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"I'm not Little Red Riding Hood!" I retorted loudly, but I didn't have the strength to avoid his hand that was wiping the tear marks on my face.
"Yes, yes, you are stupid."
"Yuan Cheye, you pig! Stop calling me stupid!"
…
In this childish quarrel, the tense and sad atmosphere just now disappeared without a trace. We continued to quarrel and walked towards home.
A new moon hung in the night sky, emitting a mercury-colored glow. The evening breeze blew gently towards me from time to time, making my slightly hot face from drinking feel much more comfortable.
We just keep following the moon, but no matter how long or how far we go, we are always at a distance from it that we can never reach.
if……
It would be great if Yuan Cheye and I could continue like this forever.
There is no end, until the end of time, we will never be apart...
I secretly observed Yuan Cheye out of the corner of my eye, and just then he turned his head towards me and asked in a low voice: "It seems to be very late now, won't your family be worried?"
"I called my dad. He said I might not be able to eat enough at the social gathering, so he left some food for me. But to be honest, I just had a few glasses of wine, so I'm a little hungry." I said, smacking my lips.
"..." Yuan Cheye seemed to be slightly stunned when he heard me say this, and the atmosphere suddenly became a little heavy. Under the watery moonlight, his facial features seemed to be covered with a layer of light mist, and his expression was indescribably lonely.
I secretly blamed myself for being careless, thinking that what I said must have reminded Yuan Cheye of his parents.
I opened my mouth, wanting to comfort him, but I didn't know how to start.
At this moment, a bright light suddenly flashed before my eyes, and then more tiny lights rose up. Against the dark night, they shone like tiny crystal fragments.
My eyes widened, and I excitedly grabbed Yuan Cheye's arm and shook it: "Fireflies! Look, it's a firefly!"
In the flower bed on the left side of the road, large groups of fireflies were flying, flashing again and again.
"Ah! There are more over there! Let's go over and take a look together!" I dragged Yuan Cheye towards the flower bed.
"It's just a firefly, are you that excited?" Yuan Cheye looked like he was totally indifferent to it, but under the influence of my extremely powerful willpower, he had no choice but to follow behind.
However--
"How is this going?"
After walking a few steps, I was blocked by an obstacle that suddenly appeared in front of me and had to stop.
Under the illumination of the street lamps, the road leading to the flower bed was surrounded by a circle of white fences. I went forward and pushed but it didn't move. Looking closely, the road inside the fence was obviously darker in color and seemed to be a little wet.
"It's newly laid cement." Yuan Cheye behind him made a judgment, "It's probably not dry yet, so they fenced it off and didn't let people leave."
"Ah? What should I do? Can't I go through?" There was unconcealable frustration in my voice.
"Do you really want to go?" Yuan Cheye turned his head and looked at me steadily, with something strange in his eyes.
"certainly!"
"Then let's break through the restrictions!"
A smile brighter than the moonlight suddenly bloomed on Yuan Cheye's face. Before I could think about the meaning of his words, one of my hands had already been pulled up by him.
"What...what are you doing?" The touch of my skin on my wrist made my heart beat faster.
"Take a few steps back first, then jump with me." Yuan Cheye held my hand tighter and at the same time, pulled me back to a certain position.
"Are you planning to..."
The words I was about to ask got stuck in my throat, because the next second, I found my body flying into the air involuntarily.
The light moonlight.
Diffuse night fog.
Two figures, one tall and one short, froze in mid-air and then fell lightly to the ground.
Under Yuan Cheye's guidance, I successfully crossed the white fence easily.
"Stupid, I didn't expect you to be able to jump so well."
"Haha. Thanks for the compliment! You're not bad either. If you hadn't held me, I wouldn't have dared to jump."
After landing safely, we joked with each other and then smiled at each other happily.
At this moment, the atmosphere is as beautiful and peaceful as the night sky.
"Yuan Che..." After a long while, I found that my hand was still held by Yuan Cheye, and he seemed to have forgotten to let go for the time being.
Should I remind him? But... I'm looking forward to being held by him like this forever...
Could Yuan Cheye be doing this on purpose? To test me? If I just let him hold my hand, he would surely be laughing in his heart with pride, right?
"Aren't you going to catch fireflies? Why are you standing there like an idiot?"
Just as I was daydreaming, Yuan Cheye turned around and forced a bright smile again, then without waiting for me to react, he pulled me along the wet concrete road to the place where the fireflies were most densely populated.
The evening breeze blows gently and the night falls.
The boys and girls running hand in hand in the moonlight, and the emerald light spots appearing from time to time around me, gave me the illusion that I was entering a dream kingdom with a prince.
Behind us, there were two sets of footprints of different sizes and depths.
I didn't think about whether this behavior was sabotage or not, I just felt that everything that had happened so far seemed to be what I had always dreamed of. Therefore, I had no time to care about anything else.
At this moment, Yuan Cheye, I, the fireflies flying around us, and the occasional shooting stars across the sky, form the most complete and warmest picture under the night sky.
“Shh…”
Yuan Cheye suddenly signaled me to walk lightly, and he pointed with his free hand to a small pond not far from the flower bed. There were the most fireflies there, and their shadows were reflected in the water in groups, twinkling like all the stars in the sky falling into it.
Yuan Cheye and I walked as carefully as possible, as startled fireflies flew by from time to time.
"Ha! There's no escape!"
Yuan Cheye suddenly let go of my hand, swept his hands across my forehead, and then quickly closed them together, tightly covering an enclosed space.
"Did you catch it?" I looked excitedly at the gap between his fingers, but found nothing inside.
"Fools are really easy to fool!" Yuan Cheye opened his hands and winked at me proudly.
"Humph! Just wait and see! I will definitely catch one! Then we'll know who's the fool."
I shouted loudly, which startled the fireflies that were resting around me. They all flapped their wings alertly and flew away.
In an instant, it was as if a beautiful and rare jadeite was shattered before my eyes, and countless green fragments flew around in the night.
"Wow! So beautiful!"
I tilted my head back, looking at the beauty before me in disbelief. Those sparkling lights like jade were so close to me, but when I stretched out my hand I couldn't catch them.
"I will catch you!"
A firefly brushed my cheek teasingly, and I ran after it. Unfortunately, after chasing it until I was out of breath and sweating, it still flew away.
"Angry! Why can't I catch him?"
Just when I was dejectedly considering whether to give up, I suddenly heard Yuan Cheye's shout from behind:
"Hey, idiot!"
"What? Don't disturb me! I'm busy!" I answered him unhappily without even turning my head.
"Hey! Idiot!" The voice seemed to be getting closer.
I turned around and warned loudly: "Yuan Cheye! I told you not to call me stupid..." Before I could finish my words, I was stunned.
A clenched fist was stretched out in front of my eyes, and Yuan Cheye's voice was very soft, like the moonlight in the sky as light as water -
"Open your hands. I have something for you."
"What?"
As if tempted by the clean smile on his face, I obediently stretched out my hand.
"Be careful, it likes to escape."
Yuan Cheye approached me, put his fist close to my palm, and slowly stretched his hand downward. His slender fingers blossomed like roses under the bright moonlight.
There was an enchanting rose scent all around.
I stared at him as his hand slowly withdrew, breathing in the familiar scent emanating from him, and I was so careless that I forgot to close my palm.
By the time you realize it, it's already too late.
The firefly flashing with bright green light was a little slow at first and stayed in the center of my palm for a while, but its survival instinct quickly reminded it that the opportunity to escape was right in front of it, so it immediately spread its light wings without hesitation and flew forward.
The surroundings were shrouded in a veil of night fog.
Yuan Cheye’s profile is as gentle as moonlight.
Fireflies flew from my hands into the night sky, flickering brightly.
It's all so beautiful.
A warm and sweet current flowed through my heart, and the feeling of happiness overwhelmed me like a tide... I secretly prayed that time would stop at this moment.
Maybe it was the beautiful night, maybe it was the magical scene, maybe it was the residual alcohol, or maybe it was because I couldn't control the surging emotions in my heart. I stared deeply at the figure in front of me and suddenly said:
"Yuan Cheye, can we break through the limitations of being friends and can we... officially date?"
Bang——
This sentence was like a spell, easily breaking the moonlight-like tenderness on Yuan Cheye's face. His eyes gradually became deep, and his smile began to become illusory...
After a long silence, the lips that were as beautiful as rose petals finally opened slightly, and uttered cold words: "No."
Can't.
These three words were like a cold and sharp sword that pierced my heart in an instant.
"Why...?" I tried hard to keep my tone normal so that he wouldn't see how depressed I was.
"I can't like you, no matter what."
"Is it really impossible... no matter what?" I repeated, staring at Yuan Cheye's face which suddenly turned cold. I felt that the moonlight beside him also cooled down.
Yuan Cheye didn't answer me. The look in his eyes was as hazy as the moonlight, making it difficult to understand.
It turns out that no matter how hard I try, I still can't get close to his heart. No matter how close he and I are, there is always an invisible distance between us.
Thinking of this, my eyes began to fog up...
What is blocking us? I remembered the secrets I had discussed with him that night when we watched the night view, and the inexplicable words he said to me under the street light when he hugged me that evening when I first went to his house...
"Yuan Cheye... have you ever had a girlfriend before? Because of her, you..." I paused, thinking about how to continue, but found that Yuan Cheye's eyes suddenly dimmed.
My heart skipped a beat. Could this be the correct answer?
He transferred here because he was abandoned by the girl he liked and he doesn’t want to have a serious relationship anymore. Is this Yuan Cheye’s secret?
I stared blankly at my empty palms. The warmth that Yuan Cheye had just touched was still there, but the firefly he had placed in my palms had flown away to who knows where.
Everything seems like a beautiful illusion that no longer exists when you wake up.
Just like the happiness I have been looking forward to, maybe it will never stay by my side...
"Shia!"
"Is it Shia?"
In a trance, I heard a familiar voice. I turned my head mechanically and saw a dark figure standing outside the wet cement road.
"Shia?"
Although I couldn't see the face clearly, I knew who the concerned voice belonged to.
"Chen, I'm here."
"Your father was afraid that it was dangerous to walk on the road at night, so he asked me to go out and look for you. Let's go home!" Chen shouted over there.
I turned my head hesitantly to look at Yuan Cheye, but he didn't respond, so I nodded to Chen: "Yeah."
Many goodbye words flashed through my mind at this moment, but I opened my mouth and chose to give up.
I came to Chen's side, and he didn't ask anything, but considerately put a coat on me.
"Be careful of the cool night wind."
This little bit of careful care suddenly broke the smile I had been putting on , and all my strong disguises were slowly peeled off. I finally couldn't hold back the sadness in my heart anymore, and drops of painful tears rolled out of my eyes.
Those tears reflected a sad light under the silver moonlight.
I grabbed Chen's hands tightly, as if these hands were the only floating wood I had when I fell into the water. Once I let go, I would sink into the tide of sorrow, desperate and unable to breathe...
"Xia?" After a while, Chen's faint and gentle voice came.
"I'm fine, Chen." I raised my stubborn face and forced a smile.
Chen looked at me, didn't ask any more questions, and turned his gaze to the figure who had been motionless on the flower bed.
Yuan Cheye also looked towards us, but he didn't seem to be looking at me, but at Gu Haochen beside me.
The two of them looked at each other in silence for a while.
Then, Chen gently took my hand, raised his voice slightly, and said politely, "I will take Xia home. Thank you for taking care of her tonight."
I didn’t hear any response from Yuan Cheye, and waves of tearing pain began to attack my heart again...
"Let's go home, Shia."
"Um."
The moonlight is faint.
I held Chen's hand tightly.
Such warm hands are as reassuring as when they comforted me and took me home when I was bullied by other kids when I was a child.
But why do I still feel like something has fallen behind me...
There is a huge empty hole in my heart.
A long way.
Hazy moonlight.
I followed Chen and walked forward step by step. Unspeakable sadness spread in the night. Even though I was wearing a coat, the chill from the bottom of my heart still flowed through my body with my blood, making me extremely cold.
All that was left was... the hand that was being held, which still had some warmth left.
"Chen, I lost."
At a fork in the road near my home, I could no longer suppress the sadness in my heart, so I looked up and told Chen everything that happened tonight.
Including drinking and my failed second confession.
Chen just looked at me quietly without interrupting me.
"I never thought that the outcome was determined from the beginning. I actually lost to an opponent I had never met before. I really can't accept it."
"It doesn't matter. Our Xia is so cute, there is no need to worry about no one liking her." Chen pinched the tip of my nose with his hand, and his profile outlined gentle lines under the moonlight.
"You're trying to comfort me."
"It's also stating a fact, haha."
Chen smiled, and my mood gradually became better.
“Woo woo…ah…”
When we walked downstairs of my house, a faint animal cry attracted Chen and my attention.
Following the sound, we successfully found the target in a corner surrounded by several bushes.
"Ah! They're puppies!" I squatted down excitedly, pushed aside the low branches of the plants, and three fat puppies immediately caught my eye.
"They look like they are hungry," Chen analyzed.
"Why doesn't the puppy's mother take care of them? How pitiful."
The puppies' warm bodies pressed against my palms, and their helpless and confused look lying in the bushes touched my heart. I really couldn't bear to leave them like this.
Perhaps at this moment, the puppy and I are in the same mood: helpless, confused, and at a loss because we don’t know what to do.
"Chen, I want to...stay here and wait for their mother to come back."
Chen was stunned for a moment, then squatted down with me and said softly, "Okay, I'll wait with you."
A warm feeling welled up in my heart: "Chen...I'm glad you're by my side."
But why can't another person be as nice to me as you are?
"Xia, are you sad?"
Chen noticed the strangeness in my voice and considerately moved his shoulder over so that I could lean on it comfortably.
"Yuan Cheye... Yuan Cheye said he can't like me. If I'm not good enough, I can change. But does it mean that even if I become better, he will never like me? But even so, I still like him, there is no way I can give up..."
"Oh, silly Xiaya..." Chen sighed, touched my forehead with his hand, and his tone suddenly changed, "You seem to have a fever!"
"No...it's okay." I shook my head and felt dizzy, but I tried to hold on. "I'm fine. As long as Chen...Chen is always by my side supporting me, that's enough. Chen won't ignore Xiaya, right? Without Chen, Xiaya will definitely collapse." I leaned on Chen's shoulder and kept murmuring.
It was late at night and everything around was extremely quiet; the chirping of insects could be faintly heard.
The moon was as bright as water. I opened my tired eyes and struggled with my upper and lower eyelids...
"I'm here and will always be by your side. Xiaya, you are very tired, can we go home?" Chen persuaded me gently.
"But...the puppies'...mother hasn't come yet. I can't just leave them alone."
"Okay. If you're worried about the puppies, I'll take them home. Would you be willing to go home with peace of mind?"
Hearing him say that, my nerves that were almost dormant immediately woke up: "Yeah. If Chen takes care of it, it will be more reassuring than if the mother dog takes care of it."
"Is Xia complimenting me? But why does it feel a bit strange to say 'more reassuring than a mother dog's care?'" Chen helped me stand up, then squatted down and held the three puppies in his arms. "Okay, for Xia, I'll be a substitute mother dog for once."
"Haha." I smiled at him and raised my feet with difficulty to go home, but Chen suddenly squatted down in front of me.
I was stunned.
"I see you can't even walk steadily, so I'll carry you upstairs. But my hands are used to take care of the puppy, so you have to hold my neck tightly with both hands, otherwise I won't care if you fall and get hurt."
"Great!" I climbed onto his broad back excitedly.
At this moment, the remaining unhappiness in my heart was also driven away.
Perhaps, the sadness given by one person can be compensated by the love given by another person?
"Chen, am I heavy?"
Lying on Chen's warm back, breathing in the fresh scent emanating from his body, I inadvertently revealed my coquettish emotions.
"Haha, a little bit."
"Hey, you're laughing at me, aren't you?"
"No, you said so yourself. I respect the facts."
"Then I don't want you to carry me."
"Alright, alright. If we keep moving around, we'll fall down with the three puppies."
"That makes five puppies."
"hehe."
Chen carried me on his back and walked forward step by step, but my consciousness became increasingly blurred. My face rubbed against the soft cotton shirt on his shoulders, and I closed my heavy eyelids comfortably.
The haze in my heart was gradually fading away, and the wounds dripping with sticky blood were healing miraculously without me noticing.
"Chen, are you tired?"
In a daze, I uttered these words in a trance.
"Hehe, are you tired? Shia...you have always been my sweet burden."
