We met at the age of fifteen, separated at the age of eighteen, and met again at the age of twenty-three, but so many things happened in less than a year.
If you think about it carefully, the time Su Qingxin spent with Wei Ran was very short. But why was it so unforgettable in such a short time?
If possible, I hope to choose to meet each other when we are both mature. That way, the chance of losing each other will be very small.
Su Qingxin leaned on the sofa, shaking a glass of red wine in her hand, wrapped in a thick blanket. The room was very empty, so it seemed particularly cold.
"Knock, knock, knock—" someone knocks on the door.
It took Su Qingxin a long time to come back to her senses. She covered herself with a thick blanket and went to open the door tiredly. When she opened the door, she saw Wei Ran.
Wei Ran was still in the dark. He was holding the food that was good for the eyes, but before he could say anything, he saw Su Qingxin slam the door shut.
Su Qingxin leaned against the door, looking depressed.
Wei Ran didn't understand what was going on, so he just waited quietly outside the door.
Su Qingxin calmed down, reopened the door, blocked the crack, and asked emotionlessly, "Why are you here?"
"I'm bringing you some food. These are good for your eyes." Wei Ran said while holding the bag.
"No, take it back and give it to Qin Ruxi." Su Qingxin refused and was about to close the door.
"Ah?" Wei Ran didn't understand, and hurriedly stopped Su Qingxin from closing the door, asking, "What do you mean?"
"Isn't she pregnant?" Su Qingxin asked.
"She... is pregnant?" Wei Ran was surprised. Thinking back carefully, he frowned again, "She, she didn't tell me."
Just as Qin Ruxi said, they were together, but Qin Ruxi did not tell Wei Ran that she went to the hospital for a check-up.
"I think you should pay more attention to Tan Ruxi, understand, Wei Ran." Su Qingxin was most annoyed that she was trapped in this tangled relationship. She had built many defensive fortresses, but as soon as Wei Ran appeared, these fortresses would be easily conquered.
She doesn't want this.
"Qingxin, listen to me. There is indeed a misunderstanding between Qin Ruxi and me, but I..."
"Wei Ran." Su Qingxin interrupted Wei Ran and said, "Some things should not be called misunderstandings. In fact, I have no right to say anything about you, because I am also Chi Yuecheng's person, even though I am separated from him now. But I think you are different. Qin Ruxi has your child now. You have to consider her feelings before doing anything. Do you understand?"
Wei Ran knew and understood.
Qin Ruxi has followed him for so long, even an idiot with a low IQ should understand her feelings, but Wei Ran did not delve into the truth of what happened that night.
But Su Qingxin had misunderstood, so he naturally had to explain it clearly. However, the person in front of him didn't want to listen to his explanation at all, and his eyes and expression all said, "Go away, don't come to me again."
"Qingxin, I understand what you mean. I have already bought the ingredients. You can cook them when you have time." He put the bag of ingredients at the door. His voice was barely audible, but Su Qingxin could still hear it clearly.
“It would be great if one day you could look at your own heart with the same openness and clarity as when you try your best to convince others.”
He left these words and left quietly.
Su Qingxin looked at the food lying alone on the ground and bent down to pick it up.
Finally, she closed the door and shut herself out from the world.
Some things that pile up troubles will always come to visit one by one, and there is no time to avoid them. When the soul and reason are all involved, any decision seems confused and ridiculous.
Just like Su Qingxin knew that she couldn’t be with Wei Ran, but still longed for him to look at her.
It was like she knew that he was unwilling in a thousand ways, but she still had to let him go back with a smile.
This winter is getting colder and colder.
Su Qingxin called secretly to find out about Chi Yuecheng's recent situation. Zhu Panpan told her that Chi Yuecheng was the same as usual, working in the company and staying at home after get off work, but he was a little stricter towards his subordinates and often scolded them for the slightest mistake.
"Just let him get used to it." This result was what Su Qingxin could have expected.
Zhu Panpan asked in confusion on the phone: "Qingxin, I have never understood why you and Chi Yuecheng are so happy, why do you want to break up?"
"There are many things you don't understand. Have you done your job well?" Su Qingxin changed the subject.
"Yeah, I get annoyed whenever you talk about this. The company has given me a lot of projects that I haven't finished yet." The carefree Zhu Panpan complained, completely unaware of his friend's abnormality.
However, Su Qingxin was relieved by Zhu Panpan like this. She smiled and said, "Then I won't bother you anymore. Just work hard."
"Okay then, Qingxin, bye."
"Goodbye." Su Qingxin hung up the phone.
The sound of the second hand on the clock moved around in the empty room, and Su Qingxin called Zhang Yishi again.
"What are you doing? I'm busy." The sound of pen strokes on paper came from the phone, and Zhang Yishi's mumbling tone was full of unkindness.
Su Qingxin asked inappropriately: "How are you and the person you went on a blind date with last time?"
"What can I do? I want to get along with her, but she despises me because I don't have a stable job and I'm a rough person."
"Your job is very stable. You can earn so much money by doing a single contract." Su Qingxin seemed to believe it and pointed the finger at Zhang Yishi, "Did you scare him?"
A heavy sigh came from Zhang Yishi's side, and he said tolerantly: "Su Qingxin, you are really my adopted parent. Can I call you mom? I am about to finish work here and calculate the wages of my people. Please don't disturb me."
"Then what will your next job be?" Su Qingxin was used to Zhang Yishi's attitude. Every time he evaded her questions, he would say that he was busy. In fact, he just didn't want to listen to her nagging.
"Didn't you say that my job is stable? If it's stable, why would you ask me where I'm going next?" Zhang Yishi teased without any hesitation, but despite saying that, he still answered Su Qingxin's question obediently, "Over in Feidong County. A local tyrant bought a piece of land and said he wanted to build a villa. I really don't know what the rich people nowadays are thinking. They built a villa so far away, and even built it on the mountain!"
"Okay, I won't bother you anymore. I'll go see my mother. Good luck to you, contractor." Su Qingxin teased lightly.
"Thank you for your good wishes." Zhang Yishi hung up the phone impatiently.
Su Qingxin smiled and didn't care. When she was about to put away her phone to go see Shu Fan, she received a text message.
It was sent by Wei Ran.
"I sent you a recipe and exercise chart that I compiled. If you follow the instructions, it will be good for your eyes and body. Go to bed early tonight and don't stay up late."
It was like this from that day on. Wei Ran would send her text messages every day to remind her to take care of herself, but she didn't reply to any of them.
After turning off her cell phone, Su Qingxin went out and rushed to Shu Fan's place.
She had another purpose for this trip, which was to bring Shu Fan to live with her. In fact, she had had this idea for a long time, but every time she asked Shu Fan, he would not answer her.
After leaving the community, a figure walked out from the shadow under the street lamp.
Wei Ran, wearing a thick down jacket, blew a breath into his palms and gently stomped his frozen feet.
He always waited downstairs of Su Qingxin's house and watched her, every night. He would not go home alone until Su Qingxin's window darkened.
Su Qingxin came to Shu Fan and saw her sitting on the bed wrapped in bulky clothes, holding a picture book in her hand, painting on it with colored pencils. Su Qingxin sat over, looked at the person in the picture, and asked curiously: "Mom, who is this?"
Shu Fan still didn't answer her.
Su Qingxin hid in Shu Fan's bed, and Shu Fan moved aside to make room for Su Qingxin. Su Qingxin leaned on Shu Fan's shoulder and guessed, "This painting must be of your younger self, right? It's really beautiful."
The person in the painting has long curly hair down to her waist, thick eyebrows and big eyes, and looks a lot like Shu Fan when she was young. Shu Fan is one of the most beautiful women in Haicheng.
Shu Fan silently opened the painting. Under this painting, there was another painting.
It was a seven-year-old girl, laughing heartily, sitting on the beach and throwing grains of sand, with the vast ocean behind her.
Su Qingxin's eyes were moist , and tears fell on the drawing paper. In addition to her and her mother, there was also her father, the town of Haicheng, the sea of ​​Haicheng, the tung trees of Haicheng, and the sunrise and sunset.
"Mom..." Su Qingxin's eyes were moist and she looked up at Shu Fan.
There were more wrinkles on Shu Fan's face and there were crystal tears in his eyes.
"Mom." Su Qingxin hugged Shu Fan and said sadly, "You miss Haicheng and Dad, right? When you get better, I will take you back to Haicheng to see Dad, okay? But, Mom, how can you get better? How can you say a word to me?"
Why was it that after she had gone through years of wandering and let go of everything, in the end even saying a word to the people closest to her became a luxury?
Tears streamed down Shu Fan's face. She opened her lips with difficulty and sang a song, a song that had accompanied Su Qingxin through countless dark nights when she was a child, a song that had given little Su Qingxin infinite courage.
Her mother's voice was no longer as clear as before, but the familiar singing voice went straight to Su Qingxin's heart. She couldn't help but sing along with Shu Fan, the hoarse and mellow voices singing in harmony, Su Qingxin felt very relieved.
Su Qingxin stayed at Shu Fan's place that night. Shu Fan stayed with Su Qingxin and didn't sleep all night. She hadn't seen her daughter so closely for a long time.
She asked herself, Su Qingxin needed her so much, should she really continue to pretend to be sick? Wasn't it too unfair to Su Qingxin? As a mother, she already owed her a lot.
When she woke up the next day, Su Qingxin still asked Shu Fan if she was willing to live with her. When Su Qingxin was combing Shu Fan's hair, she saw her nodding slightly.
She agreed, with a faint nod.
"Mom, I'll pick you up now!" Su Qingxin was very excited.
Su Qing thought that no matter how much pain she had suffered before, it didn't matter anymore, because she was happier and more blessed than anyone else at this moment.
After Zhang Yishi arrived, with his help, Su Qingxin gave up the two rented houses and found a two-bedroom, one-living room apartment. Then she and Zhang Yishi took Shu Fan to the new house.
Zhang Yishi watched Su Qingxin busying herself with cleaning up the new home, and said with some regret: "I really envy you two for being able to live together. Now that Auntie is gone, I'm afraid I'll feel even more bored."
Su Qingxin stood up in the midst of her busy schedule and said, "Zhang Yishi, you should quickly find a girlfriend and get married, so you won't be bored anymore."
"What's the good of getting married? I have to drink and eat meat and still be controlled by my wife. I don't want to get married." Zhang Yishi curled his lips.
"Then you'll be single for the rest of your life!" Su Qingxin said sarcastically.
"I'm happy with it, what's it to you?" Zhang Yishi retorted to Su Qingxin while helping her move the large furniture.
It took them a whole morning to clean up their new home. Su Qingxin cooked specially to celebrate the move and Zhang Yishi's recent job and the large sum of money he received. Then he would go out into the bitter cold.
"We are just going to look at the topographic drawings and prepare for the preliminary work. If we really want to start construction, we have to wait until next spring. It is too cold in winter and very dangerous." Zhang Yishi said while eating.
"Then I have to congratulate you." Su Qingxin drank tea instead of wine with a righteous look.
When sadness passes, good luck will come. For a brand new life, Su Qingxin works hard in the flower shop and delivers flowers to many places every day. The most popular flowers are delivered to couples. Every time she delivers flowers to couples, she will send her blessings.
If a person does more good things, bad luck will not befall him so quickly.
Su Qingxin works with this belief in mind and enjoys it.
"Why can't I find it?" Su Qingxin, who was staying at home, couldn't sit still either. She was rummaging through boxes and cabinets, looking for a red bracelet. She remembered taking it down and putting it in a jewelry box when she moved, but now she couldn't find it.
Although the only interaction between her and Wei Ran now was a text message every day that she would never reply to, Su Qingxin still didn't want to lose the bracelet.
Su Qingxin crawled out from under the bed with a pale face, and finally found the bracelet.
I guess I threw all the little things on the bed last time and they accidentally fell into the gap.
Su Qingxin blew the dust off the bracelet, put it back on her wrist carelessly, and tucked it into her sleeve.
"Mom, Zhang Yishi will be back very late tonight. I'll bring him some midnight snack and come back with him. You should go to bed early and don't have to wait for me." Su Qingxin poured the leftover food into the lunch box, heated it in the microwave, and then put it in the thermos.
Shu Fan sat in the living room and nodded.
Su Qingxin took the hot food out, and when she walked downstairs, she suddenly saw a light rain. She quickly turned back and got an umbrella. It takes an hour to take the bus from here to Feidong County, and she also has to walk to where Zhang Yishi is, which takes another 20 minutes.
Su Qingxin wrapped the thermal box inside her coat, fearing that the food would get cold if exposed to the wind and rain.
Arriving in Feidong County, Su Qingxin held the incubator and umbrella in one hand and took out her cell phone with the other to call Zhang Yishi. The sound of rain got heavier and she could hardly hear Zhang Yishi's voice.
"I'm here to bring you some midnight snacks. It's so dark here, come and pick me up, I'll come to your side." Su Qingxin braved the wind and rain and shouted into the phone.
Zhang Yishi's roaring voice came from the other end of the phone: "You won't starve to death if you don't eat all night. It's already ten o'clock. What are you doing here? Be safe. I'll be there soon!"
Su Qingxin put the phone back into her pocket, and with the help of the flickering light on the side of the road, she suddenly discovered that the bracelet on her wrist was missing.
She bent over, holding an umbrella, and took out her cell phone to turn on the flashlight function, looking for the bracelet in the heavy rain. The light was too dim, the wind was strong and the rain was heavy, and she had to control the umbrella so that it would not be blown away, so it was really difficult to find it.
"No! Don't lose it!" Su Qing was impatient, but she couldn't find the bracelet no matter how hard she looked. The bracelet had been with her for eight years, she couldn't just lose it.
"Su Qingxin——" Zhang Yishi's faint shout and the sound of running footsteps came in the wind and rain.
Su Qingxin straightened up and was about to agree, but she found that she was a little dizzy because she had been bending over to look for something. She staggered a few steps, supported her head and shook it. At this time, Su Qingxin felt a dark light coming from the right rear. She turned around and looked. The lights at the corner of the road became brighter and brighter, until the taillights of the car broke through the darkness and wind and rain, and she could see clearly that it was a truck rushing over.
The dazzling light shone directly into Su Qingxin's pupils. Her eyes hurt and she screamed. The umbrella slipped from her hands and she covered her eyes in pain.
The truck driver didn't seem to expect that there was a person in the middle of the road so late at night. Because the horn was broken, he couldn't honk, so he couldn't attract the attention of pedestrians. He quickly stepped on the brakes and turned the steering wheel, but the truck still crashed into Su Qingxin uncontrollably.
"Su Qingxin!" Zhang Yishi, who had rushed over, saw this scene and didn't have any time to think. He rushed forward and pushed Su Qingxin to the side of the road, but he was hit by the truck and fell onto the road.
There was a steep slope next to it. Su Qingxin heard a huge muffled sound behind him, which seemed to be accompanied by the sound of broken bones. Then, a heavy object fell down the slope. The front wheels of the truck stopped at the edge of the road, just a few feet away from falling.
"Zhang Yishi?" Su Qingxin turned back in a daze. The street light illuminated her pupils, making them look extremely terrifying.
The driver jumped out of the car, stared at the dark hillside and shivered, then took out his cell phone and dialed 120.
"Zhang Yishi--" Su Qingxin screamed as she got up and staggered to the side of the road. But she couldn't see anything clearly. Zhang Yishi was hit by a car. In order to save her, he was hit down the hillside by a large truck!
"Miss..." The truck driver nervously wanted to help Su Qingxin up, but was pushed away by Su Qingxin.
The driver looked at Su Qingxin in surprise as she ran down the hillside desperately, almost losing her mind.
"Miss!" The truck driver couldn't stop her and could only watch her tumbling and falling down.
"Zhang Yishi, Zhang Yishi!" Su Qingxin shouted Zhang Yishi's name uncontrollably and ran down the hill. The street lights could not illuminate the darkness down the hill, let alone the fear deep in her heart.
Don’t get into trouble, Zhang Yishi!
Su Qingxin's exposed cheeks and backs of her hands were scratched by the dead branches and thorns. She was soaked and covered in mud as she helplessly called out Zhang Yishi's name in the dark night. But Zhang Yishi did not respond to her, not even a faint word or the sound of his breathing hidden in the wind and rain.
"Zhang Yishi, where are you? Zhang Yishi..." Su Qingxin cried desperately, reaching out her hands and groping on the ground. It was pitch black and she was shaking all over. The winter rain soaked into her bones and froze her flesh.
Not far away, Zhang Yishi lay dying, his face covered in blood or dirt, looking miserable. He raised his hand with great effort and stretched it towards Su Qingxin, mumbling the name from his lips and teeth that were numb with pain.
"Su...Qingxin, Qing...Xin." He was calling her name.
Su Qingxin lay on the ground, looking for Zhang Yishi.
Zhang Yishi could hear Su Qingxin crying clearly through the storm that prevented him from meeting her. She was not so anxious and scared when her father died.
Su Qingxin, don't cry, don't be afraid...
Zhang Yishi wanted to say this to Su Qingxin, but he really didn't have the strength. Su Qingxin always said that it was Zhang Yishi who saved her from despair and helplessness. In fact, Su Qingxin didn't know that while he saved her, she also saved him from loneliness and helplessness.
Zhang Yishi lost both his parents when he was young and lived with his uncle. His uncle did not treat him well, so he escaped from someone else's roof to make a living.
If he hadn't met Su Qingxin, he would have been helpless and had nothing to worry about. It was Su Qingxin who gave him a heart that could care about others.
Su Qingxin also saved Zhang Yishi during his lonely years.
Raindrops fell on Zhang Yishi's face, and he couldn't even open his eyes to look at Su Qingxin. Hearing Su Qingxin's crying getting closer, the smile on his lips slowly disappeared.
When Su Qingxin grabbed Zhang Yishi's hand in the dark, he eventually lost his breath and heartbeat.
"Zhang Yishi!" Su Qingxin nervously picked up Zhang Yishi and let him lean on her arms. His residual warmth had not yet faded, and she thought he was still alive.
"Zhang Yishi, hold on, I'll call to save you right away. I beg you, don't leave me alone, okay? You must hold on!" Su Qingxin frantically searched for her cell phone, but couldn't find it after searching all over her body.
The cell phone had fallen on the road when Zhang Yishi pushed her away.
Su Qingxin had never felt so hopeless. She hugged the bed tightly and cried out in grief: "Help! Someone, please, save him!"
The cry was drowned out by the merciless night rain, and no one in the whole world responded to Su Qingxin's call for help.
It was unknown when the ambulance arrived. When the doctors and police found Su Qingxin and Zhang Yishi, their bodies had turned cold. Before Su Qingxin fainted from grief, she clutched the sleeve of the person who saved her and begged, "Please, save him..."
No one told her that Zhang Yishi could not be saved...
That night was like a dream, a dream that I fell into and could never wake up from.
It was unknown how long it had been before Su Qingxin gradually woke up. She had no idea what time it was because she had opened her eyes but could not see anything.
All she heard was many voices, all of them asking about her well-being.
There are Wei Ran, Chi Yuecheng, Zhu Panpan and Yang Ye, Feng Ruixing and Lu Xi, and many other people.
The sound of their voices calling her seemed ethereal and distant, and Su Qingxin couldn't catch it at all.
"Where is Zhang Yishi?" Su Qingxin asked in a trembling voice. She only wanted to hear Zhang Yishi's voice now.
No one answered her and the surroundings suddenly became quiet.
Bad emotions grew in Su Qingxin's heart. She cried and her voice was full of panic: "Where is Zhang Yishi? Don't hide him. Where is he... where is he?"
There was a slight whimpering sound in the air.
Su Qingxin struggled to get up, but was held down by a hand. The man coaxed her and said, "Qingxin, don't get excited. We will take you to see Zhang Yishi later, okay?"
"I want to see him now..." Su Qingxin looked up. She could tell it was Chi Yuecheng's voice.
Chi Yuecheng swallowed the bitterness, but saw Su Qingxin's hand slowly caressing his face.
Su Qingxin cried so hard that her features were distorted. She said, "But I... I can't seem to see him anymore..."
Her fingers groped over Chi Yuecheng's facial features, sliding across the outline of his face. She couldn't see it anymore. She couldn't see the appearance of anyone now.
Su Qingxin suddenly calmed down. She gently pushed Chi Yuecheng away, leaned on the hospital bed, and said, "Just tell me whether Zhang Yishi is still alive or not. Just tell me..."
No one spoke, and the girl's crying became clearer and clearer. Su Qingxin had already guessed the answer, she just didn't want to face the truth.
"You guys go out." Su Qingxin said calmly.
“Be careful…”
"Get out." Her words already contained the meaning of expulsion.
"Qingxin, don't be too sad. You have to pay attention to your condition. You can't let your eyes deteriorate to the point where you have to remove your eyeballs, okay?" Chi Yuecheng warned her earnestly.
The truth was finally revealed as Zhang Yishi left. Su Qingxin no longer had to hide it from them, it was so hard.
Chi Yuecheng and the others all knew that comforting a person whose loved one had passed away was probably one of the most difficult things in the world. But the living were the most important, and none of them wanted Su Qingxin to have her eyes deteriorated and have to have her eyeballs removed because of Zhang Yishi's incident.
Everyone left the ward, and Su Qingxin stayed quietly in the ward. She was blind, and because she could not see the complicated world, her mind suddenly became much clearer.
Zhang Yishi's voice and appearance were still fresh in Su Qingxin's mind. At this moment, the words of teaching that Zhang Yishi usually taught her seemed to ring in her ears, and that face with a ruffian look but sincere eyes also appeared in front of her.
But now, Zhang Yishi left for her without even leaving her with any thoughts.
Su Qingxin suddenly thought of something. She fumbled to get up and opened the door of the ward. Zhu Panpan, who was outside the door, saw her coming out and hurried over to support her.
"Are you all here?" Su Qingxin asked.
Zhu Panpan didn't know what she meant, so she said, "Chi Yuecheng is not here."
"Where is he?" Su Qingxin asked hurriedly.
"Doctor's office..." Zhu Panpan was confused.
"Take me there." Su Qingxin grabbed Zhu Panpan's hand. Zhu Panpan didn't dare to ask more questions and had to take her to the doctor's office.
The others followed in confusion, not knowing what she was going to do.
Only Wei Ran stood still without saying a word. He knew what everyone was thinking, and he knew what Su Qingxin was thinking.
Su Qingxin came to the door and heard Chi Yuecheng discussing Zhang Yishi's cornea with the doctor. Su Qingxin rushed in angrily and said, "Chi Yuecheng! What do you mean?"
"Qingxin?" Seeing Su Qingxin coming towards him angrily, Chi Yuecheng was a little at a loss.
"Doctor Wang! Donating corneas must be based on the person's consent. Zhang Yishi has passed away, so the consent of his family is also required! His family is me, and I don't agree now! What are you doing? Zhang Yishi lost his life to save me, and you still want to destroy his complete body?" Su Qingxin scolded the two people in the small space.
Doctor Wang explained: "Of course I know this, I..."
"Qingxin, I came to discuss this matter with Doctor Wang." Chi Yuecheng stood up and said, "Think about it, if Zhang Yishi was still alive and knew that you were blind, he would definitely agree to donate his cornea when he died."
Su Qingxin listened carefully to the sound, raised her hand and slapped Chi Yuecheng.
This action shocked everyone present, including Chi Yuecheng.
"Chi Yuecheng, I didn't expect you to be so selfish. You want to take Zhang Yishi's cornea. Have you ever thought about how I feel? I already blame myself and feel sad beyond words, and you still want to hurt someone who is no longer in this world. Do you want me to be uneasy for the rest of my life?" Su Qingxin scolded Chi Yuecheng, her empty eyes filled with anger. At this moment, she was completely irrational.
No one can touch Zhang Yishi, no one!
Chi Yuecheng stared at her blankly, unable to say a word for a long time. Yes, he was selfish, but he was doing it for Su Qingxin's own good, so that she could see the world again. He knew how much Zhang Yishi loved Su Qingxin, and that love was no less than his own, and no less than Wei Ran's, so he threw away the so-called morality and asked the doctor.
"If any of you dare to set your sights on Zhang Yishi again, don't ever come to see me again in this life!" Su Qingxin said harshly, pushed everyone away, and left alone, stumbling and leaning against the wall.
They all remained silent and dared not talk about this matter anymore.
Zhang Yishi's death dealt a heavy blow to Su Qingxin. She lost her sight in both eyes, and the doctor said there was no other way to recover except by transplanting healthy corneas. They all thought that Su Qingxin would find it hard to accept such a double blow , but Su Qingxin was surprisingly calm. When she asked to be discharged from the hospital, at Zhang Yishi's funeral, and when she was unable to work and refused everyone's help and sympathy, she was extremely calm.
Su Qingxin, what are you going to do in the future?
A voice asked her this in her heart.
What should she do in the future? She didn't know. She just wanted to go back to Haicheng and escape from this place that brought her endless sadness and torture.
Everyone here would bring out the pain in her heart, and she didn't want to see anyone.
Chi Yuecheng and his friends would occasionally come to see Su Qingxin, but before they could even enter the house, they would be silently asked to leave by Shu Fan.
Shu Fan knew that Su Qingxin didn't want to see anyone and just wanted to stay alone quietly.
But Su Qingxin stayed in the house every day, and would burst into tears after a while. I don't know if she was missing Zhang Yishi or someone else. Shu Fan had never seen Su Qingxin smile.
I don't know which night it was, the temperature outside dropped below zero, and the street lights downstairs in the community became dimmer and dimmer. But under the street lights, Shu Fan didn't see Wei Ran who had been waiting there.
"Ah... the boy who has been standing under the window waiting for me doesn't seem to have come tonight." She stood at the window, muttering absentmindedly.
"Mom?" Su Qingxin, who was sitting on the side drinking porridge, was stunned for a moment, thinking she had heard it wrong.
Although Shu Fan helped her keep away the friends who came to see her, she never spoke to her.
Shu Fan smiled lightly, with regret and remorse on her face. She said: "He has been standing down there, under the streetlight, sometimes wrapped tightly in clothes, he must be very cold. Alas, it's still the same as before! He thought you would come back, thought you would see him, so he kept waiting, waiting, waiting until the years passed and he grew up slowly."
Su Qingxin stood up quickly, her legs hit the table, and the porcelain bowl on it almost fell off.
A pair of hands supported Su Qingxin, and Su Qingxin's grief and joy surged into her heart. She grabbed Shu Fan's hand in disbelief and confirmed, "Mom, can you really... can you really hear me?"
Shu Fan hugged Su Qingxin in his arms distressedly, gently stroked her hair, and said with regret in his voice: "Silly, I'm not worthy of being your mother. I'm sorry... I'm sorry."
"I don't care... I don't care! I don't care what happened in the past, Mom... I only have you now, please, don't ignore me anymore..." Su Qingxin hugged Shu Fan tightly and finally burst into tears.
She was so depressed and sad.
She was afraid that they would worry, so she kept pretending that she was fine. She didn't care what Shu Fan had done in the past or what he was doing now. She just hoped that she could find a little warmth in her gloomy life, a little warmth that could be easily asked for and make people feel at ease.
Shu Fan regretted it very much. She had endured for so long without being honest with Su Qingxin because she couldn't get her forgiveness. She hoped that there was still time for her to treat her like a little princess again.
Su Qingxin leaned on Shu Fan's shoulder, her tears running down her cheeks and her voice becoming hoarse.
"Mom, can you take me back to Haicheng? Let's go home. We've said many times that we want to go back..."
"Okay, Mom will take you home."
Shu Fan wiped away Su Qingxin's tears and answered seriously.
The next day, Shu Fan took Su Qingxin on the train back to Haicheng.
Everything was fine that day. The warm winter sunshine made people feel cozy. Su Qingxin didn't tell anyone and went back with Shu Fan.
The journey was long, and she knew she couldn't turn back.
The train rumbled past the railway bridge. Wei Ran looked up and his eyes fell on the train.
His world became empty again, and the person he was waiting for never came back to him.
After returning to Haicheng, Shu Fan would take Su Qingxin to see her eyes every now and then.
One day, the doctor told Su Qingxin that a family member of a deceased person was willing to donate the deceased's cornea to Su Qingxin.
After signing all the formalities, Su Qingxin lay on the operating table and completed the corneal transplant.
In February of the following year, Su Qingxin had the stitches removed from her eyes. She could see the blue sky and white clouds, the world, and Shu Fan's face again.
Su Qingxin was unable to contact the family of the deceased who was willing to donate his cornea.
Everything in Haicheng remains the same as before, as if nothing has changed, yet it also seems as if everything has changed.
On Valentine's Day, heavy snow fell from the sky. It is said that it snowed all over the country that day. It must have snowed where Wei Ran and his friends were as well, right?
Su Qingxin, wearing a furry knitted hat and gloves, walked past rows of tung trees with snow-covered branches.
She stretched out her hand slightly to catch the falling snowflakes, which were as beautiful as the tung blossoms at that time.
Su Qingxin stopped and looked up at the small building in front of her. There was a window on the second floor of the building, which was slightly open.
She seemed to see the fifteen-year-old boy opening the window and smiling brightly at her.
This winter is nice, but the boy is not around.
Flowers bloom in May, snow falls in cold winter, I have lovesickness and don't care about its fullness or emptiness.