Chapter Seven 3
Xin Xin, I almost forgot about this person, the person who had always existed between me and Tsurugahara. At this moment, she stood beside him so naturally.
Why did she kiss Tsurugahara? Why didn't Tsurugahara resist? Why did I stand here and watch them being so intimate?
I remembered that on the day of the birthday party, Xin Xin confessed her love to Tsurugahara, and he neither refused nor agreed. Is time going back to that moment? Then what am I?
"He Yuan, I..." Xin Xin's lips painted with pink lip gloss opened and closed, like a blooming rose, gorgeous and enchanting, but this gorgeousness deeply hurt my eyes. I closed my eyes to relieve the sourness that surged up at that moment, and my steps retreated uncontrollably.
Go back, go back, time, please go back too, okay? Just pretend that I saw nothing and knew nothing.
I was roaring in my heart, and suddenly I tripped over something and stopped.
"Hey, little girl, watch the road." An aunt said to me angrily.
"Yes, I'm sorry." I hurriedly opened my eyes and apologized.
"Ruya!"
Tsurugahara found me and walked straight towards me, but why did I want to run away? I didn't want to see him, the first time I didn't want to see him, because I didn't want to cry, I didn't want to cry for him in public.
"Ruya, you..." He was about to say something, but I didn't want to hear a word.
"He Yuan!" Xin Xin also ran over. She stood behind Dun He Yuan and looked at me as if she was looking at a mouse, her eyes full of disgust and hatred.
"I don't want to listen!" I said harshly.
For the first time in my life, I was so determined and reckless. I raised my head and looked at Xin Xin behind him. I didn't want to embarrass myself in front of her again. I didn't want to!
"Will you listen to my explanation? Ruya, please listen to my explanation." Tsurugahara grabbed my hand in a hurry, staring at me with fiery eyes.
"No, I won't listen! I don't want to hear a word!" I shook his hand off, turned around and rushed out the door. The subway door closed behind me with a click, which made me feel uncomfortable as if it was running over my heart. I couldn't tell whether I was angry or sad, sad or disappointed at this moment.
I didn't dare to look back, I didn't dare to look at him on the subway. Tsurugahara, I'm sorry, I don't have the courage to listen to your explanation, I'm afraid I will be hurt again, I'm afraid I'm not that strong.
I heard him tapping on the window, and even heard him calling me through the glass, but I didn't turn around. I just stood there in a daze, as if I had lost my soul. The subway slowly accelerated and then went away. The friction between the tracks was like ants gnawing at every nerve in my body.
"One glance, one persistence, destined to be like a moth flying into a flame..."
Such a familiar singing voice, where did it come from? Was it her singing? I looked towards the corner reflexively, but it was empty. The girl holding the guitar and singing was not there. So where did the singing come from?
I stood there for a long time before I realized that it was my cell phone that was ringing. Yes, I changed the ringtone to this song "One Thought Persistence". Why am I so forgetful? I turned on my cell phone and saw an unfamiliar number popping up on the screen. I hesitantly pressed the answer button and put the phone to my ear.
"Hello?"
"Ruya, it's me, Tsurugahara." A familiar voice came from the other end of the phone, but unlike the usual gentleness and calmness, his voice was full of urgency. My heart moved slightly, too many emotions surged in my chest, I didn't know how to start for a while, and I could n't even ask a question.
"Ruya, can you please listen to my explanation? Please listen to my explanation." His voice sounded anxious.
Is that person who is always calm and composed worried? Is he worried about me? I'm really not sure.
"I..." After I said the word, I felt like something was stuck in my throat.
"It's not what you think, Ruya, can you listen to my explanation?"
My hand holding the phone kept shaking. I didn’t know if it was because of anger or something else, but I felt like I was really messed up this time, and it was a terrible mess.
"Ruya?" After not hearing my answer for a long time, the person on the other end of the phone asked softly, his voice still as gentle as before.
I sighed. At this time, I was still thinking about this person's voice. How useless!
"I'll get off at the next stop. If I can find you, please listen to my explanation, okay?" His voice was much lower, with a pleading tone.
"Okay." I calmed myself down and said in a calm tone, "I'll wait for you. If you can find me, I'll listen to your explanation."
Subway train after subway train drove away, carrying people rushing home. Slowly, there were fewer and fewer people in the subway station, and finally I was the only one left. I stood there like a sculpture, quietly looking at the rows of subway trains in front of me and the winding tracks beneath them.
I didn't leave, I didn't take a step away. I was waiting for him, but did he know?
As time passed, I seemed to hear the gears of time rolling over my heart, leaving one mark after another. Something slid from the corners of my eyes to the corners of my mouth, with a cool and bitter taste.
Didn't you tell me to wait for him? Why didn't he come? Was he lying to me again? Am I that easy to fool? Or am I really as stupid as Xiaoyi said? I was standing there motionless, but you could never see me.
Tsurugahara, why don't you turn back? Come back and find me. I'm right here. I haven't gone anywhere. Why can't you find me?
My tears fell drop by drop on the marble floor, splashing one water drop after another. I don’t know how long I have been waiting. I only know that my heart aches as if it is about to be torn apart.
"do not Cry."
A tissue appeared in front of me. I looked up, but the mist was so heavy that I couldn't see the person's face clearly. But the voice was very familiar to me.
"Wow...are you here to laugh at me?" I said crying.
Ruiqing is a person who doesn't give people a sense of oppression, so I am always very bold and unrestrained in front of him, just like now, the originally suppressed emotions are released after seeing him.
"Okay, Ruya, be good and stop crying." He raised his hand and gently wiped the tears from my face with a tissue. "Actually, I really came here to laugh at you, so come on, smile for me."
"You, go to hell!" I pushed away his hand that was wiping my tears. Just as I was about to get angry, I saw him suddenly burst into laughter. "You don't want to laugh? Then I'll give you a smile." Then he really laughed heartlessly in front of me.
"You...idiot." After he made such a fuss, I really couldn't cry anymore. I had to snatch the tissue from his hand and wipe my eyes hard.
Oh my god, why do I always have rabbit eyes recently? Will my mom ask me if I want to eat carrots when I get home? Uh... what is going on? Ge Ruya, can your ability to imagine things be stronger? Now even I have begun to despise my IQ.
"Ruya, I actually have something to say to you." Ruiqing, who had been standing next to me, spoke slowly.
"Ah?" I didn't look up at him, but continued rubbing my red eyes towards the glass on the billboard.
"I...I like you."
"What?" A scream instantly echoed throughout the entire subway station and lingered for a long time.
"You, what did you say?" I asked stutteringly.
I feel like the expression on my face right now must be very funny, with tears still in my eyes and my mouth wide open, it must be as funny as it can be. Ruiqing, you are not sent by God to play a trick on me, are you?
"I like you, Ruya. I have liked you for a long time. If you can't hear clearly, I will say it a thousand times or ten thousand times until you can hear clearly."
He looked at me seriously, completely without his usual playful smile, which was very unlike him. I still looked at him blankly, and I couldn't blame myself for my slow reaction. A boy who only knew how to play around with you all day suddenly told you that he liked you, no one would be able to accept it.
"I like you, I like you, I like you..."
Seeing that I didn't respond, he really kept saying it over and over again, and each time it got louder and louder. Although there weren't many people in the subway station right now, it was still very embarrassing for him to keep shouting like this!
"I, I heard it clearly." Finally, I had no choice but to say helplessly.
I really have no other choice. I think this boy's shamelessness can be included in the Guinness Book of World Records.
"Haha, the confession was successful!" He immediately looked proud, put his hands on his hips and looked at me with a smile.
Please, I just said that I heard it, I didn't say that I accepted his confession, why is he so happy?
