DIARY One lost his name in his ears 2
I still clearly remember the night a few days ago when I had a high fever of 40 degrees. My father ran into the hospital with me in his arms, and the feeling of his sweat dripping on my face. At that moment, the love and care that my father was not good at expressing in words were quietly melted into the drops of sweat.
While waiting at the bus stop, I couldn't help but ask my dad, "Dad, can I go to school tomorrow? I've missed a few days of classes."
"Yeah." Dad nodded.
"Xiaoying asked me to buy her colorful marshmallows next time, haha. I also loved eating marshmallows when I was a child." I said happily, recalling the scene when I loved to pester my father to buy me marshmallows when I was a child, and a happy smile appeared on my face involuntarily.
"Hmm..." This time, the ending of Dad's answer was a little long, and he seemed to be immersed in memories.
Since my mother passed away, my father has been working hard to support our warm family. Because my ear disease relapses from time to time, my father has been working hard to make money, hoping to help me completely cure it through surgery. But I know that the cost of the surgery is really a lot for our current family situation, and I don’t want my father to suffer so much because of my illness.
Actually, it's pretty good like this, isn't it? Even though... sometimes I miss something important...
When I came back to my senses from my wandering thoughts, the bus I was waiting for still hadn't arrived.
"Xia, wait here for a moment." Dad patted my shoulder and told me that he would be away for a while, but did not explain why.
"Um."
I hesitated for a moment, then smiled and nodded.
Dad walked farther and farther away, and the crowd around him gradually submerged his steady figure. All kinds of lively and noisy sounds flowed in his eardrums, and everything seemed so real.
If only it could stay this real forever...
Suddenly, I saw a clean figure and dazzling blonde hair in the gap between the crowd.
"Is it the boy just now?"
My heart was touched at once, and I didn't have time to think about anything. I followed him involuntarily.
"Hey! Hey!" Since I didn't know his name, I had to shout this impolite name all the way while cutting through the crowd.
Stop it! Hey! I prayed in my heart.
Finally, he stopped.
In front of a flower stall, he bent down and touched a bunch of baby's breath with his fingers.
"Hello." I was getting closer and closer to him, but he still didn't hear me.
Bang, bang, bang…
I was so focused on looking ahead that I accidentally knocked over a street vendor selling jewelry. Suddenly, the exquisite and beautiful jewelry fell to the ground.
"Hey! How do you walk?" The stall owner grabbed me angrily.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." I apologized while holding a cross necklace, "I'll buy this, sorry..."
When the boss heard that I wanted to buy something, he let me go.
But when I hurriedly paid the money and looked in the direction of the boy again, his figure had disappeared like a gust of wind.
Still couldn't catch up with him?
I stopped on the street, feeling as if I had lost something and felt empty inside.
The whole world became an illusory background in my eyes, but the figure I was expecting was not there in such a crowded background.
I returned to the bus stop in frustration, and my father soon returned with a colorful cotton candy in his hand.
"A present for you when you leave the hospital." He handed me the marshmallow.
"Wow! Thanks, Dad!"
It turns out that he left just to buy this for me!
I was so moved that I hugged my father tightly, and my feeling of loss instantly receded like the sea.
"It's delicious. It tastes just like what I had when I was a kid..." I took a bite, and the silky marshmallow melted in my mouth, so sweet.
"Silly child." Dad patted my head gently, with a soft light in his eyes.
“In front of Dad, I will always be your silly child Ye Xiya.”
After hearing my childish words, my father's lips moved slightly. Although the curve was not very obvious, I knew that my father was smiling.
Ever since my mother passed away due to illness, my father rarely smiles. In fact, he looks really handsome when he smiles.
"I have something else to do at the company later, so I can only take you to the car first. You can go home and have a good rest, okay?"
"Um."
I nodded. My father has been delayed in doing a lot of things recently because of taking care of me, and I can't continue to distract him.
I got out of the car when I was almost home.
At this time, the clouds in the sky were red rose-colored, and the dense leaves in front of us were shaking slightly in the wind. The sunlight shone through the gaps between the leaves, with dots of golden light, dazzling people's eyes.
I kicked the pebbles on the road out of boredom. I once heard someone say that if a person can meet the same person three times in one day, it means that they are destined to be together...
I have met that boy twice. Is it possible to meet him for the third time?
The moment I raised my head, a familiar figure appeared vaguely on the other side of a few rows of trees, holding a bunch of baby's breath in one hand.
I could hardly believe my eyes!!
Is that the boy? The second time I saw him on the street, I remember he stopped at the flower vendor, his fingers lightly touching a bunch of baby's breath.
Excitedly, I ran forward through the trees in front of me, jumped out, and patted the man on the shoulder.
"Hello!"
While waiting for him to turn around, I was so nervous that my palms started sweating.
The boy in front of me slowly turned his head. He had short hair, a handsome face, and eyes that looked at me gently.
"Xia." He called my name.
"Chen." I shouted in surprise. It turned out that he was not the boy I was expecting, but my good neighbor and good brother Gu Haochen.
He lives next door to me, is two years older than me, grew up with me, and we are as close as siblings. Whenever I had an ear disease, he would stay with me in the hospital instead of my busy dad. But now he is in his third year of high school and has a lot of schoolwork, so he can no longer stay with me like before.
"Haha, where did you come from? You scared me." He laughed, and even the smile on the corners of his mouth was so gentle.
"Underground. I have the ability to burrow into the ground." I pretended to be serious and pointed to the place under my feet.
"You have the ability to drill into the ground, and I have the ability to fly." Gu Haochen tapped my forehead with his finger, indulging my mischief.
I stared at Chen in a daze, as if this gentle smile had never changed since I met him.
"The baby's breath you bought? Is it to celebrate my discharge from the hospital?" I pointed at the small white flower in his hand. It was because of it that I mistook Chen for that boy.
"No. I just saw this beautiful bouquet of flowers on the side of the road on my way back, so I picked it up." Gu Haochen smiled and handed the baby's breath to me, "I'll give it to you."
"Thanks."
I happily took the flower, but I smelled another slightly sweet scent in the air.
Following the aroma, my eyes stopped on the snack box in Gu Haochen's hand.
"This is the gift I bought for you. Welcome home."
Before he could finish, I took it from his hand in surprise: "It smells so good, it must be my favorite chestnut cake!"
"Wow, it's still hot. I'm going to eat it." I said as I unceremoniously opened the box, took out a piece, and took a bite.
My tongue was immediately captivated by the delicious taste. I devoured the chestnut cakes in the box one after another without caring about my image.
"Eat slowly, don't choke." Gu Haochen looked at me wolfing down my food with amusement and reminded me with concern.
"Haha... I know... um... it's really delicious." My mouth was full and my speech became unclear and mumbled.
"I originally wanted to pick you up at the hospital today, but was temporarily delayed by school matters. Seeing how energetic you are now, your illness must have recovered." After saying this, Gu Haochen smiled and patted my shoulder affectionately.
Hospital. When I heard the word, that clean face appeared in my mind again, and the smile on my face froze all of a sudden.
"What's wrong?" Gu Haochen noticed my unnaturalness.
"Chen... I met a boy today." I slowed down my speech, with annoyance that I couldn't hide in my tone, "But when he told me his name, my ear problem happened again, and I didn't hear what he said at the time."
"Well, then ask him next time." Gu Haochen comforted me after listening to my story.
"But wouldn't that be rude? He clearly told me so." I frowned, wondering if I could see him again next time...
"Then tell him that you didn't hear anything because of your earache..."
"No!" I interrupted him flatly. "I finally convinced my father to hide the fact that I had an ear disease from the school after I entered high school. I just want to be a normal person and make friends normally... I don't want other people's sympathy..."
"But only by letting others know your situation can they take better care of you."
"It is because I have received special care from my teachers since I was a child that I am excluded and alienated by my classmates. I want to make friends with others on an equal footing. What I want is friendship, not sympathy." I wrinkled my nose in dissatisfaction.
"Haha. Don't you like being taken care of?" Gu Haochen smiled gently, took out a blue handkerchief from his pocket, grabbed my hand and spread it out gently, then used the handkerchief to wipe my fingers that were stained with pastry crumbs, one by one, carefully.
The wind blew over and passed through the corners of our clothes. I saw his drooping eyelashes cast a gentle shadow under his eyelids. This scene seemed like the first time we met when we were children...
"Look, that's the deaf one, she can't hear..."
"Let's not play with her..."
"I don't want to play with a deaf person..."
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"I'm not deaf! You are the bad guys! Bad guys!"
I was only a few years old at that time. I couldn't stand the injustice and excitedly argued with the group of people who were laughing at me, but ended up arousing their anger.
The group of people rushed over and pushed me to the ground. I fell heavily into the mud, but I bit my lips stubbornly, forcing myself not to cry.
When everyone had left, I could no longer hold back the tears that could not be suppressed and slid down my face.
Just at that moment, Gu Haochen, who happened to be passing by, stood in front of me and squatted down.
"Don't cry, it will be ugly."
He said as he gently grabbed my hand and pulled me up.
Then he took out a blue handkerchief from his pocket and clumsily wiped my dirt-stained hands, one by one, carefully.
Although he was not very old, he comforted me softly like a sensible brother, making me temporarily forget the pain and tears.
On the same afternoon, the sun was very warm.
Same handkerchief, soft texture.
The same person stood in front of me and wiped my hands.
I watched quietly as Gu Haochen wiped my hands and elegantly put the handkerchief into his pocket. My heart suddenly became extremely warm, as if being illuminated by the gentle sunshine in winter.
"Chen, why have I never had an attack in front of you?" I suddenly thought of my ear disease that seemed to have never occurred in front of him.
"You won't get sick if you're not nervous. " Gu Haochen explained with a smile.
"I know this, but why am I not nervous in front of you?" I continued to ask, as if I was talking to myself.
"Yes, why?" Gu Haochen repeated, the smile on his face becoming softer and warmer.
At this moment, although the sun was about to set, the light was still a little dazzling. He walked in front of me calmly, and his tall body blocked all the sunlight for me.
Just like that, I followed his steps like a shadow, walking home step by step in silence.
