped out of school and left. No one knew where he went, but I knew.
His parents finally divorced, and he had nowhere to go, so he dropped out of school and went to Hefei. I anxiously finished my junior year, and when it was time for my internship in my senior year, I also packed my bags and went to Hefei.
When I saw Wei Ran again in a strange city , I smiled widely and said, "What a coincidence, Wei Ran, meeting you here!"
Wei Ran answered me blankly: "Coincidence..."
This time, I stayed with Wei Ran openly, accompanied him in his part-time job and self-study. I accompanied him in everything he did, and all the friends who knew us knew that I liked him.
But only Wei Ran pretended like a fool and knew nothing.
But even so, I felt that I could win Wei Ran, I could pursue him, and I could get the position I had always wanted.
But I was too naive after all.
Because even though so much time has passed, Wei Ran is still waiting for Su Qingxin!
One day, I drank some wine and asked him out of control, "Su Qingxin doesn't love you. If she did, why didn't she give you any news for so many years to let you know that she was looking for you?"
I say, Wei Ran, just give up!
That day, Wei Ran held me in his arms for the first time to comfort me. He whispered in my ear, "Qin Ruxi, why can't I give up? Don't you understand me the best?"
Yes, I can understand it the most. Because he is as obsessed with Su Qingxin as I am with him. How ridiculous!
I didn't force Wei Ran anymore. As long as he could let me stay by his side, it didn't matter even if we couldn't be together in this life.
Five years after Su Qingxin left, she came back again, appeared in Hefei, appeared beside Wei Ran, and appeared in my sight. She came back with strangeness and hatred. I watched Wei Ran and her secretly compete in public and private affairs, and I found it particularly ridiculous!
But by this time, I've gotten used to it.
I don't care about Su Qingxin, but I care about Wei Ran.
I know exactly how many times he cried and how many times he was silent for her. I think Su Qingxin is really ungrateful, actually hurting someone who is so good to her.
Wei Ran doesn't know what's good for him! I was so nice to him, but he didn't even look at me.
During a social gathering, Wei Ran and I got drunk and slept together. I took this opportunity to tell Su Qingxin that I was with Wei Ran and had his child.
I got the effect I wanted, but I wasn't very happy.
I knew that this lie would not last long. I finally confessed to Wei Ran, who was very calm and did not blame me.
Actually, I felt sorry for Su Qingxin. After learning about what she had gone through, I felt sorry for her. This sympathy had nothing to do with the emotional entanglement between us. I was thinking, I still have a lot of good years left, why should I waste them on Wei Ran and Su Qingxin? Maybe I would be happier if I stayed away from them?
I was also there the day Su Qingxin lost her sight. Everyone was concerned about Su Qingxin's injury, except Wei Ran , who was silent and worried.
I guessed what Wei Ran was thinking and knew what he was going to do.
The night Su Qingxin and her mother left without saying goodbye, Wei Ran came to see me.
He said, "Qin Ruxi, I want to go north to Shanghai City."
"Go and deliver the cornea to Su Qingxin." I exposed his intention in one sentence.
"I know I don't have the face to ask you for help." He looked at me.
His expression told me that he was ready to be rejected by me, but I never intended to reject him.
Wei Ran said: "Su Qingxin is the only one I care about in my life. I want to give her my cornea so that she can see the world for me. I once said that I don't want her to not see what I look like, although I have made up my mind to never see her again. But Qin Ruxi, this cornea should be regarded as my apology for five years ago. I am sorry to Su Qingxin."
I was also responsible for Su Qingxin's departure five years ago. I looked up, trying not to let my tears fall, and said with a smile, "I have let her down before, so how could I refuse your request?"
Wei Ran laughed. He and I both laughed with tears in our eyes, laughing at the cruel fate and the passing of time.
Finally, I accompanied Wei Ran to Haicheng, and we kept it a secret from Su Qingxin and her mother. With Wei Ran's consent, the doctor removed his cornea.
Later, I called Wei Ran's mother and sent Wei Ran to his mother's place.
Wei Ran gave Su Qingxin a complete sky, and from then on, no one asked about his incomplete world.
"But at the end of the story, you still said goodbye..."
I got up and walked out of the school.
Wei Ran, I have loved you, not only with humility, but also with sadness.
But from this moment on, there is no more.
After the song ended, there was a few seconds of noise, followed by Su Qingxin's recording: "Well... the college entrance examination is over, I want to go back to Haicheng to find my dad and be with Wei Ran. Also, I hope Wei Ran will always be happy."
Then, Su Qingxin spoke with her breath full of girlish thoughts.
she says--
"Never forget Su Qingxin."