Chapter Five 3
Suddenly, a big lobster appeared on the empty plate. I was delighted. Tsurugahara's gentle voice came from beside me: "If you want to eat anything else, just tell me, don't just look at it."
I looked at Tsurugahara with emotion, nodded heavily and said, "Yes!"
I really found that I like Tsurugahara more and more. He is gentle, considerate and always considerate of others. Just like now, I didn't say anything, but he knew what I needed. I turned my head to look at Tsurugahara. His perfect profile, fair skin and delicate features made him look like a prince. I watched him talking to others. Although he didn't turn around to talk to me, I felt very satisfied.
I smiled and lowered my head to eat the lobster, but found that -
I can't use a knife and fork at all!
Oh my god! The shell of this lobster is so hard, can I use my hands? I looked at the others with a sad face. Everyone was skillfully peeling the lobster shell with their own knife and fork, eating the lobster meat inside with a mouthful of fragrance. I swallowed a mouthful of saliva. I also wanted to eat shrimp meat!
"Have this." Tsurugahara beside me put a plate of prepared shrimp meat in front of me and said softly, "If you want to eat lobster, can I peel the shell for you?"
I was so moved that I almost cried. I looked at Tsurugahara, nodded, and said, "Thank you."
Tsurugahara smiled and said, "Talk to the person next to you. It's not fun to eat all the time, right?" He rubbed my bangs and said, "Seeing you all alone, depressed and only focusing on eating, I feel like I haven't fulfilled my duty as a host."
"No." I stared at Tsurugahara with wide eyes and waved my hands repeatedly, "I'm very happy." After thinking about it, I felt that it was not right to say this, so I turned around and said to Tsurugahara solemnly, "I will take good care of myself."
"Haha!" Tsurugahara was amused by my expression. He placed another plate of peeled shrimp in front of me and said, "Eat slowly. I'm going to be busy today. Please forgive me for not taking good care of you."
His tone was so light that I felt that even if he didn't look at me like he was now, I would be able to handle it well. I nodded confidently and replied, "Okay."
But the reality was not as good as I imagined. Tsuruga Hara was chatting and laughing with everyone, but I didn't even know what the girl next to me was talking about. I couldn't get a word in their conversation. They were either talking about branded fashion, games, or ball games, all things I didn't understand. I had the nerve to ask the girl next to me who was wearing a light green tube top evening dress what Estee Lauder was, but I got a look of contempt in return.
"How can you be a girl if you don't even know this brand?"
I don't know if a cosmetics brand can't be a girl? What kind of logic is this? I really don't understand!
Besides, the problem is that I can't ask Tsurugahara next to me for help. Woohoo... I'd better bury my head in eating. However, even if I bury my head in eating, there will be people who won't let me go.
"Ge Ruya." A sharp voice sounded, and I looked up. It was Xin Xin. She looked at me with a smile on her face, and her expression was intimate. I was wondering, but I heard her say, "What brand are the clothes you are wearing? They feel very fresh. Tell us so that we can try them too."
Ah, it turned out to be this, I thought it was something else. Seeing Xin Xin smiling at me, I smiled at her and said, "It's not a brand, I just bought it in the mall. If you like it, I can take you there."
"Oops!" Xin Xin covered her mouth with both hands and looked at me, apologetically saying, "If it's not a brand, I don't want it. Clothes without a brand guarantee may be cheap goods with quality problems."
"Haha, yeah, it's a good thing she can wear it. What's the point of saying fresh and clean? It's just tacky to me." Someone nearby laughed.
I sat there awkwardly, not knowing what to do. Xin Xin's words focused everyone's attention on me. I sat at the table and looked at everyone anxiously. Everyone had a look of contempt in their eyes. Some even looked at me sarcastically while whispering to the people next to them. I suddenly wanted to cry. I had done nothing wrong, so why did they laugh at me so unscrupulously just because of a piece of clothing?
"I think..." A gentle voice sounded, and the scene suddenly became quiet. The boy next to me stood up, still with a faint smile on his perfect face. He looked at everyone, then at me, and then said softly, "Clothes are just appearance, what really matters is a person's heart. There is nothing inappropriate about Ruya's clothes today, please stop talking about it, okay?"
It was Tsurugahara. His well-tailored suit, his light but sincere smile, and the elegant aura he exuded instantly made him taller in my mind. Especially when I was embarrassed, he stood up for me, which really touched me. I didn't know what to say, so I lowered my head, thinking about thanking him, but my hand suddenly touched the Gundam model in my arms. An idea flashed in my mind, and I was about to give Tsurugahara a gift and thank him with the model, but was interrupted by a voice.
"Okay, let's play truth or dare!" Xin Xin ignored Tsurugahara's words. Instead, she glared at me imperceptibly, then walked to Tsurugahara, took his arm, and said in a flattering manner.
"Okay, He Yuan, you are the protagonist today, we can't let you go." Someone responded immediately.
Tsurugahara didn't refuse, but just looked at everyone with a smile. I stood there with the gift in my hand, and my hand that was about to be raised dropped down weakly.
After the game scene was set up, everyone quickly took their positions and prepared to start the game. I was placed in a corner far away from Tsurugahara, which made me even more at a loss.
Truth or Dare? Is it the kind that often appears in idol dramas? Spin the bottle, and whoever the bottle tip lands on must choose truth or dare. This should be a good opportunity to confess, as it is played that way in TV dramas. My originally lost heart suddenly ignited new hope. If it landed on me, I would confess to Tsurugahara. But I was so nervous! What if I was rejected? But being rejected is also a result. If I don’t say it, there will never be a result, right?
While I was hesitating, several people had already "won the prize". I had no idea what they chose or what they did. I was just completely immersed in my own world.
"Haha, it's the birthday boy's turn." Xin Xin smiled sweetly.
The person opposite me moved slightly, and I realized that the mouth of the bottle was facing the person opposite me at this moment. Tsurugahara smiled and said, "It seems that you are destined to win the lottery on your birthday."
"Do you choose truth or dare?" asked a boy next to him.
"Tell me the truth." He still smiled elegantly, with his lips slightly raised. He looked so handsome that I almost stared at him.
"Honestly, then..." Xin Xin said in a long voice, "Do you have a girl you like?"
Her question immediately attracted the attention of everyone present, and everyone pricked up their ears. Because Tsurugahara was so outstanding, everyone was curious about what kind of girls he liked, and I was no exception.
I stared at the person opposite me with wide eyes, taking in his expression. I don't know if it was my illusion, but I felt his eyes seemed to sweep over me. Maybe it was really an illusion, how could Tsurugahara look at me at this time? If he was looking at me, it would be at someone he liked.
He smiled slightly, and then said one word: "Yes."
My heart suddenly sank. He said he had someone he liked. Was that true? Then my confession...
"Wow! Who is this person? Tell me quickly!" someone asked soon.
"That's another question. I choose not to answer it." He still smiled calmly.
My heart feels as if it has fallen into an ice cave. I came here today to confess my feelings, but he already has someone he likes. What should I do?
"Liking someone is your own business."
"If you don't tell him, he will never know."
Xiaoyi's words echoed in my ears. Yes, if I don't tell him, he will never know. But if I tell him, I will still have a little hope, right? Love is something you have to grasp yourself.
"Hey, it's your turn! I'm talking to you, why aren't you responding?"
"Ruya, why are you daydreaming again?" Tsurugahara's gentle voice reached my ears, and I realized that I had become the focus of everyone's attention without realizing it. I looked at the beer bottle in the middle, and the mouth of the bottle was pointed at me. It was my turn, really my turn. I gritted my teeth and said it. I explained what I needed to explain and said what I needed to say. Even if I was rejected, I would have no regrets.
"I choose..."
I opened my mouth to speak when a voice suddenly interrupted me: "Okay, this is not interesting anymore, let's try something else!" As the person spoke, he picked up the bottle of wine on the table and glanced at me coldly with his beautiful eyes. It was Xin Xin again!
"Let's have a cake fight!" Someone suggested it, and immediately someone started fighting. The originally clean and tidy private room suddenly became chaotic, with sounds of chasing and fighting. Tsuruga was given extra care because he was the birthday boy, and was pushed into a corner by the crowd.
I sat alone on a chair and watched everyone playing and making noise. No one smeared cake on me, and I didn't throw cake on others. Maybe this place is really not suitable for me. I can't integrate into their world, just like they can't understand why I don't know what Estee Lauder is. I looked at the Gundam model in my hand that I hadn't given away and sighed softly. Maybe I shouldn't have come today.
Just when I was lost in thought, suddenly a gust of wind blew , and before I could react, a large piece of cake had already hit me in the face. My vision suddenly became blurry, and I tried to wipe it with my hands, but it became more blurry.
"That's ridiculous, it looks like Santa Claus!"
"No way? He looks like a fool."
"Haha, how funny!"
Everything in front of my eyes was blurry and my ears were filled with mocking laughter. I felt so embarrassed, more embarrassed than I had ever felt in all these years.
"Xin Xin, you threw it so accurately!"
"Who told her to sit there and not move? Haha!"
"Will she be knocked silly by you?"
"Hahaha!"
The shrill laughter kept reaching my ears, and I suddenly understood what it meant to be ashamed. I was wrong, I was really wrong, I shouldn't have come. Tears rushed out of my eyes, and I ran out with my head down.
I don't want to be a laughing stock. No matter how stupid or humble I am, I still have self-respect. Do I have to be treated like this for my love? Why do they treat me like this? Why?
"Ruya, wait a minute." There was a hurried sound of footsteps behind me. I knew it was him. Did he catch up with me? He still cared about me, right?
Just as I stopped to wait for him, a voice interrupted me: "He Yuan!" Now I knew that the voice was Xin Xin's without turning around.
There was a sweetness in her voice: "He Yuan, I like you. I told you the first time we met. I like you and have always liked you. Can you accept me?"
He neither answered nor refused. Time seemed to stop at that moment and there was silence all around.
Not denying it is tantamount to admitting it. It turns out that he already had someone he liked, and that person was Xin Xin.
I smiled bitterly and clenched the Gundam model in my hand. I should have known it long ago, right? As early as the first time Xin Xin confessed to him, I should have known that he already had someone he liked, right? Why did I have to do so many self-deceiving things? Why did I foolishly think of coming over to confess to him? Why?
I left here without looking back. Everything here did not belong to me. I was too stupid to end up in such an embarrassing situation.
