DIARY Twelve The Secret You Never Want to Know 1
Friday, August 12 Rain
Have you ever had such an experience?
Something I've always wanted to know,
I have asked countless times about the secret but received no answer.
One day I finally understood.
Not only was there no joy at all,
Instead, I was so sad that I fell to the bottom.
I just hope that I never know.
The next day, the sky was gloomy, but it did not affect my joyful mood at all.
The campus during the summer remedial classes was not as noisy as before, but for me who was attending class for the first time after the operation, it still felt so familiar, and even... surprising.
I walked briskly on the path on campus, looking at the frog pendant on my phone. This was one of the ten birthday gifts I received yesterday, and there was another one that matched. When Yuan Cheye gave me the answer, I would give it to him.
I have never been so eager to see someone. And now, I really want to see Yuan Cheye's face.
I walked into the classroom and found that Yuan Cheye had not arrived yet.
"Good morning, Weiwei."
I sat down and said hello to the students at the next table. Weiwei ignored me and started chatting with the students behind her.
"Hey, have you heard? Yuan Cheye is transferring to another school."
"No way, is your information accurate?"
"If Cheye transfers to another school, I'll follow suit, wuwuwuwu..."
"I heard that, too. It's really strange! But then again, it was strange that he came here in the first place."
"ah……"
It was like a bolt of thunder in my head. I jumped up from my seat in panic, unable to believe what I heard.
Yuan Cheye and I were together yesterday, and he didn’t tell me anything.
No. I comforted myself that this news was definitely a rumor!
"I heard that a girl came to help him transfer to another school..."
"I saw it too. She's so beautiful, and has the temperament of a princess..."
"Could it be... Could it be that my beloved Cheye has a girlfriend?"
"Just give up. Without a girlfriend, Yuan Cheye won't like you ..."
…
I couldn't remain silent any longer, so I interrupted their quarrel angrily, "Which eye of yours saw that princess? Also, did you hear Yuan Cheye say he wanted to transfer schools? He won't... He definitely won't leave."
Don’t he and I still have a ten-year agreement?
So, he would definitely not leave like this.
"Tsk! Who are you to our Cheye? Everyone knows that you are the one who usually pesters him?"
"That's right. It's okay if you don't know it because you are ignorant. We didn't intend to tell you!"
"I'm going to ask him in person!" My face suddenly turned red and I rushed out of the classroom regardless of the laughter of my classmates.
Could it be true?
Could it be true?
Yuan Cheye, you can't do this...
I ran as fast as I could, and the uneasy feeling in my heart grew bigger and bigger, as if it was going to devour my soul.
Yuan Cheye, why didn’t you tell me that you were going to transfer schools?
Don't you know that you have become my air?
Don't you know that I can't leave you anymore?
"Where are you? Asshole! Come out now!"
"Yuan Cheye, you bastard! Come out!"
I don't know when the tears started flowing, I called out that familiar name sadly, feeling as if my heart was about to break at any time.
Sudden--
"You are a little pig, you are a little pig, little pig, answer the phone quickly..."
There was a vibration in my pocket and the phone rang.
I took it out and looked at it, and it turned out to be Yuan Cheye!
I quickly pressed the answer button -
"Hello, is this Yuan Cheye?"
“…”
"Hey, Yuan Cheye, why aren't you talking?"
“…”
"Yuan Cheye, I want to see you right away."
No one was talking on the other end of the phone. It was very quiet, but it was so quiet that it made me feel uneasy. Just when I thought the call had been hung up, a familiar and deep voice reached my ears.
"Meet me in the cedar forest behind the library in ten minutes."
"Hey, Yuan Cheye..."
Before I could say anything else, a beeping sound came from my phone.
The library of Yifeng High School is a beautiful sight. It is built on the edge of the park, surrounded by mountains and water. The overall architecture is a Western-style villa, but in the small details it reflects a Chinese style, truly combining Chinese and Western styles.
Behind the library is a cedar forest, where students often come to read quietly with their books. It is also a perfect place for couples to whisper in the evening.
I went up the hill from the back door of the library, and in a few minutes I saw Yuan Cheye under the branches of yellow fir. He was wearing a black T-shirt today. But he must not know that he was not suitable for black, because his smile was so warm and brilliant.
Just as I was about to say hello with a smile, I caught a glimpse of a girl next to him. The girl was holding Yuan Cheye's arm and leaning close to his ear, as if they were whispering something secret.
My hand that was shaking as I greeted her froze in mid-air, and the girl just happened to look towards me, revealing her delicate face without makeup, like a princess.
My ears immediately echoed with the conversation between Weiwei and the others——
"I heard that a girl came to help him transfer to another school..."
"I saw it too. She's so beautiful, and has the temperament of a princess..."
"Could it be... Could it be that my beloved Cheye has a girlfriend?"
"Just give up. Without a girlfriend, Yuan Cheye won't like you..."
Could she be the girl that the classmates are talking about?
no, I can not!
Maybe this girl is just an ordinary friend of Yuan Cheye, maybe those rumors are groundless, maybe...
Anyway, none of this can be true!
I quickened my pace and walked towards Yuan Cheye. But the closer I got to them, the more an irresistible fear gripped my heart, making me almost want to turn around and run away.
But I still stubbornly walked step by step to Yuan Cheye.
"What's the matter with you asking me to come here?" I tried my best to keep my tone balanced so that he wouldn't hear anything unusual.
"I promised you last night that I would tell you the answer to that question." Yuan Cheye pulled the girl next to him, his expression unusually calm, "But before I answer you, I would like to introduce you first. Ye Xiya, this is my girlfriend Jiang Shangxue. Didn't you always say that I have a secret? She is my secret."
In an instant, the wind seemed to stop, and the entire cedar forest and the outside world became extremely quiet in my ears.
The smile on Yuan Cheye's lips was as cruel as a knife, cutting the air around me and almost making me stop breathing.
She is my girlfriend Jiang Shangxue...
She is my secret...
I thought about the two diaries I exchanged, and the secrets I wanted to obtain from them. It turned out to be like this...
So cruel...
My heart felt like it was being twisted by thousands of knives, and the pain went numb in an instant...
"Stop joking, Yuan Cheye! Today is not April Fool's Day." I shouted out of control.
"Xia, listen to me." Yuan Cheye still tightly held the hand of the girl next to him. After looking at her with doting eyes, he said to me, "Before transferring here, I had been dating Xue'er. She and I broke up because of a misunderstanding, and I transferred here out of spite. But just a few days ago, she came here to find me, and I realized that everything was a misunderstanding. I still like her, so I want to go back to the original city with her. Xiya..."
"Enough, stop talking!" I interrupted him painfully. No wonder he never said he liked me. No wonder after I mustered up the courage to confess, he only agreed to be friends with me. It turned out that this was the answer.
"Don't look so sad, idiot. We are still good friends, right?" Yuan Cheye stretched out a hand and gently wiped the tears that had rolled out of my eyes without me noticing at some point.
friend……
It turns out that in his mind, I was always just a simple friend, not someone he could love and spend his life with. And the one he really loved was always someone else.
"So, is it true that you transferred to another school?" After a moment's silence, I asked, trying hard to suppress the sadness in my heart.
"Yes. I have completed the transfer procedures and will be leaving this city soon. Before leaving, I would feel uneasy if I didn't say goodbye to my best friend Ye Xiya, so I called you here. Besides, Xue'er also wants to see you."
"Haha, you are Ye Xiya, right? Although this is the first time we meet, I know a lot about you! Cheye said you are a very interesting girl." Jiang Shangxue smiled gently and stretched out her right hand to me, "I also want to be friends with you, okay?"
I was silent. I could feel that Jiang Shangxue was a very good girl, with a kind of modesty that came from the bottom of her heart, and like Chen, she seemed to be able to tolerate all the willfulness of the person she liked.
Perhaps, this kind of girl is the one that is truly suitable for Yuan Cheye...
I hesitated and extended my right hand towards her, but tears rolled out of my eyes again, burning the skin on the back of my hand.
I can’t accept this! I really can’t accept this!
"Xia, what's wrong with you?" Jiang Shangxue looked at me panickedly as my tears were flowing more and more, and then looked at Yuan Cheye for help.
"Are you crying tears of joy over my departure, idiot?" Yuan Cheye gently patted Jiang Shangxue's shoulder, signaling her not to panic, and then slowly walked towards me, "If you cry like this, I won't be able to tell you the answer to that question."
"No need. I don't want to know. Woo woo."
"You really don't want to know?"
"Um..." I just wanted to cry, cry hard and drown myself in my tears.
"The weather is not very good today!" He ignored my crying and said something inexplicable and irrelevant.
My crying stopped temporarily, and I subconsciously looked up at the sky. Indeed, the gray-yellow sky was covered with thick clouds, as if a heavy rain would fall at any time.
"Xia, can you make the weather better? I need to leave today." Yuan Cheye winked at me.
"……What?"
"Pray that the sky will become as clean as Xia's face!" Yuan Cheye said, and quickly wiped away the tears on my face. This time, his movements were more gentle than ever before, and his cold fingertips even trembled a little.
"Stop making the sky dirty." After wiping it, he "warned" me seriously.
"Oh." I choked and suppressed the tears in my eyes.
"Xia, we are still good friends now, right? As a good friend, shouldn't you say a few words of farewell to me who is about to leave?"
"I……"
I can’t tell…
I couldn't say "Can you please not leave?"
I couldn't keep him because I was just his "good friend" and had no right to ask him to stay for me.
"Will you contact me again after you leave?"
"Yeah. I'll text you." He responded simply.
"Calling?"
"Call too."
"Will you still give me a birthday present?"
"You are so greedy! I gave you a lot last night!" He pouted mischievously, "What else do you want? Let me think about it."
"Air."
