DIARY One lost his name in his ears 1
Sunday, May 15th, sunny
Have you ever had such an experience?
I am upset because I have lost his name in my ears;
Because I lost sight of his clean back, I felt lost;
Even for a reason that sounds so childish——
If a person can see the same person three times in one day, it means that he or she is destined to be with him or her...
And I was eager to meet him for the third time.
"Sister Xia, I see you."
A childish voice came into my ears from the hospital corridor, slowly getting closer and closer.
I couldn't help but smile. Sakura, this little brat, was actually trying to be clever with me. I had used this trick when we played hide-and-seek a long time ago.
I pricked up my ears and listened carefully to the footsteps outside, waiting for the clattering sound to pass by the door where I was hiding, but -
"Sister Xia, you are here, right? I'm coming in, I see you." Sakura stopped at the door where I was hiding and looked inside.
I held my breath and carefully retreated behind the door without making any sound. Xiaoying was a timid girl, she must not dare to come in alone. Sure enough, she continued to walk forward after a while.
I tiptoed to the door, preparing to startle Sakura from behind. But as soon as I carefully poked my head out from behind the door,
"ah!"
My head hit something, causing me to scream in pain.
Sakura in front of me heard the scream and slowly turned around. I didn't bother to rub my painful head. I grabbed the "thing" I had hit and hid back in the room again, quickly hiding behind the door while putting my index finger on my pouting lips.
"Sister Xia?"
From the sound of approaching footsteps, I guessed that Sakura was coming back, so I tensed all the nerves in my body, forcing myself to achieve a state of "harmony between man and nature" with the wall behind me.
Sakura's footsteps stopped at the door of the room again, but after two or three seconds, she left again.
It wasn't until her footsteps gradually faded away that I patted my chest and breathed a sigh of relief.
Phew! That was a close call! Fortunately, I reacted quickly!
But...wait a minute! This feels a little weird...
My back seemed to be resting on something warm, and that warm thing seemed to be soft, and something was beating inside...
What is it?
I slowly raised my head diagonally backwards with cold sweat. Ah... The first thing that came into my eyes was a broad shoulder, then a clean chin, then a clean face and clean brown eyes, and finally a dazzling golden hair.
Oh my god!
It turns out that hot thing is a boy!
And he’s a very handsome boy!
And I was getting intimate with this handsome boy in an ambiguous posture! !
Boom boom——
Blushing heartbeat, shortness of breath...
"You, you, you...how come you are here?!" I quickly turned around, pointed at the boy and asked stutteringly, my tongue getting tied because of excitement.
"Haha." The boy didn't answer me, but just smiled at me casually.
Crack!
The brain was instantly struck by 5 billion volts of lightning and temporarily lost its ability to process data. Only a string of instructions dragging the cursor kept flashing in the mind: Is this prince in front of him, who is as clean and fresh as the grass just washed by dew, from a comic book?
"Do you think I'm Superman?" Looking at my dazed look, he suddenly asked a question that was even stranger than his appearance.
"Uh...no." I shook my head and instantly had a bad association.
Such a handsome boy appears in the hospital and asks such childish questions. Is he an idiot or... a mental patient?
"Matter can be transformed. Do you think air can be transformed into a human?"
"cannot."
"Do you think it's normal for a person to hide here with another person for no reason?"
"unusual."
"Yes! You are an idiot."
"Ah...what?" I suddenly came to my senses and understood what he meant in a flash. Could he be the "thing" that I bumped into just now and then inexplicably pulled in by me?
And I was totally unaware of the fact that I had dragged someone in, and I even asked him why he was here? Oh my god, isn't this childish?
My face suddenly turned red, and the burning heat on my face could almost be used to make coffee. I raised my head and secretly observed the boy. He was looking at .
Brush, brush, brush——
Three black lines immediately popped up on my forehead. This guy is obviously not stupid, nor is he sick! Not only that, he just successfully confused me with his questions and made me admit that I am "abnormal".
Seeing me sweating profusely and blushing like a shrimp, he smiled a smug smile that made me so angry that I could vomit blood. That smile was so bright that it caught my eyes immediately. The originally dim door was filled with sunlight because of his smile, gently dancing in his golden hair, like an abstract painting from the 16th century.
I don't know how, but this small space seemed to be filled with roses, and even the pointed thorns seemed extremely charming in my eyes.
"You! You..." I gritted my teeth, but I didn't know what words to use to refute his evaluation of me as "idiot", so I could only open my eyes wide and glare at him murderously.
"Also, don't you feel you are in danger at all?"
"Well?"
My anger was once again interrupted by his strange question, but this time I tensed up and was determined not to be fooled like before.
He looked at me, with the left corner of his mouth raised diagonally, forming a beautiful arc, which made my heart skip a beat.
"Are you really not aware of the danger at all? Or... are you doing this on purpose?"
After saying that, he slowly leaned forward, supported himself on the wall with his arms to lock my position, and moved his face closer to me little by little...
The breath from his mouth brushed my ears faintly, and the skin there immediately began to burn as if it was scalded. A strong undercurrent seemed to bind him and me tightly together.
Alarm bells immediately went off in my heart.
Yes, I have always been so close to him, and now we are both in a corner like this, will he... do something to me?
His face was getting closer and closer to me. Finally, when it was only 0.1 centimeters away from me, I held my breath and yelled loudly—
“Help!”
Perhaps he was frightened by the sudden shout, he was stunned for a moment, then the corners of his eyes curved downwards, the corners of his mouth twitched, and he couldn't help laughing, and his smile became more and more exaggerated uncontrollably.
“Haha. Hahahaha…”
Even so, his smile was still bright and clear, reminding me of the summer sky.
There seems to be the bold fragrance of roses in the air.
I stared at him as he loosened his hand, took a few steps back, and whispered to me, "Idiot."
Wow! The little bit of affection I had just developed for him was cruelly shattered by him. I said to him feebly, "Can you give me a stick?"
" Why ? You want to fight me in a one-on-one duel?"
"No, you should just knock me out."
"Ha ha……"
He smiled again, looked at me as if he had discovered some interesting pet, and then slowly extended his right index finger.
I was stunned. Such beautiful fingers, slender and clean, with a kind of bold beauty accumulated between the knuckles. Then the index finger touched my forehead, and it felt cold and had a slight force.
"What a cute idiot, what's your name?"
My heartbeat suddenly lost its regularity, and started beating uncontrollably... The sound was so loud, beating again and again in the silent space around me.
My nerves became extremely sensitive. This feeling made me feel scared but also a little excited, and even my fingertips began to tremble.
"Yesiya. What's your name?"
Because I was nervous, as soon as I finished saying this, the world in my ears was like a black and white TV. After a burst of noise, all the sounds disappeared.
here we go again……
The thing I was most worried about finally came...
I was born with intermittent hearing impairment. I lose my hearing when I get nervous. Although it doesn’t last long each time, it always makes me miss some important information, just like now——
The boy in front of me was talking to me, his mouth opening and closing, revealing a row of beautiful white teeth. The curve of his mouth was lazy, just like the clear sunshine in a summer afternoon, dazzling and comfortable.
But--
But I couldn't hear what he was saying, not a single word!
The world is eerily quiet.
I clenched my fingers and tried to take a deep breath to calm my heartbeat.
Inhale...
Exhale...
Relax! Relax now!
Don't be nervous! As long as you don't be nervous, your hearing will recover soon!
Finally, after a while, the sounds from the outside world returned to my ears, but the boy had already finished speaking.
"You..." I was hesitating whether to ask him again what he had just said when a familiar and childish voice interrupted me.
"Sister Xia, I caught you."
It's Sakura. I had completely forgotten that I was playing hide and seek with her.
I turned around and squatted down, looking at the little girl in front of me, who was wearing a hospital gown and a hat even in early summer, and my eyes gradually became soft. I gently pinched her face.
"Got it, Sister Xia lost. Next time I will definitely bring you rainbow colored cotton candy."
"Really? I like Sister Xia the most." Sakura kissed me on the cheek.
My cheeks felt a little itchy from being rubbed.
"Of course, and are you going to keep your promise too? As long as I play hide-and-seek with you, you will be a good boy and go get the injection with the doctor?"
"Okay, I know, but Sister Xia, don't forget my marshmallows."
Xiaoying looked at me with dissatisfaction in her innocent and clear eyes, pouting her lips and looking extremely aggrieved . Looking at her pale, lacking rosy skin, my heart also tightened.
I met Sakura when I went to the hospital for an ear exam. She was only 4 years old and had leukemia. Every so-called injection meant that the doctor would draw a bone marrow sample from her back for a checkup. Even adults couldn't stand the pain, but Sakura was so stubborn that she never cried.
"If you don't believe it, this brother can testify."
I turned my head and looked behind me.
The sun was shining obliquely on the door, and the dust was flying gently , but the face that was so clean that it could easily make people's heart beat fast was gone.
"Sister Xia, that handsome brother just left from the back." Sakura saw that I was looking for someone and told me.
"oh."
I couldn't help feeling a little lost, and the entire sunlight in front of me became dim in my eyes. I smiled and touched Xiaoying's head, and said in a somewhat sad tone: "Let's go, sister will accompany you to your mother's place."
As I was leaving, I couldn't help but look back. What did he say to me just now? Should he be telling me his name? But I didn't hear it...
There is no one who can answer me.
I recalled and pondered over it over and over in my mind until my smile finally faded. If... if my ears hadn't become deaf when I was nervous and I couldn't hear anything, I would have known his name by now.
Unfortunately there is no "if".
The wind blew in gusts, and it seemed that I could still smell the fragrance of roses lingering in the air.
When I returned to my ward after sending Sakura away, I saw my father standing at the door. His tall and steady figure was like a mountain.
I quickly walked towards him and asked, "Dad, have you completed the discharge procedures?"
"Well. Let's go." Dad's eyes stayed on my face for a while, then he took my hand and walked out of the hospital.
